our town

Chapter 38

I began to become confused, what is love, what is the bottom line.

I have read so many books, but the books have not taught me.

Humans will seek to survive when they are young, they will cry when they are hungry, they will cry when they are cold, they will be sad when they are beaten, and they will be unable to help themselves when they meet someone they like.

But no one told me that loving someone wholeheartedly would lead to this kind of result. I stopped crying and thinking, and just lived quietly with Three Treasures, like sucking the last oxygen, and how long I could last.

I no longer expect 100% love, I just want you by my side.

I deluded myself, I was self righteous.

During that period of time, I was ignorant, and when I was done, I would work hard to cook, and the two of them still ate, drank and played around like before.If it breaks, you will be silenced immediately, and you will remain silent with a cold face.

Sambo didn't coax me, and I didn't make a sound.Sambo knew that I couldn't do without him, and what I relied on was my feelings, the little things I had in the past two years.Three Treasures rely on my love, and love is thorough.

We are careful, we test each other, test each other's sincerity, how much is left, he knows that I no longer believe in him, and I know that he will not change.

One room, two souls, do not collide with each other!

As long as Sambo is by my side, I still feel that I have it, my love is not broken, it is just broken, and it will be fine if it is repaired.

Sanbao didn't dress up carefully at home, and resumed the habit of leaving when he went out. I stopped looking at his mobile phone, leaving room for each other.I firmly believe that the difficulties of Sambo will come back one day, the difficulties are only temporary, and there is always sunshine after the storm.

I kid myself, I'll wait and see.

It was another afternoon with nothing to do, Sambo said that he would be fine today, stay with me at home, I was happy to put the TV on, we snuggled up on the bed, enjoying the wonderful plot.

It has not been so quiet for a long time, the sun is starting to glaring, the temperature is rising a little bit, we draw the curtains to create the effect of a theater.

Who would have thought that in the era of desperately making money, two big men watched the time at home, and the occasional funny plot, the two of us laughed, I thought the matter was over like this, and we can still go back to the beginning.

Sanbao's text message reminded him that someone was looking for him, but he didn't reply after reading it, and another one came later, but he still didn't reply.When the third text message came, I couldn't help but say to him: "Whoever is looking for you, please reply."

"Friend, it's a small matter, I'm too lazy to go back."

Recently, in order to express his loyalty, Sanbao put all his money with me.

After a while, Sanbao said to go out and ask me to give him 300 yuan. I said something needed 300 yuan.

I snatched his mobile phone and saw that it was the man who sent the message, but Sambo snatched it without seeing what was sent.The years I was still immersed in just now were quiet and good, and I was suddenly pulled back to reality. Only then did I muster up the courage to find out that Sambo had indeed cheated, and this was not a simple cheating.

Three treasures, tempted.

□□The naked discovery made my heart ache, and the revelation of the reality that I was most afraid to face made me laugh. I was like a beast with all its strength, and released the emotions that I didn't vent that night at once.

I went up to fight, but I didn't know how to fight. I didn't know how many punches I punched him, and how many times he kicked me. The two of us were like ferocious beasts, biting each other and putting each other to death.

Gradually, I couldn't move anymore, and the short-lived courage disappeared into the air with the passage of time. The three treasures' perennial fighting skills quickly subdued me. We greeted each other's eighteen generations of ancestors and cursed each other No cover.

Sambo said that I lost my mind and didn't understand him, and everything he did was for me.

I scolded him for being insane and insane, eating from a bowl and looking at what was in a pot, and still speaking in a high-sounding manner.

Sanbao said that he went out to open a room, and he would pay me double when he came back.

I said he just wanted to meet that person, not to mention it was for money.

Sambo scolded me for being a fool.

I scolded the Three Treasures as inferior to beasts.

At the end of the scolding, I still refused to give a penny, life or death. Sanbao became anxious and wanted to go out. He went to the kitchen and came back to beat me with a spatula. The good spatula was interrupted by him just like that, it was interrupted on my body.

Still angry, he grabbed my clothes and yelled: "Will you give me the money or not? I will pay you back if I say so. If I go out and coax him, I will definitely be able to coax the room money back and double it."

My heart was already cold, I couldn't hear what he said, I was just in a daze, with "hehe" in my mouth.Don't say anything else.Sanbao saw that I would never give him money, so he walked out without saying anything.

Leave me alone in the room, quietly, without eating or drinking.

In the end, I still cried. I don’t think I have had the most tears in 20 years. I tried to wipe my snot and tears with a tissue, and threw a piece of it by the bed.

I was sad from the afternoon to the evening, Wu Le was not here, Wu Le had already gone to work in other places, and he had been away for a month.

Only myself, or myself, why is there only me in this huge space.

I suppressed tears, cried endlessly, crying about our love, so vulnerable, in order to go out and open a room, you beat me so cruelly, as if I was not your lover, but a deep hatred.

I don't want to cry, I can't help it.

I saw his love from this beating, he has no self in his heart.

I am alone, I touch my skin, there is temperature, but I am a little scared.

I remembered when I was a child, my parents were quarreling, they got divorced, they cursed at each other, no one wanted me, I hid in the room and pretended to do my homework, but tears welled up in my eyes, maybe from then on, I stayed I fell into a crying habit.

It seems that time and space have changed, and I have returned to that space, and no one wants me, leaving me alone in the room.

I pity myself, no matter how hard I try, I'm still alone in the end.

Did I take the wrong script in my previous life and stab each other with you?

I like you so much, how can you bear it.

Did you hit me?It's our feelings.

If you leave me alone, where will you go for pleasure?

When I was crying bitterly, were you tender and lingering?

Do you remember you had a little cutie crying in your room now

What you said to love me forever turned out to be just a word.

Strong overbearing does not mean possession.

The calculation of money was a mistake from the beginning.

Why can I cry so much, the tears can't stop, it seems that I drank too much water, only from the eyes.

On the ground beside the bed, there was a shocking amount of toilet paper.

The air has been fine, but I feel suffocated.

What I thought was beautiful has always been in a hurry.

I thought that in my tears, God would see, God only saw the ridiculousness.

I was crying so hard that I was silent.

People are really strange, they can go two days and two nights without eating or drinking, they don’t feel hungry at all, they don’t close their eyes for a minute, and they don’t feel sleepy, it’s amazing.

I think I'm going to have a mental breakdown if I go on like this.

I can't live without Sambo.

When you meet someone, you meet him. He is not the most handsome, not the richest, not the most capable, not the one who loves you the most, but the one I love the most.

I have never had happiness for so long, the only time it was given by Sambo.

I can't accept Sambo's departure, as long as he comes back, I'm willing to do anything.

I don't know when it started, I became like this.I don't want to.I don't want to be humble, I don't want to bow my head, I don't want to be soft, but I don't want to lose love.

I always thought it was because the body was too compatible, and I was greedy for the beauty of the other party, and I could leave as long as I turned around, but I didn't think that love had eroded to the bone, and cutting love is like cutting flesh, and Ling Chi Sanqian is nothing more than that.

I always thought it was my almighty charity to you, but I didn't know that your name is the shackles of my life

I feel like I'm a sheep and need to go down and graze.

With this understanding, I knew that I was finished, and I would go crazy if I didn't see Sambo again. I tried desperately to call him, but he never answered.

I sent a message to his friend, talking incoherently. His friend heard my mistake and came to the house soon. First, he was frightened by the paper towels all over the room, and then he was shocked by me not eating, drinking or sleeping for two days. .

He hurriedly called Sambo and ordered me a takeaway. I said I wouldn’t eat if Sambo didn’t come back, but his friend assured me that Sambo would definitely come back.

Sambo should know that my condition is not right, so he texted me back and said he would come back later.With this result, I am naturally willing to eat.

After sending his friend away, I started to eat. I hadn’t eaten for two days. The rice made it hard for me to swallow. I could only swallow a sip of water and rice.

My mind was not on the meal, I just listened to the sound of taxis with my ears open. Every time a vehicle entered the complex, I stood in the kitchen window and peeked, watching the car pass by before I lay down on the bed.

I turned the volume of my phone to the maximum, lest I miss Sambo's call, I guarded the house, the cell phone, and the window, refusing to fall asleep for a long time.

Sambo finally came back with a tired look on his face. I asked him where he was going, and he said the casino, but he didn't answer anything else.

I looked at the clothes I wore two days ago, and when I came back, I was still dressed like this.Anyway, Sambo is willing to come back.Just come back.

I got a call from my mom saying the puppy died.I froze on the phone.

The mother said the puppy was fine, but suddenly he didn't know what he ate for the past two days, and he started not eating or drinking, spitting, and died within two days.

I held on to the phone for a long time without making a sound, and I didn’t hear what my mother said. My puppy died, so strangely, so coincidentally, when I was about to turn into a sheep to eat grass, were you far away, help me I saved a disaster...