You feel like you're going on a blind date

Chapter 19

The cool night breeze blows across the balcony, stirring Ye Yan's hair.He patted his coat pocket and took out a mint.

For a period of time, Ye Yan smoked a lot, and then gradually quit by eating mints, and developed a habit of eating candy instead.The cool taste of mint spread in his mouth, Ye Yan leaned on the balcony railing, looked up at the dark night sky.

There are no stars and no moon.

He almost ran away from Wang Siyu.Babbling out excuses, he came back without even eating dinner.Wang Siyu didn't expose him, and even said goodbye to him with a smile.Is he disappointed in him?

Ye Yan didn't dare to think, let alone ask.He found himself disgustingly cowardly and selfish.He enjoys Wang Siyu, and even Mrs. Wang's trust and devotion to him, but he has been reluctant to show the same emotional return.

"Hmph." Ye Yan snorted self-deprecatingly.

Wang Siyu was as transparent as a mirror, reflecting his ugly heart, leaving him nowhere to hide.

He can't face it.

"Xiaoyan is really hard, and he has to work overtime on weekends." Mrs. Wang expressed emotion to her son while eating.

Wang Siyu just smiled when he heard this.

Of course he could see that Ye Yan was just making excuses.Because of his unscrupulous words, Ye Yanming's face was gloomy but he was still able to force a smile. He said hello to Mrs. Wang before leaving, which was considered very self-restraining.

Wang Siyu didn't think too much at the moment, but the words that came out of his mouth stabbed Ye Yan severely.Before the words fell, he regretted it, and quickly let go of Ye Yan.

However, words are hard to swallow.Ye Yan moved his gaze to the side, and he didn't know what he was looking at with his unfocused eyes, but he didn't want to meet Wang Siyu's gaze.The air froze instantly as if pouring glue on it. After a long while, Ye Yan turned his head and said to Wang Siyu, "I'm sorry, I want to go back today."

He deliberately made up an appropriate reason and explained it to Mrs. Wang who was in high spirits.What Wang Siyu could say, he didn't dare to keep him, so he could only say goodbye with a stiff smile.

Obviously he also said that he would wait for Ye Yan, but he pressed the question like this.

"I'll drink some water." Wang Siyu got up and went to the kitchen to pour a glass of cold boiled water, and drank it all in one gulp while leaning on the sink.

"Don't drink too much water while eating, it's not good for digestion." Mrs. Wang didn't notice something was wrong, and said some health tips from some public WeChat account.

"En." Wang Siyu replied, he just lost his appetite, and he felt uncomfortable in his mouth when he barely picked up the rice in the bowl.

Mrs. Wang had nothing to say, looking for something to chat about, "I don't know if Xiaoyan has eaten."

After hearing this, Wang Siyu glanced unconsciously at the big wall clock in the living room. It was past six o'clock when he came back, and it was eight o'clock after he packed up and had dinner.

Ye Yan didn't send a message.Wang Siyu touched the phone in his pocket.He doesn't cook, did he order takeaway?Or did you eat out on the way back?

I want to ask.

But there is no way to be so casual.

A week passed in the blink of an eye.

Be it the cell phone or the doorbell, everything is silent.

Mrs. Wang didn't know that Ye Yan would come here every weekday after get off work. He only thought he was busy, and he was free on weekends.He also lamented to Wang Siyu that they had met too little.

Wang Siyu squeezed his phone tightly and smiled.

Mrs. Wang went shopping a lot last weekend, so she will have a good rest at home this week.

On Saturday morning, Wang Siyu made raw fish porridge.Before going to bed the night before, he cooked white porridge with broth made from scallops and big bones, marinated fish fillets and other ingredients, added the prepared ingredients and condiments to the white porridge in the morning and boiled it off the fire, and soon put two bowls The steaming porridge is served on the table.

Mrs. Wang was drinking porridge while watching the morning news. The raw porridge just out of the pot was always hot. As she stirred the porridge, she remembered that there should be a lot left in the pot, so she asked, "Do you want to add Xiaoyan?" Eat together? Does he live far away?"

"Not far away."

Although he had never been there, Ye Yan told Wang Siyu the address of his home.It takes about 10 minutes to drive from Ye Yan's house, so Ye Yan always comes early in the morning and stays all day.

"Then you call him to see if he is up, he should be up." Mrs. Wang said.

"...He must have eaten it." Wang Siyu said.

He didn't receive Ye Yan's WeChat or phone call, nor did he send them.No matter how slow Wang Siyu was, he still noticed that they fell into an inexplicable cold war after that day.In fact, he had never thought of having a cold war with Ye Yan, and it wasn't that he couldn't save face, but Ye Yan didn't move. He was afraid that Ye Yan was still unhappy, and he didn't have the courage to contact him.As a result, it has become the current situation.

Mrs. Wang finally felt that something was wrong there.

"You two, what's the matter?" She thought for a while, "Could it be mother who came to bother you? Leave me alone..."

"No." Wang Siyu quickly stopped her random speculation, "Do you think Ye Yan is very happy to go shopping with you?"

"Then what's the matter?" Mrs. Wang asked, "Before, you two wished you could stick together every weekend."

"How can there be? They are still stuck together, what you said is so outrageous." Wang Siyu was a little embarrassed when his mother said that, and he blushed weakly to refute.

"You think your mother can't see?" Mrs. Wang snorted.My son has been really sleepy these days, except for soaking in the kitchen, he lacks interest at other times.As a mother, she is actually not used to her son suddenly having a partner after so many years. At first, she thought he was tired from work, but now thinking about it, it was because of Ye Yan.

"Mom won't ask about the two of you, but if you have something to tell, don't hold back." Mrs. Wang said.

Wang Siyu understood this truth, but was afraid.But after being afraid for so long, Ye Yan's silence caused another kind of fear to flood his heart.If this continues, will they just let it go in silence?Wang Siyu would rather they quarrel with red faces than this kind of final result.

Wang Siyu took Mrs. Wang's words as a step up for himself.

He went to the kitchen and packed it. The porridge was packed in a box, and the ingredients were placed in another box.

"Mom... I, I'll go find Ye Yan and be back soon."

"It's okay to be unhappy." Mrs. Wang waved her hand, collapsed on the sofa and turned on Mango TV to watch the latest popular variety show.

Should he run to Ye Yan's house recklessly, or should he contact Ye Yan first? Wang Siyu refused to think through everything.He was afraid of thinking too much, so he became hesitant.

Just go for it.Whether Ye Yan is angry or hates him, he still wants to see him.

Wang Siyu drove to Ye Yan's community according to the navigation, but he didn't know the specific building number, so he could only park the car at the gate of the community and call Ye Yan.

The phone rang for a long time and hung up automatically because no one answered.Wang Siyu clenched his fist and dialed again.

"...Si Yu...?"

Ye Yan's voice sounded hesitantly on the other end of the phone.

"Hmm." Wang Siyu licked his dry lips, "Are you home?"

"Yes." Ye Yan said.

"I'm at the gate of your community."

"……what?"

"I'm at the gate of your community." Wang Siyu repeated, "I've never been to your house. I don't know where your house is. Come and pick me up."

The sound of Ye Yan getting up hastily and bumping into something came from the phone, and a moment later there was a heavy closing sound of the door behind the chaotic background sound.Wang Siyu hung up the phone, leaned on the driver's seat, and stared at the car's ornaments in a daze.

Ye Yan almost ran to the gate of the community.Although Wang Siyu seldom drives, he still sees his car and the person in the driver's seat at a glance.

"Siyu." Ye Yan took a breath, walked over and knocked on Wang Siyu's car window.

"Come up first." Wang Siyu lowered the car window and said, "Tell me how to drive and where to stop?"

"There is a temporary parking space." Ye Yan got into the co-driver and guided Wang Siyu to follow the internal road plan of the community to the downstairs where he lived.

The community where Ye Yan lives is very new, and the facilities are neat and clean.Wang Siyu followed Ye Yan into the elevator with his environmental bag in his hand.

The floor indicator lights change numbers layer by layer, and the elevator car is silent, only the slight sound of the motor running can be heard.

"Sorry, I came here suddenly..." Wang Siyu waited behind Ye Yan who opened the door, and said in a low voice.

Ye Yan shook his head, opened the door and smiled back at Wang Siyu.

"I miss you so much, every day."

"then you……"

Ye Yan took out brand new guest indoor slippers from the shoe cabinet, interrupted Wang Siyu's questioning, "Come in first."

Wang Siyu gave up the questioning and walked into the living room.

Ye Yan's home is very beautiful, the high-end furniture in gray and cold tones makes the whole house look a bit unhuman.The cleaning was spotless, without any debris, and there were not many meaningless decorations. It was not as chaotic and orderly as Wang Siyu imagined when he was bored.

Except for the laptop and coffee on the coffee table in the living room, it is almost like a model room where no one lives.

"I brought fish porridge, and I will borrow your kitchen." Wang Siyu raised the bag in his hand and waved it in front of Ye Yan, then walked straight to the open kitchen that only appeared in TV dramas.

Ye Yan followed silently.

The kitchen was so clean that Wang Siyu didn't dare to do anything casually. The gas stove seemed to have never been lit, and only the coffee machine had signs of use.From a rough look, all kinds of kitchen appliances are readily available, as if they were all bought according to the introductions in magazines during the renovation, regardless of whether they are needed for life.

"Where's the seasoning?"

Wang Siyu looked around, turned around and asked Ye Yan, thinking that he must have made a hidden seasoning basket.

Who knew that Ye Yan shook his head slowly, "I don't have seasoning at home."

"You...you really don't cook at all?" Wang Siyu looked back at the huge double-door refrigerator, and couldn't help but open the door.

Except for a few cans of beer on the fresh-keeping layer, it was empty.

"You really are." Wang Siyu didn't know what to say.

How in the world has this man been doing all this time?A home without even a breath of life.

Ye Yan stood by the kitchen island, looking a bit like a child who did something wrong.

"Siyu, are you...disappointed with me?" He never looked up at Wang Siyu, "I never told you to come to my house because I don't like it very much here, I like your place, little sofa, a kitchen where you can hear the sound of water..."

He murmured, "I knew it would be like this. I pretended to be in front of you, but in fact I was cowardly and indifferent. The more you understand me, the more afraid I am."

He is like a shell with a gorgeous appearance, but there is nothing inside.

"So that's the case." Wang Siyu listened quietly, and exhaled slowly.He walked over, pulled Ye Yan's arm around his waist somewhat forcefully, and then stretched out his arms to hug Ye Yan back, "So you are like this, I like a coward."

The corners of Wang Siyu's mouth curved gently.

The author says:

Well, I don’t know if I have expressed what I want to express clearly, but how the readers understand what I write depends on everyone’s own wishes, right?I have to sleep, sleepy... At one point, I thought about working overtime and I would be tired and update the next day, but I'm really not reconciled. The number of favorites in the article is the driving force for me to force myself every day. On weekends, I may have to revise 16-18 Chapters, the plot will not change, just simply not satisfied with the writing and feel that you can’t meet people. If you find it annoying, you don’t have to read it again. Anyway, it won’t affect the follow-up reading