sinovels Chapter 14 Mother's Confession
Chapter 14 Mother's Confession
Chapter 14 Mother's Confession
The mother didn't say how her father left, but only said that her father went to a place she didn't want to be found by her. She believed that one day, that is, a certain evening, there would be a pleasant and expectant knock on the door, It's like the feeling of the setting sun shining on the face, like the beauty of the setting sun putting clothes on the clouds, the mother will open the door and hold the father in her arms, no matter what kind of identity, appearance or clothes the father is What kind of clothes, what kind of hat, how much weight was gained or how much was lost, these mothers don't care, as long as she can take another look at her father.
She would tell her father that the gardenias she planted were especially white today, and she could smell her father's breath in the fragrance of the flowers; she would tell her father her favorite cockscomb, which bloomed a different kind of red today. , The red one is like a burning flame, filling this home with the warmth of waiting.It's just that the door has never been opened for the father.
The news that my father likes men flew back to Baijia Town as if he had grown wings. This caused strong contempt from my uncles and aunts who had never met. They originally had no sympathy for my mother, because my mother was crazy They said my mother was stupid, and even gave most of the money I earned after graduation to my grandma.And when my mother finally married my father, my mother's dedication was rewarded, and my mother's life was much better than theirs, so they subconsciously hoped that one day my mother would be ruined.I don't know what kind of story happened during this period, maybe if the mother is really poor, they will come to help, because no matter how jealous they are, after all, they are relatives who are related by blood, and they won't fall into trouble. It's like a saying in Baijia Town: Even the best friends will betray you sometimes, but the only ones who won't hurt you are your relatives.But the disaster my mother got into this time was so great that she couldn't even believe it: the position he had always thought to be authoritative was immediately overthrown by her younger siblings, and the husband she loved was nothing but a monster No matter how high a degree he has, no matter how talented he is, he is still a weirdo. They even asked my mother to throw me away and find an honest man of the same family to marry again, and my grandparents also supported me because of my father. It made them feel ashamed and made them feel ashamed in Baijia Town. The best proof is that the fish they catch are cheaper than others, but there are still very few buyers, and this resentment can only be blamed on My mother and me who shouldn't exist in this world.
My mother is a brave mother. When she walked out of Baijia Town with me in her arms alone, and when she broke up with Baijia Town, I don’t know how much courage she had. She cried Tell me: "You can only have one surname in this life, only Bai. If you go back to Baijia Town, you can only visit the Bai family's ancestral grave."
It was also from that day that my mother seemed to have changed. She was no longer the gentle and virtuous little bird she used to be when her father was around. Instead, she became a strong woman who acted like a half man in everything she did outside. The reason for this phenomenon is naturally that my mother has no relatives to rely on, and she has to let her shoulders become my support. How can a child without a father grow up healthily without lack of love and become a mother? The problem that needs to be solved urgently in the heart.
Mother didn't leave Haizhou, just like she hated Haizhou, now she loves Haizhou painfully.She always thought that her father hadn't disappeared, that her father was in some unknown corner, and that one day he would suddenly appear, hold her hand, and say to herself: Jing Qing, I have suffered for you all these years.
Looking at the leaves in the yard, green and yellow, turning from high in the sky to soil on the ground, how many landscapes I have seen and left behind a little nutrition, they may have no regrets; looking at the clouds in the sky, darkened White and white, white and dark, how many rains, how many distant places they have wandered, maybe they have no regrets; looking at themselves in the mirror, they cry and laugh, laugh and cry, because they are so smart, smart But it is so ignorant, maybe I have no regrets.It's just that the leaves are still alive in the coming year, but the white clouds are still there, but my love was buried in yesterday. I can't bloom half of the fragrance, I can't see half of the clouds, and I can't warm the night that binds insomnia without hesitation.
Walking under the acacia tree you planted, a green leaf floats down. It turns out that not all leaves can wait until autumn to fall. Shan Yun, is this your hint of our love?
Shan Yun, when you come back, let's go to a strange city, shall we?
Shan Yun, you will come, you say we go wherever we go, okay?
Shan Yun, you never hit me, I don't blame you for hitting me because of him, as long as you come back, okay?
Shan Yun, you can be with him, as long as you want this home, you can come back, okay?
Shan Yun, I agree with you two being together, can you come back and stay with me for another ten years?
Shan Yun, as long as you don't say you don't love me, it doesn't matter who you are with, come back, okay?
Shan Yun, as long as you come back and raise Jing Nan with me, I don't care what you do, okay?
Shan Yun, as long as you come back, as long as you look at Jingnan, he is crying for his father, I will support you in whatever you do, okay?
Looking at the notes added later by her mother, she undoubtedly wanted to write the past between herself and her father together, and wanted to color the whole story with her thoughts.
I don’t know how many helpless nights my mother had, but fortunately my crying company made my mother not so lonely, but the tears on the note will not lie, she really loves my father, I can’t help pity me My mother even began to wonder if my father's heart was fleshy, why he didn't come back to see my mother or me after so many years.Could it be that he really went to Baiyun Mountain to become a monk and became a monk, seeing through the world of mortals.There is nothing, where is the dust.Could it be that the torment he suffered between relatives and lovers turned into sublimation or escape of thought, and he lived a life of eating fast and reciting Buddha.
Uncle Li can't accept my love because of his father?The mother didn't see her father at the last moment, which in turn deepened the burden of her love, thinking that all of this was the result of her own making, and the two people who should have been happy at least became three people who were separated from each other?Or was it because I came out that she stopped believing there were good men in the world and she felt like a failure as a wife and as a mother?
What happened to father in the end?I've never found myself so desperate for results.I even saw the words Baiyun Mountain on the prayer beads on my mother's dressing table. Even looking at the sky outside the window, I felt that the white clouds were floating towards Baiyun Mountain, and even a leaf that fell prematurely outside the window was towards Baiyun Mountain. Floating in the direction of Baiyun Mountain.
I feel like that fallen leaf, eager to float to Baiyun Mountain.