sinovels Chapter 11
Chapter 11
Ten
I kept my head down on my side, trying not to lose control!
Yes!I only drink the strongest alcohol, just to let it get me drunk in a short time, any alcohol will do, except red wine!
Naturally, it is not because of its low degree, but because I am afraid of all bright red liquids. They remind me of that panic, despair, and bright red evening that made me discover the darkness in my heart.
The bright red liquid sprayed out continuously like a spring, and splashed on my face and body, making the very thin potato shreds on the ground look strangely beautiful.
My father struggled and kept getting closer to me, his face, which had once disgusted me so much, became rigid and distorted.
I hid in the corner of the bed in fear, and looked at my mother with a relieved smile on her guilty and helpless face. I also stopped crying and smiled indifferently. This is the best ending for them. I must be the most unfilial child in the world , but without shame.
Doomed to fail, why bother to struggle to survive, such ugliness will only be hated!
The swaying bright red liquid in the cup completely inspired the darkness in my heart, making it infinitely magnified in an instant.
I raised my hand and knocked the glass in front of me, and the crystal glass fell to the ground with a crisp and pleasant sound.
Lee looked at me puzzled, a little helpless,
"What's the matter? Don't you like it? Your complexion is not very good, are you uncomfortable?"
I pushed away Lee's extended hand, staggered and sat on the ground, staring at the bright red liquid spreading and infiltrating along the pattern of the slate, smiling strangely:
"That's how it looks at its most beautiful."
All the bright red liquid is the most beautiful presentation only in the process of continuous spreading and penetration.
Lee panicked and dropped the other cup in his hand to the ground, hugging me tightly.
It made a pleasant and clear sound again, and I followed the direction of the sound, and once again witnessed the most beautiful presentation, making a strange laugh, with empty eyes,
"I am a person who is destined not to be happy. I don't want to hurt anyone. No one can bear such a sick me."
Lee let go, knelt down in front of me, cupped my face in both hands, and looked at me worriedly.
My ashen-like eyes are still staring at the two beautiful pictures on the ground, they are so close, and they finally dry up and cannot meet.
"Chu Wanqing! I solemnly tell you again, I love you, I don't know when, maybe it's the first time, maybe every time after that, you are like a lazy little wild cat, I can't figure it out And I couldn’t look away, and that night when the wind blew, you rubbed my hands and warmed my stomach, the wind blew your long hair up, you were so beautiful that my heart beats, every time you were sad and lonely, every time you were lonely Helpless, every time I secretly hurt my heart, I know that you have been hurt, I know that there is someone in your heart that you can’t let go of, I don’t mind, I will love you, I will love you forever, I, Li Huashang, swear to God Do what you say, and never break your word!"
A master in love is really good at sweet talk, making vows to each other.
Li Huashang~ Such a familiar name!
I heard it from A Zhe, a top rich second generation who has the sole inheritance right of the media empire, a person who drives me to eat, drink and have fun in a mobile villa, a person who raises his head and says he wants to control everything, and this person is kneeling at this moment In front of me, I begged the person who swore to love me forever.
I laughed, laughed wildly, and burst into tears.
"Sister~ How old are you?"
"28!"
What a young and energetic age, she has a perfect family background, a perfect face, a perfect figure, and will eventually have a perfect life, so she should be matched with a perfect lover. Both men and women should be perfect enough to be worthy of such Perfect for her.
It's not me who is doomed to a life of tragedy. The people I love, my mother, grandma, and Zhiqing all have no good endings. I am an unfortunate person, and I am destined not to get any happiness!
"Have you ever had someone you loved deeply?"
I asked coldly.
Lee's eyes flickered a little, and I knew what the sadness she had shown inadvertently meant!
"What about her? Or where are they now?"
I took the opportunity to ask sarcastically, mercilessly, and pretended to be natural, as if I was born mean.
"How long will your passion stay on me? A few days? A few months? A year or two? Now that you are overwhelmed by possessiveness, how credible are your words? Hehe~ You know I'm not those Simple girl, your words can't give me any protection, just like you said, I'm already scarred, please put away your curiosity! Let go of those who are already on the verge of despair, we are not people of the same world, no There will be results!"
Lee excitedly pulled me to say something, but I stopped her, the warmth from her soft lips penetrated directly to my already cold heart through the palm of my hand, and dissipated instantly.
"Let's not meet again in the future, so at least I will still be grateful to you!"
My decisive gaze crossed her already flooded eyes, and I got up and left indifferently. Her painful sobs came from behind me, and I didn't look back.
I know, after a long time, maybe she will understand my determination at this moment!
I don't need her to appreciate my letting go, I just hope that she will continue such a perfect life!
I don't want to hurt anyone, especially someone who is nice to me!
I returned to calm again, wearing heavy makeup, drunk and sleeping all night.
During the day at school, although he no longer resists the brightness of the sun, he still escapes from the rental house before dawn.
There is my last belief in surviving.
Occasionally, he was dragged by Yue Ling to eat, and was carried back to the dormitory when he was drunk. When he woke up the next afternoon, he was hungry and cold and drank cold water until his stomach hurt, even though Yue Ling had already prepared meals and snacks .
Looking at the gray-blue sky, feeling the cold autumn wind, blowing across my sleep-numbed cheeks, covering my eyes, feeling the light of the sun shining through my fingers, it hurts my eyes fragilely and straightforwardly.
Little Green's embrace is my haven of peace.
Awakened by the sound of arguing in my sleep, I frowned and opened my eyes. Tonight's wine made me sleep deeply.
I sat up blankly, listening to the quarrel with a splitting headache.
The comic drama of love and not love caused by a couple because the man did not answer the phone in time, the simple and clumsy lines made me laugh out loud, until I couldn't help myself, laughed until tears flowed down, and laughed so hard that I couldn't stop until I choked up.
What a time!While someone is in love, while the lover is still there, you can still mess around wantonly, and after spending all your money, you can still fall into the arms of your lover, and feel the truth of fingers caressing your lover's cheek, I am so envious of the pain!
I held Xiaolu in my arms, venting my heart out, the blue tears wet her fragrant white shirt, printing a strange blue.
Xiaolu's warm embrace and Yue Ling's caring voice are all my memories of Qingqing.
I'm in perfect sadness!
Lee disappeared for two weeks, and I was reminded of the time by Shanni's complaints all day long.
She was waiting to get something from Lee, so she dressed up every day carefully, dismissing the general office worker's strike-up.
I have changed my mobile phone, and I don't use QQ any more. I broke up with her cleanly!
In the dim light, there was a handsome young man with neat short hair, ripped jeans, a white shirt, a delicate and clean face, and extremely long fingers brushing the messy hair on his forehead.
I stared straight at him in shock, not daring to blink. The young man exuded pure radiance. My eyes were dimmed in surprise, tears welled up in my eyes, and I was so palpitating that I couldn't breathe.
Shanny walked towards me swayingly holding the young man's arm, and smiled triumphantly at me. I stood there blankly, watching them pass by me, if it wasn't for the young man passing by me at the moment The sadness in the eyes, I can't believe it's Lee.
That look made me feel so heartbroken, my dear Qing, I suddenly felt that you are so close to me at this moment, more real than any appearance in any dream before!
In this way, Lee appeared in front of me frequently with a brand new image, Yi Zhiqing, turning a blind eye to my drunken falls, and showing incomparable intimacy with Shanny.
Shanny showed off in a high profile that Lee took her to very high-end hotels and went to various shopping malls to choose famous brands at will. She is a generous and perfect lover, which can be seen from Shanny's satisfied smile.
Lee is trying to accept new candidates, I feel relieved, but fortunately she didn't grieve for me for a long time.
In the dark, Xiaolu pushed away me who was drowsy, and ran out to answer the phone in a panic. When she came back, she looked solemn, with wet tears on her face. She didn't say anything, and I had an ominous premonition.
Later, Azhe learned that Xiaolu's father was seriously ill suddenly and needed an operation, but the expensive operation fee was beyond the reach of the family with a meager income. Colleagues in the bar gave generously. Under Lee's protection, they also took out some money, but each had its own difficulties, and the amount that could be taken out was very little.
Thinking of Xiaolu's eyes filled with tears anxiously, my heart was in a tearing pain, and I ran to take out all the money in the card, the money from selling the house in my hometown, I have been sitting and eating for a few years, and there is not much left, I thought I could keep it until graduation next year, and I could get a part-time job subsidy. Now I put all of them into Xiaolu's hands. Although there are not many, it is all I have.
Xiaolu tried her best to decline, but I pushed her back angrily.
At this moment, her face has lost the brilliance of the past, no longer tough eyes, no longer gentle smile, only sad loneliness.
When I came out of the bathroom, I heard Ah Zhe calling to borrow money, and my anxious face was full of disappointment when I turned around.
"Actually, if... hey~ forget it."
I grabbed him who was about to turn around and leave, and asked him to speak clearly. He hesitated for a long time, and said weakly under my pressure,
"If you can talk to Lee, maybe... But let's forget it, let's figure it out ourselves!"
Ah Zhe left with his head down.
I lowered my head at a loss, why don't I know it!The money was nothing to her.
But if so, what are we?What kind of identity should I face her?
I squatted in the corner silently, looking at Xiaolu's face full of tears in the dim light, the lost and helpless figure, heartbroken and unable to breathe.
Finally, I still made up my mind. If this is the only way, for my dear little green, I am willing to try, even if I get cold eyes and humiliation.
To love you I would rather live in this world