sinovels Chapter 20 Forgive
Chapter 20 Forgive
Chapter 20Forgive
After reading my uncle's notes, I didn't speak, but just looked at Uncle Li, wondering what he was thinking in his heart?And how did my father die?The person my father loves most is Uncle Li, and the person Uncle Li loves most is my father, but this short sentence makes me want to cry at this moment.
"So when I beat him up yesterday, he knew who I was." Uncle Li sighed, whether it was his uncle's misfortune or his comrade's sorrow, "Forgive your uncle, please?"
I nodded. To forgive or not to forgive may not have any effect on me, it is just a kind of letting go and clarity of mind.Maybe every villain has a sad story behind it, no one is born a villain, and no one is born heterosexual or homosexual. As for homosexuals, they have more emotions that they cannot help themselves, just like me.
Uncle Li didn't speak, and he scanned the room with his eyes again. Uncle's notes brought back Uncle Li's memories of his father, and this room was the place where they first embraced.
I don't know what to do with myself?Some things seem to be instinctive, maybe in my subconscious, I have decided that this man in front of me is mine.
"Father has passed away, right?" I looked into Uncle Li's eyes, and Uncle Li's eyes would not panic.
Uncle Li didn't answer, and suddenly cried, holding me and crying, which made me a little panicked, and even at the moment when he was lying on my shoulder, I suddenly realized that I had really grown up, and that I had grown up with him. Uncle Li is as tall as me. It seems that I have inherited my father's good genes. Not only do I look alike, but my body is also so alike.
The air in the room seemed too oppressive, I suggested Uncle Li to go out and walk around, and he agreed.In my selfish heart, or more, I want to be with Uncle Li, have our time together, and the memories that belong to the two of us that have nothing to do with my father.
There are many topics about me, because I am definitely not a good boy, although I don’t smoke or drink, but I am very rebellious, an honest student like me who never skips classes, why does he fail every exam? The students couldn't believe it, the teachers couldn't figure it out, and even Uncle Li couldn't figure it out.As for the question of whether I am just a graduation certificate, perhaps subconsciously I see the hypocrisy of the school, and the so-called good students from rich families seem to occupy the poverty bursary. I saw the unwilling eyes of my classmates, so I It's like the sadness of comrades, who are not recognized but still spiritually poor.I also saw the sadness in me. The graduation certificate I don’t want is just that I feel that people like me are not suitable for graduating in this school. The bigger reason is that I don’t want to leave because of work. Uncle Li.
If in Uncle Li's eyes, I would always be that student who can't grow up?But sometimes I am contradictory. I would like to be like my father, to be Uncle Li's reliance, to be the warm shoulder he wants to lean on when he is tired.
"You can't get used to this society, do you still expect this society to get used to you? University is a society, and your innocence is destined to be obliterated in university. It's like gay status. When this society treats us with tangible eyes Do we have to learn from your attitude when we are in college, so that the graduation certificate you cannot get is like the marriage certificate that comrades cannot get."
"Did you realize your mistakes when you couldn't get your diploma?"
"I was wrong, if you explain it to me."
"What does it mean to be wrong? A mistake is a mistake."
"Uncle, what did you think college was like when you were in school?"
"Like what, isn't it just like society?"
"Uncle, I was wrong, I'm not a social person."
"Why do you sound like you are not a college student?" Uncle Li said with a look of contempt.
Uncle Li knew that I was smart, but I didn't ask for a diploma, so he always felt that something was missing in my life.
Maybe the college diploma is just like the marriage certificate, just a kind of proof.Is the student capable, is the student really graduating, and can the student prove himself with this diploma?It's like whether the two people on the marriage certificate are really married, whether they love each other, and whether they can win a happy life?
What Uncle Li said is not unreasonable, but if it is true, then I am even more reluctant to ask for this graduation certificate, because I want to prove that students without a graduation certificate are not worse than those with a graduation certificate, and those without a marriage certificate Two people live a happier life than those with a marriage certificate, and those two people are me and Uncle Li in my heart.
"Uncle, do you think that two people who can't get a marriage certificate will be happy?"
"Yes, because I don't have a marriage certificate, I will love each other more."
"Uncle, do you think students without graduation certificates will be happy in the future?" I asked Uncle Li with my childish and cunning gaze, and then ran away.
"Little bastard, don't run away. If you don't have a diploma, it's okay for you not to get a diploma."
If the time is as beautiful as this afternoon, walking on the streets of Luoyang, shuttling through the park with people coming and going, when all the topics are not about my father, I will feel a smile on Uncle Li’s face It is like an old tree that has gone through the years and is used to seeing the flowers bloom and fade; like the white cloud in the sky, it doesn't care about the clouds and clouds.
The good time is short, and the leisure time is also short. On the way back, I held Uncle Li’s hand, and he didn’t object. At that moment, I felt so warm and warm, even if I still have to go to all the places where I live. A room about my father's memories.