sorry i left

Chapter 8

In countless sleepless nights, I believe that there will be many people who will habitually close their eyes, quietly miss a person, miss a face.In their hearts, it may be enough to have such a person to miss.

The room did not become more lively because of the arrival of one more person, but it was actually more dull and silent than before.The door is open, the bedroom is neat and tidy, the living room is comfortable and simple, carbon dioxide is floating in the air unscrupulously.The little thing on the sofa called out from time to time, and touched here and there with two fleshy paws, making it hard for people to like it or not.Obviously everything planned is so beautiful, and even what makes her feel beautiful is a little unreal, but why can't it continue like this?

By the way, when did it start?Since when did I fall in love with Qiu Yuqing?Was it from the first time she complained that she lost her temper with her every day, thinking that she was just a punching bag, and it was not necessary?Or the day when I broke up with her?

An Jiayue didn't know, she didn't know when Qiu Yuqing lived in her heart, let alone when she started paying attention to this girl named Qiu Yuqing.She only knew that since the day they broke up, after she told Qiu Yuqing the word "breakup", she quit the Internet before she got an answer, and never logged into that account again.Since that day, her heart seemed to be missing something, it was empty, and she couldn't get motivated to do anything. She who used to talk less now is even less, and sometimes she can't even open her mouth for a day. In a word.Gradually, she began to miss the girl she met on the Internet. She thought that she would talk to herself every time she was online, and she thought that sometimes when she suddenly couldn’t find a topic, she would send emojis to herself like a child. She thinks that sometimes when she is in a bad mood or in a bad state, she will always send a question about what's the matter with concern, and she even wants to feel so comfortable every time she gets angry at her, but forgets to take her feelings into consideration , but she always said to herself, as long as you are happy, it doesn't matter.Every time I think of this, I will curl up like a baby and cry, it is guilt, grievance, sadness, and helplessness.Maybe after that day, I grew up, became mature, learned to be patient, stopped losing my temper to anyone, and learned to hide all negative emotions.It seems that it was during that time period that I became close friends with Han Wei and Cheng Yiqian, but I never told them anything about myself, greeted them with a smile every day, and never got angry once.

However, she seemed to have lost someone, a person who was very good to her, she lost it.

This loss is three years.Only An Jiayue knew how she got here in the past three years in this world without Qiu Yuqing.

Hehe, it's all over now. Fortunately, she has worked so hard to hide the matter for three years. All the people in the three years were exposed to everyone's eyes because of this sudden cold, and her scars that had scabbed A tear was torn out again, a bloody wound that would never heal.

God, you are so unfeeling, you are so unfeeling that you want to take away even a little bit of my humble happiness, you don't even let me guard her by her side, and don't give me the chance to be friends with her, why don't you even let me like this? The fate is also taken away together.

"It's all true." When An Jiayue recalled the past with panic all over her face, Qiu Yuqing walked up to her at some point, and said to her in a hoarse and unusually calm voice, holding a With that notebook.Although she knew that all of this was true, that An Jiayue was Xia Lingxuan, the Xia Lingxuan whom Qiu Yuqing had missed for three years, she still couldn't accept this fact. She wanted to hear an explanation from An Jiayue. Let An Jiayue tell her that this was actually a misunderstanding, not what she thought, even if she made up a reason that even a fool would not believe, she would definitely believe it.

An Jiayue is Xia Lingxuan, this was Qiu Yuqing's first thought after reading the diary.Her diary is very thick. The dark red book without any decorations has about 200 pages, and the number of articles she has written is not even a quarter.The strange thing is that the date is not written at the beginning of each diary, but goes straight to the topic.On average, there are four or five articles written on each page, and each article only has a few lines. This will undoubtedly speed up Qiu Yuqing's reading speed, and the matter between her and Xia Lingxuan was written by An Jiayue on the first few pages, as you can imagine , Qiu Yuqing, who has finished reading the first few chapters, no longer has the heart to read the following content, which also becomes the key to a series of stories that follow.

An Jiayue is Xia Lingxuan, and Xia Lingxuan is An Jiayue.ha!The person I have liked for three years is actually a woman, a person of the same gender as me, look, how ridiculous and ironic.What's even more ridiculous is that I didn't realize it at all, Qiu Yuqing, Qiu Yuqing, why are you so stupid?There are so many flaws, but you haven't discovered them yet?You should have known that when she named the cat Xiao Xia, you should have understood.You actually regarded this incident as a coincidence, cried for this woman night after night, and wanted to become good friends with her, and heard Han Wei say that when she was in the hospital, she hurried over to see her regardless of the heavy snowfall outside, Worried about what happened to her.Qiu Yuqing, you are so stupid!There is really no one in the world who is more stupid, stupid and ignorant than you!You are an out-and-out fool!

"I didn't expect it to be exposed so soon! It's really boring." For some reason, after listening to Qiu Yuqing's questioning, An Jiayue not only faded the previous frightened expression, but returned to the original one. With a heartless smile, he answered casually.At the same time, he reached out and snatched the diary from the opponent's hand, flipped through it briefly, and then threw it on the table not far from her like throwing garbage.Walking to the table and leaning against the table, he yawned absent-mindedly, as if he was telling something unimportant to her.

"So you admit it?" Really, it's all true, Qiu Yuqing, you can see, this is the person you have liked for three years, he doesn't take you seriously at all, he is just for fun, you But foolishly moved his heart.You really should wake up, you fell in love with a scum, a scum through and through!

"Huh? What can't you admit? I admit that when I first met you three years ago, I did regard you as a friend. As for the gender, you didn't ask me and didn't say anything. Then you chatted with me every day and I also accompanied you." You, I’m just bored, pass the time. Then you said you like me, hey, do you know? I laughed for a long time! You actually said you like me, a girl like me? And we haven’t met yet, I haven’t even posted a photo. But, there’s no way, I’m afraid that after I reject you, no one will chat with me, it will be so boring, so I agree, anyway, I’m just for fun, and I don’t know how to move True love. Then, then, I would find trouble and lose my temper with you every day. I didn’t expect you to endure it all. It seems that one day you couldn’t help it. I remember that you seemed to say a punching bag, but there was But it’s nothing, and then I desperately said sorry to save you. At that time, I couldn’t stand up from laughing, and I kept thinking, there are such stupid people in the world, haha! Oh my god, no way I’m going to die of joy.” An Jiayue covered her stomach with her hands as she spoke, laughing out loud occasionally, as if she saw a very funny video or a funny picture, and laughed straight I can't afford to lose my waist.

For Qiu Yuqing, these actions of hers undoubtedly sprinkled a lot of salt on the unhealed wound, which made her extremely sad.And her "perpetrator" is now in front of a "victim", laughing out loud.Laughing at her stupidity, laughing at her stupidity, laughing at the sincerity she once gave, and now she threw them on the ground mercilessly, smashing them to pieces.

Throughout the room, only An Jiayue's heart-piercing laughter could be heard.

"Ha, ha, ha..." After a while, amidst An Jiayue's endless laughter, Qiu Yuqing suddenly imitated her and laughed out loud, more hysterically than before.When An Jiayue heard the laughter, it was obviously not what she expected, the sound stopped abruptly, and her eyes were fixed on Qiu Yuqing who was laughing wildly.

"Okay, what a good one who only chats with me to pass the time. An Jiayue, you think too much of yourself, don't you? Why do you think I really liked you? How can you Why do you think that I am not like you, and I chat with you because I want to pass the time? Sometimes, I really don’t want to overestimate my position in other people’s hearts. Maybe you are nothing in others’ hearts.”

Holding back the tears so hard that they wouldn't fall, Qiu Yuqing finished speaking without even looking up at her. If you take a look at her at this moment, you will definitely see this stubborn girl gritting her teeth to prevent her from falling. It should belong to the red and swollen eyes that appeared at this time when some kind of liquid slipped from the eye sockets...

After Qiu Yuqing finished speaking, she wanted to leave, but before she took a step with her legs, she turned around as if she suddenly thought of something, walked up to An Jiayue, looked at the playful face of the other party, and raised her eyebrows without thinking. right hand...

"Snapped!"

"what are you doing?"

Applause and roar sounded almost at the same time. Han Wei, who had been silently watching everything from the sidelines, saw Qiu Yuqing raise her right hand and guessed what she was going to do, but An Jiayue didn't seem to Seeing the same thing, she didn't say anything, didn't hide, and let that slap hit her bloodless face hard.

An Jiayue, you are stupid!You are hiding, how can you not hide when you see that she is going to hit you?

The body reacted quickly, and the next second after the applause fell, Han Wei immediately walked over and squeezed into the gap between An Jiayue and Qiu Yuqing to prevent Qiu Yuqing from making similar actions again.Looking at An Jiayue whose face was already blushing quickly, bangs blocked her eyes so that her expression could not be seen. One could imagine how hard Qiu Yuqing's slap was just now.Han Wei stood between them, looking at Qiu Yuqing warily, like a mother protecting her child from being bullied by others.

"This slap is what you owe me. From now on, we will never owe each other." Regardless of Han Wei's gaze on her, after saying this, Qiu Yuqing walked out of the bedroom and walked out of their room. The field of vision left only two people in this empty room, each with their own thoughts.

Qiu Yuqing, perhaps, this is the last thing I can do for you.From now on, you must be careful, forget Xia Lingxuan, forget An Jiayue, forget everything that happened in the past few months, don't remember anything.Be a good girl to your parents and a good student on weekdays.You will have an infinitely beautiful future, a comfortable job, a group of good friends who talk about everything, and even someone who loves you more than your parents, cares about you more, and takes care of you more. , you will take everyone's blessings, get married, have children, simply, and live happily for a lifetime.

It's just that person, it can't and shouldn't be me.

As if something terrible was chasing her, Qiu Yuqing ran downstairs in one breath, panting heavily.At the same time, two lines of tears finally fell to the ground weakly because they couldn't bear the pressure.In the season of heavy snow, there are very few pedestrians on the road, only some people walk in groups on the way home, and most of them will carry shopping bags one after another in their hands, talking and laughing, so happy .There was only one woman wearing a goose-white down jacket that was in direct proportion to the snow scene at that time, squatting alone in the snow, trembling all over, with her arms wrapped around her knees, and her head was naturally buried in her two arms , Occasionally, a few strangers would pass by her side after casting doubtful eyes, without showing the slightest worry or nostalgia, and no one extended a helping hand to her.Over time, she naturally became the fruit among vegetables, the toy among fruits, the snack among toys, and the outlier among these people.

Xia Lingxuan...An Jiayue...how could this happen?Why let her know such a cruel truth when she has already decided to give up everything?Why did she want to look through that diary?If she didn't see it, she could still live in her carefully crafted lies, and they could still fight like good friends.Why?You clearly said you don't love me anymore, gave up, got bored, and never see each other again, but now you're squatting on the ground crying like a child abandoned by your parents?

But, An Jiayue, why didn't you even give me a reason to continue deceiving me?Are you so cruel?

"Yuqing?" There really is such a coincidence in the world, Su Qing, the mayor's daughter who slept until the afternoon and didn't get up from the bed, wanted to call Qiu Yuqing to play after seeing the heavy snow outside, but Later, he thought that Qiu Xueba's daily sleep and forgetting to eat and study should be like this in this weather, so he gave up this idea, got dressed and prepared to go out for a stroll by himself.I came here after strolling around, and then I saw a woman wearing a white down jacket squatting on the snow alone. She looked very similar to my best friend Qiu Yuqing, walked over with doubts in my heart, and tried screamed violently.

Hearing the sound and looking up, there was no glare of the sun, but an earthy yellow sky that was more gloomy than in the morning.

"Yuqing, is it really you? Why are you crying? What happened?" Looking at the person who was called slowly raised his head, his face reappeared in the air, with red and swollen eyes and wet tears, like She was telling Su Qing that the girl in front of her was already extremely sad and couldn't bear any more harm.

"Su Qing, Su Qing! What should I do, what should I do? I really can't let it go." Seeing Su Qing, Qiu Yuqing seemed to have grasped a life-saving straw. She squatted down and quickly stood up, hugging her anxiously. Su Qing buried her head on her shoulder and cried loudly regardless of her image.

This was the first time Su Qing saw Qiu Yuqing like this, and also the first time she saw her crying. She firmly believed in her heart that something must have happened to cause this.Because in her eyes, Qiu Yuqing was not only her best friend, but also a top student, and also an exceptionally strong girl.Because her parents go out to work, it takes a long time to come back. Even if they come back, they will leave after staying for a few days. Except for school time, she spends it alone.If it was Su Qing, she would have complained long ago, but she didn't, her smile remained the same every day, and she never heard a single word of complaint from her.If she hadn't asked by accident, Su Qing probably wouldn't know until now that Qiu Yuqing, her best friend, spends every day like this. It turns out that she is so strong, so strong, it makes people feel distressed.

"Hey, Yuqing, let's go home first, and then slowly tell me what happened, okay?" Su Qing hugged Qiu Yuqing with one hand, and gently patted her on the back with the other hand, her eyes were full of tears. Distressed.

"En." Although the other party only uttered one word, it was enough to put half of Su Qing's heart at ease.