messed up

Chapter 18

"You man." Pei Yuning sighed: "The old saying is good, it's not poisonous to tell the truth, it's not a good habit to always hide things in your heart."

Xu Baiyu shook his head: "You're thinking too much, I just haven't had a good rest recently, and I'm just a little uncomfortable."

"Okay." Seeing that there was nothing to ask, Pei Yuning had no choice but to give up asking: "Then you should pay more attention."

After work this afternoon, Xu Baiyu changed his clothes as usual and prepared to go home, but he didn't look at the road when he walked, and when he went out, he bumped into Pei Yunning who was walking in.He wanted to say sorry, but when he looked up, he realized that it was his Senior Brother Pei who was hit, so he swallowed all the words of apology and smiled embarrassedly.

"You really answered a word right now, and you're out of your mind." Pei Yunning looked at him helplessly, and her words hit the nail on the head: "If I'm not wrong, it's probably because the girl you were thinking about two days ago is completely gone."

"I don't have one." Xu Baiyu retorted, "I told you before that I wouldn't look for another ten or eight."

Pei Yunning wouldn't believe these words even if he was killed. He felt that this person was duplicity, looked at him suspiciously for a moment, and suddenly realized that something was wrong: "Where's your scarf? You don't want your cervical spine anymore?"

Only then did Xu Baiyu realize that he forgot to wrap the scarf, so he hurried back to look for it.

Xu Baiyu walked back to the community, ate a bowl of noodles without taste, and returned home still doing nothing.He was slumped on the sofa when his cell phone rang suddenly. When he opened it, he found a message from Yu Jing.

Xu Baiyu's heart sank, and he instinctively wanted to take a look.Reason told him not to look, but his hands were too fast, and he clicked on the chat interface long before his brain gave the order.Yu Jing's message this time is no longer short and brief, it is different from the past, and there is a feeling of a little bit of thought:

I went to the supermarket to buy vegetables this afternoon.When I’m alone, I’m often too lazy to cook, but I think I’ll cook it for you later. I think it’s better to practice in advance, so as not to treat your stomach badly by making dark dishes with unfamiliar skills.

Xu Baiyu stared at the phone screen, feeling a little headache: Yu Jing, what are you thinking?Are you taking me for a fool?Or is it that you are like this to everyone, always with a gentle and kind appearance, pretending to be confused while pretending to be understanding?

Xu Baiyu disconnected his mobile phone from the Internet, and sat back on the sofa in the dark night.He didn't hesitate to add the most vicious speculation to Yu Jing, even if thinking so did not benefit him at all, his internal organs still hurt so much that it was as if a blunt knife was being pulled back and forth.

For the first time, Xu Baiyu didn't reply to Yu Jing's message, and he even ignored Yu Jing's phone call.Two days later, Xu Baiyu was on the night shift. He was just about to go out to eat something when he heard an extremely familiar voice in the corridor.

It was Yu Jing who stood not far away and asked the doctor who had just left, "Doctor, who is on the night shift today?"

"It's Dr. Xu." The doctor was in a hurry to get off work, so he answered and left in a hurry.

Xu Baiyu's heartbeat suddenly became much faster, he quickly closed the door and hid in the house by himself.

Yu Jing stood at the door, looking at the closed door, and felt that there was probably no one inside, but she still raised her hand and knocked unwillingly.

There was not much light left in the sky, and the remaining halo of the winter sunset slanted in from the window at the end of the corridor, making Yu Jing's shadow very long.Xu Baiyu sat on the chair closest to the door and remained silent until he heard the footsteps outside the door gradually going away.

He is gone.Xu Baiyu thought about it silently, and suddenly felt that he didn't seem to want to eat dinner that much, so he got up and turned on the light, took out the book and wrote notes while reading.

"Doctor Xu, a patient has been transferred from the emergency department." At one o'clock in the middle of the night, the nurse knocked on the door, her tone full of anxiety: "The preliminary diagnosis should be acute cerebral hemorrhage."

Xu Baiyu stood up abruptly, and followed the nurse outside. After a few steps, he saw Dr. Wu, the chief physician on duty that day.

"Doctor Wu," Xu Baiyu stepped forward quickly, "There is a patient coming from the emergency department."

"I know." Dr. Wu nodded, "I've already told the emergency department that the patient must have a CT scan before we can determine the treatment plan." He sighed: "The patient is unconscious now, so I'm afraid of where the bleeding will be." Dangerous."

The patient's examination results were coming soon, and Xu Baiyu leaned over to take a look, her heart skipped a beat, her face became more gloomy: Judging by the bleeding site and the amount of bleeding, surgery is the only way to save lives.

"Xiao Xu, I'll keep an eye on this side of the ward first, and you should go and contact the neurosurgery side." Dr. Wu also frowned tightly: "I'm afraid conservative treatment won't work in this case."

"Okay." Xu Baiyu nodded.He turned around and walked a few steps when he heard Dr. Wu's voice behind him: "The patient is still too young, only 25 years old. We must do our best to save him."

Only 25?Xu Baiyu was taken aback for a moment, and quickly responded, "Okay."

After the patient was transferred to the neurosurgery department, preparations for the surgery were hurriedly started, and it was only then that Xu Baiyu saw the two family members who brought the patient over.It was a middle-aged couple. The man had gray hair on his sideburns, and the woman was in a trance, with obvious tears on her face.

"Okay, I see." The supervisor on duty looked at the patient's examination results and sighed in a low voice: "I will be the surgeon, and I will arrange the operation immediately."

"Hey." Xu Baiyu hurriedly responded, and then glanced back at the middle-aged couple sitting on the chairs in the corridor, suddenly feeling a little pain in the chest.

Xu Baiyu really wanted to know if the young man's operation was successful, so he went to the neurosurgery department to find his undergraduate classmate, Dr. Lu, who was currently undergoing neurosurgery training rotation, during lunch break the next day.

"Lu Ming!" Seeing that Dr. Lu was about to press the elevator, Xu Baiyu hurriedly called to him: "Wait a minute."

"Xu Baiyu?" Lu Ming turned his head and saw Xu Baiyu who was walking towards him quickly: "Why did you come to me suddenly?"

"I want to ask you something." Xu Baiyu dragged Lu Ming to go up the stairs, but Lu Ming couldn't resist him and could only go there together: "How is the patient you admitted last night?"

"You mean Su Ping?" Lu Ming was not on duty last night, but he also heard about it when he came early in the morning: "Hey, it's a pity that he couldn't be rescued."

"Ah?" Xu Baiyu was taken aback, "Don't lie to me."

"Why should I lie to you?" Lu Ming looked at Xu Baiyu helplessly: "No one wants to see such a result, and there is nothing we can do." He sighed: "I heard that the one who performed the surgery last night The doctor said that the patient was really unlucky, and the bleeding was in a special place, so it is not an exaggeration to say that he is unable to recover.”

Xu Baiyu nodded: "That's the truth, but I still feel regretful." He looked at Lu Ming and said, "That Su Ping is only 25, born in the [-]s, younger than both of us."

"Who wouldn't say it." Speaking of this, even Lu Ming, who was so immersed in his studies and forgot to sleep and eat, couldn't help sighing: "The doctor on duty last night, Xiao Huang, told me that he was a workaholic. It took a few days for this to happen.”

The two walked to the cafeteria together, and Lu Ming suddenly remembered when they were halfway: "But Su Ping's parents are very good. They have lost their son at a young age, and ordinary people can't be sad. All organs are donated."

Xu Baiyu froze in place again, he remembered the despair and pain of the middle-aged couple in the middle of the night.Su Ping's illness was acute, and the two of them could be said to have lost their beloved son instantly.He really didn't expect that they could sign the consent form for organ donation in such a short period of time.

"I heard that when the director said that the operation failed, Su Ping's father knelt down at the door of the operating room, and his mother passed out immediately." Lu Ming sighed: "Xiao Huang is quite powerful. If it were me, I would donate my organs." I don't know how to talk to those two about this kind of thing."

Regarding Su Ping's death, Xu Baiyu had expected it as early as the moment he saw the test results, but he kept avoiding this thought with himself: he has always been used to this, and he seldom thinks about things he doesn't want to believe. An instinctive self-preservation.He felt really sorry: after being a doctor for a long time, he sometimes felt a little powerless. Doctors are just ordinary people.

After returning home at night, Xu Baiyu took out his mobile phone and instinctively wanted to send Yu Jing a few messages about Su Ping, but after thinking about it for a while, it was still difficult for him to get over the hurdle in his heart.

Xu Baiyu lay on the bed wrapped in a quilt, not feeling sleepy at all.He is no longer the child whose father did not love his mother or loved him in the old days, nor was he a young man who was at a loss in front of others. Now he has no shortage of ordinary friends who can talk, and he also does not lack brothers who exchange their hearts for their hearts. A local who has been in the city for 26 years, there is no shortage of contacts.He knew that as long as he took a step back, he could maintain the relationship with Yu Jing with ease, but there was always a voice in his heart telling him that he didn't want to do this.

That was the person he couldn't even bear to belong to his interpersonal network, and it was the peach blossom garden that he never wanted to look away from once he saw it.

Xu Baiyu didn't want to think about it anymore, so he forced himself to clear his mind and get a good night's sleep for the next day's work.

After half a month, Mr. Lin Qizhi was finally discharged from the hospital.The old man was hospitalized for more than a month, and the second daughter-in-law and second grandson came no less than five times, but they would be sent away by the eldest son every time.When he left the hospital that day, he was still accompanied by his eldest son and eldest daughter-in-law.

After listening to Xu Baiyu's words about Mr. Lin in the afternoon, Pei Yuning stretched his waist: "Several patients I am in charge of will be discharged soon, and everything is going well." Then I can go to gastroenterology."

"Congratulations," Xu Baiyu said with a smile, "I wish you all the best."

"Thank you." Pei Yuning stood up, gave Xu Baiyu a high five, and prepared to change clothes for get off work.

"By the way," Pei Yuning hadn't taken a few steps, and suddenly remembered something: "I was on the night shift last night, and that Mr. Yu came to see you, and asked me if you have been busy these days, and when will you be able to come?" I'm free." After an extremely busy day, it's rare that he didn't forget about it: "I thought it was a little late yesterday, so I didn't bother you." He looked at Xu Baiyu, and the more he thought about it, The more curious: "Do you two know each other?"

"No, it's the kind of meeting to say hello, nodding acquaintance." Xu Baiyu wanted to prevaricate and perfunctory: "Let's go."

"Okay." Pei Yuning sighed: "Hey, if Mr. Yu really had any problems with you before, you'd better let it go. He has had a really difficult life these past few years, not to mention the constant big and small things at home, and he himself is not healthy. Well, I had gastric cancer surgery in the summer three years ago, and I came for a review at the beginning of the month."

"What?" Xu Baiyu thought he heard it wrong, and stared at Pei Yuning: "Say it again."

"I said, he's had a hard time these few years..." Pei Yuning interrupted him before Xu Baiyu finished speaking: "The last sentence!"

"The last sentence?" Pei Yuning was taken aback, his brain short-circuited for a moment, and he thought about it carefully for a while before he remembered: "Ah, he had undergone gastric cancer surgery before. But fortunately, early detection and early treatment have not recurred until now. He paused, and then added: "He didn't dare to tell Mr. Yu back then that the operation he had done has been kept a secret until now. This was the time he brought Mr. Yu over last autumn, and I chatted with him I found out when I was in the office. Later, he went to the re-examination alone, and he always liked to lie to the old man that there was something wrong with his unit. Xiaoxu, are you okay?"