That's it

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After sending Su Ran home, she was in a good mood all afternoon.after dinner.Lying on his bed, Xiang Ping began to struggle with his feelings again.Soon at night, Xiang Ping chatted with Gu Ben with the joy of seeing Su Ran after many days.

Tranquility: I went to see my sweetheart today.

Orphan: How does it feel?

Ping Ping: She is very beautiful, she has managed to control her several times of wanting to kiss her.

Gu Ben: Why do you want to control, maybe the other party is impatient.hehe.

Ping Ping: She can't think about this, no one knows how pure she is.I said that she can purify my heart, so I can only think in my heart but not implement it.

Orphan: You are also very pure, and you can treat her well.Don't burden yourself, go for it.

Ping Ping: I am not pure, although I want to give her happiness, but I will be very tired, afraid of tarnishing her, I think no one will understand.

Gu Ben: Where are you impure?

Ping Ping: I miss you every day these days, this is a disease.I can chase other girls without hiding my illness, but she can't.

These words reached Gu Ben's heart, like a long thorn piercing through the heart.His face changed color in an instant, and he didn't know how to respond.After standing still for a while, the watch has been in a daze.

Ping Ping: What are you thinking?Why do you suddenly feel unhappy.

Gu Ben: Shall we still talk?I forgot about it in a few days.Don't bother you because of me.

Ping Ping: You should know that it's not your problem, it's my problem, and I might miss others without you.

Xiang Ping is really confused, and he still thinks that his relationship with Gu Ben is just an ordinary friend, and he expresses his love to Gu Ben very straightforwardly.It is precisely because the chat is too transparent that there is nothing to hide.Gu Ben's concern made him ignore the other party's feelings.

Gu Ben: What are your plans?

Tranquility: Let go of her, but I don't know what to do after letting go.

Gu Ben: It sounds difficult!Why don't you try it out with a guy nearby and see if there's any passion.

Jingpingping: I used to feel impulsive when I saw some men, but after seeing you, I seem to have no interest in others, haha.

Gu Ben: Then I will try my best to satisfy you.

Gu Ben smiled happily at this, and quickly returned to a calm expression.Xiang Ping was smiling all the time, as long as he met and chatted with him, he would be in a good mood, it didn't matter what to talk about.

Ping Ping: I have to wrong you.hehe.

Gu Ben: Let me inspect the goods first.

Ping Ping: Tell me.Where do you want to see?

Unique copy: whole body.

Gu Ben's expression was both surprised and happy.A state of exuberant anticipation.

Tranquility: Hehe, I won't seduce you anymore, Brother Se.

Gu Ben: You let me down again.

Ping Ping: You will get used to it.

Gu Ben: There are women chasing me around me.

Jingpingping: You should try it, in my eyes you are actually a virgin, an old virgin.Ha ha.

Guben: I leave the first time to you.

Ping Ping: Hehe.Let's talk about something else, I'm serious, don't get me wrong.

Gu Ben's smile seemed to freeze, indifferently, neither happy nor sad.He looked at Xiang Ping on the screen seriously.

Gu Ben: I sometimes miss you during the day.

Xiang Ping was moved by his seriousness.

Ping Ping: Maybe I miss you more, but I don't want to think of you.

Gu Ben didn't move at all, his expression was also static, and he didn't move for a long time.

Ping Ping: You seem to be stuck.

Gu Ben: Is it cold over there?It has been raining here for two consecutive days, and the weather is very cold. I am afraid of the cold.

Xiang Ping's answer made Gu Ben feel cold, and he thought of the weather to change the subject.Xiang Ping has not realized his changes, let alone the changes in his heart, so he continues to be happy.

Ping Ping: You come to me in winter, and I will let you live in peace.

Gu Ben: Haha.Sleeping with you is not afraid of the cold.

Gu Ben: I'm tired, I need to rest, I can't keep up with my body after staying up all night.Baby, remember to miss me.

Gu Ben hopes that Xiang Ping has been smiling when he sees his state, and now he is tired of laughing.Suddenly want to rest.

Xiang Ping thought of the emptiness that he was not there one day before and could not be contacted, and he spent that night very anxiously.

Jingpingping: What should I do when I can’t get in touch with you?

Orphan: You can send an email, leaving a message will worry colleagues to see it.I don't usually go online much.

Ping Ping: OK.Good night.

Gu Ben: You also go to bed early.Good night.

In the quiet night without the lonely company, Xiang Ping also lay on the bed early, recalling the satisfaction brought by the two people in the center that day.Thinking about the habitual thoughts became confused again, entangled in unexited choices.The same struggle as before, slowly starting to flare up and spreading.

Although the time for chatting was not long, Xiang Ping easily got used to and became attached to chatting with Gu Ben at night.If the orphan is not there, his heart will be lost. Last night, Xiangping hardly did anything, and every few minutes or less, he would check to see if the profile picture of the orphan in QQ was lit up.As a result, the night was spent in disappointment.The lone copy has been missing for two days and disappeared without warning.I couldn't see the orphan at night, and my mood was obviously depressed.become restless.The family is used to his irritability, but they are curious about his inexplicable good mood a few days ago.

Lost fourth night.Xiang Ping stayed in front of the computer even more anxiously, hoping not to let the disappointment continue.At a quarter past nine in the evening, he was not disappointed.

Ping Ping: You don't seem to be in a good mood.

Gu Ben: You are still the same, stop torturing yourself, there is nothing you can’t figure out, and see what you really want.darling.

Ping Ping: You know my question, I am not a person who is good at thinking, and my thinking is relatively narrow.hehe.Tell me about you?Why do you look sad when you see me, old pig.

Gu Ben: I feel better when I see you.

Ping Ping: Do you have wine at home?

Guben: Yes, I am not interested in drinking alone.

Ping Ping: I'll get some wine and drink with you.

When the wine glass was raised, the two people dispelled their worries and their smiles bloomed again.

Jingpingping: After chatting for so long, we haven't talked through each other, only heard your voice on the phone.

Orphan: The voice is expressed too quickly and cannot keep time.I want to see more of you.

Tranquility: Let's have a drink, just to coincide with each other.

Gu Ben: Cheers!

Tranquility: It's not a bad thing to drink with you.

Orphan: You can't live in depression every day, youth is precious, you should know how to enjoy and use time more.No direction is not a reason, at least you have to know what you want to do, don't worry too much, you should try it when you think about it.

Tranquility: Suddenly I feel ridiculous.Obviously I live more tired than anyone else, but I still persuade her to live a good life and be happy every day.

Although the topic is heavy, the state is relaxed, and although the state is relaxed, the mood is heavy.Before he knew it, Xiang Ping had already drank three bottles.The wine made Xiangping more real, and when he lit a cigarette, his brows were drawn together inadvertently.

Gu Ben: As long as you treat me half as well as that girl, I will be satisfied, I will be jealous of her.

Ping Ping: Aren’t you brother?Don't mess around.

Orphan: You have already smoked the fourth cigarette, if you smoke less, it will be bad for your health.

Ping Ping: I want to smoke while drinking. Smoking can relieve boredom and choke to death the bugs in the lungs. There are many benefits.

Sincere concern makes people feel good, and Xiang Ping is in the mood to joke without knowing it.Seeing his face suddenly brighten, Gu Ben feels a little relieved.

Gu Ben: You always do things against me, be obedient, little boy, don't make me worry.

Tranquility: My parents are used to it, I am used to it, and you will gradually get used to it.Don't call me Xiaoguai from now on, it sounds awkward.

Gu Ben: Then I have to smoke a cigarette to relieve boredom.

Ping Ping: Go to sleep!It's twelve o'clock.

Gu Ben: I'm not sleepy yet, let's drink some more.

Ping Ping: When you get old, your body will be overwhelmed.

Gu Ben: Alright!you should also rest earlier.

Turn off the video.Xiang Ping looked at the message Su Ran sent him at 09:30

Su Ran: Why aren't you here today? I'm going to bed. In the past few days, I feel a lot more relaxed, and I seem to think about it a lot. What you said is very useful to me, hehe.I hope you are better too, I feel that you are not happy sometimes.

The sudden melancholy came from Gu Ben's concern for him.Blindly accepting the care of others makes you feel uneasy and owed.Without the orphan, the computer becomes meaningless.He turned off the computer and lay on the bed thinking about the relationship between Su Ran and Gu Ben in his heart.The more I thought about it, the more entangled I became, my head started to hurt and I couldn't fall asleep.After struggling for two hours, I finally got up at two o'clock in the morning and resurrected the computer.Write down what you want to say to the orphan with impulsiveness, and get used to not hiding anything from the orphan emotionally.

Calm and calm: a feeling of freshness that seems irresistible.It came so suddenly that there was no defense at all.The routine life is no longer what it used to be.I thought it could be distinguished, but two smiling faces that are different from others often appear in life.One is her and the other is you.Trying desperately to think that things should be the way they should be.But when it came, it was like a torrent of water, covering the whole world, and the peace was gone.

I thought she would always be the main idea in my mind, yeah.Including still is.But your signal is endowed with unstoppable magic power, which erodes the general purity little by little.I tried hard to control it, but found that the more it was like this, the more it would repeat itself.Knowing that you are not perfect, and knowing that there is no such thing as perfection.Should have been troubled by this, but neglected to worry.Slowly it seems that there is a feeling of attachment.It is beautiful because it is real.It is complicated, because there is a dream in reality, and the dream seems to be reality.

Since it's written for you, let's just talk about the feelings between you and me!Don't want to be serious but don't know how to face it.I don't want you to be serious, but it's a bit unreasonable.As time goes on, there will be disputes, not as good as the most beautiful love at the beginning.I wanted to break this relationship, but Yiyi was nostalgic for it.It's good to keep the feeling for you, but it starts to change little by little, after all, human nature is to constantly seek change.Now I can tolerate all your nonsense, even if you often mess around.I'm afraid it will change after a long time. This is an inevitable process of development.I think it is better to have flowers without fruit than to have fruit without flowers, because flowers are beautiful, and personal feelings are different.I can no longer tell whether there should be flowers but no fruit or fruit but no flowers, but I can only choose one of the two.Now I know that going with the flow is actually a compromise after helplessness.I know I like you, but I can't like you like now, because my heart can't be at peace when I bear your care.

Sometimes I don't want to do things I don't understand, because it's too tiring.They will do it secretly again.The main purpose of writing a letter is to think that you can tell right from wrong, so that you can light a beacon when I don't know.I started to rely on you invisibly, you give me the feeling that I can rely on, but I don't want to.I know you are a sensible person.Including the current hope is a kind of dependence, no one likes to rely on others like me.

I firmly believe that I will avoid chaos in the end, I hope I won't make you confused because of this, I don't think so, it's my act of acting like a baby!

I don't even understand how I feel about you now, it's more than affection, more than liking, it's not like friendship, not a netizen, it shouldn't be love.

I don’t know how you feel when you read the letter. I didn’t realize how selfish I was in the previous letter and this letter until I read it. I have been taking your concern for granted, and I don’t know why.I didn't think about your feelings, until now I found out how considerate you are, you know how to care about me, I know now, so every time I want to vent, I will think of you, you always do what I want, I haven't heard a single complaint from you until today.

Sometimes I can see your attitude, so I get entangled.I'm looking for lost direction.I hope that the troubles caused by selfishness can be properly resolved by yourself.You know reality and consequences better, so if I'm wrong, you can say it without thinking.

I'm selfish and I'll take it easy by doing this.

miss you one night

Little brother who is not called Xiaoguai

After the news was sent, it was very relaxed, and the entanglement in my heart could be vented.Looking at the time, it was already [-]:[-], and I turned off the computer again, so I could fall asleep with peace of mind.