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Chapter 47 Kang Guo

Although the autumn rain in Chongqing is not as penetrating as the bleak wind and cold rain in the north, it is also quite lethal to Zhou Mei who has just been discharged from the hospital. The potholes and uneven roads are full of water. It was poured into her cloth shoes, and she seemed to be the only one wandering slowly in the streets and alleys shrouded in mist, and most of the passers-by who happened to pass by held umbrellas in a hurry, when she returned to Yanziyan's residence with a wandering expression , the already pale and bloodless face turned blue, and the blood vessels under the eyes were clearly visible, which frightened Lao Zeng who had been hiding in the back room.

Lao Zeng hurriedly opened the back door, went to the balcony near the river to take down the towels hanging on the iron railing, and complained, "Did you run into a ghost, and you made it like this?"

Zhou Mei hooked the small bench in the corner with her feet, sat on it, and wrapped her knees in her arms with her arms. The rain still fell from her black hair, and she trembled uncontrollably. She fumbled in the drawer next to her until she took out the cigarette case. She tore the cigarette case in a hurry. Her hands were shaking and she wanted to take out one. Maybe because she was too hasty, she brought out nearly half a pack of cigarettes at once. messy.

"Oh..." Lao Zeng sighed softly, squatted down quickly, first hung the towel around Zhou Mei's neck, then took out the fire, and lit the cigarette in his mouth that was about to be crushed by her mouth.

Zhou Mei tried her best to take a few puffs, and then exhaled a big puff. She finally stopped shaking. Although her eyes were still red, she was a little more calm.

Lao Zeng slowly picked up the white cigarettes scattered on the ground for her, and even blew the dust on them with his mouth, and said lightly, "I want to open it up."

Zhou Mei gave Lao Zeng a sideways look and didn't speak. After she quietly finished smoking the cigarette, she got up and kicked the stool towards the side cabinet. She stepped on the stool to reach the suitcase on it. The old man once saw her like this, and was afraid that she would hurt himself, so he went to help.

Zhou Mei didn't change into the wet clothes on her body, but packed her luggage and daily necessities very quickly. Old Zeng looked at it for a long time, but finally couldn't help it, "What are you doing, where are you going?"

"I'm quitting," Zhou Mei said in a cold voice, the four words were neat and tidy.

"Xiao Zhou, you..." Lao Zeng took Zhou Mei's hand that was about to close the suitcase.

"I'm quitting, I'm quitting!!!" Feeling on the verge of collapse, Zhou Mei glared at Lao Zeng and screamed out.

"You're going to get married soon, and it's hard to get to this point. At this juncture, do you want to be serious?"

"Listen clearly, I don't want to kill any more, they are also Chinese, and their family members are innocent!"

"No Kuomintang is innocent!" Lao Zeng's tone also changed.

"No life deserves to die! Not even a single child. Before birth, there should be no father!"

"What's wrong with you? How did you become like this?" Looking at her excited look, Lao Zeng was extremely surprised, because since he knew Zhou Mei, he had never seen her show any emotion, she was indifferent, He is quite inhumane and extremely difficult to conquer. He is the most trusted person selected by the organization. But this year, he gradually saw joy and sorrow from Zhou Mei's face. I tried my best to enlighten her, but I didn't expect that what he was worried about happened.

Zhou Mei also realized that she seemed to have finally found her flesh and blood soul, and she no longer floated in the world in a daze. She tried her best to calm herself down, and laughed at herself in a hoarse voice, "Do I have to be like a machine for you to be satisfied? "

Lao Zeng's mouth was half-opened and half-closed, "Then...then where are you going?"

"I'm going to find her"

"Looking for her, what's the use of looking for her?" There was a sharp edge hidden in Lao Zeng's sophisticated eyes, and he looked directly at Zhou Mei's beautiful, big, empty eyes, "If you go now, you won't be able to give her anything, and you will ruin yourself."

"That's between me and her." Zhou Mei turned her face away and replied coldly.

"Don't run away, you understand, don't you?" Lao Zeng twisted Zhou Mei's face with his hands, forcing Zhou Mei to look directly at him, "If you really want to help her, you have to become a person like Tang Xiangwan. , you can’t be more clear, why are you confused again now!!”

Lao Zeng's hands were calloused, thick and powerful, and it hurt her cheeks when he grabbed her. After hearing these words that she wanted to forget on purpose, Zhou Mei bit her lower lip, tears welled up, her eyes were still stubborn, and she could buckle the suitcase. hand, but let go of it slumped.

"The Jing family owns a shipyard and a paper factory, and also holds a majority of the shares in the newly built arsenal in Chongqing. What a big piece of meat that is. Jing Junming is getting old, and Jing Yuan is at the front line. Once you enter the house, you will be the head of the family. In the past two years You have done such a good job in Chongqing, and even Shi Liu is willing to help you. Do you know how much you will help the organization's development in the future?"

Seeing that she was already wavering, Lao Zeng took advantage of the victory to chase after her, "Xiao Zhou, listen to me. In three years, at most five years, I guarantee you will have dismissed the feeling at this time, or you will not forget it, but at that time, you just You only need to move your fingers, and you can be like those men in the golden house who are really capable of wanting her. At that time, don't say I want to stop you, even if the organization stops you, your godfather wants to stop you, they can't stop you, you You are a sensible person, I believe you will figure it out."

The sound of the rain mixed with the river water seemed to drown out everything. Zhou Mei was extremely depressed, and felt that it was so difficult to breathe that she almost couldn't hear her own heartbeat.

"Help me contact the organization in Peiping, I want to know her situation regularly." I don't know how long it took, until Zhou Mei began to tremble all over again, and she opened her mouth.

"Yes, yes, but Beiping is so big, where can we find her?"

"Go and guard the gate of the Chinese Opera Academy! She will definitely go"

"Okay, I'll help you arrange it. You change your clothes soon, I'll go first." After finishing speaking, Lao Zeng patted Zhou Mei's back, picked up his felt hat and put it on his head, opened the back door, and walked out. Zhou Mei's residence.

Just after waking up, a familiar stench came into her nostrils. Bai Yuan sat up in a daze. He rushed to the yard, leaned on the corner of the wall, and retched.

A gust of cold autumn wind rolled the yellow leaves, brushed past her feet, and brought a burst of smell at the same time. Bai Yuan, who was finally relieved, suddenly felt sick again. She rubbed her esophagus with her hands over and over again, while He secretly scolded himself why he rented here in the first place.

She lives in an old-fashioned courtyard house in Beiping. The neighbors are all local and simple old Beijingers. They are humorous and talkative. She doesn't point fingers at her because she is a single woman with a body. This seems to be her biggest problem. But the only bad thing is that her two neighbors, one makes ancestral secret soy milk, and the other makes sheep sausage, and they both set up stalls in the morning market. In the morning, that weird smell was simply a nightmare for her pregnant.

Although she was born in the north, she loves the food in the Bayu area very much. She suddenly changed her taste and was really not used to it. She always misses the food in Chongqing, and thinks of the crystal clear rice noodles with oily and spicy peppers and the steaming hot pot. , Xie Zibai can't wait to drool.

"bang bang bang"

Hearing the sound of the door, Bai Yuan went to open the door, and as expected, she saw Kang Guo's dark cheeks, with a sunny smile on her face, a fish that was still alive and kicking in her left hand, and a chicken that had been drained of blood in her right hand. Like a mountain bandit returning from robbery.

Bai Yuan was extremely disgusted, "You have done so much, can you finish eating?"

Kang Guo looked very happy, and walked towards the kitchen very bluntly, "Do you want fish soup or chicken soup?"

"Don't talk about it, I'm going to throw up again, I just want to have a bowl of porridge in the morning, and at most I can eat a boiled egg"

"Next to it is Liu Ji Bean Juice. How many people have to go to the morning market to queue up to drink it. You are so close to the water, but you don't appreciate it."

"That thing smells worse than your feet, I really can't compliment you." Bai Yuan still remembered the feeling of drinking soybean juice for the first time, with a look of panic on her face.

"That's because you don't know how to eat. Forget it, I'll cook chicken soup for you. This fish will be sweet and sour at night."

After two months in Peiping, her body has become more and more obvious, and she has become especially edible, so the focus of her daily life is to eat to replenish her body. Although she is floating alone now, it is a coincidence that she is in the Beiping met Kang Guo who used to fight side by side. Kang Guo liked this black girl very much when he was in Lichuan, and kept asking the organization for help, wanting to marry her as his wife, but after meeting again, Bai Yuan was already pregnant. Lost, but soon accepted the fact, knowing that Bai Yuan is now living alone in Beiping, he is even more pleased, he visits her every day with delicious food and drinks, and takes good care of her.

"Girl" Kang Guo squatted on the ground, carefully plucking the chicken feathers, the muscles in his hands were firm and strong, while plucking, he called out to the white kite by the pool.

"What?" Bai Yuan was brushing her teeth, and there was a circle of white foam around her mouth.

"Why don't I move here, so I don't have to run around every day?"

"Pfft" all the mouthwash came out, Bai Yuan frowned, looking at the innocent Kang Guo and the lifeless old hen in Kang Guo's hand.

"If you want to say that again, don't come here anymore." Bai Yuan turned cold, put down Zhou Zhong's porcelain cup with a bang, and wiped her mouth with a towel.

"You can't be like this alone, how can you do that?"

"Don't worry about it"

"How on earth did you make it like this? Who the fuck are you?" Seeing her sneering, Kang Guo felt uncomfortable, so he complained.

"Didn't I say it, it's my husband, it's my pleasure, no one is forcing me, are you finished?!" Since leaving Chongqing, perhaps because of her pregnancy, her temper has become more and more bad, often Yelling and yelling, he was completely different from the old joker Bai Bai.

"Stop yelling!" Kang Guo stopped talking immediately, and walked into the kitchen with the plucked chicken, tossing in it, and after a while, he smelled a fragrance.

And Bai Yuan was just like in the past, sitting in the room, she looked at herself in the mirror, and found that half of her face became a little swollen, and her skin became a little rough due to the unique dryness in the north, she lay on the dressing table A few days ago, she pressed her elbow on a newspaper. The date of the newspaper was a few days ago. Her fingertips caressed a section of the newspaper. The eldest son is getting married today, and celebrities from all walks of life gather together to celebrate."

There are also photos, what a beautiful wedding dress.

In fact, they are a good match. This is the legendary appearance of a man and woman. She withdrew her finger and put it in her mouth, biting it hard with her teeth. She bites like this every day. She has already bitten off a layer of skin on the knuckle of her index finger. , looks bright red.

Why did she want to learn to read in the first place? She would rather not be able to understand this line of writing. In the past few days, she has read these lines of reports over and over again, and has already memorized the content inside.

She had fantasized that that person would abandon everything to come to her, appear at her door one day, hug her fiercely, kiss her regardless of other people's eyes, and say sorry to her.

After all, she was too naive, so naive as to be ridiculous.When she saw the news, a stone fell in her heart, because this is the style of that person, cold, ruthless, cruel, any words are not enough to describe her hard heart, and no beauty can break her heart. Reason and principle.

And Xi Zibai, who was still full of sincerity and romance during the turbulent years, was completely dead.

The door creaked. Kang Guo observed her back, walked in cautiously, and placed a bowl of rice-flavored white porridge by her hand, and said in a rough voice, "Don't eat your hands, eat the porridge."

Bai Yuan buried her face in her arms, to be honest, she didn't want others to see her red and swollen eyes, and she herself hated her half-dead state.

Seeing that she seemed to be immersed in a certain memory again, Kang Guo didn't dare to disturb her anymore. Before he accidentally said something wrong, Bai Yuan would speak harshly to him, and almost raised her hands. That appearance was completely different from his. The smart and big-hearted black girl in my memory was two people. He went back to the yard, fetched water, chopped firewood, and arranged Bai Yuan's daily necessities properly. He put the chicken in the pot and stewed it before putting it down. Confused, he took off his undershirt, sat alone at the gate of the courtyard, rolled tobacco with paper, and smoked silently.

The fifth anti-encirclement and suppression campaign failed, and the Red Army was forced to make a strategic shift and embarked on the arduous Long March. However, he and the other two liaison officers obeyed the order and moved to Peiping first. Thick, there are student parades everywhere. Under this cover, their work is going on in an orderly manner in secret. At this time, he accidentally received a help from the Chongqing underground organization and received a special order. Unexpectedly, this order , unexpectedly made him meet Bai Yuan again.

Presumably it was fate, the Chongqing organization strictly kept the secrets, did not explain any cause and effect, and only offered him a generous reward to protect Bai Yuan's personal safety in Beiping.At first, he was really confused. A woman came to Peiping with a big belly, frowning every day. What happened to her? At one point, he wondered if the superior leader had done something wrong and asked him to take over this mess. Since he has always had a good impression of Bai Yuan, even if he takes over the blame, he is still willing to do these things for her from the bottom of his heart.

After an unknown amount of time, he heard Bai Yuan calling him from behind, Kang Guo turned around with a cigarette butt in his mouth and asked, "What's the matter?"

Bai Yuan was standing under the poplar tree in the yard. Although she had a big belly, she was still tall and thin when viewed from a distance. Her indigo cheongsam was covered with a thin shirt, and her hair was getting longer and messy. Behind her head, her slender eyebrows and eyes are like a shining silver moon in the dark night. She said softly, with deep grievances, "I'm hungry."

Kang Guo spat out the cigarette butt, smiling a little silly.

After the two of them had finished their lunch, Kang Guo packed up everything, and ignored Bai Yuan's objection, and forced her to go wandering around.

In just one month, they wandered all over the streets and alleys of Beiping. Kang Guo took her to understand the local conditions and customs, familiarized her with every contact point where she could seek help from the organization, and took her to try the food that she dared not try, so that she could get used to it. From initial fear to gradually addicted to the weird soybean juice, I took her to Yenching University to attend lectures, met those new propagandists and literary figures, and helped her borrow all kinds of books to pass the boring time.

In this way, day after day, winter in Beiping came quietly. When the first snow fell all over the yard, Kang Guo's busy figure had changed from a soaked undershirt to a cotton-padded lambskin hat, and Bai Yuan was not wearing Kang Guo. The new bright red padded jacket I bought for her was a dark woolen coat and a black scarf. Although they were often together, they always looked a bit out of tune, even funny.

There was always a certain foreign air about her that could not be faded away.

Under the winter sun, Bai Yuan stood straight in the yard like that, she couldn't open her eyes because of the white thorns all over the ground, her nasal bone curve was almost perfect, it looked like a sketch from the side.

Kang Guo stopped sweeping the snow and stared at her blankly. To be honest, he often stared straight at her.

In the past, Bai, an actor, was beautiful in every frown and smile, and her every move was full of charm, but now she looks more and more beautiful. Her beauty is soft, and she is also more strong and calm. .

The actor Bai has changed, she has become less talkative, and all the wantonness and frivolity in the past seem to have disappeared.She no longer refuses Kang Guo's help, she accepts his healing for herself, obediently obeys Kang Guo's arrangement, takes advantage of various opportunities he provides, and studies desperately. She secretly swears in her heart that she must give her child Raise him well, let him be happy, let him have a smooth life, and stop suffering like yourself.