You take fleeting years for the rest of my life

Chapter 11

?After the quarrel last night, Mo Xiao and Lin Yan seem to have calmed down a lot this morning.The two of them ate breakfast quietly, neither of them spoke, the surrounding air seemed to be covered with a thin layer of ice, and any disturbance would cause it to burst.

September has come to an end, and the footsteps of summer are gradually going away.Is autumn coming soon?Lin Yan sat on the grass, looking at the stars in the night sky.Think of the laughter and tears of the past few months, think of the people I know, Leng Han, Song Ai, Li Zhiyuan, and Mo Xiao.

These people have changed her life a lot. She seems to have never had any friends. For [-] years, she seems to be facing life and difficulties alone, until she meets Leng Han and Song Ai.Lin Yan classified them as best friends, and they would accompany her when she was unhappy, and would enlighten her when she was sad.Thinking of this, Lin Yan smiled unconsciously.

As for Mo Xiao, this made Lin Yan extremely confused.She doesn't know what kind of existence Mo Xiao is to her, roommate?Still can be called a friend?Or their relationship could go further, but the only thing she was sure of was that she didn't want to just let Mo Xiao become a passer-by in her life.

"Lin Yan, what are you doing here? Aren't you going to eat barbecue?" Li Zhiyuan walked towards Lin Yan who was sitting alone on the grass.

"It's okay, I'll look at the stars."

"Really?" Li Zhiyuan sat down beside Lin Yan. "What are you thinking?"

"It's nothing, I just feel that time flies." Lin Yan looked at the dots of stars in the sky, one by one twinkling, as if she saw herself running and trying to survive in this vast world.

But the stars still have their own destination, but where is my destination?

"Yes, time flies like an arrow, the sun and the moon fly like a shuttle, and the days pass in the blink of an eye." Li Zhiyuan couldn't help sighing.

"Although the days are fast, each day feels so long."

"So it's really tangled to be a human being!"

"That's right. If there is an afterlife, I will definitely stop being a human being." Lin Yan hugged her knees with her hands, looked up at the starry sky and let out a long sigh.

"Is it so painful to be a human?" Li Zhiyuan looked at Lin Yan who was crying and laughing.

"At least it's like this for me. Love, hate, hatred... These feelings are too complicated. I'm busy every day, but I don't know what I'm doing. I searched and searched along the way, but I didn't find my belonging in the end. .”

"Lin Yan, you are too pessimistic."

"Maybe." Lin Yan smiled slightly at Li Zhiyuan, she patted the grass clippings on her body, and walked forward.

"Lin Yan..." Seeing Lin Yan walking away, Li Zhiyuan also stood up.

"En." Lin Yan turned her head and glanced at Li Zhiyuan who was walking towards her.

"Lin Yan...Love, hate, and hatred are actually not that complicated. Love is nothing more than a matter of whether two people want to or not." Li Zhiyuan caught up with Lin Yan and walked side by side with her.

"Is that so? There is always wishful thinking."

"It seems we have different ideas."

"That's right, the idea is different."

"Then Lin Yan, do you have someone you like?"

"En?" Lin Yan was slightly taken aback.

"Yes..." After a long silence, she nodded slightly.

"Could that person be me?" Li Zhiyuan stopped in his tracks, standing with his hands behind his back, he no longer had the seriousness of the past, but was replaced by a little restlessness and nervousness.

"What did you say?" Lin Yan turned her head and looked at Li Zhiyuan who was behind her. She hoped that she had heard wrong.

"Lin Yan, I like..."

"Okay!" Lin Yan stretched out her hand and gently pushed away Li Zhiyuan who was about to come forward. "I'm sorry, the person I like is not you." Looking at Li Zhiyuan's dim eyes and rare confusion, Lin Yan finally spoke out what was in her heart.

"Vice Li, you are very mature and excellent... But sometimes love is more based on feelings, at least I do... As a colleague, I respect and appreciate you very much. Believe me, you deserve better people. "

It was the first time Lin Yan looked at Li Zhiyuan like this, she looked straight into his eyes without any intention of dodging.

"I understand." Li Zhiyuan took a long breath, "Just act as if what happened tonight never happened. I hope we will still be good colleagues and partners in the future."

"Okay...thank you." Seeing Li Zhiyuan's back gradually receding, Lin Yan breathed a sigh of relief.

The weather in October has become slightly cooler, and it's another Friday, but for Lin Yan, it's no different.Although it was early morning, she was still sleepless at this time.

Since the last time she had a quarrel with Mo Xiao, the two of them had no interaction.Lin Yan, who recalled carefully, realized that she had rarely seen Mo Xiao recently.Lin Yan glanced at the empty room, just like her own heart, a pool of stagnant water, different from the usual silence.

"Is anyone there?" A tight and hurried knock on the door came to Lin Yan's ears.

"Who is it?" Lin Yan was a little cautious, who could it be at this point.

"I'm Mo Xiao's friend, she's drunk, I'll send her back."

"Okay, here we come."

Lin Yan opened the door, and saw a stylishly dressed man standing outside the door supporting the unconscious Mo Xiao.

"Oh... come in quickly."

Looking at Mo Xiao who was lying on the bed smelling of alcohol, Lin Yan couldn't help but feel distressed.She took a towel and gently wiped Mo Xiao's face, first her forehead, then her eyes, then her nose, and finally landed on Mo Xiao's moist lips.Feeling the temperature from Mo Xiao's lips, Lin Yan inadvertently remembered that night. The scene tonight was so similar to that night. Thinking of this, Lin Yan couldn't help but smile slightly on her face, after all That was the first time she kissed someone else.

Last night, she stayed by Mo Xiao's bed all night, which made Lin Yan feel tired and sleepy at this time.But when she thought of Mo Xiao after a hangover last night, she still suppressed her drowsiness and forced herself to get up and cook mung bean soup for Mo Xiao.

"Mo Xiao, wake up." Lin Yan came to Mo Xiao's bed and gently pushed her.

"En..." Mo Xiao frowned, looking very painful.

"Mo Xiao, get up and finish the mung bean soup." Lin Yan said softly, helping Mo Xiao up from the bed.

"I'm fine, let's go." Mo Xiao pushed away Lin Yan's hand, and got off the bed unsteadily.

"Where are you going?" Lin Yan who was pushed away did not stop there, she stepped forward and supported Mo Xiao again.

"I'm fine, I'll go to the bathroom and take a shower." Mo Xiao gently withdrew his hand, and walked towards the bathroom crookedly.

"Mo Xiao, drink some mung bean soup, so that you can wake up quickly." Lin Yan said looking at Mo Xiao who was coming out of the bathroom.

"No need." Mo Xiao quickly refused.

"Mo Xiao, if you are angry because of what happened last time, then I apologize to you." Lin Yan finally couldn't help it, she rushed up and grabbed Mo Xiao's hand, hoping that Mo Xiao could take a look at her.

"What happened, I forgot." Mo Xiao turned around and glanced at Lin Yan.

"Mo Xiao, do you have to do this?" Lin Yan's eyes were full of helplessness, she never thought that Mo Xiao would be so unfamiliar with her.

"I'm a little tired, so I'm going to bed first." Mo Xiao didn't answer Lin Yan's question anymore. At this moment, she only felt top-heavy, and it was hard for her to even speak.

"Then you have to dry your hair before going to bed." Lin Yan tightened her grip on Mo Xiao's hand.

"You don't need to worry about it." Mo Xiao was slightly angry.

"I want to take care of it." Lin Yan didn't mean to compromise at all, she said firmly.

"Who are you to me? Why do you care about me?" Mo Xiao shook off Lin Yan's clenched hand and walked straight to the bedroom.

"I like you, is this reason enough?" Lin Yan rushed up and hugged Mo Xiao gently from behind, tears welled up from her eyes, and fell on Mo Xiao's shoulders one by one, soaking the water. Mo Xiao's clothes were wet.

"What did you say?" Mo Xiao stayed where he was, and couldn't believe his ears.She turned around and silently looked at Lin Yan who was crying alone, she was at a loss for a while.

"Do you like me?" Mo Xiao asked, holding Lin Yan's hands and looking at Lin Yan who was lowering her head.

Seeing that Lin Yan was silent, Mo Xiao raised Lin Yan's chin and let her look at him, "It doesn't matter if you like me or not, as long as I like you." After finishing speaking, Mo Xiao hugged her tightly Lin Yan, because she knows that the girl in her arms is the one she wants to care for in this life.

"What did you say?" Lin Yan broke free from Mo Xiao's embrace, looked into Mo Xiao's eyes, and confirmed what she had just heard.

"I love you."

Lin Yan burst into tears again, but unlike just now, this time she was crying with joy.

"Don't cry, you will get wrinkles if you cry again."

The two embraced each other again. Happiness is so sudden sometimes... Before you know it, it will quietly come to you and catch you by surprise.

"Sit down, don't move." Lin Yan complained while blowing Mo Xiao's hair.

"OK, I'm not moving." Mo Xiao obediently sat on the sofa, motionless like a statue.

"Why is your face so hot?"

"Is there?" Mo Xiao covered his face and looked at Lin Yan.

"En. You won't have a fever." Lin Yan put down the hair dryer in her hand, and quickly touched Mo Xiao's forehead.

"Oh! I really have a fever, just wait, I'll take your temperature and take it for you."

"39 degrees!" Lin Yan exclaimed as she glanced at the number on the thermometer.

"It's quite high." Mo Xiao leaned forward and glanced at the thermometer.

"Why do you still have a playful smile? You're such an adult and you don't even know you have a fever. I admire you too." Lin Yan scolded Mo Xiao and put a blanket on Mo Xiao. "Go, go back to your room and lie down."

"Is there any medicine at home?" Seeing Mo Xiao lying on the bed dizzy, Lin Yan was very worried.

"No." Mo Xiao looked at Lin Yan with a smile and shook his head.

"Do you still have the strength to laugh?"

Listening to Lin Yan who blamed her, Mo Xiao's smile grew stronger.

"Okay, don't laugh, save some energy. I'm going to buy medicine now, and I'll be right back." Lin Yanzai carefully tucked Mo Xiao's quilt and put a cup of warm water on her bedside. Only then did I go out with confidence.

At this time, it was drizzling outside the window, and the pedestrians on the road were in a hurry, as if they didn't want to stay in the rain for a second longer.One autumn rain and one cold, Lin Yan who was sitting beside Mo Xiao's bed couldn't help but shivered as she watched the drizzle outside and the slanting wind.

"Cold?"

Hearing Mo Xiao's hoarse voice, Lin Yan turned her head, "I woke up. Do you feel better?"

"Well, it's better. Are you tired?" Mo Xiao looked at the pale Lin Yan, feeling distressed.

"A little bit." Lin Yan rubbed her temples, her voice was weak.

"Lie here and rest." Mo Xiao moved to the side of the bed, motioning for Lin Yan to come over.

"Come on." Seeing that Lin Yan was indifferent, Mo Xiao had no choice but to stretch out his hand and pull her up.