atypical package

Chapter 43

After the night when he confided his heart, Li Yanxi stayed at Wei Jiawen's house.

Wei Jiawen still didn't forgive him, but he didn't want to let go.The two get along without embarrassment, but being weird is better than being separated.This is now a consensus between them.

Wei Jiawen is not at home during the day, and often has activities at night. Li Yanxi is also busy with work, meeting and socializing, so he can't take it easy.Calculated, the time that the two of them can get along well in a week is very little.

At first, Li Yanxi always waited for Wei Jiawen to come home at night, but when Wei Jiawen came back, he just said to him with a cold face, "Don't wait for me, you go to bed first."

After doing this several times, Li Yanxi no longer waited for him.Now he is very timid, not daring to easily disobey Wei Jiawen's wishes.

Li Yanxi sometimes feels that they are not living together, but roommates living under the same roof due to the pressure of life.

He wasn't sure if Wei Jiawen avoided him on purpose, he had never experienced a normal love relationship, let alone how to deal with it.He thought maybe he should have a good talk with Wei Jiawen, but he didn't know how to start.

Li Yanxi had no choice but to be herself.Get up on time, go to work on time, try to avoid social gatherings, and then wait for Wei Jiawen to go home.

Li Yanxi suddenly wanted to know, whether Wei Jiawen, who was his lover three years ago, was also at home, waiting for him so anxiously?

He looked at the bare dining table, and suddenly smiled self-deprecatingly.Wei Jiawen would not wait like this.Wei Jiawen will tidy up the inside and outside of the house properly, and then prepare delicious meals for himself.

After eleven o'clock, Li Yanxi will follow Wei Jiawen's instructions, wash up early, and then go to bed obediently.

Sometimes Wei Jiawen would come back early in the morning, sometimes it would be two or three o'clock, and sometimes he wouldn't come back all night—it was probably going to another place.

After returning home, Wei Jiawen usually stays in the living room for a while, and after washing up, he carefully walks outside the bedroom door, opens the bedroom door a small crack, and stares at Li Yanxi's figure with the light coming in from the living room. After staring at it for a long time, he closed the door silently and went to sleep in the guest room.

Li Yanxi would open his eyes the moment he closed the door, feeling at a loss in his heart.He knew that Wei Jiawen would definitely label this behavior as not wanting to disturb his rest.

They had dinner together occasionally, but Wei Jiawen was not interested from the beginning to the end, he didn't talk, he didn't eat much, he just kept picking up food for Li Yanxi.

Li Yanxi didn't eat much at night, but Wei Jiawen brought him food, so he didn't want to eat it.So I ate a lot, and finally my stomach was full, and I said, "I don't want to eat, I really can't eat anymore."

Wei Jiawen put down his chopsticks with a calm expression, got up to clean up the dishes without saying a word.

Li Yanxi tugged at his clothes, and called him in a low voice, "Jiawen..."

Wei Jiawen turned his head, glanced at him, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Li Yanxi made a gesture, smiled, and took Wei Jiawen's hand to touch his swollen belly, "Look, I'm well fed."

Wei Jiawen withdrew his hand, then the corners of his mouth turned up slightly, and his eyes softened a lot, "Are you full? Let's go for a walk later?"

Li Yanxi nodded and said, "OK."

Wei Jiawen stretched out his hand to touch his face, then smiled lightly, and said, "Wait until I finish cleaning up."

High-end residential areas have good privacy, and Wei Jiawen doesn't have to wear three floors outside the ground.The two of them packed lightly and went out wearing only thin long sleeves.

The community is full of green plants, layered upon layer, rustling when the wind blows.They circled the path paved with gravel twice, and then circled to the artificial lake.

Even three years ago, they rarely had a warm moment of walking together. At this moment, Li Yanxi's heart was full of satisfaction and peace. He couldn't help but take Wei Jiawen's arm, and quietly rubbed against Wei Jiawen's side.

Wei Jiawen's steps paused, and his body stiffened unconsciously in an instant.

Since the confession that day, the two of them have had almost no intimate contact.Firstly, he felt embarrassed, and secondly, Wei Jiawen still felt aggrieved.

Wei Jiawen didn't want Li Yanxi to get his wish, but he didn't want to break the beautiful atmosphere at this time, so he had to drag his stiff body and walk forward stiffly.

After returning home, Li Yanxi made a transoceanic phone call in the bedroom, while Wei Jiawen sat on the sofa with no expression on his face and no emotion in his heart.

Wei Jiawen was stunned for a long time, until Li Yanxi finished his work and sat next to him, but he didn't notice it.

"Good News..."

Li Yanxi's voice brought him back to reality, Wei Jiawen frowned, and said, "You go to bed first. I... I'll sleep again later."

Li Yanxi shook his head, trying to grab Wei Jiawen's hand, but Wei Jiawen avoided it calmly.Li Yanxi's heart tightened, but he still forced a smile and asked, "Jiawen, what's wrong with you..."

Wei Jiawen suddenly felt that he was a little too much just now, and stretched out his hand to cover the back of Li Yanxi's hand, caressing it carefully, then shook his head.After a long time, he said slowly, "No, it's nothing. I still have something to do. You, you go to bed first."

Li Yanxi let go of his hand and embraced him, with a look of disbelief. Seeing that Wei Jiawen still looked dissociated, he couldn't help but ask, "I'll sleep first, and then you go to the guest room?"

Wei Jiawen just smiled, unable to tell whether his emotions were good or bad, and then said flatly, "Don't force me, okay?"

Li Yanxi's body trembled.He just felt as if his heart had been stuck on a dead branch, and then, with the branch, the whole thing was put on the fire to roast.Time was extended invisibly, and every moment was a torment for him.

Wei Jiawen's deep voice was like a spell, and every word brought more serious harm to Li Yanxi, "You want to be with me, and I want to too...but there are some things that can't go back. "

The flame was removed in an instant, and Li Yanxi sank into the ice cellar in an instant.His eyes were like a cistern filled with water, and he didn't dare to blink for fear of letting the accumulated emotions get sucked away.

"If you... really can't stand it, just go." Wei Jiawen paused for a long time before throwing out this sentence.

Li Yanxi lowered his head and smiled bitterly, "Jiawen, I love you." At this moment, he somewhat understood the child who stood in front of the villa and begged him so hard.

When love becomes the only light that can be grasped in life, he would rather be humble for it.

Wei Jiawen smiled lightly, with an expression of disbelief, before saying after a long time, "Stop saying you love me anymore, I don't want to hear it, and I don't believe it either."

Li Yanxi lowered his head, then wrapped his arms around his waist, and pressed his head tightly against Wei Jiawen's chest. Although he was wearing clothes, the soft hair still rubbed against Wei Jiawen's heart.

Li Yanxi said in a muffled voice, "Jiawen, I'm so scared."

Wei Jiawen felt sore, he stretched out his hand to embrace Li Yanxi's shoulder, and gently stroked Li Yanxi's hair, as if he was touching an extremely precious Ming and Qing porcelain, "But... I'm also very scared."

Li Yanxi straightened up, holding Wei Jiawen's face in his hands, his eyes were crystal clear, "Jiawen... Jiawen, please spare brother, brother knows he was wrong."

Wei Jiawen's heart ached so much, he reached out to wipe the corners of Li Yanxi's eyes, but there was nothing but dryness.He thought in a trance, how could such a proud and strong person like Li Yanxi shed tears in front of him?

"Stay with me, stay with me..."

Wei Jiawen couldn't ignore those hurts and abuses, let alone forgive Li Yanxi, but knowing that the two of them were just suffering day after day, he was still reluctant to let go.

Wei Jiawen felt that this person was sent by the heavens to punish him, making him so unable to let go, forget, and even hurt at the apex of his heart, but fate played tricks on others, and he just lost the right to know and love this person. The only way is to torture each other.

But even so, he still wanted to be with Li Yanxi.

Wei Jiawen felt that he was living an extremely sad life, but there was nothing he could do about it.Man is born to suffer, he has long understood that.

Wei Jiawen retracted his arms vigorously, hugged Li Yanxi, then walked into the bedroom, and gently placed him on the bed.

Li Yanxi looked at Wei Jiawen eagerly, but he just covered himself with a cool summer quilt, then got up and turned off the light.

Just when Li Yanxi desperately thought that Wei Jiawen would leave immediately, Wei Jiawen moved a chair and sat beside the bed.

He blinked his eyes, unable to guess what Wei Jiawen was thinking for a moment.

Wei Jiawen reached out and gently covered Li Yanxi's glasses, and said softly, "Don't be afraid."

With a sore nose, Li Yanxi nodded slowly and slightly.

Immediately afterwards, Wei Jia said in a warm voice, "I'll be right here guarding and watching you."

Now that the matter has come to this, he still can't bear to be afraid of this person.

When Li Yanxi heard this, it took him a long time to understand.Suddenly, it began to rain in his heart, and his whole body became wet...

This is the man he loves.