you are with the light

Chapter 34

Gu Jinbei's tone was very serious, not like he was joking.Chen Ke looked at him, then quickly looked elsewhere.

"Do you want to come with me?" Gu Jinbei asked him again.

"Where are you going?" Chen Ke asked knowingly.

"Beijing." Gu Jinbei said, "Let's go together, shall we?"

If it was the past, Chen Ke would definitely have rejected Gu Jinbei after hesitation, but this year is different from previous years, Chen Wanran has left, he is alone and unattached, if he leaves here to go to a big city, there is nothing wrong with it.

He was young anyway.

Chen Ke looked at Gu Jinbei again, and Gu Jinbei's eyes seemed to have the magic power of bewitching people's hearts, bewitching Chen Ke's heart.

Chen Ke nodded: "OK."

This summer is destined to be different from previous years, and it is also destined to be a new beginning of their lives.

Chen Ke quit his job at the hotel and said goodbye to Master Song.He specially invited Master Song to have a meal. Master Song drank a lot of wine that day, and finally said drunkenly: "You! You are talented!" He patted Chen Ke on the shoulder, "Young man, Ambitious, yes, yes is a good thing!"

When Chen Ke was his apprentice before, he often scolded him.Master Song doesn't like to praise others, today is a rare first time, it fell in Chen Ke's ears, it was very pleasant.

Chen Ke is indifferent, but he has also lived in this town for 20 years. When he heard that he was going to Beijing, everyone he knew or didn't know would come to send his blessings.There may be some sincerity or jokes in it, but Chen Ke accepts them without distinction.At this time, these are not important.

When leaving, Chen Ke and Gu Jinbei took a look at Chen Wanran.Due to economic conditions, Chen Wanran's tomb looks so natural that it almost blends in with the surrounding scenery.Chen Ke kowtowed to her, tears streaming down his face, and he said in his heart: "Mom, I'm leaving."

On the way back, Chen Ke didn't say a word.He couldn't help turning his head back frequently, feeling that Chen Wanran was following him.Of course, there are no ghosts in this world, and there is no eternity, but as long as he feels that there are, then there are, and he must give himself a psychological sustenance.

Gu Jinbei has been with Chen Ke, and he seems to have nothing to say goodbye to.Except that he attended the class farewell party halfway and came back with a cake, he had never seen him go out with others.

When Chen Ke asked, he said, "I want to follow you."

It's too much for Gu Jinbei to cling to others.He wished he could be by Chen Ke's side 24 hours a day, 23 hours a day.In his heart, he likes to stay with Chen Ke. Although he subconsciously realized that something was wrong, he still couldn't restrain the gradually deformed emotions in his heart.

He is willing to sink.

When Liu Man came to look for Gu Jinbei, Gu Jinbei was still a day away from departure.With Chen Wanran's passing away, the single men in this small town became more and more lonely, but they were not lonely for too long. Liu Man inherited Chen Wanran's career.When she came to see Chen Ke, she had a clean face and a clean dress. She was very beautiful. For the first time, Gu Jinbei found that Liu Man was so beautiful with smooth edges and corners.

Like Chen Wanran.

"I heard you're going to Beijing, that's great." Liu Man unnaturally pinned a lock of hair behind her ear when she said that, "I want to go to Beijing too, and I want to see the Forbidden City, the Summer Palace and so on."

"It will be fine in the future." Gu Jinbei said.

"In the future? That's really a good word." Liu Man laughed, as if she had heard some big joke, before stopping for a long time.She pinned her non-existent hair behind her ears and said softly, "I don't have any."

The final ending turned to a playful tone, and Gu Jinbei almost thought for a moment that the domineering Liu Man had returned.But after all, it was just an illusion. Liu Man sighed, and said like an old man: "I don't know about this parting, and whether there will be a chance to meet in the future. I know that I am low/bad now, and I am not good enough for you, but there is a saying I was thinking about it, and I must tell you, even if there is no response, I must tell you."

"I like you."

Gu Jinbei nodded: "Thank you."

Liu Man laughed, she raised her hand, and slapped Gu Jinbei on the shoulder like a teaser, with a coquettish tone: "You hate it!"

When she left, she smiled and waved to Gu Jinbei: "Then see you later!"

Gu Jinbei watched her figure walk into the sun and then disappear.

This town is only so big, even a small matter can be spread through the mouths of relatives.Gu Jinbei had also heard a little about Liu Man.Lu Weijian chopped Liu Wu into the hospital, himself into prison, and cut Liu Man's life.

The house is rented, just return it.The landlord smiled and said that it was okay to stay for a few more days. She knew they were going to Beijing, so she was very eager: "If you become prosperous in the future, don't forget the relatives and neighbors you have helped." She mentioned Chen Wanran again: "Xiao Chen, We all know about your mother, you have to be strong, the two brothers must support each other when they are away..."

The two thought they would pack a lot of things when they left, but after sorting out carefully, they found that there were too few things that really belonged to them.The two left on a misty morning. They didn't want to disturb other people, but they met the old lady on the first floor when they went downstairs.

The old lady has really aged in recent years, her voice and momentum are not as good as before, and even her eyes are cloudy.When she saw the two of them, she rolled her eyes around them, and Chen Ke said, "Goodbye, grandma."

The old lady snorted disdainfully, turned around and went to open the door of her house without responding.

This is a real trip.The two of them sat on the train for a day and a night, and were so cold by the air conditioner that they turned out their coats and put them on.It was Chen Ke's first time working on a train, and he looked out the window with great interest. Gu Jinbei was far less interested than him, and instead fell asleep on Chen Ke's shoulder.

At night, Chen Ke was so excited that he couldn't fall asleep, the two of them chatted together in a low voice, until after three o'clock in the morning, Chen Ke became a little sleepy, and leaned against the window to close his eyes for a while.

Gu Jinbei said: "Lean on my shoulder."

Chen Ke opened one eye and glanced at Gu Jinbei: "Shame."

"You can't say that, relying on your younger brother is not ashamed." Gu Jinbei stretched his hand to the back of Chen Ke's neck, trying to artificially make him lean over, "There are men who rely on women, that's shameful."

Chen Ke followed his strength and leaned over, unintentionally said: "People are young couples, what are we?"

Gu Jinbei suddenly couldn't speak.

It stands to reason that saying brother is a perfect answer at this moment, but Gu Jinbei hesitated and always felt that he couldn't say it.The word lover seduced him and made him ecstasy.

Chen Ke was sleepy, with his eyes closed, he didn't care about Gu Jinbei's silence.

Chen Ke didn't sleep well, and woke up when the sky was getting dark.He looked at the drops of water on the car window, and also at the field covered in fog outside the window.The hometown of mountains and rivers is far away from him, and he has sailed towards a flat and open new life.

And he's not alone.

The train was originally supposed to arrive in Beijing after three o'clock in the afternoon, but it was delayed, and it was delayed until after five o'clock.When the two of them stepped out of the station, it was almost dusk, and a large swath of sunset glow smeared on the sky, which became a beautiful scene that the two of them would never forget in their memories.

There were quite a few hostel owners gathered outside the station, and when they saw people coming out, they tried their best to solicit customers. The two of them made up their minds and settled for a cheap hostel, although it might not be safe.

Entering the room, the room is small and shabby, and the gray stains are particularly obvious on the white quilt.Chen Ke couldn't help frowning, took out the quilt from the big bag and spread it on.

The two put their things in the room, and put the previous things next to each other before going out.The dilapidated hostel was paired with the Fly Restaurant, and the two picked a random noodle restaurant for dinner, and then went to the internet cafe.

Chen Ke originally planned to look for suitable jobs online, but Gu Jin Beifei wanted to add him as a QQ friend. Chen Ke was a little helpless: "I don't have a computer, how can we talk then?"

After saying this, he realized that he forgot to add a computer to Gu Jinbei.They all went to college, computers are indispensable, and mobile phones should also be added, so they can't be compared by others.

Gu Jinbei logged on to his QQ, artificially making the two of them add a friend.He originally thought that he was Chen Ke's only friend, but unexpectedly discovered that there were others.

Not only was this person lying in Chen Ke's friend list, but he was also lying very restlessly. He sent several messages to Chen Ke. The time span spanned several years, and he only died down recently.

When Gu Jinbei asked Chen Ke, Chen Ke was still confused.But he quickly pulled out Meng Dujiang from his distant memory, and suddenly realized that the two hadn't seen each other for almost ten years.

"A... friend I met when I went to the city?" Chen Ke hesitated, and then felt a little relieved, "I never contacted him again after that."

There are Internet cafes in the town, but Chen Ke doesn't like to go there.His life was so simple and boring that he couldn't find any other hobbies besides studying cooking.

On QQ, Meng Dujiang first started to say hello to Chen Ke in a regular manner, but then slowly turned into complaining. He seemed to know that Chen Ke would not respond, so he vomited very sincerely.The most recent one showed that a year ago, Meng Dujiang said: "I am fine now, thank you, goodbye."

Gu Jinbei asked Chen Ke if he wanted to reply, Chen Ke shook his head and closed the dialog box: "It's not necessary."

After glancing at this episode, Chen Ke began to look for jobs online.He was lucky, and he really asked him to find a few. Chen Ke picked a few, and finally selected a few for interviews.

After finding the interview, Chen Ke went to look for a house again.Living in a hostel is destined not to be a long-term choice. They will live here for a long time, and a relatively fixed house is very necessary.He searched for a long time, the rent of the house is not cheap, but fortunately the price of the basement is not expensive, and he really found one.

Compared to Chen Ke's purposeful search, Gu Jinbei seemed a little careless.He explored the Internet casually, and stepped into a magnificent world he had never seen before.

He stumbled onto a gay website by accident.

At first, he was panicked, and kept looking at Chen Ke, for fear that Chen Ke would see it, but later he immersed himself in it, chatted with people, and even added friends.

It wasn't until Chen Ke patted him on the shoulder: "Let's go." He just woke up like a dream.

"What are you looking at?" Chen Ke took a casual glance, saw the words on it, and couldn't help frowning.

Gu Jinbei hurriedly closed the webpage, trying to cover it up and said: "No, there is nothing, I clicked wrong."

The two walked out of the Internet cafe side by side, neither of them spoke first.After lying down on the bed at night, Chen Ke tentatively opened his mouth: "Xiao Bei, you..."

"I don't." Gu Jinbei said quickly, "I'm just curious." He was afraid that Chen Ke wouldn't believe it, and added: "I like Leslie Cheung very much. Is he that, that gay? I, I'm a little curious."

"I'm not sick."

Chen Ke smiled: "Who said you are sick." His tone was very light, which gave Gu Jinbei a feeling of being treated tenderly, "Even if you really like boys, you are not sick."

There was a buzzing sound in Gu Jinbei's ears, and stars appeared in front of his eyes, and his whole body seemed to fall down all of a sudden, then was bounced up by an invisible spring, and bounced into the air, as if about to fly.

"You...you can accept it?"

Chen Ke thought for a while: "I can't talk about accepting it, but if it's you, I don't think it matters, as long as you are happy."

Gu Jinbei's heart fluctuated with Chen Ke's words like a roller coaster, he turned around, faced Chen Ke, and said seriously: "I am not."

After the two moved to their new home, Chen Ke cooked a meal.

The food tasted good, but the cooking process was not pleasant. The oily smoke spread in the small room, choking Chen Ke to tears.

Gu Jinbei also cried.

After the meal, the two went to the supermarket to buy two boxes of instant noodles. Chen Ke said, "It really takes courage to cook, I can't do it."

Gu Jinbei agreed.

The two went into the supermarket and bought a bunch of daily necessities, and when they put them in the house, they finally felt at home.Chen Ke sat on the side to keep accounts, and Gu Jinbei sat next to Chen Ke and looked at him.

Chen Ke's broken hair would fall down with Chen Ke's movements, and Chen Ke would tirelessly pin it up. If there were too many other times, Gu Jinbei would subconsciously reach out and pull the messy hair back where it should be. place to stay.

Chen Ke turned his head and glanced at him, Gu Jinbei's heart beat fast.He felt that there was a small stream hidden in Chen Ke's eyes, not deep, but it was about to drown him.

He could only smile stiffly.

Chen Ke didn't realize anything, and smiled back at him.The small dimples at the corners of Chen Ke's mouth were exposed, and the two shallow pits seemed to hide fine wine. Just looking at it, Gu Jinbei felt that he was going to get drunk.

What kind of mood is this?

Just watching, all kinds of tenderness surged in his heart, and his heart became very small in an instant, and he could only hold Chen Ke.

Gu Jinbei leaned over, very close to Chen Ke.He pretended to be reading what Chen Ke wrote, but his eyes seemed to be fogged and he couldn't see anything. He could only feel Chen Ke's damp and hot breath on his neck.

The damp heat seemed to be contagious, making Gu Jinbei feel hot all over.In the heat, he heard Chen Ke say: "What's the matter, you're not too hot when you're so close to me."

"Not hot." As Gu Jinbei said this, big beads of sweat dripped from his forehead, landed on the paper, and fainted instantly, "I'll just see what you wrote."