messed up

Chapter 30

"Really?" Yu Jing patted Xu Baiyu on the back: "Then tell me, I'll listen."

"Just talk?" Xu Baiyu leaned over and pressed against the other's forehead: "You have to do something." It didn't mean that Jing could react, and he leaned closer and touched the other person lightly. lips.

When we parted, Xu Baiyu was actually very reluctant, but his rationality kept telling him that it was getting late, and it was best to talk about what he wanted to do when he got home.He looked at Yu Jing, meeting the smiling eyes of the man.

"I met my dad this afternoon and talked to him about you." Yu Jing put her hands on the steering wheel and turned to look ahead, with warmth in the corners of her eyes and brows: "To be honest, according to his behavior Style, if this had happened a few years earlier, he would probably have locked me at home, and then went to you to persuade you to break up with me." He narrowed his eyes, and finally there was some excitement in his words: "Diseases often change not only a person's body, but also a person's personality. It's like breaking and reshaping a person. From the inside to the outside, they are no longer the original person."

"No." This was the first time Xu Baiyu rejected Yu Jing's words, and he shook his head: "No matter what the illness becomes, the sincerity will not change. He cares about you in his heart, whether he disagrees or agrees, there are reasons for it." Your reasoning."

Yu Jing was stunned for a moment, and then smiled wryly: "Today he told me that he is old and in poor health, and there is probably not much time left to spend with me. If I had really thought it over, it would be my decision Well, he is willing to be a family with you."

These words originally made Xu Baiyu very happy, but he didn't care about it at this moment, he could only see Yu Jing's loneliness.He had forgotten when was the last time he was so worried about someone.Now looking at Yu Jing who was sitting beside him, Xu Baiyu just wanted to hug him and tell him "You still have me".

"Yu Jing, I read a poem before: Most good things are not firm, and colorful clouds are easy to scatter and glass is brittle. It was many years ago." The two remained silent all the way until Xu Baiyu entered the garage. I don’t have any thoughts, because I feel that the good things in the world don’t belong to me.” He sighed: “But now I have a lot of different thoughts, not about me, but about you. I want you You can live a stable life in the future, have someone to share when you are happy, someone to take care of you when you are sick, and you don’t need to support yourself when you are weak, because you can rest assured that you will leave your back to me.” He laughed self-deprecatingly: “I Regardless of whether he is strong or not, I will treat you well as soon as I am around. Unless I am beyond my power, I will do my best."

Xu Baiyu finished talking on his own, but did not wait for Yu Jing's response.He looked over curiously, but found that the other party was also looking at him.

The moment Xu Baiyu passed her eyes, Yu Jing felt her heart tremble uncontrollably.He opened the car door and walked down, then turned to the opposite side and dragged the man out of the car, and kissed him with lips and teeth.

The lights in the garage are not bright, even dim.Yu Jing's movements were so sudden that Xu Baiyu might have fallen to the ground if she hadn't been hugged around her waist.Xu Baiyu opened his eyes, looking at the dust floating in the air, and suddenly felt that all the speculations and suspicions, sensitivity and hesitation before were just a long way to go, and he offered himself an absurd perversion.

Fortunately, Yu Jing was there, which made him discover for the first time that there is still a return date beyond the end of the road.

Xu Baiyu was still in a daze when he was let go.He was dragged out by Yu Jing, and stood aside watching the man lock the garage door.The end of the year is approaching, and the street lights in the community are hung with bright red lanterns.The winter night is cold, but people outside don't feel cold.

"Chinese New Year is coming soon," Yu Jing walked forward holding Xu Baiyu's hand, her words were as gentle as always: "Do you have any plans?"

"I used to go to my grandma's house." Xu Baiyu replied, "I'm afraid I'll die this year."

"Why?" Yu Jing slowed down: "Is it because of your father?"

"Yes." Xu Baiyu sighed: "Our relationship has never been good. My grandma would deliberately let him avoid me before, and would not let him pass when I went, but we just ran into each other yesterday. He and his His wife and twin sons stand together and they are a very good family.” Xu Baiyu felt a little headache: “A lot of times I think, if it weren’t for me, maybe my parents would be better off now .”

Yu Jing dragged him to walk a few steps quickly, and soon entered the warm corridor.He didn't speak, but turned around and hugged Xu Baiyu, rubbing his cold face.They stood together for a long time until their legs felt a little numb.Only then did Yu Jing say: "Let's go home."

Xu Baiyu was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered what he had said to Yu Jing when he said goodbye.At that time, he said, what I was looking for was something that ordinary people are struggling for. I wanted a family.

"I don't know if you can accept this, I just don't want to make you too sad." Yu Jing walked up the stairs and said in a low voice: "If possible, it's better to talk to them , listen to their ideas. It doesn’t matter if you can’t do it for the time being, the future will last forever.” Yu Jing took out the key and opened the door: “This is your home, a place that can shelter you from wind and rain, you don’t have to worry about anything .”

Xu Baiyu walked in, and then Yu Jing closed the door.The moment Xu Baiyu heard the door knock, he suddenly understood the meaning of the phrase "home" to him.He hugged Yu Jing from behind, put his chin on her shoulder, and gently closed his eyes.

The next morning Xu Baiyu woke up a little early to help Yu Jing cook noodles.Yu Jing put the lid on the pot, turned around and looked at Xu Baiyu: "Would it bother you to eat noodles with me every day? If you don't like it, I can make you something else, and you can go out and buy it."

"How could it be?" Xu Baiyu smiled: "I used to make do in the morning, and I ate bread the most. Now that I can have a mouthful of hot noodles, I can't be happier."

"You can't do this in the future." Yu Jing looked at him: "You are still a doctor. Your own breakfast doesn't taste good?"

"Okay." Xu Baiyu hurriedly responded, "I made a mistake, I must correct it."

The noodles were brought to the table, and Xu Baiyu had just eaten two bites when he heard Yu Jing say to him: "When you take another break, we can go shopping for the New Year together."

Xu Baiyu's hand froze: "Are you inviting me to celebrate the New Year together?"

"Yeah." Yu Jing smiled at him, and teased: "Didn't you say yesterday that you had some unpleasant troubles with your family members? With your temper, if I don't care about you, will you be just this year?" Are you going to live alone?"

"So what?" Xu Baiyu deliberately teased him, "What does it have to do with you?"

"Of course it is." Yu Jing grabbed his hand: "My heart aches."

Xu Baiyu didn't speak anymore, but he felt that holding hands was really good, so he ate the remaining noodles in the bowl with one hand.

After going downstairs and sitting in the car, Xu Baiyu thought about the day in his mind: "It will be around the end of the year if I go off duty again, and I should be on duty during the day on New Year's Eve. If you have time, you'd better go get the needed ones first." Just buy something, don't wait for me."

Yu Jing glanced at him and turned the car around: "Are you free tonight?"

"Yes." Xu Baiyu said, "I won't be on the night shift until a few days ago, and I've been free lately."

"Then let's go at night." Yu Jing smiled: "Anyway, it is necessary to buy. I will tell my dad later that we will go an hour earlier at night, and let's go shopping."

The shopping mall has been away for Xu Baiyu for a long time, but what makes him most uncomfortable is not this, but the festive atmosphere in the streets and alleys.He had never paid attention to this before. When he got out of the car that night, he looked around and suddenly found that the street lamps on both sides of the street were also covered with red lanterns, shining warm light in the night.

"Let's go." Yu Jing put her arms around his shoulders: "Let's go buy a pair of Spring Festival couplets, and buy some blessings. I should buy some food."

Xu Baiyu didn't expect that there would be quite a lot of people in the shopping mall at night: maybe it's because the Chinese New Year is approaching, there are a lot of things piled up in the department store, there are more people buying, and there is a long queue at the place to pay.

"Would you like to buy this?" Yu Jing pointed to the red monkey plush doll not far away. .”

"Okay." Xu Baiyu took one, then turned to see the small paper lantern again: "That one is also good."

The two picked and took all the way, and before they knew it, there was already a bunch of things in the trolley.

"Let's apply to the hospital on New Year's Eve, so that Teacher Yu can go home for a few days, anyway, you will be on vacation then." Xu Baiyu looked around: "Teacher Yu's condition is very good recently, and his health is also very good. Maybe you can consider going to the geriatric ward of the Provincial Mental Health Center in the next year, and do a long-term nursing care there."

"I'm thinking about it too." Yu Jing took a bag of candy from the shelf: "I asked your director a while ago, and he said the same thing."

Xu Baiyu nodded, looked at the various melon seeds and candies in the basket, and suddenly thought of another thing: "Are there many people in your family who come to pay New Year's greetings?"

"It's okay." Yu Jing thought for a while: "In addition to relatives and friends, some of my father's former students will also come."

Xu Baiyu stopped in his tracks: "Would it be inappropriate for me to be here?"

Yu Jing didn't realize what he was referring to at first, but after a while she figured it out: "It's okay, those students don't care about these things, as for old friends and relatives, it just happened to be an opportunity." He moved closer to Xu Baiyu's ear: " I want to introduce you to them."

Xu Baiyu looked at him: "You really don't care what other people think."

"I used to care about it when I was very young." Yu Jing smiled suddenly: "But later I found out that it's actually not interesting."

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thousands of miles

Most of the good things are not firm, and the colored clouds are easy to scatter and the glass is brittle.From Bai Juyi's "Jane Jian Yin".My sun sets and the journey is far away, so I go backwards and do it against it.From "Historical Records Biography of Wu Zixu".