Feelings are just pediatrics

Chapter 17

The little guy stared at Kaixuan with tears in his eyes, his hardened heart instantly softened, and with his long arms around her, Sijing immediately fell into her arms, and lightly pressed Kaixuan's shoulders with both hands.

Sijing is a little shorter than Kaixuan who is 171cm tall, and she raised her head to meet her gentle gaze. It has been a long time, it has been a long time, and the familiar body fragrance that made her dream linger finally surrounded her again.

Sijing probed forward tentatively. She has never been good at taking the initiative. Every time she took the initiative, she would shake her body for a long time. She really shouldn't be too familiar with this person in her arms. Hugging forward, Sijing looked down at their tightly fitting bodies in panic, her face was as red as overcooked shrimp.

In extreme embarrassment, Sijing closed her eyes tightly, trying to keep out of sight, but her sense of smell became more sensitive. This familiar smell made her obsessed, rubbing and sniffing on Kaixuan's neck like a puppy. , making Kaixuan tickle.

"Is it really okay for you to be like this?" Kaixuan asked in a low voice in her ear, her voice was soft and affectionate, she was trying to embolden someone in a disguised way, but she nodded cheekily, that was enough.

There was a slight smile in the ear, and in the next second there was a warm feeling on the lips. The warm lips rubbed gently, back and forth, making people itch. Sijing couldn't help but suck in deeply, ruthlessly. He kissed hard.

It's so soft and fragrant. Kaixuan's lips and teeth are filled with the fresh scent of lime, with the unique coolness of mint. She moved forward to hold Kaixuan's face again, and couldn't help but want to taste more.

After Sijing tasted it for a while, Kaixuan held the back of his head, gently pried open his lips and teeth, and deeply tasted the sweet and greasy QQ candy in the little guy's mouth.

Wang Zi, Jeremy and the people in the kitchen all gathered in the lobby of the temporarily closed restaurant in the afternoon, the spirit of gossip was blazing, and the boss who always looked dumbfounded turned into a Suo girl who could kiss others on the street for a long time , and even more and more intense momentum.

Wang Zi quickly took out his mobile phone and took a picture, and sent it to Hong Yu who was also gossip, saying: "Hong Yu!! Do you know who this is? The boss is so enthusiastic!!"

Three seconds later, the phone rang, and Hong Yu came over with a shocked expression, and then asked, "Why is she with Sijing!"

Can't wait for Wang Zi to answer, Hong Yu called, Wang Zi picked up, and heard the colleagues next to him booing at the same time, the beauty actually pulled him into the car kissing and kissing.

Do you want a car?Is that a taxi?

Hong Yu asked anxiously, "Where's Sijing?"

Wang Zi was a little dumbfounded to see the car driving away, and couldn't help but let out an urg before saying, "The boss and the beauty got into the taxi together, and I don't know where we're going."

Hong Yu sighed full of annoyance, and then Wang Zi asked persistently, "Who is that?"

Hong Yu sighed softly: "Your lady boss."

real?Wang Zi couldn't believe it, wow, the boss has a good vision!How did you catch up! !

Wang Zi and his group were still immersed in the atmosphere of talking about the boss, probably because of the excessive secretion of adrenaline stimulated by the live performance, and they couldn't stop for a while.

The other two people on the taxi looked at each other silently, not sure what to do next.

Sijing's phone dinged at this moment, and she pressed her fingerprint to open the software page, and Hongyu sent her a message: "Absolutely don't go to bed, everything will be messed up when you go to bed."

Seeing Sijing staring at the screen with some displeasure, Kaixuan poked her head over and took a look at the person with unwillingness written on her face, and couldn't help but smiled slightly.

Pinching the little guy's bulging cheeks, Kaixuan said softly, "She's right, we should have a good talk."

"Then go to my house?" Sijing eagerly proposed, grabbing Kaixuan's hand, she wanted to hold her tightly and never let her leave her.

She poked her forehead with a smile, and whispered: "You can't go to a place with a bed or a sofa." After thinking about it, she added: "Basically, any closed space is not acceptable."

They finally made it to the airport and sat down at Starbucks.

Passengers coming and going, either excited or sad, finally turned into blurred faces and floated in front of the two of them.

Sijing still held Kaixuan's hand tightly, caressing the smooth skin of the back of her hand, she made it a little itchy, Kaixuan couldn't help curling her fingers, her heart shrank suddenly, and some longing was infinitely high.

Kaixuan couldn't help laughing wryly, she lost her temper with Sijing who was suddenly so tempting, the little guy still acted like a fool, she always acted on instinct, probably because she felt that I was going to say something she didn't want to hear, so she kept talking to me. Trying to use physical contact to divert my attention.

After a while, she finally pulled her hand back by picking up the coffee cup.

After sorting out her thoughts, Kaixuan said in a low voice: "I think, the feeling is still not right."

Hearing this sentence, Sijing's shoulders slumped, his head hung down, and he asked in a low voice: "Are you still angry with me?"

Unexpectedly, Kaixuan shook her head, and said after a while: "Before I saw you, it was impossible to say that I wasn't angry, but now I seem to understand a little bit."

Meeting the puzzled eyes, Kaixuan raised the corners of her mouth and gave a very bitter smile: "You were not happy when you were by my side."

"No-" Sijing retorted hastily, but Kaixuan stretched out her index finger and pressed her lips, and softly booed her, and Sijing became obedient again.

"It should be said that the life with me makes you unhappy." Kaixuan's eyes wandered a little, looking into the distance thoughtfully, and said after a while: "I am a surgeon. , Work is very important, I spend fourteen hours a day in that building, and then another ten hours, six hours in sleep, two hours in trivial life, and the other two hours with you day and night."

"During the two hours I spent with you, half of the time I was still talking about my work, like now, I wish I could spend three days and three nights telling you how I improved that deep brain stimulation device, and now the device The battery lasts for 15 years. Two months ago, the FDA agreed to let me conduct clinical trials. Now that the most qualified patients have been found, I hope that this improved device will have fewer side effects. If successful, it can help more people. Multiple Parkinson's patients."

Realizing that the more she talked, the more excited she became, Kaixuan smiled self-deprecatingly, and said, "Most people probably don't understand this kind of life. Everyone thinks that work is just to make ends meet. If you don't come to work for a day, someone can replace you, but I think You understand that surgeons are different, and a skill that is as fine as a millisecond may be screwed up in the hands of another person, and the price is a human life."

Sijing nodded, she understood this very well, she used to be.

"But now you don't want to be a surgeon." Kaixuan shook her head helplessly, and tears slowly filled her eyes. Sijing stepped forward to hold her hand in distress, and heard her cry, "You don't want to be a surgeon?" Being a doctor is because you don’t want to face death, especially if you are a pediatrician, looking at dying little patients every day reminds you of Xu Yan, you know it will drive you crazy, so you choose to give up.”

Sijing raised his hand and gently touched Kaixuan's face, wiped away the tears on her face, sniffed her nose delicately, Kaixuan said very softly: "On the contrary, here, you have a restaurant, warm Family, friends who support each other, and hot weather where you can go swimming every day.” Then pointing to the tip of his nose in disgust, he said, “There you only have me, the cold scalpel, and my daughter lying in the cemetery .”

This was the most painful wound in their hearts. The two looked at each other and wept silently, sobbing in a low voice, and never spoke again.

Even if the abnormality of the people at this table caught the attention of the next table, they couldn't care less about it.

"Whether you accept it or not, we are now on different paths in life." Kaixuan held a tissue to suck the tears that kept falling down, and said softly: "A relationship is a matter between two people, and it requires two people to work hard together. , if we are lucky, maybe we can go to the United States together like ten years ago, who knows, maybe we grew up in different places, and one day we return to each other's side?"

The relationship is deep, and it is impossible for them to let go directly, but judging from the current situation, it is also difficult to be together, the only way is to not talk to death, hold a glimmer of hope, and go on step by step.

This is not an open ending, they are still young, their lives are far from over, and they have not yet reached the stage of ending.

Sijing nodded silently, indicating that she accepted the statement.

Sijing helped drag Kaixuan's luggage, and walked slowly to the entrance of the customs with snail steps.

The two tried their best to hug each other tightly, and deeply smelled the breath of each other's body. They knew that it might be a long time to meet again after letting go.

Maybe, never see each other again.

After a long time, Kaixuan clung to Sijing's ear, softly talking about what worried her the most.

"Stop blaming yourself and learn to let yourself go, okay? Let Xiao Xuyan, our beloved baby girl, go with peace of mind and put on a white robe in heaven to be a carefree little surgeon."

After speaking, Kaixuan gently let go of the person in her arms, with tears in her eyes, she stepped back step by step, and finally raised her hand and waved, leaving resolutely.

Si Jing stood blankly watching his beloved leave, the tears in his eyes finally overflowed.

The author has something to say: woo woo woo ~ crying while writing is enough!