sinovels Chapter 19
Chapter 19
The small family banquet in the evening was full of joy because of Linger's splendid attire.After barely swallowing a few mouthfuls of food, I lied that I was unwell and left the table. When I walked to the door, I heard Zifan snort coldly:
"I'm not feeling well, I'm afraid it's the woman's jealousy!"
After hearing this, my body sank and I almost fell. The pain and despair in my heart hit my heart violently like a giant hammer.Fortunately, I finally stood still holding the door frame, tears slipped down silently, wiped away quietly, went back to the house silently, lay down on the bed in the dark, and fell asleep unconsciously.Maybe it was because my heart was too tired. I didn’t know how long it took before I woke up. I suddenly heard the laughter of Zifan and Linger, probably because they had returned to the house. When the window gradually became quiet and there was no sound, I slowly get up.Over there, the lights in the wing room have gone out, so the two happy people must be making love to each other, right?Hold the lamp and pen, write a farewell note, let Zifan feel at ease about my departure, let me bear the pain alone!
"Zifan, when I saw this letter, I'm afraid I've already left. I'm really sorry for you. I've been shamelessly living in your sight all day long. So, I had no choice but to leave. You don't need to look for me, and there's no need to look for me. Me, maybe you just don’t bother looking for me! It doesn’t matter, I just find a sparsely populated village to live in seclusion, eat vegetarian food and chant Buddha, and atone for my sins. You may say that a woman who is easygoing like me should commit suicide, but I am afraid of my parents Sad, so please tell them my destination in the most tactful way, tell them that I will live well, and tell them not to come to me, thank you!"
"Zifan, I will never forget your kindness and love for me in my whole life. When I first met in the bookstore, I had a good impression of you, and then gradually developed a love for you in the 'bridal chamber' I never thought that the fate between us had already been determined. All the things after that were really nervous and funny. How many times I recalled it, it was as beautiful and moving as a dream. But at the same time, it was also like a dream, short and fragile How easily I have broken our happiness!"
"No more, just thank you, thank you for the love you once gave me. I betrayed you first. You can hate me, but you can't miss this all day long and hurt yourself. Forget me, you must forget me , I’m stupid again, I’m afraid you’ve already knocked me out of your heart? Alas, I’m nothing to worry about!”
"I sincerely wish you and Ling'er can stay together and grow old together in the days to come!"
"Farewell to the queen! Don't blame me for being incoherent!"
"Sinner: Cher"
Close the pen, don't write anymore, what's the use of writing more?Now, everything is gone, the world has not abandoned me, but I am going to abandon this beautiful world!Burn the purse I embroidered for him, burn everything related to him and me, and burn the unforgettable love between us...
Looking at the paper and emptying the league with tears and burning poems,
Hate wanders and loses ambition,
People from the old land were heartbroken,
It's not too late to fly snow and fall flowers!
Dongfang was already slightly pale, I finished my makeup, quietly left the mansion through the side door, hired a carriage on the street that was out of work early, and took me to the village where my aunt lived.I walked slowly to the cave where Son Fan took me to shelter from the rain on the day I escaped from marriage, and sat for a while, and then drew a big end in my heart, everything is over!With no distracting thoughts in mind, but still crying, I stopped thinking about it and began to climb the mountain, and finally reached the top of the cliff when the first ray of sunlight hit the earth in the early morning.
Facing the rising sun, I closed my eyes gently, what a breath of fresh air!Bathed in such warm and comfortable sunshine, I was a little intoxicated for a while, feeling empty: empty in person and empty in heart.However, I always think of Zifan accidentally, and the great pain in my heart immediately hit me again, and tears blurred my eyes instantly.I smiled wryly with tears in my eyes, then jumped off this cliff...
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