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Chapter 17 The Middle Past 16

The hero posted on Weibo that there were three snowfalls in total this winter, and it disappeared before I could take pictures.

An Ning returned to school five days early because she had to take the make-up exam.The broken wooden boards of a "Wangpu Lease" at the school gate were finally removed, and the shop was also refurbished.The plaque is simple, with a wooden sign hanging on the door. The three words "ox and sheep" carved in wood are vigorous and powerful, and there is a vertical row of Mongolian characters on the side, which is probably the translation of Chinese characters.The shop owner is about 40 years old, not tall, with a broad face, tanned red, high cheekbones and forehead, small eyes, which can be narrowed when smiling.When he is not smiling, he can see the strong wind and the vast grassland in his eyes.An Ning thinks he looks like the Mongolian prince in the book.

He is the only one inside and outside the store, cooking lamb chops, or lamb chops, rolling noodles with his hands under the soup pot, and baking a pot of Mongolian milk cakes when he is in a good mood.The food was served very slowly, and he was not in a hurry at all, and he didn't care whether the people waiting for the meal were in a hurry.You can do a lot of things while waiting for food, so many couples are willing to wait in the store, it’s quiet anyway.The decoration inside the store couldn't be simpler.There were two shelves of wine in one corner, and a bamboo rocking chair in front of it. When there was no work, the prince would lie on the rocking chair and drink. When he got excited, he sang a long tune. An Ning couldn't understand it, but he thought it sounded good.

On the morning of the second day after An Ning returned to school, Ying got up from the bed due to the sound of knocking on the door.When the door opened, it was An Nannan with breakfast.An Nannan was very dissatisfied with An Ning's frown.As soon as he closed the door, he knocked again.An Ning laughed and opened the door for her.An Nannan handed over the breakfast with satisfaction, and dragged the box into the room.An Nannan was also on the make-up exam list, and An Nannan just failed the subjects that An Ning missed.

There have been classmates living in the dormitory building for a long time, and there are even seniors who haven't left during the winter vacation.Every night when there was nothing to do, An Nannan imitated An Ning and sat in front of the window sill to condescend and examine all living beings.An Nannan didn't understand what this meant.The succulents on the window sill are full of energy after being left unattended for a holiday.The goddess of the economics department in the front building didn't seem to come home, and she was out at night every day, and she seemed to have changed boyfriends again, and the bags on her back were getting more and more expensive.The goddess is in her junior year and fails every semester.An Nannan scoffed at the goddess' behavior, especially the fact that she used a man.People go to high places, water flows to low places, everyone is willing to take shortcuts, using men to gain a stable economic and social status is indeed vulgar and vulgar, An Ning thinks there is nothing wrong with it.It is said that if you still fail at the end of the semester, you will be expelled.However, it can't be seen that the goddess still cares about this study.

An Ning jumped down from the window, accidentally caught a glimpse of the woman in the mirror, and hurriedly avoided it as if in fear.An Nannan didn't know what she was afraid of.It's still a bit cold at night, especially with the window open for ventilation.

Bored, An Nannan decided to hold an old movie night.Originally, An Nannan wouldn't be bored, she had ten thousand ways to make herself have no time to be bored.When it comes to An Ning, those methods probably won't work.She doesn't like it, and she'd say yes if she asked, but you know she can't have fun with those pastimes.Pastimes lose their only meaning and become torture if they cannot be enjoyed.Who would be willing to let An Ning suffer.An Nannan also thought about An Ning's pastimes quite seriously.According to An Nannan, her favorite method is like that of a retired old man. Go out in the morning with a pony bag, find a secluded place in the park, listen to people's voices and pigeons, and make a pot of health. Tea for a day.It was getting dark, and I went home with a Maza, spent the night on the sofa, read newspapers and listened to the radio, and the day was over.

An Nannan only said that she did not agree.A beautiful girl in her youth cannot be allowed to waste her good life.There were still two days before the official start of school, An Nannan took An Ning for a walk during the day and stocked up on various snacks.

At nine o'clock in the evening, the curtains were drawn to block out the light and the sound of the wind.The two girls were wrapped in the same quilt, looking at Li An.

From "The Wedding Banquet" to "Lust, Caution", it was already past one o'clock in the morning.During this period, An Ning received messages on her mobile phone from time to time, but she didn't reply, and just put it back after looking at it.It's still early in the morning, and it's refreshing without coffee.

"Do you think Mr. Yi really loves her?" An Nannan stared at the subtitles at the end of the film, breaking the silence.

"There should be love in this movie, right? The way you look at him and her won't let go when you look at her. It's all affectionate."

"Liang Chaowei's eyes look at a chair with affection. I have read the original book." An Nannan closed the webpage.

"how"

"In the original book, I can't see Mr. Yi's love for Wang Jiazhi, anyway, I don't feel it. At most, I'm just grateful, after all, she let him go."

"But Wang Jiazhi really fell into it."

"Yes. Why?" An Nannan leaned on An Ning.An Ning didn't continue to ask, and she didn't continue to speak.

"It's because of this movie that Tang Wei was banned. Is it because the rumor that the large-scale movie I saw just now was really made, not borrowed." An Nannan ate the last popcorn.

"Tang Wei doesn't know." An Ning leaned against the wall, wanting to get a cigarette, but An Nannan didn't allow her.

An Nannan listened to the voice, oh, she probably has no idea who Tang Wei is.So he deliberately laughed and said, "You are so strange, did you come straight from the cave after standing upright?" An Ning grabbed An Nannan's itchy flesh until she knew she was out of breath and begged for mercy in tears.An Nannan is Pi.

"I'm just 20 years old, what can I understand?" An Ning sighed to herself, as if she was defending herself.

Ten years old, 20 years old, 30 years old, some people know everything, some people really don't understand the world, which kind of person is a fool, which kind of person is more stupid

"It's Liu Huaiyu ignoring him again. If he is sincere, he should avoid things like Lin Xiao from happening. He caused a lot of trouble himself, and he has to implicate you." An Ning sent another text message, but she didn't reply after a glance, An Nan Nan hummed, it was all dissatisfaction with Liu Huaiyu, "I'm not targeting him, but I just think he's unreliable..."

"Well, he's actually fine." An Ning told the truth, pulling away a corner of the quilt, the heating hadn't ended yet, and the room was a little hot.

"There is a situation"

"No."

Nothing.He was always booing and inquiring about his health, saying some ambiguous words, hoping that the whole world would know.But when she thought that he was just such a habit, An Ning didn't think he was wrong, and she couldn't think of anything else when facing him.Naturally, there is a good impression, but there is no further feeling.It's all Liu Huaiyu's own fault, if he has always been serious, the situation may be different.

Since she couldn't sleep, An Nannan found another "Brokeback Mountain".

In the summer of 1963, the mountains were in the clouds, and sheep flocked under the mountains.In the bright blue sky, two half-grown boys were caught in an accident.At night, Jack looked over the valley and saw a little fire in the thick night.During the day, Ennis looked from the camp to the hillside in the distance. He and a group of white sheep were spotted on the hillside.Seeing it at first sight, Jack smiled like nothing, but immediately lowered his head again.His eyes were deep and melancholy.The second time he stayed in the tent of the camp, Ennis timidly, the hat in his hand had nowhere to put it.In the end, he obediently lay on top of Jack, finding some solace.His car drove away, and Ennis turned into the shadow of the house with his head down, unable to control his emotions anymore.He deliberately did not respond to Jack's invitation. He still has a woman waiting for him at the foot of the mountain.Even when he was married, Ennis was always in fear. He didn't go to church, he didn't look for work in the city, and he was busy on other people's ranches all year round.He tortured himself and others with poverty.The children fell to the ground one after another, growing up to four years old little by little, and the two men finally reunited.Ernest changed his clothes deliberately, and the beer was bottled one after another. The simple waiting was full of anxiety.The sound of the dozing Kung Fu car woke Ennis up. He went out of the room and stood on the stairs. It was him at the bottom of the stairs, thinking about Jack.After four years, the longing and desire fermented to an unbearable level, the mouths of the two men finally kissed each other after four years.

For the next 20 years, Jack and Ennis would meet every year, spending a few days together at a time.But how can it be enough? For those who love each other, the time together is never enough.Ennis was divorced, and Jack, who got the news, drove to him immediately.The car was on the road, according to Jack's words, it almost flew by, and Jack's joy was beyond words.He's divorced, which means there's finally a solution, but Ennis doesn't want it.At 3 o'clock on the return journey, Jack finally couldn't help crying, whether it was disappointment or something else, he walked into a dark alley in Mexico...

The last time we met, Jack said to Ennis,

"thetruthis, sometimessimissyousomuch, icanhardlystandit" he just bowed his head after listening.

"we could have hada good time together, fucking real good life, hadus a place of fourown! but youdidnit wantit. e······iwiseiknewhowtoquityou. "In his big eyes there are water.

This time, Ennis was crying, and Jack came and hugged him, as always.

After Jack's death, Ennis saw the plaid shirt in Jack's cloakroom that he thought had been left on Brokeback Mountain. It was wrapped in Jack's denim shirt, just like Jack had always guarded Ennis.There are still bloodstains on the sleeves, a testimony from that fight.Ennis took two shirts.

The eldest daughter is 19 years old and invited her father to the wedding.When my father was 19 years old, he was in Brokeback Goat in the summer. It was the summer of 1963. The father of a boy met a boy on Brokeback Mountain and got into an accident.

To love clearly is to be scruples about east and west, and to be wary of north and south.When encountering love, no one does not want a good ending, scruples, people dare not reach out to catch the result handed over, let alone choose actively.Love is so deep and forbearing, Ennis will be full of regret for the rest of his life.In the last shot, Ennis opens the closet, and there are two boys' shirts of Jack and Ennis hanging on the door, Ennis' plaid shirt is on the outside, and Jack's is on the inside.Ennis buttoned up his denim shirt, said "iswear..." and straightened the postcard with Brokeback Mountain beside the hook.

At the end of the 134-minute film, what An Nannan will never forget is the look in Jack's eyes after Ennis left, affectionate and helpless.He was enduring, in order to continue to love that man wholeheartedly, Jack endured and restrained himself.His love for his lover is almost pampering.However, such an ending.

"No wonder Li An would say that everyone has a Brokeback Mountain in their hearts." An Nannan turned off the computer, put it back on the table, and crawled back to An Ning's bed.

An Ning looked at her inexplicably.

"Maybe only the same sex can have love. Do you think so?" I didn't hear An Ning answer yes or no, An Nannan continued, "Most of the opposite sexes are just lust, vulgar. Maybe I'm bisexual." An Nannan sighed .

"Do you like girls?" An Ning asked seriously.

"If I were a man, maybe I would like men." An Nannan also thought seriously.

"You're just rot!" An Ning turned sideways, her back turned to her.An Nannan sighed long and turned her head up to the sky.The quilt jumped up little by little, and An Ning's face was covered by surprise. An Nannan laughed happily in the quilt, and took the opportunity to hug An Ning's waist to keep warm.She is so warm, like a stove.

"Hey, to be honest, An Nannan, do you think homosexuality is normal?" An Ning faced the wall, there was a patch of skin, and white particles were falling into her eyes.

"How to judge whether it is normal or abnormal, whether it conforms to cultural identity or follows the laws of nature? As far as social culture is concerned, cultural rules are only made and followed by people. If you say black, you are black, and you say the same thing. But many things that conform to cultural conventions are not biological. Basics. Just like homosexuality, same-sex behaviors are very common in nature. Giraffes, black swans, and chimpanzees have all had homosexual behaviors. Why, do you say they are unnatural? This is enough to prove the closedness of culture And prejudice. How do you say that saying, nature brings permission, culture creates closure. The more closed, the more prejudice." An Nannan said clearly.

"Of course that's the truth. But in reality, we still have to abide by cultural rules, whether it's natural or not." Then, An Ning told the story Miao Miao told.

"Many countries and regions have recognized the legality of same-sex marriage, which also represents the continuous progress of people's cognition. This progress is naturally inseparable from the struggle of LGBL groups and other ordinary heterosexuals. We do not agree yet, But there will be a later time."

"If you were gay, would you come out?" An Ning asked.

"If I come out, my parents will hang themselves in front of me. Do you know how they comment on homosexuality? It's immoral." An Nannan couldn't help shaking her head, "But fortunately, I don't have that trouble. I like men, that kind of Muscular and good-looking man!" An Nannan smiled wickedly.

"The standard has changed so quickly, don't you like that kind of fresh meat?" An Ning laughed.

"Cough, women are fickle." An Nannan's smile easily reminds people of a fool who is fascinated by it. She is afraid that her head is full of handsome and strong men.

Which kind of boy An Nannan likes depends entirely on the type of male lead in the idol drama she is chasing.In fact, she carried it very clearly, saying that she liked this one, and she might change to another one tomorrow, but in fact, none of them really fell into her eyes.She has her own standards for her other half, but the one she said she likes is different, so she can't take it seriously.

He also said that he might be a homosexual, how could he say that he was slandering An Ning.