you are within five miles of me

Chapter 1 Why are you

"You bastard, you didn't even tell me! What the hell are you doing!" Zhou Yang clenched Jiang Yanzhe's collar tightly with both hands, and punched Jiang Yanzhe viciously in the face.Jiang Yanzhe staggered and fell, his lips were scratched and a trace of blood flowed out, but he didn't care about himself, his eyes were fixed on the tears on Zhou Yang's face, he had never seen Zhou Yang look so helpless.

Zhou Yang seemed to want to continue to move, but his trembling body couldn't support him to make any coherent movements. He raised his hands again, looked down at the people on the ground, and finally squatted down weakly.He buried his head in his knees, his shoulders shrugged, and a low sob came out, filling Jiang Yanzhe's nerves.

Zhou Yang was sitting less than five steps away from him. They grew up together and were companions together. Jiang Yanzhe never thought that one day he would not dare to reach out to wrap his arms around his shoulders like before because of guilty conscience. He doesn't even dare now. Go to Zhou Yang.

Zhou Yang got up abruptly, wiped away his tears casually, without even looking at Jiang Yanzhe, just said in a low voice, "I'm going to offer incense to Grandpa."

Jiang Yanzhe watched helplessly as Zhou Yang swayed into the most familiar iron door, and he didn't even have the strength to close the door. It was the place where Zhou Yang grew up.In the small, square courtyard is all Zhou Yang's thoughts for the past 17 years, and now, in the main room in the middle is the mourning hall of Zhou Yang's grandfather.

Jiang Yanzhe got up slowly, and walked to the iron gate along the alley where Zhou Yang walked, but he didn't dare to go in, because he heard the overwhelming crying in the yard.He turned around, leaned his back against the brick wall, covered his eyes with his hands, let the tears slip from his fingers, and said silently in his heart: Zhou Yang, I'm sorry.

Zhou Yang never thought of this day.This day was the first day after the college entrance examination, June [-]th, and he might never forget this day for the rest of his life.

Zhou Yang came to Grandpa's house early in the morning. Before coming, what Zhou Yang thought was that Grandpa was not in good health. He hadn't visited him for a long time because of the college entrance examination. I really miss him!

As soon as he entered, he was surprised to find that all the family members were there: grandma, mother, aunt, uncle, sister...all standing neatly in the yard, as if they had agreed to wait for him to come back.Zhou Yang was very strange, he smiled and asked: "I am so popular, are you all waiting for me?" What's even more strange is that no one answered him, no one even asked him how he was doing in the college entrance examination.Without noticing the dignified expressions on everyone's faces, he lifted the curtain of the room where his grandfather was recuperating, but the bed was empty, and the old man had disappeared.

Zhou Yang turned to his grandmother suspiciously, "Grandma, where is grandpa?"

Grandma lowered her head and said nothing, but the aunt said: "Your grandpa... went outside."

Zhou Yang smiled: "Grandpa went out to play, is he in good health, and who did he go with?"

As a result, Zhou Yang's mother burst into tears: "Son, your grandfather is gone."

There was a "buzz", as if something exploded in Zhou Yang's mind.He seemed to have ringing in his ears suddenly, and his eyes couldn't see clearly. He didn't even understand what his mother meant by "gone". "What, what do you mean? No, it's impossible, you are, you are joking." His lips were trembling, and he couldn't even bite the words clearly, but his subconscious expression turned out to be a smile with the corners of his mouth pulled. He shook his head, trying to keep himself awake.It's a pity that this smile froze when he saw the white couplets on the side of the door and on the lintel, didn't he see it before he just entered the door?This, what does this mean, what the hell happened?

Zhou Yang was trembling all over. He lowered his head, but his grandmother stretched out her hand to pull him, "Go, offer incense to your grandfather, and meet him." Zhou Yang raised his head, and was dragged to the mourning hall by his grandmother. As soon as he stepped in, Zhou Yang suddenly shook off his grandma's hand, "Grandma, I don't believe it, I don't believe it." He kept shaking his head and staggered out the door. Who can tell him what's going on? After all, grandpa Where did you go?

Zhou Yang didn't know what to do, he frantically wiped away the tears that kept pouring out, he didn't know what he was crying for, was he crying for grandpa?No, no, grandpa is still there, grandpa hasn't left.Zhou Yang didn't believe it, he rushed to the entrance of the alley, and suddenly bumped into a person, it was Jiang Yanzhe.

Jiang Yanzhe quickly grabbed Zhou Yang's hand and made him look up at him: "Zhou Yang, are you okay?"

When Zhou Yang heard this, he suddenly raised his head: "You know! You fucking know..."

Zhou Yang finally stepped into the mourning hall. The kind-hearted old man held him with warm hands from time to time. He was obviously a warm person. Why did he turn into a black and white photo and put it there?When Zhou Yang offered the incense, his hands trembled and he couldn't even light the fire. The incense burner, the incense burner was right in front of him, why couldn't he insert the incense into it?Zhou Yang's knees finally gave way, he knelt heavily on the ground, knocked his head down, and cried loudly.

"Grandpa, I'm sorry, I didn't see you for the last time, I'm sorry, Grandpa, I'm unfilial."

"Grandpa, why don't you wait for me, wait for me, I'll come to see you."

"Grandpa, did you prevent my family members from telling me, for fear of affecting my exam, right?"

"Grandpa, I'm here, I'm here to see you."

Grandpa, grandpa, grandpa...

Zhou Yang cried and shouted, but unfortunately, there will no longer be such a safe voice to respond to him, only the smile on the black and white photo in front of him is as warm as before.The firelight shone on the photo, and the eyes in the photo seemed to be shining with waves.

Behind Zhou Yang was his family, who knelt with him in front of his grandpa's spirit. Grandma didn't kneel. She stood in front of the black and white photo and said softly, "Look, Yang Yang is here. You've always wanted Yang Yang to come here." It's gone." Grandma said while crying, but the words were spoken very fluently, the words were spoken, but what about the time?It's too late, it's too late.

The whole room was full of crying. Zhou Yang cried until his legs became weak and he couldn't stand up. He had never experienced such a thing. He was the youngest in the family. Although he was a boy, he was given a lot of protection. , He was never allowed to go to funeral occasions like this.Unexpectedly, unexpectedly, the first time I experienced this kind of occasion, it was because of my grandfather!In the end, Zhou Yang was still dragged up from the ground by his grandmother. Zhou Yang looked at his grandmother, and suddenly found that his grandmother suddenly aged a lot, and his 70-year-old grandmother still suffered such pain in body and mind. Grandma has been around for more than 17 years. Compared with him, the most painful person should be grandma.

Zhou Yang raised his hand to hug his grandma, and found that the old man's body could be completely wrapped in his arms.Grandma stroked his back, choked up and said, "Yangyang, I know you're feeling uncomfortable, but this is what your grandpa meant, and it's what all of us meant to keep it from you. I want you to take the exam well. If you know, then How do you still take the exam? You, don't blame us." Zhou Yang's body stiffened, his eyes drooped, tears flowed out again, he patted the old man's back like his grandmother, and comforted him: "No , Grandma, how could I blame you, you are doing it for my own good."

Zhou Yang's tears had dried up when he let go of his grandmother, and his grandmother asked him, "Are you hungry, what do you want to eat?"

Zhou Yang's voice was a little dry, and he said hoarsely: "Grandma, I'm not hungry, I want to go out to get some air." Zhou Yang walked to the door of the main house, paused, and wanted to look back at the photo on the table, but still Without turning his head, his eyes were moist again, and he hurried out quickly.As soon as he reached the gate, he found Jiang Yanzhe squatting at the gate with red eyes.Seeing Zhou Yang coming out suddenly, he wiped his eyes in a panic. Maybe he squatted for too long and stood up too fast. When Jiang Yanzhe stood up, his eyes darkened and his figure wobbled, but Zhou Yang ignored him , went straight to the alley.Jiang Yanzhe didn't say anything, and followed Zhou Yang with vain footsteps, and saw Zhou Yang leaning on the willow tree that had lived for many years at the entrance of the alley.

Zhou Yang lowered his head, watching Jiang Yanzhe stop five steps away from his eyes.No one spoke.

Zhou Yang suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette, but unfortunately he couldn't, because his grandfather had warned him not to learn to smoke, and his grandfather didn't like it, so he couldn't.Zhou Yang swallowed his saliva. He and Jiang Yanzhe had a good relationship since they were young, but he has never wanted to see him as much as he does now. Although he did nothing wrong, it was for his own good, yes, everything It's for your own good.Zhou Yang bypassed Jiang Yanzhe and was about to go back, but when he was about to pass by Jiang Yanzhe, Jiang Yanzhe grabbed his wrist.It was the hot summer season, and the hand on Zhou Yang's wrist was scaldingly hot. Zhou Yang glanced dissatisfiedly at Jiang Yanzhe, who was beside him, and wanted to shake it off impatiently, but he couldn't shake it off when he moved his wrist. One hand clamped tighter.

Zhou Yang didn't speak. He looked at Jiang Yanzhe without moving.

Jiang Yanzhe was frightened by Zhou Yang's gaze, and he finally said unavoidably, "Zhou Yang, I'm sorry, I, I, shouldn't..."

Zhou Yang interrupted him coldly: "Shouldn't you not tell me? Then why didn't you tell me, say sorry now, do you think I should accept it? I still want to say sorry to my grandfather, can he accept it? He can't even hear it! Don't you think these three words are really useless?"

Jiang Yanzhe knew that what he said was pale and weak, he felt a burst of collapse all over his body, and the hand on Zhou Yang's wrist was also loosened.

Zhou Yang threw him away at once, stepped in front of him, and looked at him.He was slightly taller than Zhou Yang, and when Zhou Yang met his gaze, he could only look back at him.

"Why, do you want to explain to me why you are hiding from me? Then I'll just break it up with you once and for all! I know, it's just for my own good, and I'm afraid it will affect my performance in the college entrance examination. Heh, Jiang Yanzhe, my family They have hope for me, and think that maybe I can be admitted to a university by performing supernormally. Go? My grades are poor, don’t you know? You said you were afraid of affecting me so you didn’t tell me, you’re so nonsense.”

"Even if you really can't pass the exam, it's more reassuring than not taking the exam directly after you know the news." After Jiang Yanzhe finished speaking, he didn't dare to look at Zhou Yang's face, and turned his head to one side.

Zhou Yang turned pale when he heard this, and finally smiled angrily: "Haha, yes, it makes people feel at ease, it really makes sense, Jiang Xueba, what you said really makes sense. Let me ask you, my family won't tell me it's true. Because the blood relatives of the family stand on the standpoint of loving me. What about you, what standpoint are you taking?"

Jiang Yanzhe bit his lip, hesitant to speak.He wanted to say something, but he held it back, and forced two words out of his mouth: "Friend...you".

"Friend? Jiang Yanzhe, you still know that we are friends. I thought you knew me best. Didn't you really think about how I would react when I found out about this? Why did you choose to hide it for my own good? I, I really didn't expect it, Jiang Yanzhe, you know? I feel the shame and indignation that my best friend betrayed me and hurt me right now!"

"I admit that I hurt you. But it's not a betrayal, neither do I, it's for your own good."

"Don't say anything that is good for me, Jiang Yanzhe. From the standpoint of a friend, you are even less qualified to choose for me. To put it bluntly, you are just a friend. Why the hell are you?"

Jiang Yanzhe was stunned, yes, he was just a friend, what position did he have, why should he?

Zhou Yang didn't wait for him to speak, he walked away, leaving a last sentence: "Jiang Yanzhe, I can't blame my family, and it's even more impossible for me to hate you, but I will blame you."

Jiang Yanzhe breathed a sigh of relief, and he shook the hand that had grabbed Zhou Yang's wrist. It's okay, it's okay, it's just a strange thing, which means that Zhou Yang is still - friend, friend.

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