our town

Chapter 26

Doing business is not as difficult as imagined. Everything is difficult at the beginning. Do you know where the difficulty lies?The difficulty lies in the first step that you are unwilling to take. As long as you bravely step out of the threshold of that first step, the rest is only 50.00% difficult, and that 50.00% is really not difficult.

I once read a book: Don’t be afraid before the age of 30, and don’t regret after the age of 30.I uphold the true meaning of life in these sixteen characters, no complaints, no regrets, no fear, no fear, bravely try life.

I am grateful to have seen this famous quote when I was young, and I am grateful to it for bringing me a guiding light and giving me the direction to guide me when my three views are unstable and I am at a loss.Like the clear instructions of the Bible, like the essence of Buddhism, let me know how to go on the road of life.

I have no complaints or regrets, and I move forward bravely.

Even if I did something I regret yesterday, I will turn a blind eye and only look at tomorrow.

Li Jiao is diligent in contacting me on WeChat because of this sock. I am like a tireless superman, working, living, and falling in love.

Full of enthusiasm.

I don't know if it's because I was young and healthy, or because I was emotionally nourished. At that time, I had endless energy.

I have been matching socks on Qinglian Street for several consecutive afternoons, and finally reached the level of satisfaction for both of us. I thought she was an impulsive brain twitch, and she would definitely not make very detailed requests. Waiting for the details to do everything personally, her attitude is serious, and sometimes good ideas pop up, which makes me have to look at her with admiration.

It seems that she is not a worthless rich second generation either.

The copywriting was handled by her, and each bag was printed with:

When I walk through the mountains, when I walk through the crowds, you're there, my school

When I'm on the road, when I'm smiling, you're still there, my companion

When I'm on my way, when I'm on my way, you're there my mate

When I retreat from the torrent, when I return to the fields, you are still there, my dear

When I return to my hometown, when I am longing for a guest, you are still there, my soul

When the mountains and seas change, this feeling becomes a memory, may the mountains and rivers not be separated, and the wind and rain will not hinder

I wish you a bright future and great plans

May the young classmates come back as before

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I have a natural liking for all those who are literate and loving. Li Jiao's copywriting has greatly increased my liking for her. If it weren't for her thinking about me, I really want to be someone who can talk about wine and poetry with her. good friend.

As the saying goes, a partner is easy to find, but a soul is hard to find.

It's a pity that my favorability for her only exists in respect and appreciation, and has nothing to do with love.Sometimes I also wonder why I can't like girls, why I can't marry and have children like normal people, I am also suffering, I am also very sad, if I can choose, I don't want to do this, but the fact is already like this , I have no choice, I can't force myself to death.

I accepted myself, but I was a little apprehensive...

Anxiety lies in reality, in face, in marriage, in reproduction, in mother's forbearable struggle, in father's ruthless ridicule after knowing it, in schoolmates' hiding after knowing it, in the eyes of the world...

I accept myself, but I am afraid, I am afraid of gossip, I am afraid that love is thinner than paper, I am afraid of malicious slander, I am afraid of the stubbornness of decades, and I am afraid of the remaining tumors of feudal ideology.

On the one hand, I am fearless and brave, on the other hand, I am anxious to avoid shadows...

The longer I get along with Li Jiao, the more I feel guilty. On the one hand, I am touched by her care that does not reveal my heart, and on the other hand, I feel uneasy that I will not give her results. The more indifferent and restrained I am, the more she thinks that I am breezy and polite. Chase.My original intention was to drive her away, but things backfired.

Li Jiao's gift was very successful and won praise from many students.Taking advantage of this enthusiasm, she recommended her best friend to make such a gift. Her best friend is not in the city and has not yet graduated, but was entrusted by Li Jiao. We didn't even meet each other, so we did business on WeChat up.Although I have a little conflict in my heart, but the reality is sad, rent, debts, every mouthful is expenses, and drinking water costs money, and it costs five yuan to take a tricycle when I go out.

No matter how many Huaijin hold the jade, the ice is pure and the jade is clean, and the present is not what it used to be, and the present is more important than the past.

The little flower of Gaoling hidden in my heart has long since become a ridiculous joke in front of Wu Yuan, and it is rotten.

I counted the money in my hand, it was more than 5000 yuan, and I was going to make an appointment to return the capital to Liu Qing.Thinking that I haven't been to Sanbao's bar, I will close the stall early tonight and go to the bar to have fun, thinking that I can see Sanbao at work, and I feel a little happy.In the afternoon, Li Jiao called, first she said some words of thanks, she did a good job helping her girlfriends, and then started chatting, I accidentally said that I wanted to go to the bar at night, she said she wanted to go too, she rarely went, I want to meet you.I declined and I told her I was just going to the bar to talk to a friend and come right out.She is very unhappy.

Not long after hanging up the phone, Li Jiao sent a WeChat message: "It's like this, Tian Tian, ​​I think I'm an intern now, and I'm going to step out of the campus and enter the society, but I haven't even been to a bar, and if I say it, I will be criticized by others." It's a joke, I want to find a chance to exercise myself, so I want to go to the bar you mentioned, can you give up your life to accompany me at night?"

I looked at her WeChat and smiled speechlessly, how much I like it, and if I have nothing to do, I don't want to get entangled in this issue anymore.

Thinking of booking a table for Sanbao, why not do it? So I agreed to Li Jiao and asked her to wait for my message.I sent Sanbao a WeChat message, telling him that the sock girl was coming to the bar to join him, and Sanbao would definitely be happy, because he was under his nose, and he was afraid that we would overstep.

The atmosphere in the bar was very lively. The models above walked by every half an hour. Sambo didn't come to toast. I don't know if he was busy or dodged on purpose. I think it was the latter. He just had to watch from a distance.

The noisy environment is actually not suitable for the two of us. One of us is calm, and the other is pretending to be calm.The lowest consumption point of Jager, Red Bull is not bad at all, it is ice cold, and it is very thirst-quenching in the hot box.I thought about clinking glasses with her, whispering occasionally, the ear-shattering music made us have to talk to each other, I was worried about Sanbao's jealousy, and sat down as soon as I finished speaking, Li Jiao might really be rare Come and be overwhelmed by the huge and crazy dance here.

I don't move, she doesn't move.

We are like two primary school students, sitting on the high stools of the bar earnestly and persistently, occasionally toasting and touching each other, not for the taste, but for the form, to match the form of the bar.

A group of men and women gathered under the DJ stage, some were singing alone, some were singing in pairs.Everyone tried their best to interpret themselves in the noisy environment, either playing innocent or yuppie.Occasionally, a few people with hats and downcast eyes can also see restless hearts from the corner of their eyes.They gave up their innocent appearance during the day, and only swayed on the trampoline.The male is no longer a male, and the female is no longer a female. There are only unbearable and lonely souls here, which grow from the smoke in the right hand, and the overlapping wine glasses collide with the late-night singing.

The seemingly casual swing of the legs was also full of bewitching taste, fearing that others would be lonely without knowing it, so he clinked glasses loudly to vent.

The air is full of emotion, just see who can win the Arc de Triomphe.There is no distinction between men and women here, only loneliness.With the biggest music, showing the biggest loneliness.

What young men and women lack the most is love.On the one hand, they keep saying that they don't believe in love, but on the other hand, they look forward to being destined to save this life.

Li Jiao and I pretended to be drinking and wanted to pay Liu Qing back, so we sent him a message: "Brother Qing, I'm at the bar, where are you?"

"On the second floor, the lounge."

"You came"

"Come up and turn left."

I saw him send three messages in a row, thinking he must be busy.

Let Li Jiao wait for me, I walked to the place with stairs, went up to the second floor, there are many scattered tables, but there are not many people upstairs, basically internal staff are sitting to support the place.The second floor is even darker and the light is not good. As soon as I turned up, I saw a man jumping away from a man. The man who jumped away was Sanbao. I was shocked, and I only had one thought: Sanbao would not cheat. .

I went over to say hello to him, and Sambo introduced him as his colleague. I observed him carefully, with a pointed face, not easy to get along with, thin, white, lacking in nutrition, not exposed to sunlight, and stunted.I didn't regard him as an opponent, and I firmly believed that Sanbao was just temporarily afraid, lest I misunderstand.

I found Liu Qing, put 2000 yuan in cash in his hand, and invited him and his wife to eat chicken pot together after get off work.Liu Qing was a little surprised: "2000 yuan, brother, you can just turn it around, and I made a special trip."

"It's different. You lent me out of friendship, and you should be more serious when you return it. Thank you very much Brother Qing. I also took out cash specially today, and I think it feels a bit like this. How about it, real money, is it special? Cool?"

Liu Qing was a little embarrassed by my solemnity, scratched his head and said: "Brother, what are you doing, oh my mother... I will see you in the evening, I will not be polite."

Farewell to Liu Qing, I didn't see Sambo, so I sent him a WeChat message and told him I was leaving first.When I went to the bathroom, Li Jiao called the valet driver to drive. On the way home, Li Jiao really wanted to have a chat with me alone, but the valet driver was there, so she didn’t know what to say, she just picked up the topic in the bar just now : "Do you have to give tips in bars? When I left, I gave [-] to the two waiters next to me, and I also gave to the cleaner." I looked at Li Jiao's calm and unworldly face, and I didn't know It's better to praise her, or to criticize her.

I really want to tell her that the waiter next to the counter in the bar does not need to tip, and I am afraid that it will hurt her self-esteem. I can't bear her determination to accompany me as always.