sinovels Chapter 48 Sickness
Chapter 48 Sickness
Open your eyes, the window is the sky at three o'clock in the morning.
Occasionally, one or two car horns came from far away. In the cold night, the harsh feeling could no longer be heard, but it continued to amplify in the empty street.
He Jingnian raised his hand to wipe away the remaining tears from the corners of his eyes, turned to face the wall and continued to sleep.
Just now, I had another sad dream.Since the day Shen Tangfeng left, he has had nightmares intermittently every night.
He didn't know where he went, and he couldn't be contacted at all.
Tired of crying, I fell asleep again.
In the latest dream, he kept running in the ice and snow, with a devil chasing him behind him.He was exhausted from running, and when he was about to fall, a pair of arms caught him and pulled him into another bottomless abyss.
When He Jingnian heard the doorbell ringing, he thought it was an illusion. He didn't rush to open the door until it rang for a long time.
"Tang Feng...!" He couldn't help being stunned, "Are you... Aunt Yang Li?"
"Daddy!" GaoGao came out from behind Aunt Yang Li and hugged him. "Daddy, I beg you to go and see Dad quickly. Dad is sick and has not been well, but he refuses to take medicine or see a doctor. Dad... Dad said he was going to die..."
Speaking of this, the little girl couldn't help crying.
This is not an exaggeration.Although the original speech is not dead, it is indeed half dead.
On Christmas night, he stood under the apartment for a long, long time with flowers in his arms.He knew that it was impossible for him to wait for He Jingnian to come, but he just didn't want to leave, as if as soon as he turned around, the last weak connection would be completely severed.
When I raised my eyes, I could see the window of the room, and the warm light came out, floating in the deep snowy night.The moment the lights went out, his eyes also completely darkened.
It was too dark and too cold.Dark and cold places make people vulnerable, angry, and trembling easily.He was vulnerable and angry and shaking right now.All sounds disappeared, and the world was dead silent.
He could only hear his own heartbeat, noisy and chaotic, one by one, every time it landed on the tip of the knife, it was stabbed bloody.
The pain was so bad that I almost stopped breathing.
Today was his birthday, the ironic birthday, the birthday that had never been blessed.Ever since he saw his fallen mother on this day, he never celebrated his birthday again.Everyone is celebrating the arrival of this day, only he cursed this holy day.Why, it gives happiness to everyone equally, but only ignores itself.
Until He Jingnian appeared.
He knew that for his birthday, He Jingnian worked very hard and put in a lot of effort.He Jingnian cooked a table full of Russian-style Christmas delicacies for him. What a fool. He grew up in China and never lived in Russia. Does he really regard himself as a foreigner?
Nothing matters, though.He knew that behind these dishes were all, all, He Jingnian's gentle and pure heart.
And that scarf.He also knew that He Jingnian spent a lot of time weaving this scarf.Such a soft and warm touch, neat and fine stitches, when you hold it in your arms, you can smell the familiar aroma of the rain and azure.
He knew everything, but still deeply hurt He Jingnian.Li Wenhua's words were like a fuse, which ignited the long-standing jealousy and possessiveness, and gave him the confidence to take revenge on He Jingnian in a fair manner.
Since there is only one other person in my heart, why didn't I choose to resist him that night?Since there is only one other person in my heart, why... give him so many illusions of being happy and loved?
He despised He Jingnian's heart, and also despised his own heart.He has polluted and destroyed all the clean and precious minds, and he deserves it.
The original voice exhaled white steam with a bloody smell.
Sure enough, he would die again on his birthday.
After returning, he soon fell ill, which happened suddenly and logically.His body is sick, and his heart is also sick.Lying in the dark, he thought of how He Jingnian took good care of him when he was ill.At that time, he was not nice to He Jingnian, but He Jingnian was always nice to him.He Jingnian is different from him after all, he has a soft heart, so even if he doesn't love him, he is still willing to give him some kindness.
Close your eyes, open your eyes, the field of vision is a blur.Messy voices flickered in my mind frequently, like a broken radio.
After a while, it was his mother calling him softly. He followed the voice, but what he saw was a mass of white shadows falling straight down.The white shadow fell to the ground and turned into a bright red flower, but the sweet call still resounded——
"Liao Xia." "Liao Xia." "Liao Xia."
Who is Liao Xia?
"Liao Xia is a bad boy who was wrongly educated, naive and stupid, ignorant and incompetent." Yuan Zhengye said so.Only by receiving the correct education and becoming the expected good boy can he be exempted from punishment.
"Father is for your own good. From now on, you will inherit everything from me. There is nothing in this world that is not within your reach. Are you unhappy?"
Yuan Zhengye bent down, just about to reach out his dirty hand and stroke his hair as a sign of encouragement.Noticing the loathing and anger in his eyes, his expression changed immediately, and he slapped him viciously.
He was caught off guard, his forehead bumped against the corner of the hard sofa, and one ear buzzed, as if a giant clock was beating back and forth, and he was temporarily deaf.
But he wasn't afraid, and he didn't feel pain.He just felt dirty and extremely sick.Why did such a dirty man give birth to him, making himself dirty and disgusting.
Seeing that he didn't give in at all, Yuan Zhengye went crazy again, grabbed his neck with one hand, and copied the letter opener in the pen holder with the other, trying to gouge out his eyes.
"It's so ugly, your eyes! It's no different from a stray cat looking for food in the trash can by the side of the road!"
The tip of the knife reached the corner of his eye and pierced, and the dark red blood dripped down the edge of the knife.
He still didn't hide.He knew that Yuan Zhengye didn't dare.Because, if his eyes were really stabbed blind, the energy and time that Yuan Zhengye had spent on him so far would be in vain.Yuan Zhengye would never allow himself to do such a waste of value.
Sure enough, Yuan Zhengye threw down the letter opener, and just yelled and cursed blindly. In the end, he changed his face into his usual serious expression, his hideous and distorted features returned to their original positions in an instant, and he called someone to take him to confinement.
The white-walled confinement room is surrounded by thick soundproof walls. There are no windows and no lights. When the door is closed, it is absolute darkness.Even if he yelled, he couldn't make a sound.If a person stays inside, it is like being in a vacuum universe, with boundless loneliness and boundless fear.
However, he has long been used to it.Habits are also terrible things.
For example, right now, he is lying there with his eyes open. In the wide room, the snowy moonlight seeps in through the curtains, and the floor is full of innocence.However, he still felt that he had returned to that familiar confinement room.
In his ears, rustling and chaotic noises surged endlessly, like muddy mudslides, hitting his brain wave after wave.He had a splitting headache, as if someone had pried open his celestial spirit cover and poured magma into it desperately.
Tortured by the unbearable fire, his senses became more and more blurred.Vaguely, he seemed to catch a clear and bright voice, melodious, melodious, clean, like the bubbling of sweet spring.
It was He Jingnian's voice.
He Jingnian was calling him "Little Master" and said to him: "I have always liked you very much, and I have been waiting for you."
"But, you never come. But it doesn't matter, I will find you."
"I will try my best to make myself better, and then, for sure, I will meet you again one day."
All of them were false confessions made by He Jingnian when he mistook him back then.He was so wrong, but he took it seriously, even though he would gnash his teeth every time he thought of it, he would never forget it.
The voice of the original speech slowly let out a bitter breath, the dilapidated shell of the whole person lost the heat a little bit, and the wind was blowing from the inside to the outside.
"Father, Father!" Gao Gao's voice came from outside the door, and the little girl shouted excitedly, "I brought Daddy back!"
He sat up all of a sudden, and suddenly felt that most of his illness was cured, and he also had a spiritual head.
When He Jingnian opened the door and entered, Yuan Cisheng was lying there for a long time, his face was shrouded in the soft light of the bedside night lamp, which was adjusted to light and dark, and it was unusually white, not exaggerated, whiter than snow , quite a gloomy sick beauty.
He still seemed to be asleep, but not soundly.The beautiful long eyebrows are slightly frowned, and the long eyelashes are like tired butterfly wings, trembling slightly from time to time, and then falling heavily, casting a faint shadow on the dizzy eyes.
"Niannian...don't go..." He made a voice that seemed like a gossamer, his eyes were still tightly closed, as if he was talking in his sleep.
He Jingnian sighed, seeing that he was so pitifully ill, he felt really uncomfortable.
As if sensing him coming, Yuan Cisheng opened his eyes slowly and with great difficulty, and at the same time raised his face slightly, first slightly startled, and then showed a trance-like expression in a dream.
"Niannian...? Is it you? Is it you who came to see me? I... can't be dreaming?"
As he murmured and asked, he barely supported himself up, and the blanket slid down with his movements, revealing his thin and broad shoulders just right.The thick curly hair hangs down and hangs loose, hooked and twisted, very charming, just like the oil paintings of Renaissance painters.
He Jingnian moved his eyes away, helped him cover them back again, and covered them tightly, only his head was exposed.
"You have such a severe cold, why are you covered with such a thin blanket." He Jingnian couldn't help frowning.
The curly head that kept moving "Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian Nian, are you caring about me? I'm so happy."
"I'll ask Aunt Yang Li to change you into a thicker quilt later." He Jingnian said, "Also, put on the autumn clothes and long trousers, remember to tuck the hem of the autumn clothes into the waistband of the trousers, and keep the socks Wrap it outside your trousers."
The original speech's smile disappeared in an instant, what are long clothes and long johns?This is completely indescribable beyond his common sense!
He Jingnian glanced at him, "You won't wear it?"
The original speech was silent, and he nodded obediently.
Even if it was the original speech, it couldn't stand the rush of high-necked autumn clothes, high-waisted long johns and a floral cotton jacket.He was half lying there with his sleeves tucked into his frown, and the exotic atmosphere of the Snow Country in Eastern Europe disappeared, replaced by the style of the Great Tieling in the Northeast.
He Jingnian moved a thick quilt and wrapped him up like wontons.Not to mention, Yuan Cisheng looked at such a big person, and he was quite delicate when he was sick.He didn't even touch him, and he hummed endlessly, and it hurts for a while.It hurts as long as it hurts, like a boneless brown sugar, leaning on it.
This depends on the directionality, and it is only directed at oneself.He Jingnian couldn't dodge in time, and that beautiful head hit his shoulder firmly, and he lifted his eyelashes, and the water in his green eyes sparkled, "Niannian, I feel so uncomfortable."
He Jingnian didn't go to see him, "Take medicine when you feel uncomfortable."
The original speech hummed, "Bitter."
"...This is a pill, not a potion."
The tone of the original speech was weak, "My heart is bitter."
He Jingnian's eyes moved slightly, then quickly lowered his eyes, and said, "The police came to look for me yesterday, and Qian Mingquan confessed all the criminal facts. I'm sorry, I said that to you that day."
"It's okay...!" The original voice probably didn't listen to anything else, only the three words "I'm sorry". "Niannian, you never need to apologize to me for anything, it's all my fault."
He Jingnian shook his head. "I... I actually know that you wouldn't do something like that. But, I couldn't control myself at the time, and I was really... very angry. "
Yuan Ci said in a low voice: "You should be angry."
He Jingnian nodded, "Well, it should."
After taking the medicine, she wanted to cover herself with a quilt and sweat, but Yuan Ci's voice had no intention of falling asleep at all, she still stuck to him stubbornly, staring at him with those dark green eyes.He Jingnian thought that he might really be soft rather than hard, he couldn't see this person showing fragility, and he couldn't see him showing him the eyes of a dog who was afraid of being abandoned.
"Go to sleep, you need to sleep after taking this medicine, otherwise how can you get better?"
Yuan Ci shook his head, awkwardly like a 1.9-meter child, his brows were full of sadness and grievance.He clings to He Jingnian so persistently, clings to him, leans on him, and refuses to leave for a moment.
He Jingnian was very hot by him. Because of the fever, Yuan Cisheng's body continuously emitted heat, like a fire burning, and the air was slightly distorted.
"Every year."
"Ok?"
"That night, I was waiting for you downstairs."
He Jingnian's cheeks burned, he looked at his hands, and said, "It's not necessary."
"I just want to stay closer to you, as if I'm still with you." Yuan Ci's voice lowered, "It's my birthday that day. I've always hated birthdays. But, every year, Because I met you, I have become less disgusted with the fact that I was born in this world."
He stretched his arms, took out a box from the bedside drawer, put it in front of He Jingnian, and opened it.
He Jingnian was taken aback, how could it be the set of chrysoberyls that Qian Mingquan had destroyed?Taking a closer look, it turns out that it is not, this set is more exquisite than the original one, and it is also more glamorous and moving.
"I know you feel sorry for that book flipper, so I wonder if it can be repaired." Yuan Ci paused, "Originally, I wanted to give it to you on Christmas Day. I know you won't accept me stuff, but if it's this, maybe you'd like it."
He Jingnian touched the tip of his nose, and said softly, "I will help you restore the flipping stick, after all, it was something you took a picture of."
"Father, Daddy." Gao Gao poked her head out from the door, holding her rabbit doll in both hands, and buried her family in He Jingnian's arms.Snoopy also took the opportunity to come in wagging his tail, and lay down comfortably on He Jingnian's legs.
Seeing He Jingnian hugging his daughter with one hand and touching the dog's head with the other, Yuan Cisheng coughed weakly twice and stretched out his head.
He Jingnian turned a blind eye and continued to squeeze the big flower dog's ears.
"Daddy, Snoopy is so cute, his ears are just like Dumbo's."
He Jingnian smiled and nodded, "Cute."
GaoGao stretched out her small hand, "Claw Claw."
Snoopy groaned, and obediently put his paw on it.
He Jingnian also extended his hand.
With a sinking palm, Yuan Cisheng put his chin on his hand, and slightly parted his thin lips, "Wang."
He Jingnian was taken aback, his face burning up.What is this person doing? GaoGao is still by his side!
This time, Gao Gao followed suit, and put her round, fleshy cheeks into He Jingnian's hands, rubbing her cheeks back and forth, as soft as a little rice cake.
"Daddy, GaoGao likes you. When you are not around, GaoGao and Dad miss you very much."
He Jingnian's smiling expression slowly disappeared.The heart falls irresistibly like a winter sunset.
"GongGao, Daddy will take you and Snoopy outside to play, okay? Daddy is sick, let's let him have a good rest."
"Don't go." Yuan Cisheng hooked his fingers and looked at him eagerly, "Do you want to leave when I fall asleep?"
"I will not."
"I'm afraid I'm going to have nightmares, can you stay with me any longer?"
"Father, are you ashamed?" GaoGao couldn't listen any longer, and with an expression of "I really can't do anything with you", she put the little rabbit in her arms on Yuan Cisheng's body. "Let Lionia come with you, so you won't be afraid!"
Yuan Cisheng hugged Tutu and looked at He Jingnian with those clear and charming green eyes, "I'm still afraid."
"Father, you have to be brave." GaoGao leaned forward, squeezed Lionia's rabbit ears, shook her rabbit paw, and said earnestly, "Liaonia wants to accompany Liao Xia obediently, do you know that? "