your heart

Chapter 39

Although getting married can't bear the pressure of urging marriage, but getting along day and night with a opposite sex that you don't hate, probably no woman can control herself from being indifferent.

The light bulbs in the house did not work, the stove could not turn on the fire, and the parts of the new furniture were delivered... He was obliged to take care of these menial tasks.It started to rain suddenly when I got off work. My colleagues were waiting for the rain to stop, and my partner was on the phone with the other party. He stopped the car and came to pick you up with an umbrella. He had a gentle face, ironed suits, and well-dressed clothes. You have attracted a lot of envious eyes from women.

Finally, one day your parents and friends said about you, "My daughter was unwilling to get married at the beginning. We missed a good man if we forced her." object.

After all, a woman must have someone to rely on, and you gradually agree with this truth.

But you didn't expect him to be gentle and thoughtful, but he never had you in his heart. You get along like harmonious roommates, but are regarded by relatives and friends as a model of love.They sincerely praised your family, and you could only smile in unison, feeling sour in your heart.

You have hinted to him many times, "We have been married for half a year, can we have a relationship?" He refused you because he was forced to marry you to make do with you.

But the man is too hard-hearted, he has lived for so long and is not at all tempted.

But you are legally recognized, and the parents of both parties have recognized it, so there is nothing wrong between husband and wife.So you seduced him while he was drunk, and then you ran back to your mother's house crying and crying, and let the elders put pressure on him to accept it. Fortunately, you were pregnant with a child that time.

At the moment you learned of the pregnancy, you first notified both parents. Even though he didn't want the child, the parents knew the existence of the child, and he was forced to accept it again.

He loves your child very much and still takes care of you very much, but he just doesn't love you.

So you put all your love on the children, hoping to maintain the integrity of the family through the children, but the children failed to grow up as you wished, and this improvised family finally broke up.

You have done three wrong things in this half of your life. One is that you can’t bear the pressure and got married hastily. The other is that you indulge in tenderness and adore him and try to tie him down. The third is that you find out that he doesn’t love you and look for warmth elsewhere.Is it love for the person outside?No, it's just that the person you love doesn't love you, but you want to be loved.

Xu Xin's mother sat on the sofa for a long time, the photos scattered on the coffee table made her heart hurt, she put the photos away and smashed them into the envelope intact.After finishing this matter, there was a voice at the door, it was Father Xu who came back with Xu Xin.

Xu Xin came over and called "Mom".

The woman responded, not being too lazy to be hysterical, she waved to him and said, "Go back to your room first, I have something to tell your dad."

After Xu Xin closed the door, she looked up at the man, "Then let's get a divorce."

The man walked over and sat down, "What I said before is true. I will give you the house and the car, and I will pay you another 80—"

"You're about to get divorced, don't do this, okay? It's your gentleness that hurt me." The woman said angrily, "I don't want your money."

The man Zhou Quan said: "But you haven't worked for a long time, and you need to adjust to entering the society again. I will bear the life during this period."

"I am so big, can't I support myself? I can cook, bake, and grow flowers. It is enough to set up a food stall on the side of the road. You saved the money for your son, so leave it to your son. If he insists on living with a man, his future pension will be a problem, so you can save more money for him while you can."

Besides, how could a man ever live with a man? She didn't even know how her son was raised like this!

She covered her face and began to cry, "I really regret marrying you, and I also regret giving birth to Xu Xin. Why did I name him Xu Xin, because I want to get your heart through him."

Xu Xin stood leaning against the door for a long time, until he could no longer hear the sound from the living room, then he dragged his numb legs and left.

The next day he woke up the same as before, he smelled the smell of eggs in the kitchen, and his mother saw him coming out of the bedroom, "Xinxin, hurry up and brush your teeth, you're going to be late for school."

Xu Xin obediently responded, and just as she was about to go into the bathroom, her mother asked again: "Do you want to make Chen Lang's breakfast? Forget it, let him have one, I guess you won't be able to eat it in the future. I'm going to divorce your father." , you can go to his house to eat whatever you want in the future, anyway, he has a nanny at home, doesn’t he?”

Xu Xin panicked, and didn't respond to his mother's words. He went into the bathroom to brush his teeth, and looked at himself in the mirror.

He thought there was nothing to cry about, as mother also had someone who loved her and took care of her.Just recalling his mother's words just now, he realized that his mother didn't love him that much, but loved his house because he loved his father. He would rather his mother scolded him like before.

Xu Xin's father also got up, and yesterday he finally didn't have to act Enai. He was covered with two quilts in one room. Xu Xin's father came out of the guest room.He greeted Xu Xin, walked to the table with Xu Xin and took a seat.

"Thank you for your hard work. Let's eat together. We'll be busy later." Dad Xu said to the people who came out of the kitchen.

Xu's mother put the dinner plate in front of him, "No, I'm your Xu family's nanny, and my work must be worthy of the wages you pay me." She poured Xu Xin a glass of milk, turned around and walked lightly into the kitchen.

The father and son had breakfast together, and another sentence came from the kitchen, "Why don't you go through the formalities today, and I will rush to travel to Sanya with the group."

Xu Xin paused, and slowly put down her chopsticks, "Dad, I'm off to school, so I don't need you to see it."

He took the schoolbag out from the bedroom, and his mother came over and stuffed a bento inside, and he slowly zipped it up and said, "Mom, I'm leaving."

"Go."

Xu Xin went all the way out of the community, and saw Chen Lang's car on the side of the road, and Chen Lang was waiting for him leaning on the car door playing with his phone.As soon as he couldn't hold back his tears, he ran over and threw himself into Chen Lang's arms.

"Huh?" Chen Lang hugged him, took off his schoolbag and let him get into the car, and hugged him after sitting down.He wiped Xu Xin's tears, "What's wrong, it's like this in the morning, are you feeling better, are you feeling uncomfortable?"

"It's so uncomfortable." Xu Xin buried herself in his neck and cried.

Chen Lang said anxiously: "If you feel uncomfortable, tell me. We won't go to school anymore. I'll ask the teacher for leave for you."

"It's not comfortable here." Xu Xin covered his heart, feeling out of breath, "My parents are getting divorced. Although I know that my mother is cheating, I still don't want them to divorce."

Chen Lang was silent for a while, hugged him and kissed his hair, "I know." Looking up and seeing Uncle Li looking at them, Chen Lang said: "Uncle Li, let's go." It couldn't be more natural.Because Mrs. Chen knew it anyway, so there was nothing to hide in front of the driver.

Uncle Li just used money to work. Although he felt something was wrong, he couldn't say anything.

He started the car and drove towards the school.

"Xinxin has grown up, hasn't he?" Chen Lang said softly, "Parents also have the right to pursue the life they want. Don't you have to tie them down for the rest of your life just because you don't want to?"

"I know, but I... feel bad."

Mom has never spoken in that tone. She always reminds "divorce", "leave" and "new life". I don't want to love anymore.

Xu Xin cried all the way, crying until Chen Lang was so distressed, she made a naive and selfish suggestion, "If you are so unwilling, just tell them not to leave."

Xu Xin sobbed twice, and finally stopped crying. Chen Lang's chest was wet, and he wiped it with his cuff.

Chen Lang lowered his head and kissed him, kissed the wet tears in his eyes, hugged him in his arms and patted his back lightly, "If Xinxin doesn't want to, let them not leave."

"I'm too selfish." Xu Xin said.

His father had already told him that they got married because they were urging them to marry, and that their mother already had someone else, so they decided to live separately, how could Xu Xin be so selfish.

"Cry for a while, it's okay, I know Xinxin is just too uncomfortable right now."

Xu Xin stopped crying, hugged his neck, and rubbed him coquettishly.

Chen Lang kissed his lips, and said softly: "Didn't I tell you before, parents can't always be with you. But I will. I'm always by Xinxin's side."

"Why are you so nice..." he murmured.

"Because the heart is worth it." Chen Lang said.

The car stopped at the school gate for a long time, Xu Xin worked hard to adjust her state, for fear of being seen crying when she went down.

There were more and more students at the school gate, and Song Ye stopped and knocked on their car window when passing by, and passed two wheel cakes through the window, "What are you doing, don't go in, you're going to be late."

He saw Xu Xin's red eyes, but he didn't ask any further questions as if he didn't see them.

The three of them entered the school gate eating wheel pancakes, the sun of a new day was behind them and had just climbed up the treetops with dense branches and leaves.