sinovels 9
9
Teacher Xia, Jin Shengchang, Wei Dongxian, Wei Yongliang, Japanese old man, and the deceased teacher Chen Dongcheng, the entanglements these men gave me really confused me for a long time, with joy and sorrow!There is the temptation of money!There are erotic traps!It was really hard for me to resist the temptations of nods. When I was looking for peace of mind, Dr. Mao was the only one I could talk to. Naturally, I ran to Dr. Mao again.
Dr. Mao seems to listen to me so calmly and patiently forever, but I have most of my reservations about the boss Wei Yongliang and Teacher Xia, and the night when the Japanese old man went to the restaurant. Communication is also a simple description, I don't understand what kind of mentality I am based on?I dare not tell Dr. Mao that I have lost my innocence, and even that I only like men in my heart, I dare not reveal a single word to the doctor.I don't even know if having sex with a man is shameful or something to boast about?
I think everyone has their own secrets, even those who trust him don't have to tell the truth, I want to keep some secrets for myself to chew.Especially for Dr. Mao, who is like a father and a brother in my mind, I need to be more reserved. I have to do this before I am sure whether he will accept a gay relationship, because I don’t want to lose He, although he is my No.1 choice for same-sex love, of course he cannot replace the position of Teacher Dongcheng in my heart.
"It's rare that you can resist the temptation of money and sex!" The doctor commented approvingly: "The most important thing for you now is the issue of entering a higher education. If you fail the college entrance examination, you will have to face the issue of military service immediately. Don't say what you think Going to university is meaningless. If you listen to me, you should prepare your homework well. You can only talk about other things after passing the university entrance exam. Your current job can only be said to be transitional."
That’s right, the doctor is right. For me, transitional work is already unpleasant. The main reason is that I have repeatedly thanked the advertising company for asking me to be on camera in person, and the boss is willing to sacrifice me for the sake of the Japanese old man. I have to accompany them in and out of sensual places at any time during the holidays. What's more, even if the company wants to borrow Brother Chang's red Audi sports car to shoot commercials, I don't want to show up.
Boss Wei is obviously extremely dissatisfied with me. Of course, no boss would like a subordinate who does not listen to the domination.Because He Haotian couldn't catch up with me, he didn't want to defend me anymore.I have always been jealous of my colleagues, and there are many people who take the opportunity to add insult to injury and say bad things.I have repeatedly felt that I am always excluded in loneliness.
"If you really want to prepare for the college entrance examination, you can move back to live with me if you don't want to work, and the study on the second floor will always be reserved for you, don't move out after only two or three days like last time. Of course, it’s the same this time too, I must accept the three chapters of my covenant, and I can no longer call here to see you.” The doctor gave me the feeling that there is a generous side and a strict side.
Since I was tired of this job, and under the reminder of the doctor, I thought I had enough excuses, so I finally made up my mind to resign.The company also knew that if I didn't pass the college entrance examination, I would face the problem of military service immediately. Except for He Haotian, no one felt sad for my resignation.How sad!I still can't forget the realistic face of Boss Wei.
I really made up my mind to move into the doctor's house. I know the doctor treats me well because I look like his only son who passed away!But it cannot be denied that although I deeply like the doctor in my heart, the strict control over him occasionally makes me want to move away.
At first, I pretended to be serious about reading even when I had to deal with the doctor's check-ups, but the more I read, the less interested I was, and I just picked up a pen and scribbled on paper.I regret that I shouldn't live under the fence, life is full of constraints.
Sometimes reading is really boring, I will sneak downstairs and chat with nurse Ms. Zhou Hala while the doctor is busy.Although Ms. Zhou treats me like a nympho cat who waits on little mice, and even though I don't like this nurse from the beginning, the nurse and I have the same opinion, and we deeply feel that the doctor is very strict. We know that we are the same, and this alone brings us closer together.
"Secretly tell you, when I called you, the doctor said that there is no such person, and even told me to say the same. I really don't understand, you are not his own son, why does he control you so strictly? Are you really Are you willing to go to jail and wait for the test?" Miss Zhou was provocative.
I have no intention of answering Ms. Zhou's question, because I have made an appointment with the doctor in advance about the phone call. As for the latter question, am I willing to go to jail pending examination?Even I don't know.
"Do you know why the doctor treats you so well? But he controls you so strictly?"
I have also asked myself this question, maybe I look like his son?But this is definitely not the only answer. Why on earth is the doctor treating me so well?I really don't know either.But I hope that some clues can be found from the mouth of the nurse.
"Just tell me if you know! I've been wondering too!" I asked tentatively.
"You're weird? Then? Why didn't you ask him directly?" Ms. Zhou showed an ambiguous smile again, and evaded the answer.
I shook my head, I didn't want to ask the doctor, because there were too many problems that puzzled me in my life. I avoided the old problems of the other side, but I also faced the new problems of this side.
The kindness that the doctor treats me is the kindness that Mr. Dongcheng treats me?Or is it the way Teacher Xia treats me well?Or is it just because a father who lost his son found a substitute for his own son?still? .....I'm really really lazy to pursue the answer.
If the doctor is my lover, how wonderful it would be, after all, I can't escape the shackles of love between men and women!