Disabled

Chapter 38

"Shen Yu, give me some money, I want to go out." Bai Shengsheng stretched out his hand in front of Shen Yu.

This is already the first time in a week that he asked him for money. Shen Yu would give him whatever Lin Ran wanted, but Lin Ran would not let him approach, so Shen Yu could only find someone to follow. Come and invite those dubious people to drink and squander.

"Of course, I can give you as much money as you want, but you have to promise me not to drink." Shen Yu's words were full of helplessness.

Lin Ran put back the smile on his face, then walked outside as soon as he withdrew his hands: "Forget it."

Shen Yu tugged at him: "Where are you going?"

"Didn't you not give me money? If you don't give me money, go rub it." He shook off Shen Yu's hand and put on his shoes on the porch.

Shen Yu resisted the idea of ​​losing his temper with Lin Ran, Xin Chang's figure leaned against the door that was opened to one side, and took out the money to Lin Ran after a while.

"Of course, you are in a bad mood. I understand that you go out to drink and have fun, but don't let me know that you are looking for a little boy." Shen Yu's words were exhausted: "I don't want to do anything to you, but other people I love you." Never cared."

Lin Ran took the money and counted it, and left without looking back: "Got it, got it, I'm just going out to play and I'll be back later."

As soon as he left the house, Shen Yu answered a phone call. The grandfather on the phone was furious and ordered him to go home.Halfway through Shen Yu's hearing, his grandfather yelled at him on the phone, do you really want to become completely crippled, Shen Yu hung up the phone calmly.

Lin Ran played cards and drank non-stop with a group of people, he didn't want to go home anyway.The people who were playing together were very puzzled. It was Lin Ran who invited them to come out to play, but he was hiding in the corner drinking and drinking without talking to others. , Lin Ran went to pay the bill.

There are people around who invite them to play, and those who spend money don't say anything, they just take care of themselves and have fun.

Everyone knew that as soon as 10 o'clock at night came, Lin Ran in the corner would answer a phone call, and the person inside would ask him, "Lin Ran, how long will it take you to go home."

For some reason that day, everyone was curious about the person on the other end of the phone.Ask Lin Ran: "Who is that on the phone?"

Lin Ran sneered: "It's just a cripple who haunts me every day."

It was a group of people who went crazy, and the little boy who was playing with snatched the phone over: "Of course we are drunk, do you want to come and pick him up, we are on Jiangling Road..."

After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone. The little boy of the same age knew Shen Yu, so he was naturally upset.After Shen Yu came to the bar to pick Lin Ran back, Lin Ran didn't pay much attention to him.

Someone asked: "Do you like the person who called you?"

Lin Ran sneered: "Like it? Would you like a dog around you? Besides, it can be deceiving."

Shen Yu entered the private room, just in time to hear this sentence.

There was a sound of opening the door, and the group of people stopped talking. Finally, someone said: "Lin Ran, this lame chasing you is too handsome. I just don't know how he got here." He whistled: "Brother, you probably didn't crawl over here."

Shocking laughter erupted in the private room.

Shen Yu looked at Lin Ran.

Lin Ran didn't even pay attention to him, and kept looking at Shen Yu jokingly, drinking with a wine bottle, just like everyone else, as if he was watching a play again.

Shen Yu has always been the son of heaven, dignified and dignified, those laughters are like someone cutting his self-esteem piece by piece with a knife, trampling on it with his feet, and finally turning into dust.He has never been angry and pretentious, and looked at everyone with cold eyes like knives, but those who made a fuss did not dare to speak, and for a moment, the sound of needles falling to the ground could be heard in the box.

Shen Yu's voice was extremely cold and a little fragile: "Lin Ran, playing with me makes me uncomfortable, humiliating me, trampling on me, are you so happy?"

"If you're okay, I'll leave first." Shen Yu glanced at Lin Ran, and his tall and straight figure disappeared at the door.

It's just that the look in his eyes was too desperate, which made Lin Ran feel a little uncomfortable in his heart.

Five minutes later, he picked up his clothes and said to the people around him: "I'll take a step first, and I'll settle the bill first. You guys have fun."

Shen Yu's legs are not good, so he probably can't walk very far, Lin Ran kept running after leaving the bar, he wanted to catch up with Shen Yu, and said to him: "I'm sorry." He was just angry, and didn't mean to humiliate him .

The night breeze was cool, Lin Ran shouted in his heart, Shen Yu, where are you?

When he ran to the road, a car sprang out from nowhere, and Lin Ran couldn't open his eyes because of the glare. Almost at the same time, he heard someone calling him in a broken voice: "Of course! Look at the car!"

He turned his head and saw Shen Yu's fearful and worried expression under the glare of the high beams of the vehicle. He rushed over quickly and pushed Lin Ran to the side of the road with all his strength.

The loud braking sound awakened the sluggish people lying on the side of the road.

Lin Ran's heart was in severe pain, and he reluctantly crawled to the side of Shen Yu who was knocked to the ground, and hugged Shen Yu into his arms.

Shen Yu rubbed blood on his hands, warm and cold, tremblingly touching Lin Ran's side face.

"Of course, let's stop making trouble, shall we?"

Lin Ran's eyes were sore, and he pressed Shen Yu's head to the socket of his neck with his right hand, without answering, hysterical: "Shen Yu, are you stupid, are you stupid?"

The sound of an ambulance came from a distance, Lin Ran propped up his body, trying to help Shen Yu up, but Shen Yu couldn't stand up again.

Lin Ran touched Shen Yu's leg with shaking hands.

Shen Yu smiled desolately: "I'm afraid that I may really become disabled, and I have lost all consciousness..." Before he finished speaking, he fell completely unconscious.

The nurse carried Shen Yu to the ambulance, and Lin Ran followed.Looking at Shen Yu's alienated and clean eyebrows, Lin Ran felt regret in his heart. If Shen Yu hadn't pushed him away, he might have been caught in the wheel and died.

He carefully put his face on Shen Yu's heart: "Shen Yu, I promise you, when you wake up, I will stop making trouble, and we will be fine." Unfortunately, the unconscious Shen Yu didn't hear it.

In fact, Shen Yu's injury was not serious. If it was an ordinary person, there would be no problem at all. Unfortunately, the car hit Shen Yu's leg, and his leg was already so fragile that he couldn't bear the secondary injury at all.

He sat in the operating room for two hours, waiting for Shen Yu's grandfather, Wei Lubei.

The hale and hearty old man stared straight at Lin Ran with hawk-like eyes: "Shen Yu is because you refused to go abroad with me, right?"

Lin Ran didn't speak.

The old man said bluntly: "I know your name is Lin Ran, and Shen Yu told me that too. I came to tell you this to make you give up on Shen Yu completely. That child doesn't seem to care about anything, but I I know that once someone catches my eye, I won’t give up, so I can only beg you to give up on him.”

"I won't agree." Lin Ran was neither humble nor overbearing, a thin young man with a tall and straight figure: "I don't want to quarrel with Shen Yu anymore, I want to trust him once, I am too uncomfortable to quarrel with Shen Yu."

Wei Lubei didn't expect that the child in front of him would be so frank.After a short silence, he smiled contemptuously: "You know, Shen Yu is not you. He has a distinguished family background. Even in a place like the capital, he is as easy as the wind. He just suffered a temporary disaster." , I would like to come out with you, but what about the future? Shen Yu should be an eagle soaring into the sky, instead of committing himself to you in a small alley in the future, living a lifetime without a name and name, and completely becoming a cripple who can't even heal his legs .”

"Lin Ran, for the sake of Shen Yu's future, even if I, an old man, beg you, let Shen Yu go. I know that Shen Yu wants to take you to Boston with all his heart, but this is my attitude. It means raising you as an outsider, so you should think carefully about what to do."

These words were like a stone, which was cleverly smashed into a crack on the ice, and then the gap gradually widened, and the mountains collapsed and the ground cracked, collapsing everywhere.

Lin Ran couldn't straighten his back any longer. He found out sadly that what Wei Lubei said was right, and his staying by Shen Yu's side could only become a stumbling block for him. Shen Yu is the most expensive, and following him, he can only wear casually bought clothes on the side of the road, and occasionally buying some good food is a luxury, and his life is pitiful and ridiculous.

The lights in the operating room went out, and the doctor walked up to Wei Lubei: "Old Wei, Shen Yu must leave as soon as possible. If this leg doesn't receive treatment in time, I'm afraid it will really be useless in this life."

Wei Lubei took a cool look at Lin Ran, then walked to the office with the doctor, the voice of the conversation gradually faded away.

The only thing left in his mind was what the doctor said, if there is no treatment, Shen Yu will really be useless, and it is impossible to stand up in this life.

Lin Ran opened the door of the ward in a daze, pulled a chair and sat on the side of Shen Yu's bed, touched Shen Yu's fingers for a while, pushed his bangs aside with his hand for a while, and finally couldn't help it. Leaning down and kissing his bloodless lips, her tone seemed to be no big deal: "Shen Yu, I was thinking about reconciling with you today and not making trouble with you anymore, but I can't drag you down anymore Well, we are only 17 this year, and we are not yet adults. I am too incompetent. If we reconcile, I can’t cure your leg. I don’t want you to be disabled for the rest of your life. I hate you too much. So you have to work hard in the future, yes A good prospect. I don't care..."

They were obviously very relaxed words, but Lin Ran's tears were like broken beads, big ones slipped into the collar of his shirt: "It really doesn't matter to me..."

He snorted his face, put his stool back in place, and closed the door to the ward.

Shen Yu's face was pale, and she was too unconscious.

Lin Ran felt that God was treating him so unfairly. Why is it that other people fall in love so smoothly, but he can't forgive Shen Yu if he wants to?Lin Ran suddenly understood a truth, looking forward to love is like a slow death process, people get weaker day by day, extravagant hopes disappear day by day, and in the end there is nothing to look forward to, as long as you give a little love, you will feel satisfied It's like Shen Yu never personally said that he liked Shen Yu. At that time, he thought that he was a savior who could save him, but he forgot that Shen Yu was different from him, he was an eagle that wanted to soar into the sky.

But now Shen Yu seemed to like him a little bit, and was willing to be with him.But Lin Ran couldn't bear it, because the price was too high, the eagle he loved might lose its wings, how could he be willing?

"This time, let me give up on you, Shen Yu, so at least you will move forward more easily."

Lin Ran slept at home for 5 days. At noon on the fifth day, he received a call from Wei Lubei, saying that Shen Yu wanted to see him and asked him to come to the hospital. There were other threats in the words: "Do you still remember?" It's the old man in the nursing home, so I don't need to tell you what to tell Shen Yu."

"Actually, you don't need it." His words were full of exhaustion: "I wanted to give up on him a long time ago."

He lazily went down to the ground to wash himself well, found his favorite camel-colored windbreaker, scratched his head twice earnestly, smiled at himself in the mirror, and we just went to the hospital to separate hands, what a simple matter.

Before arriving at the ward, the doctors and nurses in the corridor began to talk about it. The handsome guy who was sent a few days ago refused to treat, eat, or sleep for several days. It was really distressing to see.

Lin Ran smiled wryly, opened the door straight away, and sat down on the hospital bed. He tried his best not to care: "Grandpa said, do you want to see me?"

Shen Yu's side face was pale, sitting on the hospital bed, looking out of the window, without turning her head, she just said calmly: "Lin Ran, it's been five days, and you haven't visited me once."

Lin Ran smiled: "Do you have anything to do with me? You lied to me, lied to me, I wish you were killed by a car, you give me a reason to come to the hospital."

"I used to think that people's hearts are warm. I know I was wrong, and I have tried my best to make up for it. I thought I could warm your heart. However, your heart is really hard." Shen Yu seemed to be I was mocking myself: "I thought you could at least come to see me, but you have been wishing for me to die. Does being with me make you so uncomfortable?"

His voice was weak and deep, long gone from the harshness it was before, as hoarse as sandpaper.

"I told you a long time ago that you insisted on pestering me." Lin Ran pretended to be calm.

"I see." Shen Yu chuckled to him, he looked at his fingers, wondering what he was thinking.

Seeing Shen Yu sinking down like this, Lin Ran felt extremely uncomfortable, why didn't he eat, why didn't he get treatment, he really wanted to scold Shen Yu: "Stupid, can you think about yourself."

Resisting the urge to cry, he picked up the porridge on the small table, scooped up a porcelain spoon and handed it to Shen Yu's mouth: "Eat the rice."

Shen Yu knocked over the bowl in Lin Ran's hand. The porridge was boiling hot, which made Lin Ran's hand hurt, but he didn't seem to feel it. He tightly grabbed Shen Yu's chin with his hand: "Shen Yu , look at you now, do you look like a dog? I don’t want you anymore, but you still have to keep up, shamelessly pestering you. I trampled on your self-esteem so much in the bar. You don’t even care. You still want to see me now, your bones are so cheap, do you think that if you don't eat or treat me, I will feel sorry for you?"

"It's really ridiculous."

Lin Ran's mind went blank, and Shen Yu, who was hidden in the shadows, actually started to cry.It turned out that Shen Yu could cry too, no different from others, with no sound, big drops of tears fell down.Lin Ran's heart felt like a knife was twisted, he was the one who was hurt, but the person in front of him was so sad.

Lin Ran felt sad and couldn't stand it anymore, so she pushed Shen Yu away abruptly, and walked out of the ward while laughing.

Shen Yu suddenly said: "I'm sorry, I caused you so much harm before, and I won't do it anymore. I will leave with my grandfather tomorrow. You don't have to feel uncomfortable seeing me. You used to drag me in the car You came out and saved my life, and I saved yours, so we're settled."

Shen Yu looked out of the window and sneered: "To be honest, no one has ever dared to treat me like this, and I will not allow others to treat me like this. The relationship is too illusory. I like it on a whim, and the rest is endless regret. Lin Ran, I've been taught."

"By the way, I left a pair of rings in your study drawer at home. We planned to wear them one by one when we were adults. Now we don't need them anymore. It costs a lot for you to go out and play. Sell ​​it, it's useless anyway."

Lin Ran firmly grabbed his hands, turned his back to Shen Yu, resisted not turning his head and rushed into Shen Yu's arms.

"Lin Ran, I really have to leave. That's right, no one wants to be disabled forever, and I don't want to either. I will do well in the United States, eat well, fall in love, and find a new boyfriend, Lin Ran. , Goodbye really."

For a moment, Lin Ran wanted to burst into tears, hugged Shen Yu and told him, I don't want you to find someone else, and I don't want you to fall in love with someone else, can you just like me?But he couldn't say all the words, those words became many thorns, and they couldn't be released, they pierced into Shen Yu's flesh and blood inch by inch.

He heard his own cold voice: "Shen Yu, you take yourself too seriously. I feel uncomfortable seeing you as a cripple. Let's go. Out of sight is out of sight."

Lin Ran felt too uncomfortable, really too uncomfortable, he wanted to leave.

Shen Yu still didn't let him go.

"Of course, can you...can you let me hug you again?"

Lin Ran lowered his eyes, desperately grabbed his hand that was almost convulsed, and forced himself to walk out of the ward.

His voice was cold and without any emotion: "Shen Yu, you are not worthy." Lin Ran knew that he had to be hard-hearted, and had already refused, so there should be no room for change.

"Sometimes I really wonder if you really liked me..."

"No one has ever dared to trample on my dignity like this. Lin Ran, you are the first and the last. From now on, you are nothing in my heart."

The door of the ward closed with a "creak", and Shen Yu's voice was hidden behind the door.

Lin Ran rushed out the door, and couldn't bear it any longer and ran to a corner of the hospital. His indifferent expression finally broke and he burst into tears.

"Shen Yu, Shen Yu, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

When he came, Lin Ran carried a piano on his back, and when he left, he had a ring strung on a thin chain around his neck, which was placed close to his heart.In the past, Lin Ran always wanted to grow up so that he could spend a long time with the person he liked, but today he finally became an adult, but he lost the boy he loved.

Guang Yulan in the yard failed again, the time of youth seemed so long in a lifetime, he was locked, and Lin Ran seemed to hear the sound of an airplane in a trance.Those beautiful, intensely sad youthful times, just like this, are locked and dusted in the courtyard in this way, moving slowly with the flow of time.

Lin Ran carried the piano on her back, turned her head and smiled happily, and waved her hands at the second floor of the small building: "Shen Yu, I'm going to work part-time, you should eat well."

The only answer to him was a piece of wind.