sinovels Chapter 19 Extra Story 06 My Remote
Chapter 19 Extra Story 06 My Remote
"I don't have that kind of affection for Haruka..."
If one day had to leave Yao's side, how would he feel?Not just a physical distance, but a complete, abstracted him from the space he was in.
become strangers to each other.
Impossible, at least I will not allow it.
How could it be possible to leave him far away.
It's okay even if we can't go to Tokyo together, right?
Haruka said that the plane only takes two hours, he said so.
Yu Yao, the two of them are about to become adults.Severing the seemingly deep-rooted 18-year connection...
It's not easy either.
The dead leaves fluttered in the wind and fell lightly to the ground with frost.Tachibana Makoto raised her head and looked at the two real adults opposite.
"Makoto, eat first, eat first, let's talk after eating."
Being asked out for dinner by Haruka's father, whose appearance and personality are not even remotely similar to Haruka's, Makoto went to the game in two clothes.Haruka definitely finds it troublesome and wears very little.
"Has Yao not come?" He asked politely, looking around.
"He's too tired to sleep at home all day today."
"Eh?"
"He has been worrying about Makoto's exam, and he hardly slept well. Makoto, please sit down, there are only three of us at noon today."
The uncle, who has always been lively and informal, put on a formal suit, and the atmosphere at the table was very gloomy.
Unlike usual, the eyes of the two elders showed a little more scrutiny.Before Yao was away, we had meals and video chats together, although they were also a little nervous.
After living for 18 years, fake smiles can still be seen.
The feeling of depression is like a bottomless deep sea that almost swallows itself.
Boundless darkness, throbbing and suffocating.
remote……
The same deep eyes, raised mouth corners, and slightly sad eyes.
Makoto hardly dared to look at Haruka's scrutinizing but sad eyes.
"Now Zhenqin is bigger than Xiaoyao's father."
Like Yao, Auntie is a very gentle person under her slightly domineering appearance.
Black hair was meticulously pulled back.In my childhood memories, Yao's mother looked very pretty with her long, silky shawl hair hanging down her shoulders.Auntie's hair is always very fragrant, and Auntie's voice is very soft and pleasant to hear.Her arms were soft and comfortable.After going to work in Tokyo, my aunt put her long hair behind her head.It adds the charm of a mature woman and looks more capable.
After all, she is Haruka's mother, no matter what hairstyle she has, she is equally beautiful.
She has the same delicate white skin as Haruka, and her favorite hanging eyes and long eyelashes are exactly the same.
If, just if, Yao was a girl, maybe she would have dated her long ago?
"Makoto has become a big kid. When I was a child, I was not as tall as Xiaoyao, chubby, always chasing after me and calling my brother, with a sweet and crisp voice."
"Now he looks like a responsible and good man." The uncle yawned, "This time we went back to Yanyuan and met your parents, and they said that you and Xiaoyao are already adults."
"yes……"
Makoto lowered her head.
Responsible.Want to be Yao's support for the rest of his life, doesn't it count?
"Makoto and Xiaoyao are going to Tokyo together. I'm really looking forward to it. Both Makoto and Xiaoyao are promising children."
"I... may not be able to pass the exam yet. Although everyone says there is no problem, there is always something in case."
"If it's Makoto, there must be no problem. Xiaoyao will definitely say that, right?"
"Indeed."
I don't know how many times I've said this.
"The home in Tokyo is also your home. After Makoto and Xiaoyao go to Tokyo together, they can come back to live at any time."
Together with Haruka... I hope it's okay.
"Could Makoto be thinking, it would be nice if Xiaoyao was a girl?"
He hurriedly raised his head, just in time to meet his uncle's playful eyes.
"I didn't think so! Haruka is a girl or something..."
You can't swim together, let alone swim relay together.If you feel alienated early, you may not even be able to be friends.Makoto frowned.
"Makoto, when are you going to confess to Xiaoyao? We can't wait."
frank?Confession... what?
"Makoto likes Xiaoyao very much, right?"
The brain is blank.
It resumed operation after two seconds.Ah, the day has finally arrived.
The feeling of love is not a day or two.
I am far away.
It's just that the admiration for his elder brother when he was young, the attachment to his relatives and friends when he grew up, and the desire for monopoly that came into being at some point gradually spread against his will.It's just that the heart beats wildly in ordinary communication, and it's already hard to stop when I find out.So that I locked my heart early, but it was useless.
No, not against the original will.
I don't want Yao to get sick more and more, I don't want him to be sad, I want to protect him well and not get hurt at all.Remote happiness is the greatest happiness.
Haruka is the only sexual fantasy object.Haruka is very beautiful, so beautiful... I can't help it no matter what.Just imagining his appearance, or listening to the recording of the phone call, just...
Sometimes Makoto wondered what would happen if Haruka didn't look good.I came to the conclusion that I like Haruka as a whole.Blush cheeks when facing fish and water, graceful figure like a dolphin when swimming.The craft of cooking, the look of wearing an apron.Cool voice, just the right amount of care.The lowered eyes when shy, a frown and a smile are captivating.
No matter what, I don't want to leave.
Everything is based on him, and he wants to make him happy but firmly believes that only he can give him happiness.He would be annoyed to see the love letters and boxes of chocolates handed to him.Mistakenly thinking that he has a girl he likes, he will even feel heartbroken to the point of despair.Although these are rarely shown.
Only once, the pressure of studies and various complex emotions intertwined, so that he did some rough things to Haruka.The strong self-blame has not disappeared to this day.
If that's the case, it's good to have a confession.But maybe once confessed everything will be destroyed, clearly understand this.
"I don't have that kind of affection for Haruka..."
Lie to yourself almost numb, again and again.
Insecurity is accompanied by possessiveness, seven or eight years.There must be a clear attitude towards Yao's feelings.
His intuition said so, maybe Haruka... likes her.
Haruka is the only son, the single heir of the Nanase family for three generations.It was almost certain that Haruka's parents would object.
"If my uncle and aunt don't want me to like him, I can immediately dislike him..."
Wanting to be an ordinary person has always been Haruka's wish.Living an ordinary life of ordinary people, marrying a wife and having children...maybe it is Yao's established life route.
If this is good for Haruka...
"If it's good for him to leave Haruka, I'll leave him."
If your feelings will make him and his family suffer, let the feelings die in your heart.
how is this possible.
"Leave us alone, we want to know Makoto's exact thoughts."
With a gentle and healing voice, Auntie is still so friendly.Even so...
Dear Yao, thanks to you, I feel this kind of pain like a thousand arrows piercing my heart again.
Thousands of arrows pierced the heart.
Such colorful and sparkling goldfish.
The fishing boat disappeared in the vast sea.Obviously the grandfather who sold goldfish yesterday touched his head and promised to give him a few more goldfish.Change the water frequently every day, and pay attention to feeding, why, I still left.
It was you who took my hand and led me out of all this, Haruka.
Now even you have to leave me.
No, do we have to separate?
The person I met from birth is you, and I can't extricate myself from the first sight of you. There have been quarrels and ups and downs in the past 18 years, and they have all come through.
remote……
"I may like him very much. But, it all depends on Haruka's wishes."
"Becoming a lover or something, I haven't... I haven't thought about it."
"Really?"
It's really rare for that uncle who can only play tricks to ask questions in such a serious tone.
I'm sorry, uncle and aunt, I love your son deeply.
Sorry Haruka, I, Tachibana Makoto, want to be your lover.
"If Haruka didn't have me, I would be better off..."
If Yao can live better without him, there is no need for him to be by his side.
Would it really be better off?
"If Haruka can live better without me, then I can leave him."
"It's just that my aunt and uncle lived apart from him for a long time after all."
"There's something I want to tell you."
"Tell me, Makoto." Uncle filled Makoto's cup with drink. "I wanted to drink with Makoto, but Makoto is not yet of age, what a pity."
The atmosphere at the dinner table has eased a lot, it really is because he does not support himself to become his lover.They are also gentle people.
"Although Haruka has a good swimming physique and is not afraid of the cold or heat, he has to wipe his hair immediately after taking a shower. He always wants to dry it naturally if he finds it troublesome. As long as he does this, he will catch a cold within two days."
"Take off your clothes when you see water in the distance. Musical fountains, big fish tanks, I always want to jump in. Without me pulling beside... Uncles and aunts should make him pay attention."
"Uncles and aunts may not be very clear. Yao not only likes to eat mackerel. If he is not reminded, he will eat it for three months. Therefore, force him to eat something else at the right time, or he will suffer from malnutrition."
"I... will keep a proper distance from Haruka, and gradually make him feel that it is fine without me. I will also try to make him socialize more, introduce him to girlfriends, and let uncles and aunts become grandparents sooner."
How could it be possible.
"When Yao gets married in the future, you don't need to invite me. I'll just take a look from a distance."
Keeping the corners of your mouth up is really tiring.
How can I listen to you talking about spending a lifetime with others, and not be reconciled to watching you put on a wedding ring that represents commitment for others.I probably just want to see you as an adult in a tight suit and leather shoes.Ah, this is that silly Haruka, who no longer depends on me, and has already become an adult.
You don't need me to help you fix your suit and tie, and you don't need me to intervene in your wedding affairs.Without me, this Haruka can live well.
You see, they are all married.
I dare not watch the whole process, and I can't help but want to take this stupid and silly away.
Haruka, I finally know how to cook mackerel, do you want to come... Let's eat and see.
Haruka, will you come with me?
do not do that.
How is it possible, how is it possible.
I don't allow it.
Can't live without him.unwilling to leave him.Can't leave him.
You belong to me alone, Nanase Haruka.
Convulsed to the point of being speechless.
The tears turned out to be hot, dripping down the face and onto the table.
The trembling shoulders, the unbearable silence, the uncontrollable sobs, the astonished gazes of the two adults.
"Makoto, Makoto, don't cry."
"Xiaoyao likes you."
I know.
"If you introduce a girlfriend to him, he won't agree!"
It's already like this, there's no need to gag, uncle.
"Makoto, Makoto?"
I took the tissue from my aunt.
"Ah...Really, this is outside. If I were at home, I would definitely come over and wipe Makoto's tears."
"If we were at home, Xiaoyao would have rushed to wipe Zhenqin's tears before us." Uncle laughed for the first time today, "No matter how tall Zhenqin grows, she is a child of our two families."
No matter how old you get, some things remain the same from childhood.I am more convinced of this.
Even so, finish what needs to be said.
"I couldn't leave him. Sorry."
It's been that way for 18 years.
Wipe away the tears and face the parents who have been friends for many years and the parents of the one I love.
"I, want to be Nanase Haruka's lover."
together forever.
A childish request.
"If Xiaoyao thinks it's okay, we don't have any opinions."
Unexpected reply.
"Eh……"
"What do you mean uncles and aunts don't want Makoto to like Xiaoyao? Xiaoyao is very happy that Makoto likes us. Makoto is so good and gentle, she must be able to take good care of Xiaoyao."
"Besides, if we don't let you like it, can you not like it?"
"Xiaoyao is waiting for your answer, Makoto. That kid doesn't say anything, but we can see everything."
"Not only us, but also your family, everyone is waiting for your answer."
"So Makoto, tell Xiaoyao exactly what you think."
"I... I really like Haruka."
"I like him not because he is a man or a woman, but because he is Haruka, that's all."
"Then tell Xiaoyao this." The uncle raised his head, "It seems that Xiaoyao has confessed to me. 'Dad, I really like Makoto. Let the Nanase family have no children and grandchildren, let you be pointed at, It's all my fault.' What are young people thinking about all day long, times are different..."
He babbled.I have to say that he imitated his son's voice and tone, really like it.
"Huh? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Forget, forget." The uncle who was being scolded patted his head embarrassingly, "It doesn't matter if he said it or not. Don't we all know it?"
Haruka, who kept everything in his heart, had said such things to his closest parents.
"Xiaoyao made this determination a long time ago. We are very relieved at your family. We have communicated before and your parents have no objections. Now it is the matter of the two of you."
I heard from Yao that uncle has always been simple and rough in his dealings with others.
Mom, Dad, and the others also know that Lan and Lian...should be acceptable.They like Haruka the most, even more than they like themselves.
"Don't uncles and aunts hate it? Homosexuality"
"Ah, to be honest, I really couldn't accept it at first." Uncle still scratched his head and smiled innocently, "But after thinking about it again, Makoto's words are fine."
"We have been keeping Xiaoyao in stock, and we never force what Xiaoyao doesn't want. No matter what others think, we want Xiaoyao to be really happy. Makoto, you think so too."
"Now, only Makoto can make Xiaoyao happy. Without you, he might... really not be able to live."
"I took Haruka away from my uncle and aunt again..."
For the third time, this time it will be thorough.
"Children will always leave their parents one day. Where can they take it away?"
"We are very pleased that you can be happy. Both of us think so."
"What outsiders say is their business. It's good that our two families are closer because of Zhenqin and Xiaoyao."
"It's still the same sentence, we never force Xiaoyao. It's just that you will work in the future, and you can come back often to see us old people... It would be great."
"The sea in Tokyo is definitely not as beautiful as Iwatobi. Well, Tokyo is not a place suitable for retirement."
Uncle rubbed his neck.I heard from Yao that my uncle's cervical spondylosis has worsened again.
"Yanyuan is my hometown, and there will always be a complex. The sea in my hometown, we have been missing it for more than ten years."
"Xiaoyao's grandma said that Xiaoyao can only be truly happy when she is with Xiao Zhenqin. We all hope that Xiaoyao can be happy forever. That's all we can do. The rest depends on your own efforts. "
"So, Makoto, for yourselves and for us, please be happy with Xiaoyao forever, please."
"If I really can't go to Tokyo..."
It's okay too.With the same unswerving love in his heart, Yao is ready to spend his life with him.
How could you disappoint Haruka.
Only Haruka can't be disappointed.
"We all understand what Makoto thinks in his heart."
Those calming eyes, exactly the same as Haruka's, are so gentle that they can overflow with water.
"Uncle and aunt, please give Yao to me."
I promise not to fall in love with anyone else.
I promise, never leave his side.until i die.
There was a lot of discussion, the noise was getting louder, and the onlookers were pointing and pointing.
Always maintain a ninety-degree deep bow, but don't feel tired at all.
My Haruka, one day, I will tell you these words in person.
"Get up, Makoto."
"The rest is up to you to work hard."
I can't escape Yao's palm in this life.
The same goes for Haruka, there is no way to escape anymore.
Well, it will make you happy forever.
"Makoto is already a big kid."
Tall, with broad shoulders and a firm gait.Nanase and his wife looked at Makoto's back as he went away.
"It's not the child who pestered Xiaoyao and cried and refused to let him go when he was a child."
equivalent.
"Makoto hasn't changed, she's always been a sensible and good kid. It's the same as when I was a child, always crying while talking."
"I cry when I talk about Xiaoyao, haha."
"I'm still more responsible than when I was a child. Don't worry, Xiaoyao will be well protected."
"To be honest, as a father, I have never seen Xiaoyao's expression like that, the expression when I was with Zhenqin."
"After all, we only have this stupid son. If you like something, it's like being possessed. A little test for Zhenqin, the result is still very good."
"Even if we really object, Makoto will never let go of Xiaoyao's hand, right? Knowing this... I feel at ease. What's more, how could we reject Makoto."
"Makoto knows Xiaoyao really well...Xiaoyao takes off her clothes when she sees water, I don't know."
"It wasn't long before Xiaoyao learned to dress herself when we went to Tokyo."
"Makoto, this child is very similar to you when you were young."
"I didn't cry! It's so nostalgic... It's been more than 20 years."
"time flies……"
"On the afternoon of Xiaoyao's birth, the sun cleared after the rain, and it was the same sun."
The room became brighter.It was rare to see the sun, and the two turned their gazes out of the window.
"Why do I have the illusion that my daughter is getting married?"
As the sky gradually darkened, the two looked away.
Nanase Hiroki laughed at himself.
"Where will they be naturalized in the future?"
"Follow them, you should enter Tachibana's house. After all, Xiaoyao looks more like a girl than Makoto."
"So you're blaming me?"
"No way, who made my wife look so beautiful."
"loquacious."
"We are not young anymore."
"kindness."
"Yuko, now I feel... a stone has been let go of my heart, and I want to cry again. Why?"
He has always been straightforward.
"Xiaoyao... really isn't a child anymore."
It's really been a long time.
More dead leaves fell, forming a thick layer on the ground.
The last time I cried like this was when Xiaoyao's grandma passed away.
Clearing up is nowhere in sight.
On this winter afternoon, Nanase and his wife burst into tears.
End.