To rely on others is to promise each other

Chapter 39 Wishes

Pei Shanqing lived in the single-family villa arranged by Pei Yi, and the continuous rainy weather made him even more irritable, so after work, he almost never left the bedroom. A thin layer of dust.

The neighbor next door happened to meet him going out, and greeted him enthusiastically through the fence: "Hi, Pei, good morning, are you going to work today too?"

Pei Shanqing smiled at him, and also replied in English: "Yes, good morning, Mr. Ian."

Ian stared at him thoughtfully for a long time, and suddenly became happy: "I remember you didn't look like this when you first came here three months ago, but now you look like you are in your 30s."

"Really? Maybe it's because of the growing beard." Pei Shanqing touched his stubble and said.

"Pei, as a young man in your 20s, why don't you have any social activities at all?" Ian was very puzzled, "When I was in my 20s, I was not even at home all day long, and looking at you, apart from work, I was bored. home."

Pei Shanqing got into the car, smiled and waved goodbye to Ian, looked at the lifeless house through the rearview mirror, and sighed softly.

The neighbor, Ian, is really a very enthusiastic person. He would bring some biscuits to him if he baked them at home, but his memory is not so good as he is getting old. Once he forgot to bring the key. Pei Shanqing invited him into the house as a guest. Ian After much deliberation, I recommended him a part-time worker.

"Almost the whole neighborhood has hired her to clean, and she is very efficient." Ian said, "She is very skilled at her job, and she has probably been doing this since before I moved here more than ten years ago."

After seeing Ian off, Pei Shanqing stretched out his finger and rubbed it on the picture frame, looked at the layer of dirt on his fingertips, and decided to find someone to clean it.

He called the aunt introduced by Ian, and after negotiating the price, the other party came to the door with the tools within the agreed time, and started cleaning without saying a word.

Pei Shanqing didn't have a job today, but because of the expensive decorations in the living room, he chose to stay on the balcony next to him and read.

It was rare that there was no rain, but the sun was shrouded in a large dark cloud and shone some light dimly, which was not dazzling but not bright either.

Pei Shanqing was fascinated by the densely packed characters for a while, until the aunt asked in a surprised tone: "Mr. Pei, is the kid on it your cousin?"

Pei Shanqing cast his gaze, only to see that the photo frame on the wall that had been covered by light veil was lifted, revealing the family portrait inside, which he hadn't had the energy to take care of, until today he saw its true face clearly.

The kind-faced grandpa smiled, and the uncle and aunt clasped their hands together. Xiao Jiang Yubai wore a delicate bow tie around his neck, and his moist eyes looked straight ahead, as if looking at him through time and space through the frame.

The eyes suddenly blurred, Pei Shanqing smiled lightly and said, "Yes, he is my relative."

"Really? I remember him, and he lived on this street before." The aunt was surprised and delighted, and asked, "He is a very polite kid."

"Do you still have any memories of him? I mean, do you probably remember him? Because we separated when he was six years old." Pei Shanqing asked.

"Remember some, mostly because of his parents."

At that time, Xiao Jiang Yubai was still a crying bag in the true sense. Without his brother who supported him, he didn't even dare to cry. He just pursed his mouth when he was wronged, and controlled his tears with wide eyes.

The classmates I made friends with in elementary school were all blond and blue-eyed without exception, and they were very curious about Jiang Yubai, an oriental man. In addition, Jiang Yubai's mother liked to make some Chinese food and put them in lunch boxes, so her curiosity reached its peak.

During the first three school years, the children were not exposed to the dark side of psychology too much, so when maliciousness began to show its head, everyone subconsciously followed rather than questioned.

Jiang Yubai, as an existence that could be distinguished at a glance in the crowd, undoubtedly became the target of public criticism. His smiles became less and less, and his figure became thinner.

However, his parents were busy running around for basic necessities, food, housing and transportation, and they didn't notice Jiang Yubai's change at all with their remaining attention.

The part-time worker auntie remembers the most clear thing is that in the fourth year of Jiang Yubai's school, he was robbed of his lunch box. Unexpectedly, he did not cry secretly, but raised his hand to fight with the other party. up.

After the big fight, both sides were defeated. The teacher had no choice but to call the parents of both parties, but Jiang Yubai and the other's parents stared at each other for half an hour, but they still didn't see their parents.

The classmate who took the lead in bullying him made faces at him complacently, and then turned to complain to the teacher.When his aunt came late due to his parents' entrustment, Jiang Yubai had already lowered his head amidst sarcasm, tears rolling in his eyes.

The aunt roughly explained why his parents were busy with work and couldn't come, and took him by the hand and walked out of the school gate.

Outside the office, the brother of the classmate who fought with Jiang Yubai stood in the corridor, saw him come out and cursed in a low voice: "Chink."

Jiang Yubai's complexion changed, and he rushed forward to argue, but was bumped into the shoulder by a classmate who just came out. The other party gave him a sideways look and commented: "How poor that without brother."

Pei Shanqing's fist hanging by his side was clenched suddenly. Even though it was an old incident many years ago, his emotions were still surging when he mentioned it now. It was hard for him to imagine Jiang Yubai's mood at that time. Guilt and heartache all came to him like a tide.

The aunt didn't seem to notice his emotional change, and said: "He didn't speak on the road afterwards, and when he was about to enter the house, his parents hadn't come back, so he spoke the first sentence to me."

"……what did he say?"

"He said, I also have a brother."

Pei Shanqing didn't know how he sent his aunt away in the end. He heard a lot about Jiang Yubai's past, and he was in a daze, as if he had returned to the time when he was in a dilemma.

His dreams are full of Jiang Yubai, who whispers softly, who holds his hand carefully, who begs him not to leave while crying, and even the lust on his face during the skin-to-skin contact is so real.

He began to be afraid of dreaming, and anxiety and insomnia became normal, but sometimes he couldn't help thinking about him, forcing himself to fall into a dream like crazy, just to see the shadow of the past.

Ian was worried that he would have big problems in the long run, so he called him to drink tea and chat in his courtyard whenever he was free, while Pei Shanqing often grabbed his phone, and the lit screen displayed the contact page.

The string of familiar numbers lay quietly in the center. He looked at it thousands of times in the dead of night, but he couldn't find the courage to make a call.

"The weather is really nice today, it's very suitable for scented tea." Ian helped him pour a cup of hot tea, "Oh, wait a minute, Pei, I'll get the baked bread."

Pei Shanqing nodded to him with a smile, his eyes finally left the phone screen, and fell far away on the roses in the flower garden outside the courtyard, thinking of the cat that could hold flowers mentioned in Jiang Yubai's letter.

What is Jiang Yubai doing now?Is it walking in the alleys of the university campus?Or tease the cat in front of the cat climbing frame?Or, like him, obsessed with numbers that cannot be dialed on the phone?

"Miaow—"

A weak meow came from his feet, and Pei Shanqing thought he was hallucinating for a while, until the little black cat struggled to climb up his pants and fell into his palm.

It happened that Ian came back and saw the little thing in his arms, and wanted to take it away with a little apology: "Oh my god, how did this little guy come here, I'm so sorry."

"It's okay." Pei Shanqing patted the kitten's head and asked, "Is this your new cat?"

"It's one of my Sierra's kittens, and the only one that's all black. As you know, Pei, people don't like black cats very much. If no one is willing to adopt it by the end of this week, maybe I will Considering taking it to a rescue station."

The little black cat nestled in Pei Shanqing's arms, stretched its neck lazily, rubbed its head against its palm, purring from its throat, its expression and posture were very much like the white cat with the same name as itself.

Pei Shanqing took the kitten from Ian's house and named it Xiaobai.

Xiaobai likes to sneak up next to him silently, occupying his embrace with lightning speed, and when Pei Shanqing frowns and drives it away, he starts meowing.

Pei Shanqing was defeated, holding it with one hand and typing with the other, he seemed to see the sunlight coming in from the window in a trance, Jiang Yubai's voice came from the kitchen, asking him loudly what he would like to eat tonight.

There was a smile on his face, but tears came down again.

The greatest relief for him from fantasy is that Jiang Yubai is smiling.

However, in reality, Jiang Yubai's actual mental state is very bad.

He managed to survive the long summer vacation, but still didn't expect Pei Shanqing to come back.After entering school, Jiang Yubai finally lost himself in the day-to-day dreams, and began to be in a trance and couldn't recognize people.

Sometimes Jiang Yubai would look at the empty corner and ask, "Brother, why have you been standing there but can't come over? Are you afraid of me?"

The other students in the dormitory quickly discovered his abnormality and called a counselor to mediate, but the obsession of more than ten years was deeply ingrained and could not be shaken.

Pei Yi had no choice but to suspend him from school and suspend all work at hand to take care of him at home, but Jiang Yubai became more sensitive and fragile, and even a glass would collapse if his hand slipped and broke.

Pei Yi stepped forward to help him, Jiang Yubai grabbed his hand, tears fell from his eyes lightly, he said: "I know I was wrong, I will be more careful next time, I'm sorry uncle, please let me I'll meet him."

Pei Yi thought that separating them was the best way, and time would be the cure for everything.

But one day, Jiang Yubai cut his own artery.

When Pei Yi broke through the door, Jiang Yubai was sitting against the wall, the flesh between his wrists was slashed ferociously, and the shower was dripping water, mixed with bright red blood, forming a line , flow to the floor drain in an orderly manner.

Jiang Yubai almost completely lost consciousness. His eyes were slack, but he kept staring in a certain direction, as if he was holding something firmly in his hand.

Pei Yi hurriedly called the emergency number, and panickedly pressed for him to stop the bleeding.While waiting for rescue, he understood Jiang Yubai's mouth shape.

"Brother, don't go, don't hide from me."

If Pei Shanqing's wish is to make Jiang Yubai better and move on without him.

In comparison, Jiang Yubai's wish is really simple - he wants to die in a dream, in a dream with Pei Shanqing.

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