you are with the light

Chapter 36

The sun in Beijing is poisonous. Standing under the sun feels uncomfortable as if you are dehydrated, not to mention that it takes half an hour to stand.Gu Jinbei stood with hot sweat on his face, he was not bad, but a few classmates couldn't take it anymore, and died standing in a military posture.

Military training consumes a lot of energy and is particularly easy to get hungry.After the military training was over, when Chen Ke came to see him, he stretched out his hand and gestured: "I don't know if it's my illusion, but I always feel that you have grown a lot taller."

Gu Jinbei grinned stupidly, showing two stupid canine teeth: "I also think I am tall, and I can find out after a few days of physical examination."

When the results of the physical examination came out, it turned out that he had grown a few centimeters taller. Gu Jinbei took the medical examination form and wished he could run to Chen Ke to present the treasure right now.

The roommates were making an appointment for dinner and asked Gu Jinbei if he wanted to go. Gu Jinbei said, "I won't go. I'll go find my Brother Chen."

He ran home, but there was no one at home, Gu Jinbei obviously forgot that there was such an accident, and was stunned in the room for a moment.At first, he wanted to go to the hotel where Chen Ke worked to find him, but after hesitating, he still didn't go there.He waited for Chen Ke in the house, and when he felt that almost a century had passed, Chen Ke came back.

Seeing Gu Jinbei, Chen Ke looked a little surprised, but still subconsciously smiled at him: "Why are you here?"

"I've grown taller." Gu Jinbei said, and his voice rose as he spoke, "It was detected by the physical examination today, three centimeters."

Chen Ke said, "That's good." He walked up to Gu Jinbei, "There's nothing to eat at home, I'll take you out to eat."

After Gu Jinbei had a meal with Chen Ke, he went to the station and waited for the train. Chen Ke said, "There's no need to come here in such a hurry. It's tiring to go back and forth."

"It's okay, they're all in Beijing anyway, not far away." A bus came in the distance. Gu Jinbei took a closer look and found it wasn't the one he wanted to take, so he was relieved. He wanted to talk to Chen Ke. Stay longer.

It was almost dusk, the dark clouds were pressing down, and the sultry wind was blowing with a hint of coolness. Chen Ke looked at the sky and said, "It's going to rain."

He ran to buy two umbrellas, during which Gu Jinbei persuaded himself to miss the bus by waiting for Chen Ke.Chen Ke came back very quickly. Not long after he bought the umbrella, it started to rain.

The rain curtain was so noisy that people couldn't hear or see anything clearly, but when Gu Jinbei turned his head to look at Chen Ke, he felt that the rain curtain was a good thing. Can be the next Chen Ke.

Chen Ke was watching one bus after another, his brows were unconsciously frowned, showing that he was very impatient.His eyelashes fluttered slightly, like the wings of a butterfly fluttering in the wind, his cheeks were smooth and tender, the bridge of his nose was high, and when his mouth was tightly pursed, he could see small dimples on his lips.

Gu Jinbei was fascinated again.

Until Chen Ke patted him: "What are you doing in a daze? Your car has arrived."

Gu Jinbei seemed to be awakened from a dream, and he trembled a bit before he felt that his feet had stepped on the ground.Chen Ke looked at him: "Cold?"

The rain swallowed his words, but Gu Jinbei didn't hear them.His car had arrived, and he walked over holding an umbrella, then turned around and waved to Chen Ke.

After getting into the car, Gu Jinbei saw a familiar blurry figure through the blurry car window covered with water droplets.He felt that he had supernatural powers, and he could recognize Chen Ke at a glance.

After the car drove away and disappeared, Chen Ke slowly walked home.It rained heavily, and his trousers were quickly wet, and the coolness spread down his calf to his heart.He looked forward, the umbrella eaves covered most of the sky, lonely like an eagle, swooping down suddenly, covering his world.

Gu Jinbei found a part-time job without telling Chen Ke.He is very busy every day, busy studying and working part-time, and sometimes he can't even eat when he is so busy.When returning home, Chen Ke looked at him and frowned with distress: "You seem to have lost weight."

"It's a little bit, I'm busy studying." Gu Jinbei said, he took a big mouthful of rice, chewed a few mouthfuls and swallowed it down.Chen Ke asked him: "Why do you eat so fast? Slow down, too fast is bad for the stomach."

Gu Jinbei deliberately lowered his speed.

Gu Jinbei worked hard for a month, and finally saved some money, but it was not much, and he was still close to buying a mobile phone.

Chen Ke doesn't have a mobile phone, so it's all luck to find him, if you meet him, everyone will be happy, if you don't, just wait.It's okay for him to wait for Chen Ke, but it's not good for Chen Ke to wait for himself.

During the National Day, Gu Jinbei didn't tell Chen Ke that the holiday was when the hotel was short of people, and he couldn't get away. Gu Jinbei was also happy to work part-time. He would pick up Chen Ke at night and go home with him.

Happy days are always short, and Gu Jinbei feels that time flies by like an arrow.On the day of his departure, he refused to pack his things, reluctantly stuffing his clothes into the suitcase until the last moment.

"I don't want to go," he said.

Chen Ke smiled: "How close we are, if you want to come to me, you can come to me anytime."

Gu Jinbei was still unhappy, he stopped when he reached the door, and asked Chen Ke, "Can I hug you?"

Chen Ke never seemed to refuse him. This connivance would give Gu Jinbei the illusion that no matter what he did, Chen Ke would never refuse him.

He hugged Chen Ke, then let go.Chen Ke has a smokey aura about him, which makes him not as unapproachable as he looks.

Gu Jinbei let go of Chen Ke and said in his heart, "He is mine."

The gathering among colleagues was lively and noisy, and Chen Ke sat silently eating while listening to their high-spirited discussions.

He doesn't like such a lively scene. Sometimes he feels like a wolf walking alone through the snow-covered wilderness, and sometimes he feels like a cat standing outside the world of mortals, watching with cold eyes. Change of seasons throughout the year.

He will feel that he is out of place in this world.

Meng Dujiang came over and sat down next to him: "Why don't you talk, you don't like it?"

Chen Ke nodded: "I don't like it."

Meng Dujiang smiled: "Actually, I don't like it either."

Chen Ke didn't believe it. He saw that Meng Dujiang was running through the crowd just like a snake, and his tongue stretched softly like a snake, saying things that made people laugh out loud.

Seeming to see through the disbelief in Chen Ke's eyes, Meng Dujiang said: "Life is forced. You rely on your hands and I rely on your mouth. They are all to support yourself and make yourself decent, regardless of whether you like it or not." .”

He also said: "It's not easy to work hard in Beijing. When I was the most difficult, it was even more difficult than you. Alas, it's all in the past. Thinking about it now, I don't know how I persisted."

Chen Ke glanced at him, the light in his eyes became softer: "It's all over, aren't you feeling well now?"

Chen Ke is a bit like a hedgehog. It looks like it is full of spines and seems inaccessible, but it is incredibly soft inside.Meng Dujiang opened up the chatterbox, revealing the difficult years of the past one by one. His language organization ability is extremely strong, telling the past like a story, and soon completely attracted Chen Ke's attention. After finishing the topic, Chen Ke always felt that he hadn't recovered yet.

"Actually, it's nothing. If you want to climb up, you have to fall hard, otherwise you won't be able to grow up." Meng Dujiang finally concluded.

Colleagues got together to complete the truth or dare, calling for the boss to join in, Meng Du and Jiang Fei pulled Chen Ke over, and Chen Ke lost in the first game.

The winner was a little girl. She smiled narrowly and asked a question that every single female colleague sitting here wanted to ask: "Do you have a girlfriend?"

Chen Ke said, "No."

After playing a few more games, Chen Ke lost once.This time it was Meng Dujiang who asked him, and someone next to him poked him to ask Chen Ke if he liked anyone, and Meng Dujiang asked the truth.

"No." Chen Ke said.

When the party ended, Meng Dujiang said that he would send Chen Ke home, and someone next to him joked: "Boss, you are too partial, what about me?"

Meng Dujiang smiled and said: "Come on, you all take a taxi when you go back, save your money and ask me to reimburse you, the head office will do it."

Chen Ke also wanted to take a taxi home, but Meng Dujiang insisted on seeing him off, saying that he wanted to chat with him.

He spoke nicely, but after getting into the car and driving for a while, he didn't say anything.Chen Ke tilted his head and looked out the window. The light and shadow of the neon lights drew scars on his face, but it didn't damage his good looks at all.

Meng Dujiang took a few glances out of the corner of his eye, and suddenly asked, "Has anyone ever told you that you're pretty?"

Chen Ke turned his head and looked at Meng Dujiang: "Yes."

There are yin and yang, and there are sincere ones. No matter what the meaning behind it is, there is no doubt that he is good-looking.

Meng Dujiang smiled: "When I see you, there will always be a sentence in my mind, tsk, it's not a word, it should be a poem, it's pretty anyway."

"what?"

It happened that there was a red light ahead, so Meng Dujiang stopped the car and turned his head to look at Chen Ke: "You look like a flying dragon."

When Chen Ke heard his words, he smiled and said, "Thank you."

There was no fluctuation in Chen Ke's eyes, this was not what Meng Dujiang wanted to see.He turned his head back casually, staring at the front: "Have you never thought about finding a girlfriend? Or is there anyone you like?"

This time, Chen Ke didn't answer as quickly as he did at the party. He seemed confused, so he hesitated for a while before giving the answer: "No."

Meng Dujiang smiled, noncommittal.

"Do you mind if I smoke a cigarette?" Although Meng Dujiang asked him, he had already taken out a pack of cigarettes. Chen Ke glanced at the cigarette in his hand: "I don't mind. Would you mind giving me one?"

Meng Dujiang handed him the cigarette, a little surprised: "Do you know how to smoke?"

"Yes, I still drink." Chen Ke held the cigarette between his fingers.His fingers are long and slender, with distinct joints, making people want to touch them just by looking at them.

"Does not look like."

"It doesn't look like it?" Chen Ke smiled, "It doesn't look like it. I dare not do this in front of Xiaobei."

At this time, mentioning that person was really a bit of a shame, Meng Dujiang took a puff of cigarette impetuously, and a puff of smoke suddenly rose in the car.

"Green light."

Meng Dujiang held the cigarette in his hand and started the car.The smoke in the car was getting thicker and thicker, and began to encroach on the space where oxygen existed. Meng Dujiang closed the window of the car, and the outside wind blew in violently, hitting his face heavily, making him feel better.

Chen Ke's hair was blown tousled by the wind, he stroked it in vain, and left it alone.He leaned against the car window, watching the neon lights change outside the window.

After getting off the car, Chen Ke ran to buy a pack of cigarettes, squatted in the basement and smoked one by one.His brows were furrowed all the time, and his irritability couldn't be relieved by a pack of cigarettes because of the things in his heart.

The first time when Chen Wanran died of smoking was the time when Chen Ke felt too uncomfortable, so he tried smoking.At the beginning, he was in a hurry, and accidentally burned himself, and finally took a sip, and was choked to tears again.The smoke tastes really bad, but after a few more puffs you can reap the benefits.Chen Ke obtains temporary relief by smoking, but the relief is only temporary, and the reality will always be there.

He lay in bed at night, but couldn't fall asleep because of tossing and turning.He didn't know why he thought of Gu Jinbei's face when he said "no". He might understand a little bit, but he was afraid that he would understand, and he would rather he didn't understand anything.

He was lying on his back on the bed, it was pitch black above his head.He stared into the darkness for so long that he almost thought he was blind.He whispered in the empty room: "Are you a pervert?"

Chen Ke didn't go to the hospital many times, and the only few times were not for himself.

The hospitals in the town have poor confidentiality, and Chen Ke never goes there, and the hospitals in the city are too expensive, so Chen Ke doesn't go either.In addition, Chen Ke himself has an inexplicable and unexplainable fear of the hospital. He always feels that the hospital is like a bed sheet covering the dead, which is too white.

But this time he worked up his courage and went to the hospital for an examination.Originally, he was extremely nervous, afraid that the doctor would look at him like a monster, but the doctor seemed much calmer than him, as if he could see his nervousness, and comforted him: "It's okay, I've seen such cases too. A few times, though uncommon, but not uncommon."

Chen Ke's heart relaxed a little, but not completely.He tentatively asked the doctor: "This... can we still have surgery now?"

"Surgery?" The doctor frowned, "Are you joking? Your two sets of organs are well developed, and you can have a baby if you want."

Chen Ke's face turned pale because of her words, and his whole body was shaky, but he still held his breath and continued to ask: "Is it really impossible to have an operation?"

The doctor glanced at him, and tried his best to soften his tone: "A few years ago, it was okay. After all, it was not fully developed, just like an early tumor. If you cut it off, you will cut it off. Now it has grown back, just like the tumor. Your arm is the same, can you cut it as you say?"

When Chen Ke left the hospital, he tore up the list, but in the end he didn't throw it in the trash can, but put it in his pocket and went home.

When passing by a small shop, he went in and bought a pack of cigarettes.

I can't talk about my mood at this moment, it seems to be the feeling that I always knew that I was sentenced to death and the sickle finally fell at this moment.