[Call for Papers] Fan Notes

Chapter 13

Chapter 13 Fragmentation

My mother finally fell asleep crying, but it didn't take long for me to wake me up because I was hungry.My mother prepared some breakfast. She loves me, but she is not in the mood to eat anything. There is a divorce agreement on the breakfast table, which my father typed out overnight. Except for my custody rights, my father has everything. They all gave up, and this made the mother panic even more.

My father didn't write much about the scene at that time, and my mother didn't write it down. Perhaps the mood during that period cannot be described in words, just like the broken leaves on the branches in the deep winter, falling apart and crumbling.If it weren't for me, maybe they would have had a fight or a big fight at this time. I think my father would let my mother vent, venting that the man she fell in love with all these years is such a shady man, but my mother didn't , This is my mother, she is reluctant to part with this family, and she is also reluctant to part with me.This is why my mother looked at me with resentment and love after my father passed away.She saw my father, but I really could only be her son.

My mother found Uncle Li, and I don't know what kind of conversations she went through, but I believe my mother is wise, because she didn't abuse any, and even thanked that there was a man who loved him more deeply than her, who didn't ask for anything in return. of.The mother even agreed that Uncle Li could be with his father, but there was only one condition for her, she was unwilling to divorce.

My mother is absolutely cunning, because he took me with him when he went to see Uncle Li, and I naturally had a good impression of this man who liked me as much as my father, and even lied in his arms and acted like a baby. I don't understand why my mother is crying?Is it because of father?Or because she knew that everything she did was creating a cruel thing?

But the mother did succeed, because Uncle Li left his father in the following days. How did he leave?Feel like his father left him?Or go and never look back?My father didn't record it, and my mother didn't write it down. Only Uncle Li knows the real answer. So what kind of mood is he avoiding me now?

Mother was too naive, she thought that all the people in this world would forgive homosexuality and father's behavior like her.Maybe because only her father feels safe by her side, her husband will not leave her, she can go out to work, and her father will take care of the children at home, or find a strange city to live again. She didn't like Haizhou at all. of the city.

After more than ten days, my father did not mention the divorce, which made my mother a little proud, even a little arrogant, thinking that everything was planned by her.

My mother found the school's leaders, and even her father's better teachers at the school, and asked them to help her get justice for herself. What she wanted was not a divorce, but what she wanted was a woman with a big heart. After knowing that her husband liked After what happened to the man, as long as he can change his past, I can still forgive him, and I will completely smash my father's chance to talk about his right to divorce again.

In her mother's note, she mentioned another thing that she regretted for the rest of her life. She thought that Uncle Li's departure was because she knew his identity as a comrade. Afraid of getting burned, he ran away.

My father was undoubtedly haggard that day, and even aged a lot all of a sudden. He didn't even blame his wife. When his wife scolded him, he didn't say a word, but just kept looking at me. I don't know what he said. Are you saying something to me, do you not want me to come to this world, or do you want me to live strong alone in the future?

That was the first time my father beat my mother, and the reason was only because my mother scolded Uncle Li, called Uncle Li a mistress, a bitch, because Uncle Li left so suddenly, so decisively, so It is the love that a mother will never understand.

The father knelt down to his mother, and the mother, who had never been beaten before, was terrified. Not only did his father never beat him, but his father never begged his mother, let alone kneel down.The father kept saying sorry, and the angry mother finally ran away from home, and went to the KFC restaurant where the door was open to cry all night, she was afraid that she would really be accepted by the man in front of her knees.

My father loves me. After my mother left, he knelt and came to me. In his notes, he wrote: Jingnan was hungry again. He woke up and cried for his mother, but he never called his father. Could it be that his father is not enough? good?Dad is not worthy to be your father, and your father will abandon both of you, mother and child.This is the last time Dad cooks for you. Fortunately, you eat deliciously and sleep soundly. Dad wants to be like you, so carefree. Maybe Dad and you will change their identities and you will be Dad Okay, tell yourself how dad should choose, okay?Dad wrote you three letters, read it when you grow up and know about Dad, okay?

The note was the most wetted by tears. I touched the yellowed paper, and there were not only my father's tears, my mother's tears, Uncle Li's tears, but also my tears.

At that moment I cried, is it really a father-son bond?Because my father actually wrote it, is it because Jing Nan also knows that his father is leaving, and wants to cry and leave his father behind?It's just that Dad has to go. Dad is already unable to face the eyes and accusations around him. Will you forgive Dad?

Father is gone, how did he go?The notes seem to be broken at this point, and there are no more notes from my father.Could it be that father chose to die that night?How did you die?Or did he choose to run away from home and go to a place that others will never be able to find? Did he become a monk in Baiyun Mountain?I know the answer in my mind leans more towards the latter.

If I hadn't taken this path, I probably would never have forgiven my father for the rest of my life.It's just that when I'm on this path, I have no reason to resent.Because when my classmates, my teachers, and my friends ask me who I like, I dare not tell them that I like a man, I can only say that I like her, and I hate mine Cowardly, but I have to hide my cowardice, only in the night full of moonlight, think about my Uncle Li; only in the dark night, tear my own wounds.

Uncle Li, did you also go to Baiyun Mountain to accompany your father?