To rely on others is to promise each other

Chapter 38

After six o'clock, Jiang Yubai stopped reading the seconds and waiting. He walked out of the house, and the long-lost fresh air wrapped him warmly, and the afterglow of the setting sun came slowly from the edge of the tall building.

Standing at the door of the unit building, he saw Pei Shanqing and Pei Yi's father and son coming from the shadows from a distance, and secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

Pei Shanqing was the first to spot him, waved at him from a distance, and asked nonchalantly when he got close, "Why are you standing downstairs?"

Jiang Yubai had been prepared for a long time, and opened the bag slung in front of him, and the kitten got a head out of it, looking around and looking at everything novel in front of him.

"Take it out for a walk, forgot to bring the key."

Pei Yi remained silent, and the two of them went up the stairs first. Jiang Yubai followed behind Pei Shanqing, and tentatively stretched out his fingers to hook his hand.Pei Shanqing curled up suddenly when his fingertips were touched, and then quickly squeezed in front of Pei Yi, took out the key in his pocket and opened the door, to hide his emotions.

Jiang Yubai's gaze crossed Pei Yi's shoulder and landed behind Pei Shanqing, clearly unable to be ignored by him, like a glow on his back.

One suppressed his impulse and dared not go forward, and the other tried his best to plan to leave.

Jiang Yubai volunteered to cook, but Pei Yi couldn't help him and had to compromise. Halfway through, Pei Shanqing took the opportunity to sneak into the kitchen and watched him cut tomatoes two or three steps away from him.

"You can cut it so easily, give it to me."

Jiang Yubai obediently put down the kitchen knife and handed it to Pei Shanqing, took a step back to keep a distance from him, and just watched his movements quietly.

The bright red tomato juice fell on the wooden cutting board and slowly spread. Pei Shanqing suddenly said: "On the way back, we talked about the studio. Ji Xiao never showed up, and I haven't had time to take care of it. It's gone."

Jiang Yubai's indifferent expression betrayed his heart. He didn't care about the operation of the studio. He chose to contribute to fill in the gaps just to make Pei Shanqing look at him more and understand that he also has the qualifications to stand by his side.

But he sensed the reproach in Pei Shanqing's tone, and said sincerely, "I'm sorry."

Pei Shanqing said helplessly, "It's all over, don't apologize anymore."

Jiang Yubai pushed forward, hugged him from behind, put his hand on his hand lightly, and said, "I know I made a mistake, and I will correct it. Don't leave."

Pei Shanqing stared at the tomato on the cutting board and almost burst into tears. He cut it neatly and put the handle of the knife back into his hand, "I'm going out first."

The three of them had a decent dinner with different thoughts. Jiang Yubai thought that Pei Shanqing would let Pei Yi sleep on the lower bunk, but who would have thought that Pei Shanqing would go into the bedroom first after washing up.

Pei Yi turned his back to him as he was tidying up the scattered pillows on the sofa, and said, "Yue Bai, go to bed early."

Jiang Yubai always felt that they were plotting something behind his back, so he climbed into the bed nervously, almost hanging by the edge of the bed, making sure that he could hear Pei Shanqing's breathing before he gave up.

He comforted himself in his heart: It's okay, after Pei Yi leaves, there will be many opportunities to be alone with Pei Shanqing, so don't worry about it for a while.

Fortunately for Jiang Yubai, during Pei Yi's stay, Pei Shanqing did not avoid him, on the contrary, he became more calm about the occasional physical contact between the two.

It's a coincidence that Pei Yi doesn't come back once in a year or so. This time, it happened to be the day when Jiang Yubai reported his volunteering. The three of them went to a nearby Internet cafe and almost looked at the monotonous and boring volunteering page. afternoon.

Fifteen minutes before closing the network, Pei Shanqing looked at the bright one on the real-time rankings, then looked at the candidates next to him who were struggling to refresh, and said to Jiang Yubai: "Everyone says that volunteering is exciting, and you don't see much value in this."

"That's because of the high score for Yuebai. I remember that you were the last one who got stuck when you applied for volunteering." Pei Yi on the side continued.

Jiang Yubai had a lazy expression, as if he wasn't the one who volunteered, "It's okay to be squeezed out, it doesn't matter which school you go to."

While speaking, Pei Shanqing refreshed the page again, quickly entered the verification code, and there was no doubt that he was still ranked first.

Jiang Yubai's university was confirmed so without any surprise or danger. Seeing the excited candidates beside him crying and embracing their family members, Jiang Yubai tugged at Pei Shanqing's sleeve with his palms up, the meaning was obvious.

Pei Shanqing stood up, made room for Pei Yi, and allowed him to step forward and pat Jiang Yubai on the shoulder, and walked out behind the two of them in silence.

The sky outside was gloomy, with no wind or rain, and the sultry air added a bit of depression. Jiang Yubai and Pei Yi were talking, and suddenly felt that the hand hanging by his side was being held.

The belly of the finger touched the palm along the wrist, and after staying for a while, spread out the five fingers, embed them in the crevices of the fingers tightly, and grasp tightly.

Pei Shanqing tilted his head and said softly to him, "My dear boy, I wish you a happy college life."

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In a blink of an eye, the promised day of departure arrived, and at the dinner table, Pei Yi said flatly, "Pei Shanqing, I will book a plane ticket back to London for me later."

Pei Shanqing's chopsticks stopped sharply, but soon recovered his composure: "Okay."

Jiang Yubai went to wash the dishes as usual, and when he finished packing, Pei Shanqing had already booked a ticket and was teasing the cat with a cat teasing stick.The small bells tied to the colorful feathers rang cheerfully, and the cat lay on its back in his arms, trying to stretch its limbs to pick.

Jiang Yubai sat beside him, his shoulders touched his, reached out and grabbed the kitten's paw, squeezed it, and asked, "What time is the air ticket tomorrow?"

"Eight in the morning, it's quite early, I'll drive him there." Pei Shanqing said, leaning towards him unobtrusively.

Jiang Yubai said: "I'll go with you, remember to call me when you get up in the morning."

"it is good."

As night fell, Jiang Yubai lay on his side on the bed, watching Pei Shanqing turn on the paper lamp beside the bed and sit on the edge of the bed, the magnificent scenery was projected on the opposite wall, Jiang Yubai dropped a hand, shaking it in front of him shake.

Pei Shanqing clasped his fingers, but didn't look up at him. After holding for a while, he said: "Go to sleep, I have to get up early tomorrow."

Jiang Yubai withdrew his hand, turned around and shrank against the wall. Since he lived in Pei Shanqing's house, he rarely dreamed, but today he dreamed clearly about the past.

In the dream, he was in the sky at a height of a thousand meters, and saw the morning glow in the sky through a small window, tears gradually blurred his vision, and there were endless whispers in his ears, accompanying him to continue to fall into sleep.

That was what Jiang Yubai would always recall, the dawn when he separated from Pei Shanqing.

After so many years, he still dreams of walking on a strange street after leaving his hometown. His parents have smiles on their faces and describe the happy life in the future. He holds his mother's hand and walks obediently beside him.

Jiang Yubai has a mind that is incompatible with his peers, just like in the current situation, he will not feel happy, and the future at his fingertips seems to have nothing to do with him.

He wants to do everything he can to keep everything he likes, such as stray cats that can pick up flowers, grafted and dyed green roses... even those who don't see the light, even though it seems so unreasonable in the eyes of others.

During the long time, he learned to show weakness in exchange, so he was able to push away the dense mist, leaned over to kiss the thin clouds in the sky, crashed into the endless ocean when the misty rain came, and grasped the warmth.

Jiang Yubai felt in a daze that this dream was so real, even with the warm tears left at the corners of his eyes.

He stood up abruptly and looked at the lower bunk. The upper bunk was already empty, and even the bed sheet was torn without leaving a single wrinkle.

Jiang Yubai felt a long-lost, empty feeling in his heart, just like when he was coaxed into a taxi to the airport 12 years ago, ripples appeared in his chest, echoing in his limbs.

The clock paced quietly, the hour hand flickered slightly, and stayed on the scale seven. Jiang Yubai finally stopped a taxi on the street in the early morning, and galloped on the way to the airport.

Everything in front of me is like a replica of the past, like a fragment that has been copied poorly, and it is staged again in the fate of teasing people.

Jiang Yubai got out of the car, turned around the moment he closed the car door, and met Pei Yi who had just come out of the door. His expression was exactly the same as that of 12-year-old Pei Shanqing after chasing him to no avail—

Surprised, lonely, painful.

Over the airport, a huge iron bird spread its wings, carrying the experiencers of the past and the future, sailing to the distant shore.

"Over white..."

Seeing that his face was too embarrassing, Pei Yi stepped forward and grabbed his shoulders, speaking very gently: "Let's go home first, shall we?"

Jiang Yubai got on the return bus in a daze. He accepted the fact that Pei Shanqing was free and he had done nothing wrong. He just got tired of being detained day after day and chose to leave him. and go.

He thought: I did something wrong.

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Pei Shanqing lay on his back in the seat, the sea of ​​clouds outside was as beautiful as an excellent oil painting.But Pei Shanqing didn't care to watch, he closed his heavy eyelids, and heard the whispers of the neighbors.

He guessed that Jiang Yubai's experience when he left was nothing more than this, and he also understood the hidden meaning of leaving without saying goodbye.

This is a fact they have to admit: if they really hugged and bid farewell at the airport like lovers, they would definitely have the idea of ​​staying regardless.

Under the pitch-black vision, Pei Shanqing suddenly seemed to have returned to his last night at home, and it was also the last time he hugged Jiang Yubai.

It was late at night, and Jiang Yubai's breath was long and light, and his trembling eyelashes showed that he was immersed in a dream and could not extricate himself.

Pei Shanqing opened a gap in the curtains, climbed up lightly, leaned down to smell the familiar fragrance of shampoo in his hair, and traced his eyebrows and eyes carefully with his eyes under the bright moonlight, as if he wanted to carefully examine every inch of his hair. Engraved in the heart.

I don't know what Jiang Yubai dreamed about, a crystal clear teardrop silently overflowed from the corner of his eye, then slipped down very lightly and disappeared in his hair.

He thought he took good care of Jiang Yubai, and the former little crying bag no longer sobbed, no longer obedient, and no longer afraid of the dark.

But the reality is developing in his unpredictable and fruitless direction. The only way out is hidden behind the winding path, and the future cannot be seen clearly.

Pei Shanqing raised his hand, as he did before, covered Jiang Yubai's eyes with his wide and warm palm, and carefully pressed his lips against his, leaving the last gift - a superficial, light kiss .

"I became your darkness, so when dawn comes, I should quietly leave your side."

Pei Shanqing's lips trembled uncontrollably, he got up, hot tears flowed down, and fell silently on Jiang Yubai's fingertips.

"I broke my promise, baby," he said, "but until the next time we meet, you will go to a brighter shore."

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