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Chapter 38 The Middle Past 37

The dark red cheongsam wrapped her graceful figure. She leaned her back against the wall and looked at the raindrops outside. She had no intention of stopping at all, but in fact it was far from stopping.She knew that something would happen tonight, no matter what it was, An Ning was already mentally prepared.He left for two semesters, and was assigned to participate in the celebration just after returning to school. The last rehearsal was late and it rained.

He is standing aside now, with the stubble sticking to his chin and his greasy head poking out, trying to serve as a witness.He was a head taller than her, looking at her without any shyness.It's been a long time since I saw her, she seems to be thinner, her cheekbones are protruding, and a pimple appeared on her face not far from her ear.The collar of the cheongsam wraps around her neck, she is An Ning.

The rain was pattering.

She is the one who makes Liu Huaiyu willing to shave her hair and practice, to abandon the acrimonious prosperity of the world of mortals, and to go to the deep mountains and old forests to be a peaceful monk with no desires or desires.Just having her is enough.The months between mountains and rivers always made Liu Huaiyu feel that what separates them is not distance, but time.He didn't dare to call her or send her a message, and he didn't know where to start.If you are serious, you still have to face to face, and it is meaningless to say something unimportant.For ten months, it wasn't her smiling that fell into dreams every night, but smoking a cigarette lonely in the dark.Just by looking at her back, she knew it was her.Liu Huaiyu knew that he really didn't practice enough, and his six sense organs were not quiet.

"It feels like it's raining every day." After she finished speaking, she lowered her head, the bun that was originally coiled on top of her head was scattered over her shoulders, and even the ends of her hair were dripping.He fell down the water drop, fell into the puddle and looked up at her.The puddles under the street lamps are sparked by the rain, and the ripples are rippling round and round, just like a heart song.Her words and even the subtext can't miss a word, and the sound is in my ears.Yes, some people are good at bowing their heads.He who was underground bumped into her eyes and caught a glimpse of the secret hidden in her eyes.So how can I not be tempted to hope that the rain will not stop.He and her are like lovers trapped in an accident, they love each other, and they just took the opportunity to chat and express their love.

An Nannan dragged An Ning to participate in the graduation ceremony performance.At the last rehearsal, An Nannan decided to be absent because of watching dramas.After the rehearsal, Liu Huaiyu and An Ning listened to the lecture, packed up the stage props and were blocked outside the gymnasium by the rain.

The rain was too heavy, and I couldn't walk back to the dormitory. The distance from the gymnasium to the dormitory was neither long nor short, 210 or [-] steps.

The schoolgirls in front of me were running in the rain, their wet clothes sticking to their bodies, making them bumpy.Liu Huaiyu didn't have time to pay attention.

"Look, we're like clips from an old movie." He finally spoke, and the words didn't sound like himself.Liu Huaiyu herself also wanted to figure out why every time she was with An Ning, she was like being possessed, and she couldn't grasp the point even if she wanted to make a joke.

"You are confused by the weather." She looked up at him in response, feeling water in his eyes.He is good-looking, with a handsome appearance and a proper masculinity, which is different from those cute little boys who are full of makeup nowadays.More importantly, An Ning knows his simplicity and truthfulness.

They were very close, arm to arm, arm to shoulder.

The rain was still pattering.

Hearing the word bewilderment, his heart missed a few beats, and then hurried to catch up. "Pumpam pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom pom".

He moved a little closer to his side, his arms could feel the warmth of her shoulders, and he involuntarily stood opposite her, wanting to capture every subtle expression she had next.His back was exposed outside the eaves, and the raindrops were lying on his back along the neckline, boiling almost instantly, and he didn't care about it.

The fire grew hotter and hotter.

The rain was getting faster and colder.The t-shirt on the back was soaked and stuck to the back, not only the back line was clear, but the toughness of the male creature was about to come out, and the raindrops pattered along the body and fell to the ground together.

The rain is getting heavier.When she looked over, Liu Huaiyu's mind was not very clear, so she didn't know if she was looking at the rain or the people.

He moved closer, just wanting to release the scourge in his body.The man's breath was thick and clear, his thoughts were clearly revealed, and he couldn't hide it anymore.There was no difference for three days, three months, or three years. In the past, she was afraid of getting hurt and tried to be careful. At this moment, Liu Huaiyu can be sure of her mind and feel her non-resistance.

There is a smell of trees in the rain.

"I might just be confused by you." Liu Huaiyu gritted her teeth and didn't want to say such greasy words, but she still couldn't control it.They are like soldiers, rushing to the battlefield eagerly, prying each other's lips and teeth, and doing everything they can to win the war for their master.That's right, An Ning is probably a goblin, just shrugging her eyebrows casually and blinking her eyes can make Liu Huaiyu lose her soul.With his vermilion lips parted slightly, he immediately surrendered, and offered his hands to the city without the slightest hesitation.But this little fairy doesn't want the city, she doesn't want human life, she doesn't seem to want anything.The more this is the case, the more he, like a tyrant, will search his guts to find something for her.

She held her face in her hands, and his lips were finally printed on hers after three years. There was no panic, panic, or tension. Everything was so logical and natural.There was nothing like him in his gentle movements, even less in his prim manner.An Ning knew that he was serious and still had expectations.Liu Huaiyu probed cautiously while waiting for a response.Only my own rapid heartbeat and panting were heard in the sound of the rain, and nothing else could be heard.In the rain, he could only smell the scent of sunflowers emanating from the prey, luring the predator to swallow it in one bite, but he could not smell anything else.He closed his eyes, and there was nothing in front of him.

There was no response yet, but at this moment his phone rang.

"Telephone" She took the initiative to leave his face, grabbed his arm, and pulled him back under the eaves.

damn it.

"Yeah, I can't help it when it rains suddenly, big sister... An Ning... Big sister, I can... just hang up, and send her back when the rain stops." Liu Huaiyu impatiently hang up the phone.From the tone of his voice, he could tell that it was An Nannan on the other end of the phone.From the first semester, the two of them seemed to have a grudge, and they had to quarrel before finishing two sentences.

Liu Huaiyu leaned against the wall again and stood in a straight line with her. After hesitating for a while, he took out a cigarette and lit it. A faint flame rose.

"Do you want it?" Liu Huaiyu handed over one.

"No." An Ning refused.She and he were back in line, shoulders to arms.His arms were slippery and cold.

The atmosphere and emotions were interrupted, and Liu Huaiyu's anger rose above his head.Although the prey is temporarily lost, the hunter does not dare to relax at all, and always tenses up to wait for the opportunity to pounce on the graceful deer at any time.Opportunities once lost are hard to seize.

"That,..." Liu Huaiyu opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

"Just give me a cigarette," An Ning demanded.Although there is little justice in this world, we should try our best to be honest with him.If you want results, always tell the secret, gossip or slander.The confession from him seemed to be expected, and it was allowed to happen because An Ning also needed the opportunity to see clearly which side the balance was tilting towards.

An Ning knew that he would never hurt herself.

He is as clean as the rain.

"Then I still have a chance?" Liu Huaiyu asked truthfully.

"It's not that I don't like you, it's just that I happen to have someone else I like." An Ning explained with her head bowed.Her heart was pounding, just because she had learned from the past, every nerve in her body was preventing An Ning from doing stupid things.Now that she had started, An Ning forced herself to finish the matter and call it a close.Procrastination is what hurts.

My heart is cold, and my movements are also stiff.Liu Huaiyu wondered if her words were true or just an excuse

The phone rang again.

"Why do you have so many things... Am I willing to answer your call... An Ning, I'm looking for you. Liu Huaiyu handed over the phone. As long as you talk to An Ning, Liu Huaiyu must be gentle and serious. cigarette in hand.

"What kind of cold drink do you have now? Let's wait a few days. It's raining today... Well, okay, no... It's too cold... Okay, okay, then you wait for me" Wait After hanging up the phone on the other end, An Ning returned the phone.

Liu Huaiyu felt that this phone call was redundant, and An Nannan who called was even more redundant.The atmosphere seemed to be entering a stalemate negotiating table.Her every move and every word touched Liu Huaiyu's nerves.

"Actually, you don't need to comfort me, as long as you like it, you don't like it..." Liu Huaiyu was also puzzled, since the hot weather is like a steamer, why is he still unfamiliar with this girl.We have known each other for three years, Liu Huaiyu thinks he is passionate, but he still can't melt that piece of ice, it doesn't matter, even if she is not ice, a piece of glass can make her burn.I just have endless curiosity for you, and I am willing to treat you well without hesitation, so good that you get used to it, make you depend on it, and make you feel at a loss without me.

An Ning didn't speak, just looked into the rain.This little deer is absent-minded, and this is a good time to hunt.

An Ning is resisting, opening her mouth with difficulty, will she float in the rain or sink in the mud after she speaks?

"Do you think it's outrageous, I like her?" An Ning asked with difficulty.

"Who?" Liu Huaiyu came to his senses.

"An Nannan".

An Ning finally uttered these three words. In fact, she was not as relieved as she imagined.These three words neither went to the sky nor entered the ground, they floated into his ears as they were.Anxiety set in, and she was afraid.

Oh my goodness.

An Ning took a deep breath, waiting for his response.Maybe he would show anger, she thought, and worse, of course, would see his disgust.

An Nannan.It's An Nannan again.Even a mountain can be hollowed out and a sea can be filled in between the two of them, but it is this An Nannan.

"How could she be her?" Liu didn't understand.He was just taken aback.

Although An Nannan and An Ning are inseparable, all girls are like this.When they are good, they even go to the toilet together, and meet their boyfriends together, and when they are bad, they don't even look at each other.

"Because she's a woman," An Ning asked without confidence.She is a woman, and it is a woman she loves and wants to be with for the rest of her life.Regardless of whether it violated the rules of human ethics, she finally asked.It was almost seven or eight years since puberty, and after swallowing her anger for so long, An Ning finally uttered these words.An Ning breathed a sigh of relief.

Love is nothing but two souls meeting in a sea of ​​people. Love him because you can see yourself through him and recognize yourself clearly.Since such a simple thing, why bother to distinguish between men and women? She or he can only see ugliness among them or among them, so she or he must abide by the so-called custom culture. Live in ugliness for a lifetime? The law empowers everyone to pursue happiness and The right to be free, but the culture does not encourage everyone to do so.Culture only likes the unity of the majority, and it doesn't matter if it's wrong.Anyway, the majority makes the rules, and the majority decides life and death.Most people are unhappy, dare not speak up, and it is useless to speak up.

Liu Huaiyu was speechless.Although he didn't think her words were correct and irrefutable, the incoming message was too ferocious for him to slow down for a while.After a while, Liu Huaiyu asked, "You have always liked women"

"Do I have to tell a tragic story? Well, let me tell you, the class teacher was a jerk in junior high school. Many girls in the class were molested by the class teacher, so I hated men from then on. Do you take it for granted? Or me Let me tell you, I have only liked girls since I was able to distinguish gender, and I was isolated by the whole school because I confessed to girls... Whichever do you think is more acceptable to you, you can choose that reason." An Ning felt stupid .This kind of thing can obviously continue to be silent. Aren't many people hiding it for a lifetime? Getting married and having children seems to be nothing.Anyway, don't say it, others always think that others only have happiness.

The difference is naturally only clear to oneself.

The emotion for An Nannan is like water in a wooden barrel, which overflows out of the barrel unconsciously.An Ning herself can't explain how she misses when she doesn't see her, her heartbeat when she gets close to her, her desire to protect and possess her, or her growing urge towards her.

"That's not what I mean, An Ning. I'm definitely not hostile at all. It's just that the girls I like also like girls." Liu Huaiyu probably still couldn't accept it.Suddenly remembered the secret about An Ning that I heard back then.

"I just happen to love her." The accent was on "her" and she bowed her head in silence.An Ning is unwilling to admit that she likes women, she is the only exception, a beautiful exception.

"An Ning, I'm really a little sad. You said that you like each other, why can't it be as simple as queuing at the bank, with a priority?"

"What can be as simple as queuing a number at the bank?" An Ning smiled bitterly, stubbed out the cigarette and threw it into the puddle, and sank into the bottom of the water without a sound.The water patterns circled around, blown crookedly by the wind. Thank you.

The rain was pattering, and the trees made a rustling sound, like running water.

This little deer is still the same deer, beautiful and clever, and she will still run away at any time.

"Then, does she like you too?" Liu Huaiyu continued to ask.

"To be confirmed." An Ning lowered her voice.

"An Ning..." He was disheartened and tried to pull himself together, unable to say anything.

An Ning smiled. After freshman year, she liked to laugh more and more, and she became more and more like An Nannan.

Liu Huaiyu likes her whether she doesn't smile or is used to laughing.What attracts people is not An Ning's appearance and figure, but her temperament, which is full of contradictions and mysteries in her body.

Xiao Lu was frank and honest for the first time, and then turned around and ran away.The hunter sits and smokes in front of his log house, his dick hangs on the wall, damn it.

The hero was still watching the drama, the squad leader and the hero squeezed together on the same bed, yelling and cursing for a while, then laughing, and then panicked.

"Why are you two so close, I'll stick a piece for you..." Liu Huaiyu threw a towel and hit the squad leader on the head.The hero reached out to remove the towel, stroked the squad leader's hair without raising his head, "Your father is getting married again? Why are you so angry!"

"Don't pay attention to him... Convulsions..." The squad leader couldn't lift his head either.

Liu Huaiyu got goosebumps all over her body, pouted, but couldn't think of anything to say.Lying on the bed, tossing and turning, trying to think about the scene where I was with another man, uh....Turning over, Liu Huaiyu asked, "Do you have any friends who like the same sex?"

The squad leader raised his head first, "Are you self-awakened?" Then he smiled at the heroes beside him, "I support you. Don't worry, I don't discriminate. Do you want to try with me?"

"Fuck off, awakening ass. Awakening with the empty bed opposite?" Liu Huaiyu got goosebumps all over his body, "If you want to try, I will try you!"

"Come on, baby... Hey, maybe you and that empty bed will have a long-term relationship?" The squad leader made a gesture and then lowered his head into the computer screen.

Liu Huaiyu suppressed the urge to hit someone.

"Shall I give you a few movies to experience for yourself?" Hero asked.

"Why do you watch everything?" Liu Huaiyu couldn't get angry.

The hero was amused and quite proud, "Hey, I have seen all kinds of foreign language versions of Peppa Pig, what are these?"

Liu Huaiyu was speechless.After tossing and turning all night and early in the morning, I only confirmed one thing, that I must only like women.

The graduation ceremony was over, and many seniors in the auditorium dressed in academic uniforms couldn't bear to leave, taking pictures to reminisce, their eyes shining brightly.An Ning leaned against the wall with her head tilted, watching her slowly tidy up her things, and wondered if she did it on purpose.It has been a month since she gave up dinner, and the cheongsam looks loose on her body, and her narrow waist should be able to be grasped by her hands.With her back to her, she bent down to take off the high heels on her feet, forming a wonderful angle.A beautiful female body, she who is better than her body.

"Isn't it?" she asked again, leaning down to tie her shoelaces.

What? An Ning looked suspicious.

"Fantasy again! If I don't tell you, I'll keep you curious and torment you!" An Nannan patted her on the forehead, and naturally took her arm. The sun was shining, scorching her body.

Well, torture.

Not far away, Liu Huaiyu was standing at a corner not far away, pacing back and forth.She and she got closer and closer, so intimate that they were shadows of each other.When they passed by, Liu Huaiyu greeted with a reluctant smile, "Hey, An Ning, and you, An Nannan." The eyebrows raised, and the accent fell on "you".

"Don't pay attention to him, let's not play with idiots!" When he said "idiots", his voice rose, and An Nannan couldn't speak to An Ning, so he dragged her past quickly, and of course he didn't forget to give Liu Huaiyu a supercilious look.Liu Huaiyu didn't follow and stood there, not knowing who to wait for.

An Nannan glanced back, curled her lips, "It's been three years, you said he was sick, and he didn't confess, and he was around you all day. Don't speak for him, Aning, even if you like him, you can't." Confess to him first! Don't lose the opportunity!"

Oh, the hateful life of jokes and misunderstandings!

"Will not".An Ning answered smoothly.

An Nannan led her and continued to the dormitory.It's too hot to stay outside for a quarter of an hour.It was so hot, but she was still willing to hold her hand firmly.

It's time for summer vacation, how to cool off in the long summer of more than 40 days?

"I shared the same thesis advisor with him, Aning, what kind of fate do you think this is!"

"Who?"

"Who else! Liu Huaiyu!"

"How did he offend you? Look at him so unpleasant."

"Because he wants to snatch you away! Hey, Ah Ning, what's wrong, why do you always speak for him!"

An Ning blushed, "The sun is really hot."

I can be who I am to other people, but not to you alone.If possible, I would like to keep a secret forever, follow you, stay by your side, be your bridesmaid, listen to your complaints, wait for your child to be born outside the delivery room... as long as you say, as long as you want.

"A-Ning, do you know the family-hunting program? You can try it? There is also a special family-hunting post. He may have had a hard time leaving back then. If you don't understand clearly, won't your father be wronged?" An Nannan Glancing at the phone, he raised his head and spoke to her. "Besides, when you and someone achieve a positive result, you must let your parents know. Only after receiving their blessings can you be happy..."

The marriage of her parents was a pain for An Ning, and An Ning had no illusions about it.

Not anymore.

An Ning has secrets, and it is indeed difficult to carry secrets, but if there is a result, then everything is worth it.