our town

Chapter 40 Shocked

It's raining, and I'm in a bad mood. Sambo has been away for three days, and I haven't slept very late.

I like the sunshine when I open my eyes, and the brightness when I open the window.When I open my eyes, there is sunshine, and I feel full of energy today, but when I open my eyes, it is cloudy, and I feel depressed.I love sunshine and like to run with the light.

Some other students in the community moved here, and for the sake of low rent, five or six of them lived together.I went to say hello, a big house of men and women.

The students didn't dislike me because I skipped classes too much. On the contrary, they were very polite and curious to me. After all, I was a person who often went to bars, KTVs and casinos in their eyes, although I didn't say it clearly. However, there are some clues in the usual speech.

There was a female classmate in that house who chased me back in my sophomore year. I didn't take it seriously at all. When we met again, he was with her boyfriend, and I didn't feel embarrassed. The ignorance of puberty was gone.It's not true.

A classmate came to me to play cards, and I lost all night.Don't blame me, they're in partnership.

In order to save money, a classmate only spent more than 200 a month.

A few students have started a barbecue business, and it is said that it is to repay the unpaid tuition fees.He used tuition as gambling money.

I went to join in.

Seeing a decent barbecue chef on the side of the road, I wanted to laugh. I remembered my part-time job. In order to sell an extra toothpaste, I also tried my best to yell.

I walked over: "Boss, here are ten skewers of mutton skewers, two green peppers, and one crucian carp."

"Okay." Seeing that it was me, the classmate immediately beamed with joy: "Tian Tian, ​​long time no see. I heard that you are going into big business?"

"What a big business, I'm staying at home."

"My classmates are all teasing you. The most handsome guy in our class has gone to sea to make a fortune."

"No way, I have nothing to do recently, and I don't have a part-time job. I'm just dawdling."

"You can't mix it up, you are the face value of our class, you are mixed up, what should we do?"

I decided to tease him: "Then I would like to ask the master, can you bake a few more skewers in charge of appearance?"

I was thinking about the meat in his hand, it was greasy, and I wanted to eat it right away.

"I'm talking about Tian Dapanhua, can you be more promising? Also, how did you get such a body that you can eat without getting fat?"

How did you make it?If you have a boyfriend like Sanbao, try it, you won’t get fat if you eat a ton a day.I cursed in my heart.

"Abused."

"Hey, who dares to abuse you, if you say it, our classmates will definitely beat him."

Although what he said was a joke, it was quite comfortable to listen to, and it was not in vain that I spent a lot of money to support him.

The friendship between classmates is still serious and serious, and there are absolutely no random topics, except for school fun and employment arrangements. Talking about normal life with them, I feel like I am alive again.

I can't live without Sambo and Wu Le, but I pursue such a simple life. These two parallel lines with different trajectories each go in their own directions and never intersect.

Two straight lines in the same plane that do not intersect or coincide are called parallel lines.

I learned so well in elementary school, and I can think of it at this time.

The life that Sanbao and I need is like two parallel lines, I cling to him stiffly, when the time comes, straighten it out, we will have nothing to do with each other...

It rained again today, one autumn rain and one cold.

Sambo has been gone for a week.

Xiao Yan invited me to dinner, and we went to find the first-class beef noodles. In a corner of the noisy and humid vegetable market, there was a family of Lao Liu beef noodles, referred to as Da Lao Liu.

There is a lot of powder, the soup is very fragrant, and the taste is surprisingly good.Sambo and I often come here to eat.

Xiao Yan and I went for a walk, walking slowly, in the park next to the school, listening to him talking about his family affairs.

Xiao Yan is a native of G city. He has studied both undergraduate and master. He was a good boy in the eyes of others since he was a child, but he fell in love with a boy who flew a kite when he was adolescence. The boy is straight and he only treats him as a brother. He has loved him for many years. Watching him falling in love and taking college entrance examinations, she also sarcastically helped him make suggestions, and helped him come up with a plan to chase his girlfriend.

Only he knew it in his heart, he smiled, but his heart was bitter.

He confessed his love after the college entrance examination. Unsurprisingly, he was shocked and resisted by the other party. The other party punched him and said that the brother had nothing to do.Xiao Yan was sad for a summer vacation, and went to other places for two months before returning.

Xiao Yan's parents are very busy and have no time to pay attention to their children.When you find out that your child is different from others, it has already been stereotyped, but his parents don't blame him, just tell him that he likes it, as long as you think it suits you, regardless of gender, the family supports it.

I envy him for having such enlightened parents, envy his independent life, and envy his spirit of pursuing himself.

He is lonely but full, I seem to have love, but bitter.None of us spoke, feeling the quietness of the lake.

He doesn't need comfort, and I don't need hugs. We are all losers in the emotional world. If we get it or not, we will have nowhere to live.

There are many people I like, but there are very few people I have always liked. I envy Xiao Yan's preference for his first love for so many years.

The feelings of youth are always like a thorn, which cannot be pulled out. It remains in the deepest part of my heart, and comes out to harass me from time to time.

I know that Xiao Yan has not forgotten his first love for so many years, and now he just succumbs to reality.

I asked him how he was with you, and he said flatly, "I got married, I got married after graduating from college, and I chased after her in high school. I helped her chase, it's good, after all, I listened to me once."

He was silent for a while: "He was drunk on the wedding day, called me, and told me in tears, saying that I was a beast, who had been with him for so many years, and never came to get married, why he insisted on liking men, why he couldn't be a lifetime Brother, two people have been brothers for so many years, two people can go on forever, why did you ruin him, why did you leave so many traces in my life, I also dream about you, I also play with you, buy milk tea It's you, it's you who eat hot pot, I've been you for three years, but you abandoned us, I hate you so much, I can't find the person who treats me best anymore, I hate you, I hate you, Why do you like me, I hate myself why don't I like you, I hate the years when we disappeared, I miss you more and more, can you hear, you hear the words, why don't you appear, I can't find Now that I've reached that person, I can't find the person who is full of me. If there is a next life, I don't want to see you anymore. If there is a next life, if there is a next life, if there is a next life, I will..."

I was overwhelmed by the relationship between the two of them. There are so many men and women in the world who are married. As long as one person treats you well and treats you wholeheartedly, one day he will live in your heart and affect your life.

Xiao Yan's first love is like a thorn.

In that person's heart, Xiao Yan is not a thorn in his heart, and the longer it goes, the deeper it gets.

Xiao Yan rubbed my head: "The first time I saw you, I thought you were very similar to him. You are persistent, brave, and have your own world. You seem soft and cute, but you are actually quite difficult to deal with."

"No, I can deal with it very well."

"Oh, that's my mistake."

Neither Xiao Yan nor I were talking, Xiao Yan wanted to move forward, but I was shrinking back, my heart was full of three treasures, and I couldn't accept him.How can I get Xiao Yan's favor? In Xiao Yan's eyes, I am like a koala living in the cracks. I am cared for and encouraged. As a friend, I deceive myself and others.

Xiao Yan told me a lot, about the social status quo, his own understanding, the harsh government of the Qin royal family, and ten houses and nine empty houses.The rule of Zhenguan in the Sui and Tang Dynasties and the Luo Zhijing written by Lai Junchen, from Emperor Wu of the Western Han Dynasty to the secret history of the Liu family.Xiao Yan's erudition and knowledge of unofficial history made me look sideways. I listened with gusto. A long time passed without knowing it. By the time I remembered that I was going home, it was already past one o'clock in the evening. Such a good atmosphere would inevitably not happen. What, I'm still thinking about how I will refuse.Xiao Yan has already said directly: "It's too late, I'll take you back first, thank you for listening to my nagging all night, it's really good to be with you."

I was moved by his elegance, thinking how could there be such a sensible and caring person in the world, and hurriedly replied: "Then see you next time, next time I will take you to a better place to eat, but I discovered exclusively Oh."

Xiao Yan smiled and said yes.

Dajin’s wife’s cooking is becoming more and more like this. From the beginning, the two are fried together, and now they can be stewed. I went to the tooth festival several times, and I lamented that Dajin’s family status is getting worse and worse than before. .

A few friends came to Dajin’s house, they said they were classmates in junior high school, and there was one with whom I was particularly close, called Ah Heng, we had a very happy conversation, and it seemed like we would never see each other again, he understood what I was talking about, he I can accept what I said, Da Jin's wife knows me, and let me get married on the spot, I rolled her eyes: "Sister, I can do it, I'm afraid he can't."

Everyone laughed like crazy, they had to look at Ah Heng.

Ah Heng often came to my house afterwards, I don't like to play games.Sometimes I am reading and he is playing games.

Wu Le started to establish diplomatic relations with me after Sambo left, and resumed his former friend status, but he no longer participated in the topic of Sanbao and me.

I always call Sanbao after five o'clock in the afternoon, and Sanbao said that he has already settled down there, and he can pick me up to play for two days after a while. I am looking forward to it, waiting.

Sambo has been getting drunk more and more recently. When he is drunk, he will call me and tell me who doesn’t listen to him, that the team is difficult to manage, that making money is hard, and that he misses me outside. Every time I hear this, I feel uncomfortable I want to die, why is it so difficult to make money.

At that time, I was already afraid of being oppressed by the Three Treasures, and I didn't dare to go to work, and I could barely get by with his meager living expenses.

At that time, I was too stupid and impulsive. After another drunk phone call from Sanbao, I made the biggest wrong decision in my life, and now I regret it even thinking about it.

I decided to sell things, you know.

I decided not to work so hard for Sambo, and to do something that can make money quickly and quickly.

I told Wu Le my idea, and apart from worrying about safety, Wu Le only agreed with it a hundred times, saying, "Good idea."

And so I embarked on the most daring journey of my life.

I first consulted Dajin and Xiaojin, they hang out in the city every day, and they have the most ways. Dajin told me that Ah Heng can do it. Ah Heng used to do this. Yes, I called Ah Heng.

"I'll discuss something with you, don't be surprised, brother, I'm going to sell things."

Ah Heng was stunned for a few seconds and said, "Okay."

"But I don't have a network, I don't know where to buy goods, but I have channels to sell goods. Wu Le and Da Jin have so many friends. If you buy goods, Da Jin says you know."

"Well~~, I do know, I have taken it occasionally before, but I haven't gone for a long time, I'll contact you to have a look, and I'll let you know when I get in touch."

I know that Ah Heng is thinking about it, and I'm not in a hurry, after all, I haven't got the principal of the purchase. I looked at the group of friends who were sadder than me, thought it over, and decided to ask Xiao Yan.

I was stupid back then, as soon as I thought about it, I would do whatever I wanted, as long as I got involved with the Three Treasures, I would run amok.

Actually, I was unwilling to ask Xiao Yan to borrow money, but there was no one around me who could come up with a sum of money.

Ah Heng replied to me within a day, saying yes, I can get it, about 8000 packs.In S city.

More than 8000, I decided to ask Xiao Yan: "Brother Yan, can you lend me some money?"

"Yes, how much do you want?"

"Ten thousand."

"Can you tell me what happened? Or what was the money for?"

"It's just something, it's not convenient to talk about it."

"Okay, I'll bring it to you tomorrow night."

……

Now I really want to beat me up at that time, this is a stupid idea, this is the most unbearable fool, I am a fool, how could I do such a thing, I thought I was awesome, I wanted to have the best of both worlds A way to earn money that doesn't take up time or work.

Xiao Yan delivered the money that night, put it in an envelope, and drove downstairs to me. He only told me to pay attention to my own safety and to tell him if I had something to say.Just left in a hurry.

Holding the envelope with his body temperature, I felt that Xiao Yan was too kind to me.If I break up with Sambo, I will definitely be with Xiao Yan.

His goodness made me not know what to do.

But there are not so many ifs in life.

In fact, I don’t feel how much Xiao Yan loves me in my heart. He just likes me, and his liking exists in his affection, and in his affection, he sees the shadow of his past. He once said that his first love liked to wear jeans and a white T-shirt.I still laughed at him at that time: "Do you like whoever wears it like this?"

He replied to me: "That's not true, I only like Tian Tian's clothes."

I don't know what kind of feelings Xiao Yan has for me. Sometimes I feel that he only wants to be like me, and sometimes I feel that he only wants to be my friend. He is also a teacher and a friend, just like my partner and me I don’t understand, maybe I’m just a joke of his busy work, maybe I’m the shadow he’s looking for, maybe I’m his hope for a new start, or maybe I’m the one he’ll never get through heart.

No matter what kind it belongs to, when I encountered difficulties, Xiao Yan sent money over without hesitation, which touched me a bit. To this day, I suddenly understand Lao Wang's mood at that time.

Shocked, touched, I almost want to promise myself...