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Chapter 46 The Middle Past 45

It's autumn again.The leaves grow on the tree, and the face is also sallow.

An Ning was carrying a backpack, and she was full of travel and dust. Her once short hair had grown out, and her shoulders were neatly poked. She remained silent as always. Liu Huaiyu could see her depression and exhaustion.

There are beauties, you will never forget them when you see them, if you don't see them for a day, you will think like crazy.

How to comfort a girl Yiliu Huaiyu's experience is to hug her close to her soft body, calm her down with her firm and steady heartbeat, and if there is another kiss, she will be delighted.How to comfort An Ning?Liu Huaiyu hugged her, and when her soft body approached, he found that his position was messed up first, and his heartbeat was like a big firecracker, uneven.When facing An Ning, Liu Huaiyu had no experience at all, doing everything as if it was the first time.Even after knowing her secret, the excitement in his heart still couldn't stop when facing her.At this moment, she was just An Ning, without any other label, just the An Ning he thought about day and night.He who was in ecstasy couldn't care about An Ning's expression, he just thought she was equally happy.

It's been more than two years since we separated, and nothing seems to have changed at the moment.The two of them just chatted behind An Nannan's back during the break between classes, as if they were having an affair.In less than a few minutes, An Nannan had to lie at the door and call An Ning to go back to class quickly.Liu Huaiyu was afraid that An Nannan's voice would sound in the next second.An Ning's hair had a nice fragrance, which reminded Liu Huaiyu of that rainy night in her junior year, and she felt infinitely touched for a while.

An Ning knew very well that the expression on her face must be distorted, perhaps a little scary.Letting him hug him, after tens of seconds, he didn't hear An Nannan's cry. He let go of his arm, and facing his sharp face, An Ning secretly took a breath.He still likes to laugh so much, but his temper seems to be much calmer.

"You guys are on vacation." He let go of An Ning's shoulders, pretending to be calm.

Just roll around in life, hypocritical politeness, and hypocrisy can be mastered, and there is no need to learn.

"I resigned. I went to meet some relatives and inquire about my father's whereabouts." An Ning's expression almost caught up with the leaves on the tree.

"Is there any result?" An Ning shook her head.Regarding An Ning's family, I heard An Nannan mention it, and I even heard Lin Xiao mention it.

"It might be better if there is no result." Liu Huaiyu didn't know if this was comforting.She came from the past, scarred and scarred.One day the scars will heal, and when they heal, the scars will fall.

An Ning wanted to tell the truth about what she had seen and heard in the past three days, but she shut her mouth tightly after thinking about it, why bother?What does it have to do with him?Don't bother others with your own affairs.

"What are your plans?" Liu Huaiyu asked casually.

"Getting ready to go home. And you, how are you doing?" An Ning unloaded her backpack on the ground, took out a cigarette, handed one over, lit one herself, looked around, extinguished it again, and took back the cigarette case inside.There are people coming and going in the hall, and the no-smoking sign is not far away, clearly.

Liu Huaiyu was bored at the company, news of his girlfriend popped up one after another, and he didn't bother to look at it. He picked up the phone to check the time and found An Ning's message half an hour ago, "I'm downstairs in your company."

Although she knew that An Ning would not joke about such a thing out of boredom, Liu Huaiyu who ran downstairs still couldn't believe it was true, why did she come?

Her fawn really leaned on the bench, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

"That's it, I'm locked here, I can't move now, it's like a pension." Liu Huaiyu couldn't move her eyes from An Ning's body, and wanted to grow them up.

The deer stared blankly, the leaves on the tree rustled and fell to the ground.Autumn is the season of fruiting, and An Ning listened to a stomach full of distant stories, as if walking away from spring again.The journey is tiring, and the heart is even more sleepy. From spring to autumn, I have heard many stories, but the cause and effect are still unclear.Those who stand in the story, who can understand and understand the ins and outs of the story?It's better to just leave it at that and be quiet.An Ning advised herself many times.

But what people are most dissatisfied with is quietness.Can my own story be left behind? Well, the physical pain will heal naturally after a long time, and then you can forget it. What about the psychological feeling that caused the pain? A person who once broke his leg in a car accident recalled it Is the first thing that comes to mind when a leg is injured is pain or fear?

In the old office ten years ago, there was a hole in the jacquard yellow curtain, and the sunlight from the lunch break came out of the hole and jumped on the top of his bald head.He wears such an ill-fitting black and blue old suit every day, with oil stains on the cuffs, and he will smile maliciously.Just looking at the color of the clothes made An Ning want to vomit in disgust, and wanted to rush up and cut it to pieces.Ten years have passed, and An Ning can't remember the torn curtains and old clothes, nor his appearance, but the disgusting feeling can't be forgotten, especially in the dream.Whether he turned into a ghost or a beast, or even just a bug, An Ning only had the same feeling, disgust.

Only disgust.

And that confession letter, on milky white letter paper, An Ning was uneasy when he tried to write down his thoughts neatly and ambiguously, but what he got in return was an expression of isolation and fear.

There is also the studio full of aromatherapy, the soft sofa, lying on it, you can see the legs of professionals who cannot be covered by black and blue trousers and white socks.As a result, when An Ning hears related words in the future, she will immediately think of the oppression caused by the aromatherapy on her leg.

How does Du Yun feel about An Shaolin running away from home? If he hates him, he will hate himself even more

Because of An Shaolin, An Ning and An Yan have been blinded and bullied since childhood, how can I forget the feeling of humiliation?

Things are far from just happening, they will continue, silently affecting every choice to be made, every one, even if it is picking out a ginger coat with a pocket in the closet.

For An Ning, it is impossible to move forward without clarifying the cause and effect.People who are trapped in the story are often more eager to find out where the story is going.So An Ning, who was free, went to visit Lin Yanning, who had deliberately ignored him, and listened to a lot of irrelevant stories, which had no meaning for the future.

"Didn't your father leave you very early? His relatives, how did you find them?" Liu Huaiyu wanted to share something for her.Her sudden appearance was definitely not accidental.

"A family-hunting post posted on the Internet. Those who had no hope, saw the message, and instinctively felt that it was not a liar. It really wasn't...but there was no useful news. They haven't seen each other for a long time. Alas, I didn't want to look for it at first. He, it doesn't matter if he's there or not..." It's just because of an unintentional sentence.

"There must be some difficulties, your father. There is no universal law in fashion. Everyone has moments when they can't help themselves... maybe he is a secret agent." Liu Huaiyu held the decanter, and the light red liquid slid down the side of the glass At the bottom of the cup, I want to make An Ning happy.

"No matter how noble and legitimate his reasons are, even if he sacrificed his life for the country, he is still a bastard in my family!" An Ning's emotions were ignited, and she was completely different from her before.The cup in front of her was empty, Liu Huaiyu hesitated.

"How are you and her?" Liu Huaiyu poured a little wine again, with no expectation or regret on his face.

"No contact." An Ning pretended not to care, her eyes fixed on the table next to her.Liu Huaiyu gave a light oh, but didn't say much.

There was an instant commotion in the restaurant.Noisy human voices make face-to-face communication have to stop.

"Let's play here for a few more days, I've resigned, it's okay! I'll show you around!" Liu Huaiyu raised his glass and proposed.

"It depends!" An Ning drank the last sip of wine in the glass and replied casually.

She changed, too, becoming more like one of the crowd, talking casually, pretending to be happy, pretending to want nothing.An Ning still decided to stay for the same reason as she chose to come to Liu Huaiyu.Really bid farewell to the past, An Ning needs a ceremony to turn the page.

Her An Nannan is engaged.Although there is no contact, it does not mean that she does not pay attention to her news.She used to think that she would be willing to see her get married and have children, and hoped for her to be happy, but when the happiness came and it had nothing to do with her, An Ning thought that it would be better to let her live alone, but then she regretted it.

So An Ning wanted to hide, pretending to be ignorant.Indeed, there was a moment when An Ning felt a little grateful for An Nannan's silence.Self-righteous, disregarding obstruction and opposition, rushing towards love without regard for oneself, but in the end, you still have to pay for daily necessities, and the love is wiped out to ashes.Comparing to the old pattern of her parents, An Ning is determined not to step on it, but to let her go, let her be happy, and let herself be free.

Now, I have to say that An Ning has really taken a big step forward.After graduation, I made a boyfriend, and later changed my girlfriend, but neither man nor woman can keep up with An Nannan, who is weird and lazy like a cat.Maybe the past is nothing to them, the absurd things in their youth, and the talk when they are old, the past is just the past.

There is a kind of magic in the world. If it cannot be appreciated or recognized, no matter how beautiful things seem, there will be no good results, let alone happiness.What love is, it's a trick.If you want love to remain attractive, you have to admit that it is a deception without trying to expose it.And the only way not to expose it is to keep a distance.

"What have you been watching lately?" Liu Huaiyu poured half a cup of white wine into the wine cup in front of An Ning.

The deer decided to turn back by himself, and sent himself into the trap of the hunter.When he was eating just now, Liu Huaiyu had already drunk a lot. After two years, he saw the woman he had been thinking about so much, and he felt dissatisfied no matter what.Whether she is still the lingering An Ning is no longer important.Taking An Ning home, she sat down firmly at the coffee table, and pulled out a bottle of wine, a flagon jug, and two wine cups as if by magic.The mellow smell immediately invaded the cramped living room, and the heavy smell made people feel at ease.An Ning has always liked a heavy taste, cigarettes are, so should wine.

The whole house is very small, probably only fifty square meters.The kitchen, living room and bathroom are squeezed next to each other, and there is only one bedroom.There was very little furniture in the house, which somehow made it less crowded.It was quiet and cold, and no one lived there for a while.

"Osamu Dazai. Depressed, it's hard to read his works. Maybe I'm a little sad recently, so I went to see him." An Ning picked up the wine cup and kept looking at it.The blue porcelain one looks brittle.Raising his arms, he drank the wine in the cup in one gulp.An Ning's first official exposure to baijiu.Throat seems to be on fire, chest seems to be on fire, stomach seems to be on fire!

Cough, cough, An Ning coughed uncontrollably.Drinking a glass of wine, this hot feeling is very close to life.It's a pity that I didn't have time to savor it carefully, so I was taught a lesson first.But people always have no memory.

"You have to slow down, An Ning," Liu Huaiyu persuaded with a smile, and then poured another sip into the cup.