In front of

Chapter 16

Pan Xiaozhuo's single-minded train of thought never thought about why Shi Kai didn't tell him a word that was beyond the scope of friends before, but now he says it from time to time.He just thought that Shi Kai wanted to fall in love with others but failed, so he thought about love all day long.

He mainly didn't dare to think about it.I have loved Shi Kai so much for so many years, and never once thought that I would be with Shi Kai one day.

Shi Kai looked at the calendar on the computer and asked his colleagues, "Brother, when will we go on a business trip?"

"Next Friday?" My colleague also had a headache when he mentioned this, "I hate business trips in winter the most."

"How many days are you going?" Shi Kai asked.

"Not even a week? Every time I go to study, it takes at least a week. I stayed there for half a month the day before yesterday." A colleague told Shi Kai, "You have to bring clothes, don't just go with all your clothes on."

Shi Kai said: "Okay, I understand, thank you bro."

The colleague glanced at him and asked, "Is there something wrong?"

Shi Kai didn't answer, just smiled and said, "I want to go home."

"Is there something to do at home?" A colleague helped him make time, "Why don't you come back this week? We will be on a business trip next week, and we have to share our learning experience when we come back."

Shi Kai said helplessly, "Aren't there meetings this week?"

The colleague remembered, nodded and said, "Yes, not this week either."

Shi Kai turned around and sent a message to Pan Xiaozhuo: I want to go home.

Pan Xiaozhuo: What's wrong?

Shi Kai: Nothing, just want to go home.

Pan Xiaozhuo: Then you can go back on Friday night and leave on Sunday, it’s just a bit of a hassle.

Shi Kai: I have a meeting this week, a business trip next week, and a meeting next week.

Pan Xiaozhuo: So busy!

Shi Kai: [6 Tears.jpg]

Pan Xiaozhuo: Hahaha, just wait a little longer and come back after the Chinese New Year holiday.

Shi Kai wanted to go home but couldn't go back, and Pan Xiaozhuo was also busy studying here.Shi Kai got busy and the two of them didn't have time to communicate during the day, so Shi Kai could find time to talk to him at noon, and then he had to wait until after get off work.

Shi Kai sent a message to Xiaozhuo before boarding the plane on a business trip, saying that he was going to fly.

Xiao Zhuo: Well, let me know when it hits the ground.

Sure enough, Shi Kai started the machine as soon as it landed, and sent Xiaozhuo a message while the plane was still taxiing slowly, saying that he had arrived.

Xiao Zhuo: Okay, then go back and rest early.

Shi Kai: I have to go out to dinner with my colleagues. Have you had dinner tonight?

Xiao Zhuo: Not yet, wait a while.

Shi Kai should go home this week if he doesn't have a business trip.But now thousands of miles away, I can only contact by mobile phone every day.Occasionally, he would make a phone call, such as when Shi Kai returned to his room at night after studying for a day, or when he was taking a casual walk outside.

Pan Xiaozhuo recently made a new discovery. He found that he really likes to listen to Shi Kai talking to others when he is on the phone.For example, Shi Kai was on the phone with him, and if someone came to look for him, Shi Kai would first say "wait a minute, Zhuo" to him, and then go to answer the other person's words.Sometimes he would talk to others for a while, and he would not hang up here. Pan Xiaozhuo was doing his own thing here, but he was still wearing earphones.

Such a time would make Pan Xiaozhuo feel a subtle and indescribable intimacy.

Shi Kai and his colleagues live in the same room. Generally, colleagues don't come back directly at night, but go to other colleagues' rooms to have a blackout.That day, Shi Kai was on the phone with Pan Xiaozhuo, and his colleague swiped his card to open the door.Shi Kai heard the voice and looked back, a colleague poked his head in: "What are you doing, Kaikai?"

Shi Kai pointed to the phone: "Make a call."

"How long do we have to fight?" the colleague asked with a smile.

Shi Kai asked, "What's the matter?"

The colleague said: "Keep it black, hehe."

Shi Kai laughed: "No, I want to make a call."

"Hey, stop hitting!" A colleague came over and pulled him, "Can you have something important, did you get married or something? It's not too late."

"Hey, no shoes!" Shi Kai was sitting by the bed, but was dragged up by his colleagues, "I'll go later! Brother!"

"Hurry up, we need someone." A colleague urged him, "Don't talk yet."

The colleague opened the door and went out after finishing speaking, and urged him again before leaving.Shi Kai nodded in agreement, and the colleague left and said to Xiao Zhuo on the other end of the phone, "Did you hear that? Like a hooligan."

Pan Xiaozhuo had been laughing here for a long time, and hurriedly said: "I heard, you go quickly."

"I'll come back to find you later," Shi Kai walked around the bed looking for slippers, don't say anything while wearing them, "Don't sleep until I come back."

"Okay." Pan Xiaozhuo agreed first, and then asked again, "Is there something wrong?"

"No," Shi Kai said with a smile, "isn't it like this every day?"

Thinking about it, it's true. I've been in touch every day before going to bed recently, but Shi Kai said this sentence just now was too natural, and his tone of course made Pan Xiaozhuo think about it after a long time.Pan Xiaozhuo, who has never been enlightened, suddenly seemed to have a little electricity at this moment, and felt a little bit of intimacy.

I don't know if I'm thinking too much.

Shi Kai just infiltrates like this every day, until now he has just infiltrated some water into the wood block.According to Shi Kai's original plan, the two of them would have to wait until he got home to explain this in person, so Pan Xiaozhuo might be able to understand what he said over the phone ten miles away.

So Shi Kai teased Pan Xiaozhuo with half-truth and half-fiction every day.

However, how can there be so many feelings in this matter as planned.

Shi Kai went on a business trip for two weeks, coming on Friday and ending on the next Thursday.They took the plane back on Friday and shared their experience in the company on Saturday.There were more than 20 people who came out to study, each of the three departments talked about their own things, and Shi Kai was the representative sent by their department.

At that time, I have to use PPT. Shi Kai has become familiar with several professors and lecturers of the branch these days.Colleagues said that in the past they did not give them, at most they allowed them to take pictures or record them.

"It's good to look rare," my colleague said sourly, "I asked for materials in the first year when I came here, but people refused me."

With a smile on his face, Shi Kai imported the data from the USB flash drive into the computer, sorting out what needed to be done, and deleting what needed to be deleted.

While working, Shi Kai took the time to send Pan Xiaozhuo a few messages, and Pan Xiaozhuo only replied two.When Shi Kai finished his work, it was almost dark, so he called Pan Xiaozhuo, but there was no answer. About half an hour later, Shi Kai went downstairs to look for a place to eat, and Pan Xiaozhuo called him back.

"Hello?" Shi Kai picked it up.

"Brother Kai, did you find me?" Pan Xiaozhuo asked.

"Well, have you gone to class?" Shi Kai asked him.

"No," Pan Xiaozhuo replied, "I didn't hear your call."

"Have you eaten yet?" Shi Kai asked.

Pan Xiaozhuo said, "I've eaten."

Shi Kai chatted with him every day, and was already familiar with Pan Xiaozhuo's tone.Pan Xiaozhuo is usually very happy when talking to him, in a relaxed state, sometimes obviously happy.Today, you asked and I answered in just three rounds. Although Pan Xiaozhuo sounded like he was not much different from usual, Shi Kai was keenly aware that he was a little depressed.

"What's wrong?" Shi Kai lowered his voice and asked him, "Are you unhappy today?"

Pan Xiaozhuo didn't say a word at first, but after a while he asked in surprise, "...is it obvious?"

"It's not obvious, it just sounds a little different from usual." Shi Kai said with a smile in his voice, "You may not know it yourself, but every time you talk to me on the phone, you are very happy."

Pan Xiaozhuo said "ah", he really didn't know this, and felt a little embarrassed that he was too obvious.

There was no one on the street. Shi Kai passed by the outer wall of a school and did not continue walking. He sat on the marble countertop under the railing of the outer wall with his legs propped up casually.The school was over, and the street was very quiet at this time, Shi Kai sat down and talked quietly with Pan Xiaozhuo, asking him: "What's the matter today?"

With Pan Xiaozhuo's personality, he wouldn't say anything at the moment.However, I don't know if it's because Shi Kai's voice sounded too tempting, or because the contact between the two of them for such a long time made Pan Xiaozhuo swallow the phrase "it's nothing". After a moment of silence, he whispered: "It's me. Mom is back."

Shi Kai paused and asked softly, "Did you see it?"

"Well," Pan Xiaozhuo said, "my aunt called me and said she wanted to find me for something, and asked me to go back to her house."

"Is your mother here?"

"Yes." Pan Xiaozhuo replied sentence by sentence, "I haven't seen her for many years. I was quite young when she left. But I recognized her when I saw her."

Pan Xiaozhuo still speaks honestly, he hardly talks about himself with others, and talking about himself can make people panic.But speaking slowly with Shi Kai now, it didn't make him feel uncomfortable.

"She never came back?" Shi Kai asked.

"No, she got married again, and she didn't tell anyone that she gave birth before." Pan Xiaozhuo said calmly.

Shi Kai blurted out: "Then why did you come to see you? You left without opening the door?"

Pan Xiaozhuo was amused by his tone, and said, "She said to come and see me. I didn't realize it. I sat down and talked to her."

"You're slow to react," Shi Kai said angrily, "You're still talking to her? You didn't open your mouth and you called Mom, right?"

"No," Pan Xiaozhuo smiled, "I only said two or three sentences in total."

"Your aunt is also, I don't know what to think." Shi Kai said speechlessly, "I really told you to go."

Pan Xiaozhuo said: "She bought a lot of things for my aunt."

"Next time your aunt asks you to go back, you should first ask why." Shi Kai said bitterly, "Sit down and talk, so be honest?"

Pan Xiaozhuo was really in a bad mood today, he almost never thought of his mother, and there was no trace of this person in his life.

From his father's death, to his mother's departure, to being dependent on others for so many years, and finally to his grandma's death, Pan Xiaozhuo has never felt sorry for himself. At most, he would feel a little lonely in rare times.

However, Pan Xiaozhuo still trembled when he saw his mother today, and recognized him immediately.At that moment Pan Xiaozhuo suddenly felt very pitiful.

Or it's not that he is pitiful, but this kind of blood relationship and the nature of mother and child are pitiful.Every kid who grows up like him is pitiful.

Pan Xiaozhuo didn't go back to the dormitory either, he found a chair and sat down on the rostrum of the playground.There is no one on the playground in winter, not to mention it will be dark soon.He sat alone on the empty rostrum, nestled there on the phone.

He didn't know what kind of emotion it was, but he really wanted to talk to Shi Kai at this moment.

"Brother Kai." Pan Xiaozhuo called softly.

"Huh?" Shi Kai responded.

"My grandma is a little superstitious." Pan Xiaozhuo looked at the playground below, and slowly said to Shi Kai, "In these years, she always said that I have a bad life and no good luck. She seems to find someone to give me I read the horoscope and said that I was born with my life."

"What year is it?" Shi Kai said with a frown.

"It's true that I have nothing good to do. I also feel that my life is bad. I feel that my life is harder than other students." Pan Xiaozhuo said with a smile.

Shi Kai didn't make a sound, listening to him.

"Because I can't speak, and I don't play with others. People always bullied me in junior high school. I feel that life is very boring, and every day is too difficult." Sitting outside at this time is really cold, and Pan Xiaozhuo sucked from the cold Nose, smiled, "I didn't feel better until after high school."

Shi Kai asked, "How did high school get better?"

Pan Xiaozhuo just smiled and didn't answer this question.

"I never think about these things, but I've been thinking about them when I saw my mother today." Pan Xiaozhuo said.

Shi Kai didn't want him to continue thinking about these things, so he just said, "I'm asking you, why did high school get better?"

The answer to this question was clear in Pan Xiaozhuo's mind, but he couldn't say it, so he just laughed, trying to be vague.

Pan Xiaozhuo was not in a good mood today, Shi Kai also felt blocked after hearing what he said.

"Because of me?" Shi Kai asked directly.

Pan Xiaozhuo saw that he asked so directly, Shi Kai knew about it anyway, so he answered neatly: "Yes."

"What did I do to make you take it so seriously?" Shi Kai asked him.

Pan Xiaozhuo said without much hesitation as if he had drunk wine today, "That's too much."

In fact, there are so many reasons why teenagers like it, but Pan Xiaozhuo has it.Everything was more and more solid in Pan Xiaozhuo's heart like footprints.

He picked up a few things that Shi Kai might remember.

"During that time, I suddenly felt that life was very good, and it was different from before. I felt that I could also become a good person, a little more sunny and cheerful..." Pan Xiaozhuo said with a smile, "Just like you."

Shi Kai had been listening on the phone for a long time, and was unusually quiet. He didn't talk to Pan Xiaozhuo to tease him, but just listened quietly, making noises from time to time.

Those things that Pan Xiaozhuo recalled like treasures were trivial things to Shi Kai.It was because of those things that Pan Xiaozhuo had kept in his heart for so many years.

"You like me that much?" Shi Kai asked.

Having talked so far, Pan Xiaozhuo had nothing to hide, so he just said, "Yes."

Shi Kai continued to ask: "How much do you like it?"

"Let me think about it..." Pan Xiaozhuo said first, then smiled after thinking for a while, and then answered, "I used to hear that my roommates were always playing games, buying equipment and weapons for game characters, and buying clothes and houses, etc... I Once in a dream, I dreamed that you were a game character, and I didn’t know how to play that game, so I woke up. When I woke up, I thought, if I was really playing a game, I would give you all the good things Buy it here, the best one, the most expensive one, it’s almost impossible.”

Pan Xiaozhuo paused at this point, then smiled and said, "But I don't have that much money."

This is the first time since Pan Xiaozhuo talked frankly about his liking for Shi Kai last winter, he talked about it openly.He was always afraid to mention it, afraid of crossing the line and burdening Shi Kai.

I don't know what happened today, maybe I believe Shi Kai won't be disgusted, or maybe I want to output a little after the mood swings.

He outputted frankly and sincerely, and those sincere words would drown anyone who listens here today.

"I've been wanting to tell you something for a while, but I'm afraid you won't believe it, so it's not formal to say it on the phone." Shi Kai was quiet for a long time, and then said, "So I wanted to go home last week. I couldn't go back on a business trip. , I don’t know when I will be able to go back later.”

Pan Xiaozhuo hadn't stopped laughing when he said that just now, and now he responded with a smile: "Huh?"

"But I really want to say it today, and I have to say it now." Shi Kai said.

"Say it..." Pan Xiaozhuo said in a daze.

"I'm serious, I didn't tease you." Shi Kai's tone was very serious, which was different from his usual joking tone.Then Pan Xiaozhuo heard an unbelievable sentence when he was unprepared——

"Stay with me, Zhuo? Be my little boyfriend."