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Chapter 36 The Moonlight That Night

I reconciled with Sanbao in this way. I first gave up my dignity and the bottom line, and chose to approach him again.He is like a poppy, blooming on the shore of the devil, swaggering, swaying, and charming.

Everyone says that drugs are terrible, and drugs can turn people into demons, but I say that the three treasures are terrible, and the love of the three treasures can make people degenerate.Knowing that it was an abyss, I stepped into it step by step, feeling unstoppable.

His love is like air, enveloping me, rushing and pounding in my 20s.

I remember that when I was young, I often caught moths. For some reason, there were always moths flying into my house. They were all huge, beautiful, and beautiful. I caught one after another, made them into specimens, and died. Nailed dead in cardboard, under glass.

I feel like a moth when I was a child. Knowing that this is a fire pit, I still jump down as always, and I have the courage to never die.

The moths when I was young seemed to have given me a warning in the early stage. In my life, I was doomed to experience a moth to the flame.

This time when Sambo came back, it was unusual for him not to coax me, but to say that he was tired, and I asked him if the hotel room was still available?He said he had no money and left early.

I know that we are again facing the most real problem, life.

Life is like a giant beast, it will eat you to death with one bite, no matter how kind, hardworking, or innocent you are, you can't afford to pay less.

When you open your eyes, you have to pay for it, and you have to pay for your saliva.If you can't transform space into food, you should face reality as soon as possible, struggle less, surrender to the law earlier, and detach yourself earlier.

It’s almost June, and the landlord has urged me several times. I’ve never been in arrears with my rent. This time, I’m also a little upset. I always feel that I owe someone else something.

I have always been unwilling to owe others anything. My father said that it is easy to pay back the money owed, but it is difficult to pay back the debt owed to others for the rest of my life.This sentence generated a seed in my heart, took root and made a fortune, and has been spurring me.So I have always been generous, willing others to owe me, and I don't want me to owe others.

During that time, we lived frugally, seldom went out, and even bought one bottle of drink at a time.Ten yuan of cabbage can also be eaten with rice for several meals, but it is not an option to go on like this.

I don't know where Sanbao heard that Pharaoh owed me 1 yuan.After he confirmed it, he began to force me to ask Lao Wang for money. Lao Wang helped me just now. It is unreasonable to ask him for money now. Think of a way to cheat a little from Lao Wang, get money and save face.

After much deliberation, Sanbao made a suggestion: "You are stupid, you have nothing to do now, and it doesn't sound good to say that paying the rent, just say that your cousin has something to do at school, and you need to get [-] to use it."

I thought it was right, this is the only reason why people have to help, and I can only sacrifice my cousin's image.

I bite the bullet and sent Lao Wang a message. After receiving the message, Lao Wang didn't say a word, just said yes, and sent the money later.

Lao Wang really came after nine o'clock that night. He was driving with his friend and introduced me to his friend when he saw me: "This is Tian Tian. I told you that when I was in trouble, he wouldn't say anything. I lent me 1 yuan, my handle, my brother."

The man looked at me several times, and nodded in disbelief. Old Wang was still talking excitedly: "How about it, handsome, I'm a good guy, and I'm handsome. I've told many people about it. , Tian Tian is a good brother."

The man nodded with certainty and said hello to me. I also nodded and replied to him.

I was flattered by Lao Wang's attitude, and even felt guilty. I knew I had lied to him. I wasn't sure if he had already guessed that it was an excuse. Lao Wang didn't mention it, so I couldn't guess. I held my hand, and asked me: "Isn't your cousin looking very honest? Why is he still causing trouble at school?"

I didn't know how to answer, so I could only make up nonsense: "I don't know either, maybe it's a small matter, and he said it would cost money."

God knows how much effort and how much disguise I used in this conversation with Lao Wang.I have always been self-appointed. Most of the circles of Sanbao and Wu Le are not well-educated and not mainstream. They are the kind who live in the darkest bottom of society. They gamble, smoke drugs, lend usury, and go to nightclubs. I read a lot, I have a high degree of education, and I am clearer and brighter than them, and I am far-sighted and far-reaching. I naturally feel that I am pure and noble in my heart. Lies like this, and I have to lie about my relatives, and I have to keep the lie alive, really. It is the first time to do it.

I feel that I have fallen, and I am the same as Sambo Wu Le. I will lie and take advantage of other people's weaknesses. I regard other people's love for me as a means to obtain money.

I'm not well, I'm dirty.The only heart I keep is also in the assimilation of the three treasures, and it is getting farther and farther away from Qinggao.

What a clean and noble character, from this night onwards, I am no longer.

After sending Lao Wang away, I was still sad in my heart. Sanbao was only happy when he saw the money, but he couldn't understand how I felt about holding the money.Sanbao just said: "It's all right now, I have money to pay the rent." After thinking for a while, he continued: "You are so generous, you can lend 1 yuan to others, not to me? If you want this money now, too difficult."

He never thought that it was my money. I lent it to Lao Wang privately. It had nothing to do with him. In his eyes, I was his property, including my money.

I don't want to argue with him. After all, we just reconciled. I need Sanbao's love, just like Sanbao needs my home. He has no place to go, and his home is in the suburbs. Sleeping, and there is a little cutie who loves him every day, who would not want to change it?

But what I can be sure of is that Sambo had feelings for me at the time. If he had no feelings, he would not waste time on me again and again. Just listening to what he said, there are many willing I don’t know if the person who provided him with a residence and life is true or not, but I believed it firmly at the time. I think Sambo should have this kind of charm, and everyone who sees him will like him.

I was so obsessed with Sambo at that time, I thought he had a good nose, a good mouth, a good figure, good clothes, and even better undressed.Even his not-so-big eyes, I think they have personality, especially the contempt when looking at people, which is simply sexy. At that time, I was afraid that the three treasures would be snatched away. I thought that others should have the same eyesight as me. I think Sambo looks good.

His brothers also joined in, often boasting that Sambo is good-looking, and sometimes pretending to be mysterious that someone has taken a fancy to Sambo and wants to make an appointment with him.When I heard this, I was so angry that I really wanted to beat up his friend, then lock Sanbao into the house and not allow him to go anywhere.

The rent issue was resolved, and I breathed a sigh of relief. The only thing left to solve was the food issue. The remaining 300 yuan would not last for a few days. I proposed to work as a waiter at a KTV, but Sanbao disagreed.Last year I still acted like I was following me, but this year I don’t want to say anything, saying that the occasion was not good and I don’t like others to harass me.

His stinginess makes me happy, I know he is also afraid of me now, afraid that I will know someone else, afraid that I will not want him, although he has always taken advantage of and exploited me, but what belongs to him, he still does not want others to think about it .

This is the instinct of a male beast to enclose the land. Even if he doesn't like it too much, as long as he puts a mark on it and knows that this thing is his own, then he should protect it in his arms, and he can't give it to others if he doesn't use it.

Sambo's overbearing made me happy, I think this is the love in the legend, at that time, I was loving and being loved, I felt very happy.Although we have to worry about life every now and then, but the old saying goes well: If you are sentient, drink enough water.The two of us live frugally at home, and we also feel that beauty is bubbling.

We quarreled again, I don’t know why, it’s a little thing, I didn’t do much, I pushed a few times, I have been suppressed by him for a long time, I forgot how to fight back, I habitually shed tears when I was wronged, this tear is not pain, It is for my own sorrow, like a love song, and it is my living self who is crying.

From childhood to adulthood, not to mention the infinite scenery, I was also a good young man. I have eaten all the benefits with a single face, and no one said that I jumped in the line at the buffet occasionally. When the people in the line saw how good-looking I was, I just smiled and I could solve them. anger.

I am well aware of the real society, how many benefits a good-looking face can bring to myself, and I enjoy myself.

I am proud, high-minded, I think I am superior to others, and the love I imagined is also Prince Charming, but when I met Sambo, everything changed, the prince became a groom, the palace became a prison cell, and the holiness of love only remains Unbearable, even the most basic life is unbearable.

On the contrary, I am a little envious of Pan Pan. I envy him for having a hard-working and enterprising family, for his harmonious parents, for his elder brother who understands cold and hot, for his peaceful and pollution-free environment, and for his ability to live in Roaming and developing in his own world, I envy him that he doesn't have to experience the state of making troubles for money.

Pan Pan, I have fallen for love.You must hold on to the last human ideal for me, fight for it, work hard, and turn everything I think into reality.

The rent was paid and there was no money to pay the electricity bill. The electricity bill company sent bills several times and called to notify me. If I didn’t pay the money, the power would be cut off.

Fortunately, natural gas is used for cooking, otherwise we would not even be able to cook. In the end, we only had less than 100 yuan left. We bought a little loose rice and a few packs of noodles. We used the little money we had left to buy the most delicious food. I am afraid that if I accidentally order takeaway, I will lose the last chance of survival.

On the first day without electricity, we ate noodles and fried cabbage. Cabbage is the favorite dish of Sanbao and me. It is cheap, long-lasting, and almost does not need to be washed. Just rinse it in water and cut it. It can be eaten even if it is not cooked.In the end, it became a habit to eat cabbage almost every day.

At night, there is no light, Sanbao and I are lying on the bed, the weather is a bit hot, we are shirtless, playing with the mobile phone, looking at the low battery in the mobile phone, what to do if the mobile phone is dead?

It can be tolerated without a light, but it is really unbearable to live without a mobile phone.Still, Sanbao had more ideas. He plugged in a plugboard from Dajin's house next door, so that he could charge his mobile phone without fear of running out of battery.As for the bedroom, with the help of the moonlight outside, I can barely see it clearly. After a long time, I still feel that it is quite bright, and I am quite used to it. It is a rare night without electricity, and we seem to experience an ancient peace.

All the complicated troubles seem to be brought by electricity. Once there is no light, human beings will return to the original state of sunrise and sunset, and feel a sense of peace of mind inexplicably.

It would be great if it went on like this forever, it would be just the two of us forever, talking together in the dark, talking about what we had and what we didn’t have, no vows of eternal love, no sweet talk, only the parents were short-tempered, laughing and cursing.

When it is quiet, I will pillow on your shoulder. When it is noisy, you hit me and I hit you.Sometimes it is a rare silence, but it is not awkward at all, as if it should be like this in the world, as long as we are together, it doesn't matter what the years are like, as long as it is the two of us.

I haven't paid attention to what the moon looks like for a long time, and I haven't looked at the sky at night seriously.At this time tonight, the moon is a little shy, as if avoiding our sweet love, shy in the clouds for a long time and dare not come out.

Occasionally, when I hold back my head, I also discovered it.The sky is dark blue, which has nothing to do with blackness, and the clouds are thin and hanging, not far away.The earth is shrouded in the light of a bright moon thousands of miles away, strong and gentle.

Sanbao and I faced the lights of thousands of houses, in the natural light and color, it was weird as if we were the only ones, and we were the only ones living in different dimensions, watching other people’s excitement and embracing ourselves.

The moonlight that night was so beautiful, I couldn’t help recalling it in various ways, and then I ate an apple, who knows where it came from, it seemed to have been kept for a long time, Zou Zou, very sweet, I have never thought that apples are so delicious, I just feel that the mouth is luscious and the sweet juice is overflowing.

I stood on the balcony admiring the scenery outside, the wind was blowing and it was a bit cold.I put on a Sambo T-shirt to create the sexiness of wearing my boyfriend's clothes.

I did it on purpose, I'm such a big person, I can't even seduce people, so why am I still alive, I put my two legs together, showing the smell of entanglement, biting an apple in my mouth, tilting my head to look at Sambo, I don't know if this is a qualified seduction, I just know that I succeeded, and I still feel good at night when there is no electricity.

We hug each other and say the promise of loving you in our most passionate moments.

This is one of the few moments I remember clearly, the moonlight that night was really good.