sinovels Chapter 21 Uncle Li's Notes
Chapter 21 Uncle Li's Notes
Chapter 21 Uncle Li's Notes
The moment before the storm was calm, most of the warmth behind it represented parting. After living with Uncle Li for half a month, my mood improved little by little, and finally in a certain sunshine When he woke up early in the morning, he found that Uncle Li was still missing.
Some things need to be explained, just like if I don’t ask Uncle Li, Uncle Li will tell me, because since my mother let me read my father’s notes, it means that there is a certain agreement between her and Uncle Li. Choose a time he thinks is appropriate to tell me about the appointment.
When I saw Uncle Li lying next to me turned into a notebook, I don't know if I would like to open this notebook now, because Uncle Li is gone, and there is a key in the notebook, which is just It's Uncle Li's key.
I ran to the window sill and looked at the empty street below; I stood in front of the door and looked at the loquat tree in the yard; I opened the door and let the sun shine on me, only then realized that I hadn’t put on any clothes yet, Then he closed the door and went back.
Turning my head to look at the door again, I suddenly found that the scene was so familiar, as if my mother closed the door every evening, as if hoping that there would be a knock on the door, or that the door would suddenly open automatically at that moment .
I was restless that morning. I forgot to eat the breakfast prepared by Uncle Li on the table, forgot to drink the soy milk made from the soymilk machine I bought yesterday, and even forgot to wear clothes that Uncle Li bought for me last week. clothes.Just walking in the yard naked and most naturally, looking at that loquat tree, I am not only envious of others, to be a tree does not need too much emotion, as long as the world has sunshine, air, water and nutrition Go on living, quietly watching the things that happen around you, and don't think about things that are not within your field of vision.
If I were this loquat tree planted by Uncle Li himself, and he looked at me with joyful eyes, that would be great.That will be a kind of satisfaction and also a kind of happiness.
I sat alone in front of the door, waiting until the breakfast became cold, until the sun climbed on the loquat tree, and waited until the last sliver of sunset passed by, and I didn't wait until the door opened.Looking back, looking at the empty room, no one would say that if you don’t eat anymore, let Uncle Li put you in prison, because my memory also knows that if Uncle Li doesn’t come back today, he might not come back in the future.
I looked at my father's portrait, looked at my father's notes, and thought about my mother's decision. If I go back to the past, I don't ask where my father is. Will the story still end now?Only at this moment did I realize that the reason for my father's death was not so important anymore, even the three letters that I could never find were not so important anymore.What I am most afraid of is that because of all kinds of tricks of fate, it is the real culprit that prevents Uncle Li from being with me.
It seems to be back to the days after my mother just passed away. Uncle Li’s calls were not answered, but he never hung up; Uncle Li’s text messages were not answered, so I don’t know if he would read it and in what mood he would read it. read?
If I really find a girlfriend, get married and have children, Uncle Li will come back, do I really want to do that?This is a question I've been reluctant to think about.If father was given another chance, back in that era, would he still dare to face grandma's gaze, bravely and decisively reject mother and choose to be with Uncle Li?I don't know how my father will choose. I may be afraid that my father will really choose that way, and then it is impossible for me to come.I am contradictory, I hate the contradiction my father brought me, but I am afraid of losing the rights that I don't even have this contradiction.
Thinking about my mother again, she finally agreed with me to go to Uncle Li, no matter whether she agreed in her mind or not, but she knew that after she left, the person who loved me the most in this world was Uncle Li, anyway, she After she dies, she doesn't know anything. She may have chosen a long-awaited relief, but there are some things: like the family of a gay lover, the more you prevent two people from being together, the more they will be together in order to break the mundane world; The more you swallow your tears and want two people to be together, the two people will have a beginning and an end because of hurting each other's loved ones.
There are too many constraints in this world, the love and affection of the deceased, the love and affection of the living and the thinking environment of the living, this is the obstacle that binds me and Uncle Li, and perhaps the reason is hidden in the unopened notebook Among them, it's just that I know, will I still love Uncle Li as bravely as I do now?
I was a little scared, and I even ran away a little, until the night surrounded me, and there was no light to light up for me.
I finally opened Uncle Li's note, I hope I have more courage than everyone thinks.I read my father's notes again, I don't know why, is it divided into two episodes like reading a novel?I looked at the photo of my father, and I hoped that I was his reincarnation. He gave me his voice and appearance bit by bit as I grew up, and he would also be willing to give me his Uncle Li, because I want to replace him. Father came to take care of him.I looked at my mother, I didn't know what to say, but I only wished her to love each other with my father in another world.
Uncle Li, will you come back?