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Chapter 15 The Middle Past 14

Once New Year's Day is over, the taste of the New Year will be strong.

Liu Huaiyu had a big fight with his father before his butt was hot when he returned home.Liu Huaiyu was asked to attend her father's wedding, it was not a big deal, but the two families had a meal together.This is not the first time for Liu Huaiyu to attend her father's wedding banquet. The feeling is hard to describe in words. Originally, she just went to have a meal and dealt with the errands. This time, she was stimulated by a new mother --- a new mother can be a young mother if she is young. own sister.Feeling being ridiculed, Liu Huaiyu resolutely refused, and she even resolutely opposed Lao Tzu's marriage, so she left home and went to her mother in a rage.

Liu's mother seemed much calmer than Liu Huaiyu about Liu's father's getting married, and from time to time advised Liu Huaiyu what to do.Liu Huaiyu realized that her heroic deeds could no longer be rewarded like she did when she was a child, and she was somewhat disappointed for a while.Liu Huaiyu's mother was used to being quiet by herself, and Liu Huaiyu, who was chattering like many people, obviously had intolerance.Finally, after seven days, Mother Liu was so annoyed by her son that she couldn't bear it, and spent some money to send him directly to grandma's house.

When I was a child, I went back to my grandma’s house during the Chinese New Year in winter, and the dirt roads in the countryside were covered with snow.In the large yard surrounded by wooden tents, there were two big black dogs tied up, barking day and night.The low-slung house is more like lying on the ground, as if without energy, the house is warm, with logs in the stove, and the flames are soaring.There is a kettle sitting on the stove, and when the water boils, it will scream harshly.When it's meal time, fireworks will float from the roof, and if the floats are too much, they will gather into clouds in the sky. After half a day, it will snow again and fall to the ground.There was an older fat girl in the neighbor's house who grabbed Liu Huaiyu's face and forced him to call her sister, otherwise she would kiss and bite him.Liu Huaiyu has a stubborn temper, so she is often kissed by the fat sister.Every time after being bitten by a kiss, Liu Huaiyu looked as if he had been greatly wronged, which aroused a certain nerve of the fat sister, and she would torture Liu Huaiyu even more severely next time.

Today, grandma's new home has moved into a building, away from the wooden fences and large rapeseed fields in the countryside. The yard is gone, and the two big dogs are dead.The neighbor's fat sister who loves relatives has long been married, and hugging her child every day is enough to kiss her.There is still snow outside the house, and the roads are cleaned by sanitation every day, but the ice and snow cannot be removed.People who drive are trembling while sitting in the car, and people who walk on the road are more frightened than those who sit in the car.Only cats are safest in a heated house.So Liu Huaiyu never left the house.

It is inconvenient to keep a dog in the building. Grandpa and grandpa kept a cat as a companion. It was so dark that it couldn't see its body at night unless it opened its green eyes.

Even after his parents divorced, Liu Huaiyu's father would still visit the two old people every year during the Chinese New Year.The old man seemed to treat him the same as before. After drinking too much, Liu Huaiyu's father would cry in front of his grandparents.This home is strangely harmonious.Fortunately, everyone is used to it.

Liu Huaiyu posted a picture of wearing a vest and shorts eating popsicles in the group, which aroused envy and jealousy, especially An Nannan.

Liu Huaiyu was nestled on the sofa playing with her mobile phone, when she was caught off guard and her mobile phone disappeared.

"The body is like floating clouds, the heart is like catkins, and the breath is like gossamer. This means that you want to die, right?" Grandma joked, not hiding it, "Hey, come and take a look, take a look, my grandson is doing it I've got a partner, and I'm almost thinking of something wrong."

Grandpa came out of the bedroom with his hands behind his back, and walked slowly to the old lady, taller than the old lady by two ends. He took the phone and looked at it again and again, asking puzzledly, "What do you mean?"

"That is to say, the body is floating like the clouds in the sky, and the heart is also floating, like the poplar tree hairs in spring. When you hang your breath, you don't look like yourself anymore." The old lady with a standard foreign face said in an authentic way The Northeast dialect explained sentence by sentence.After listening, the old man snorted, "Nonsense, this little bastard, how can he still make three bowls of rice with the breath left? It's useless." After finishing speaking, the old man walked away again.

"What do you old men and old ladies know?" Liu Huaiyu then lay down on the sofa again after the phone was thrown over.The old man walked into the kitchen, and he was unhappy when he heard this, "Nonsense, I don't understand, I don't understand where your mother came from?"

The old lady laughed along with her.One old and one young, all seem to be three years old.

"Grandma, why did you fall in love with this stubborn old man? The two of you really fulfilled that old saying when you are together..." Flowers are planted on cow dung.Liu Huaiyu intentionally stopped talking halfway.

"Little bastard, see if I don't smoke you, let no one be big or small!" The old man turned around and ran to the living room. He was about to touch the sofa, and the old lady murmured, "I'm hungry, why are you angry with his child! ".

"Little bastard, let me drive you out again!" The old man went back to the kitchen angrily. He couldn't let go of his grandson's words, but he couldn't ignore his wife's words, he kept them in his heart.

"Oh, I know who my mother is following!" Liu Huaiyu pouted, and hit the old lady hard on the leg.

"Really, grandma, why did you marry him?" Liu Huaiyu asked in a low voice.Liu Huaiyu felt in his heart that the two were not right.The old lady came to China with her family to pan for gold. Later, when the family returned to China, she chose to marry a Shandong man who went to pan for gold, and did not go back with her.The old lady said that she is Chinese, a serious Chinese, even with blue eyes, blond hair, and a standard European and American face.Grandma was even more beautiful when she was young and had a good figure.As I get older, my figure naturally loses shape, but my face is still pretty.He is dexterous and clever, and he can write Chinese characters and knows more about Chinese history than his grandfather.Hardworking and capable, his personality is too good to say anything.In contrast, the old man is a gangster with a bad temper, he will curse when he can't say a few words, and he will strike when he is angry.On this point, Liu Huaiyu's mother is definitely well-informed.Grandpa's appearance is normal, no matter which country's aesthetics, he is not ugly but definitely not unattractive.When I was old, I was kinder. When I was young, it was said that children would cry when they saw it, which was fierce.Liu Huaiyu couldn't figure out what was in her grandfather that was worthy of a Russian girl who would follow him wholeheartedly to take root in a foreign land, abandon her mother tongue and way of life, and live with him for the rest of her life. "Just because grandpa can cook." Whether it's cooking or carpentry, the old man has nothing to say about good craftsmanship.

"Of course not, because he is kind and hard-working." The old lady and Liu Huaiyu squeezed into a sofa, sitting next to them and crocheting woolen cushions to pass the time.

"That's it" Liu Huaiyu was dissatisfied with the answer.

"Otherwise, you won't be able to live a lifetime just by hanging on the breath." The old lady laughed at Liu Huaiyu's edited text message again.

"Why do you like that girl"

"Good-looking and gentle, isn't it? I can't tell, the feeling, the feeling of being attracted! The feeling of being attracted..." After speaking, I shook my head in disbelief. Thinking of An Ning, I slowly recalled it.

The old lady pouted.

"You don't even know why you like her and you can't live without it." The old lady laughed again, "There is no reason to like her, and there is a real reason for your heart! There must be a solid and reliable reason for being together for a lifetime. I rely on me all day Miss you, I love you forever..."

What a lifetime, it's too far... "Liu Huaiyu was frightened. A lifetime with Anning?

"Then why did my parents divorce?" Liu Huaiyu thought about what the old lady said, because there was no solid reason between them, what kind of reason is that?

"At that time, the two of us, we only wanted to have enough food, and we didn't care about anything else. We stayed together with those we liked, and it was a lifetime in the blink of an eye. It was almost over. Looking back, I can't feel the hardships of the past. Nowadays, people have extra thoughts to think about happiness and happiness. But they don’t even understand what happiness is, so they rush after them, chasing after them, but they can’t get anything. Naturally, they become discouraged. Why, It’s just that I’m too entangled in the two words “happiness, happiness”. You are all the same, the happiness you want belongs to others, and you never think about whether other people’s is really suitable for you. Pursue it all your life, and if you catch up Still not happy. At that time, your parents only wanted to earn some money to support you well, but after they really made money, the two people feel that happiness is different..."

"Grandma, I'm a little confused by what you said! My happiness now is to look at her, and I am happy when I see her happy. If she is not happy, I will find a way to make her happy..." Liu Huaiyu shook her head, resting on her bed on the wife's lap.

"Come on, I've talked about a lot of life experience, it's useless." Grandma shook her head, "What's the difference between this girl and the girl you liked before? Does it mean that she doesn't like you now?" Grandma probed.

Liu Huaiyu stared, "It makes me sound like a masochist. But she really doesn't like me now, but she certainly doesn't hate me. I don't understand her mind. Old lady, tell me, is she playing hard to get?"

"It's the same as when I was a child!" Grandma didn't answer.

"Liuba, bring me soy sauce." Grandpa called from the kitchen.

"Here we come." Grandma put down the wool in her hand, pushed her eldest grandson up, and got into the kitchen in response.This child is 20 years old, and his height has grown to more than 1.8 meters. He can't hold it anymore.

There was crackling sound in the oil pan in the kitchen. The two old people chatted a few words, and then I heard grandma laughing. She looked sweet like a little girl in first love, so sweet that it made my wisdom teeth hurt.

At the dinner table, the old man gave the old lady the first bite of food, full of anticipation.

"Well! It's delicious! It's just right!" The old lady looked happy.

Grandma's praise made the old man proud immediately, "Eat, eat, eat!" He seemed to be giving an order to Liu Huaiyu.

Perhaps, on the topic of love, old men and old ladies do understand better than me.Liu Huaiyu thought to herself, eating quietly.

Can you be happy if you don't struggle with happiness, can you get love without expecting love?

Only then did I regret it, why did I send such a hypocritical text message just now.

An Ning glanced at the text message, thought for a while, and replied, "Why did I remember watching Yuanqu?"

Liu Huaiyu sent two messages when he had nothing to do, and never called.It was as if nothing had happened.Lin Xiao probably didn't say anything.

At noon, An Yan hadn't had his winter vacation yet, and Du Yun was cooking in the downstairs kitchen.She is at home almost every day, reading books, newspapers, and watching TV, and she seems bored.Du Yun, who is almost 50 years old, is probably going through menopause.Occasionally speaking a few words together, An Ning and Du Yun have too many topics to avoid each other, and they have to give up after they can't say a few words.That's right, when it's time to chat, one of them doesn't open their mouths and the other doesn't have time, and when they want to chat, they naturally can't open their mouths.

"Learning is endless. For the prosperity and civilization of the motherland, you must strengthen your self-learning ability. What are you doing?" The other party will come over with a question.

"Nothing to do, is it snowing at your house?"

"Grandma's house is soaked in snow every day."

There is a cherry tree outside Anning's window, which grows strong.An Ning turned her gaze back to the courtyard again.An Ning was born and grew up here, lost her father here, wrote a confession letter to her first love, and had nightmares here... This is really a place where people feel suffocated, forcing people to flee .

Every day is the same, so since returning home for a week, An Ning can no longer count the days.There are less than ten days left in the year, and An Yan is on winter vacation.After the holidays, I don't go home every day, and I have parties every day.An Yan, who is free and unrestrained every day, arouses An Ning's jealousy.

An Ning has no friends since she was a child, only family, which is still incomplete.

"An Ning, I need comfort." At nine o'clock in the evening, An Ning received a text message. The 1.8-meter tall man pretended to be weak, which made An Ning helpless.

"How do you hear this tone, you have met someone you can't even talk about"

Beeping on the computer with video requests.An Yan reached out and clicked on the video, and a rather handsome face appeared on the screen. The other person leaned closer to the screen, narrowed his eyes, had thick eyebrows, and a high nose. He seemed to be of mixed race. He should be looking closely at the user name and profile picture.An Yan blocked An Ning behind him, and greeted cheerfully.

"Boyfriend, do you have green eyes?" An Yan asked, not to An Ning, but directly to Liu Huaiyu on the opposite side of the screen, "You're so handsome..." An Ning finally came closer and appeared on the screen with An Yan.At the back is the end of the bed, a gray-blue checked sheet.The boy was wrapped in a quilt, probably the same set as the bed sheet.Behind it is the half-blocked bedroom door, behind which some clothes are hung.The light in the room is not strong, and people look dim.

An Ning grabbed the quilt, wrapped it around her body, and drove An Yan out of the house by the way.

"My brother, I was playing a game just now." An Ning explained.

"Ha, I was taken aback, An Ning. I thought I made a mistake."

"Are you unhappy about what happened?" An Ning asked seriously.

Liu Huaiyu is happy.It was uncomfortable at first, but after seeing An Ning, it seemed that the previous troubles were nothing.I have completely forgotten all the truths my grandma said before.Not only that, Liu Huaiyu didn't even want to remember her last name.

"It's nothing. What have you been doing these days?" Liu Huaiyu was full of energy, and she didn't look like she was being hit at all.

"I'm chatting with An Nannan. And I'm shopping with my mother." An Ning left the screen.The bed was empty except for a blue pillow on the floor.The whole room looks more like a boy's room, plain and simple, without shiny decorations, seriously retouched star posters, soft pillows or dolls.An Ning came back immediately, with an extra cigarette between her fingers.

"Hey, do you know any poems that can express I miss you artistically?" Liu Huaiyu also lit a cigarette.

"If you don't love love in your life, you will love it, and you will hurt lovesickness. Your body is like floating clouds, your heart is like flying catkins, and your breath is like gossamer. These two sentences are very good." After finishing speaking, An Ning laughed to himself.

"An Ning, you are not kind." Liu Huaiyu kept shaking his head, it was too hypocritical. "Hurry up, you must be able to think of something less goosebumps...I want to use it to confess." Liu Huaiyu noticed that An Ning almost blushed.

"I'll look for it..." She got up and rummaged from the table next to her. The quilt fell on the floor, and the thick pajamas were empty. It wasn't too much to think about.Wait, is it really cold at home, or is she also afraid of the cold?

"Here, there is such a poem in Wu Wenying's poems, which is more clear and meaningful, and it is thought-provoking. Spring falls silently and tears fall, clouds move with shadows and moons are shy, and the east wind is colder than autumn at night. How about it?" An Ning put the book aside , quite embarrassed, for fear that Liu Huaiyu would read this poem again in the next sentence.Fortunately, he didn't, just gave a thumbs up.

It's New Year's Eve, there are a lot of firecrackers and fireworks outside, illuminating his quiet yard, and probably disturbing the lazy cherry tree. At this moment, he shook his body, startling Du Yun who was passing by. .

"What are you thinking?" Liu Huaiyu's voice was a little higher.

Only then did An Ning realize that she was in a trance again.After chatting a few words casually, after turning off the video, An Yan came into the room again, without speaking, just sat in front of the computer and watched a movie.After a while, he called out, "Sister!"

An Ning, who was lying on the bed, immediately sat up, and couldn't believe that he really called out to sister, "What's the matter, you have something to ask me?"

"An Ning, you're so mean-spirited, I can't bear to call you Sister Sheng." An Yan leaned to the bedside, his hair grew long, almost covering his eyes.An Yan's eyes are always smiling.

"An Ning, I seem to like a girl. Is it abnormal?"

An Ning couldn't see his hair, so it was tied up and stood on top of his head, like an actor playing a double reed. "The expert said, it's not normal if you like a man."

"Then are you normal or abnormal now"

"What do you think!" An Ningfu lay on the bed again and gave the eviction order, "Turn off the lights!"

An Yan didn't leave, but got up and turned off the light, and imitated An Ning and lay on the bed, sighing one after another.The darkened house was illuminated by the splendor of the fireworks. An Yan took the opportunity to see An Ning's face, which was a little yellow by the fireworks. She opened her eyes, as if she was remembering something.

The phone received a text message, "According to my way, I would say, now I miss you, so everyone looks like you, but no one is as good as you." An Yan finished reading, and threw the phone to An Ning, "The handsome guy just now he Isn't it normal that you don't look like a woman at all!"

An Yan smiled and ran out the door immediately, but the pillow thrown by An Ning did not catch up with him.An Yan will never care about any injuries An Ning has suffered, and will not pay attention to those so-called taboos in front of An Ning, which makes An Ning feel natural and comfortable.Edit a text message, think about it and delete it.Turn off the phone and turn over to sleep.

The phone was in his hand, and there was no reply to the message.Liu Huaiyu lay on the bed with her eyes open.Finally there was a call, and it was the monitor who answered.

"I have to find a girlfriend!" At 500:[-] at night, the class leader was furious, complaining that his parents were unreliable.The two of them bought air tickets at the end of the year and went to the beach to bask in the sun. After thinking about it, they always felt that buying another air ticket would reduce the quality of their vacation, so they left [-] yuan on the table for the squad leader to save and spend until the new year. Before, they must go home years ago.

"It's just that they are not at home! Otherwise, I must run away from home!"

Liu Huaiyu lost his temper in joy, thinking that he was miserable enough. "You are a paradox. If they are at home, why do you run away from home?"

"That's what it means. How about you, stay so quiet. Is your old man married yet?"

"Don't mention it!" Liu Huaiyu wanted to complain to An Ning earlier, but when he saw her, he didn't care.As soon as they were reminded, they all rushed up, like opening a floodgate, and dumped themselves on the squad leader.

Three days ago, Liu's father brought his new girlfriend to visit the old man. I don't know if it was agreed, but Liu's mother was also there.The battlefield should have been full of gunpowder, and the new girlfriend was nervous and worried.Mother Liu was as enthusiastic as if she was entertaining her own daughter-in-law, serving tea and water, chatting and peeling apples, which made her new girlfriend keep winking at Father Liu.It's all about being enthusiastic, and Liu's mother has always asked Liu Huaiyu to call her new girlfriend "Little Mom".There is no longer any war, and it is almost impossible to distinguish between the enemy and the enemy.Anyway, after lunch, after the banquet was over, Dad Liu and his new girlfriend also left.

"You should be happy, your mother's move is really powerful, and she can save the old man who made a mistake in one fell swoop," the squad leader asked.

"What. My dad was tricked. In the end, my mom didn't even pay attention to him. She just didn't want my dad to live comfortably! They are all old, and I am convinced that they can do this!"

"Women are terrible. To be precise, your mother is terrible. Once they get serious, they will not give up! I sympathize with you for living to such an age. Hey, I still don't want a girlfriend. If it weren't for XXX, I still like flowers Time to be with men... hey, let's play a game"

"Don't play! I'm busy!" Liu Huaiyu rarely refused to play games.

"What's up"

"Thinking about life...remembering the past"

"Oh, I get it. You're too wretched... Be careful with kidney deficiency,"

"Go away!" Liu Huaiyu hung up the phone.In front of her eyes was An Ning again, her complexion was dim, and her smile was bitter.Why.Liu Huaiyu sighed, lifted the quilt, and rolled in.

According to my way, I would say "Linglong Dice An Hongdou, love you so deeply that you don't know it", or simply "I want you", of course, I may not say anything, just look at you.But I am willing to spend my whole life by your side to take care of you and care for you as much as I can, but never say I love you.You are you and I am me.I can't tie you down with any agreement or secular rules. If you want, you can stay by my side. You and me are us. If you want to leave one day, we will become you and me again.