your boyfriend

Chapter 68 Waiting for you wandering to hold my hand.

Meng Qinshi opened the gift box in his room, and inside was a pair of clay dolls, which were made according to the Q version of the two holding hands in his sketchbook. There was a letter that Meng Qinshi didn't dare to open because he knew that there must be something he didn't want to see.

The door was locked tightly. He took the pair of clay dolls out of the box and held them in his hands. He gently rubbed the face of the white shirt doll with his fingertips, and his eyes suddenly turned red.

Everything makes sense, why Qin Jin and Meng's mother looked weird that day, why Qin Jin suddenly went out to eat that day, why he suddenly promised him to buy fireworks on the way back, why he suddenly asked him to go to his uncle's house today to pay New Year's greetings? Urged so urgently.

It turned out that everything happened quietly without his knowing, but Qin Jin alone endured everything that should have been shared by the two of them, even if he went to ask Gu Zhiyun for help, he was unwilling to let him be caught in the middle.

He let out a long sigh, and finally mustered up the courage to open the envelope.

Meng Qinshi, I really annoy you. When I first met you ten years ago, I was wondering how could someone be so annoying.He likes to fiddle around, and is like a fool, who doesn't know what he is talking about all day long.

You always pull me into your world and into your circle presumptuously, but you probably forgot that you are my nemesis.Every time I meet you, there must be nothing good, and there must be bad luck.

Before the high school entrance examination, Fei took me to worship Wenquxing, but I missed the examination on the first day, and I could only go to the same school as you; God knows how much I wanted to beat you to the ground on the day the admission letter came out, and then buried you alive.

However, it is also because of you that my life has become less monotonous; it is as if someone threw a stone into a calm lake, opened the heavy curtains in the originally dark room, and fainted layers of ripples , the sunshine that shines into the bottom of my heart, and the starry sky in the spring breeze and midsummer are all brought to me by you.

You are the only person in this world who knows everything about me, although no one knows how uneasy I was when I revealed my heart to you that day, I was afraid that you would leave me because of my life experience, and I was also afraid that I would never be able to walk side by side with you again OK.

I am not as good as you imagined, not the so-called campus male god.

I have a dark side, a past that I don't want to be known, and many bad tempers that others must not be able to bear; but you seem to be able to bear it, so I will not hide it in front of you.

Because he is favored, he has nothing to fear.

This matter has developed to the present, and it is within my expectations.Don't question Sister Xiaoya and Auntie, they just did what a mother and a sister should do.

And I just made the choice I should make. We are not strong enough, nor can we be independent. There is no way to support each other with our own strength, so this is a compromise we have to make.

Forgive me for not being able to say goodbye to you personally, it is too difficult; before writing this letter, whenever I face you, I want to say goodbye to you personally, but every time the words come to my lips Will swallow it back.

I actually took the picture you drew in the coffee shop last time, I took your draft book, and your pink scarf, although I don't know how to wear it, I don't have such bad taste as you.

I made this pair of clay dolls myself, and I made them according to the dolls you drew. You should treat them as a parting gift. If you really feel angry and want to smash them, then I can't stop you.

Finally, I would like to say goodbye again, and I hope we will have a chance to meet again in the future.

At the place where the signature was signed, Qin Jin's two characters were written delicately and beautifully, exactly the same as every time he signed.Meng Qinshi rubbed his eyes, took out the Chinese book from the desk, and opened it to the first page.

There was a small love between Qin Jin and Meng Qinshi. Meng Qinshi still remembers the scene at that time. Qin Jin was so angry at that time, his face seemed to be covered with thick ice. The people watching in Xia Tian shivered.

Meng Qinshi shamelessly asked Qin Jin to write the name of each of his books, as if Qin Jin could engrave his name into his heart if he wrote it several times like this; then he took out the math book and opened the title page.

At that moment, he thought he was dazzled——

On the title page, there was Qin Jin and a heart in front of Meng Qinshi's name; he blinked his eyes to make sure he read it correctly, and pulled out his English textbook, followed by history, geography, physics and chemistry...

Qin Jin personally added his name and a heart on each book, making it exactly the same as that Chinese book.

It was like soaking his heart in a bowl of warm lemon and honey water. It was both sweet and sad. Such strong emotions constantly stimulated Meng Qinshi's tear glands. At the end he couldn't help but hold the big stack of books Cry out loud.

Hot tears dripped down the book along his cheeks, soaking Qin Jin's delicate and clean fonts. After realizing this, he quickly wiped away the tears and took the book back carefully.

Qin Jin's brown bear scarf was hanging on the hanger, Meng Qinshi raised his hand to take it off, opened the door and went out.Mother Meng and Meng Ya were sitting on the sofa in the living room, one was wiping away tears and sighed, the other had a very serious expression, and Father Meng, who had just learned the truth just now, looked solemn, with his hands tightly clenched into fists, no one knew what he was thinking at the moment.

Meng Qinshi ignored anyone, wrapped the scarf around his neck again and again, and walked directly towards the entrance.

Mother Meng raised her head and looked at him with tears in her eyes: "Where are you going?"

"Looking for someone." Meng Qinshi replied solemnly.

"Who are you looking for? Where are you looking for it?" Mother Meng's voice trembled, her eyes were red from crying.

"I'm going to get him back! Why are you hiding it from me! Why! Why!" Meng Qinshi burst out into roars one after another as if he had been suppressed too much. He stood at the door and looked at the sofa The chests of the three people sitting on top were constantly heaving and rising due to excessive excitement.

"Where are you looking for it? He's already boarded the plane to England, where are you looking for it?!" Meng Ya's voice was a bit sharp, and it's not hard to tell if you look closely, her eyes are slightly red.

"Then I'll look for it in England! I'll go wherever he is!"

With a loud bang, the ashtray that was originally placed on the coffee table shattered to the ground, making the attention of the three people focus on Father Meng who was originally silent.

"You are not allowed to go anywhere!" Father Meng stood up tremblingly, his face was solemn, and his hale and hearty face became extremely pale at this moment, as if he had experienced vicissitudes in just two hours.

"Dad—!" Meng Qin had never seen his father like this before, and he seemed a little unbelievable at the moment.

"You are not allowed to go anywhere! If you dare to step out of this house today, I will... I will..." Before Father Meng could finish his sentence, his face suddenly became very ugly, and he held his hand tightly. Holding his chest, he gasped again and again, as if he would faint at any moment.

"Lao Meng! Lao Meng!" Mother Meng stood up from the sofa and reached out to help him. What she was afraid of finally happened.

Several people panicked at once, rushed forward to help Meng's father, Meng Ya went downstairs to drive, Meng Qinshi carried Meng's father on his back, Meng's mother supported him, and brought the unconscious Father Meng was sent to the hospital.

At Nanchuan Airport, Qin Jin was standing next to the ticket gate with his schoolbag on his back, holding his ticket and passport tightly in his hand.He turned off his phone, and finally couldn't help but choose to turn it off after receiving nearly ten WeChat messages from Meng Qinshi. His luggage had already been checked in, and there was still half an hour before boarding.

Gu Zhiyun stood beside him, raised his hand and glanced at his watch: "Let's go, it's only half an hour."

"En." Qin Jin responded, took a small step forward, and then looked back.

The hustle and bustle of the airport is full of people coming and going, and countless people rush past him, either full of yearning for travel, or mixed with the reluctance of being separated soon, or confused, busy, and because of missing the flight And angry.

They passed in front of Qin Jin, and at the end, Qin Jin couldn't find the familiar hurried figure from the crowd.

What on earth is he still looking forward to? He has already chosen to leave, so he should leave in a leisurely way, so why should he have any expectations; even if he comes, so what, can he go back with him without any worries, pretending to be Nothing happened, continue to deceive yourself and others.

There is no choice now, there is only one road in front of him, and he has to go. There will be no more Meng Qin Shi, nor the past on this road. Maybe he is a little lonely, but he has been used to loneliness long ago.

It's nothing more than starting all over again.

Qin Jin took a deep breath, finally turned his head, handed over the ticket and passport in his hand, and turned to enter the security check machine.

The moment the plane took off, he looked back out the window, and the city was still as beautiful as before, quiet and peaceful.There is still ice and snow on the mountain peaks in the distance, and the sunlight through the clouds shines into every corner of the city. He suddenly misses the scenery and temperature on the back seat of Meng Qinshi's motorcycle.

At that time, they walked through the street outside the school together. The maple forests on both sides were particularly beautiful in the afterglow of the setting sun. The light shining through the gaps in the leaves evenly sprinkled on the boy's handsome and clean face, and the singing in the earphones was soft and clean. .

On Saturday night, Meng Qinshi, who was standing on the stage with a microphone in his hand, was confident and flamboyant, softly singing Qin Jin's favorite song, the lyrics said "Hurry up, the wind blows, the flowers bloom and the sunset, time, reveal Let go of my confusion, and the wishes I made spread out into the Milky Way on the ends of the earth, waiting for you, who are wandering, to hold my hand."

So, will you still wait for me, who is wandering, to hold your hand?

When the song sounded in the earphones again, Qin Jin looked at the city that had become blurred under the clouds, and asked silently in his heart.