Wild Journey

Chapter 19 Hysteria | "Are you sick?"

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Thoughts passed through the smoky wind.

In the war-torn city, the sky was dark, the walls collapsed, the bricks and tiles were cracked, and the dilapidated ruins were cold and cramped. Gu Xiao woke up in the endless darkness, and saw a ray of light in the cracks.

An extremely handsome young man stopped in front of Gu Xiao.

The young man was wearing a clean white isolation suit, facing the afternoon sun, and his body was glowing with warm pale gold, which was incompatible with this devastated land.

"The rebels have entered the city."

"Your father stood on the front line to the end and died at the headquarters. Your mother chose to commit suicide the night she was taken hostage."

"They are all heroes, but you have no home now."

Gu Xiao looked at the young man's face dully.

The young man smiled slightly, but no one could feel the slightest warmth. He stretched out his hand to Gu Xiao. It was a beautiful hand, fair and slender, and it seemed that it had never experienced wind and frost.

"I can take you away."

"Why did you take me away?"

The young man withdrew his smile, and said in a calm but arrogant tone, "You just need to tell me, whether you are willing or not."

"Follow me, or die here."

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The institute is very large, empty and sparse, with cool white as the main color, the ceiling is white, the walls are white, and the furniture is white. The world here is a quiet pure white. Although it is neat and clean, it is also lifeless.

Gu Xiao stared at the pure white to flawless wall in front of him with ecstasy, boredom, anxiety, and disgust were not obvious in his brows.

"The information collection is complete, and the identity confirmation is complete."

"Start testing, after testing, each index has reached the basic standard."

"The fusion success rate is being deduced, please wait a moment."

The male voice in the room kept ringing, and Gu Xiao frowned upon hearing it.

"What fusion?"

"you do not need to know."

"What did you inject me with?"

The young man glanced at Gu Xiao coldly, a little impatiently: "If I wanted to harm you, I wouldn't bring you back and even treat your illness. From now on, put away your boring questions and don't bother me again."

Gu Xiao didn't speak any more.

The young man untied the leather strap on Gu Xiao's wrist, turned around and went to adjust the equipment.

As if there was a breeze blowing through the corridor, the door slammed softly, and a gap opened. Gu Xiao turned his head to look, and the door panel swayed almost imperceptibly.

This is a very beautiful boy, childish and cute.

They met each other.

Gu Xiao squinted his eyes lightly, and the boy looked at him for a while, then waved his hand in a friendly way, saying hello.

The young man looked over.

The boy made a face, closed the door and ran away.

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"What's your name?"

"Feng Yao."

"Well, my name is Gu Xiao."

"You seem unhappy, this is for you to eat."

The boy took out two candies from his pocket, and clenched his little hands tightly. He stuffed the candies to Gu Xiao, then looked carefully at the corridor, and said in a low voice, "Dad won't let me eat more, I hid them secretly. You eat, don't be unhappy."

"That's... your father?"

"Well, adoptive father, my parents are dead."

"My parents...are dead too."

Gu Xiao was depressed for a long time, the boy would always run into his room, sometimes chatting with him, asking him what the outside world was like, sometimes staying beside him, reading a book quietly, or tinkering with him A whimsical gizmo who sometimes does nothing but sits with him.

Every morning when the boy came to look for Gu Xiao, he would give him a piece of candy, fruit candy, or chocolate, and rarely milk candy.

"Eat candy and you won't be sad," the boy always said.

The boy likes to eat candy very much. Perhaps he ate too much and developed tooth decay. As a result, he was ordered by the young man to eat only one candy a day. He gave the only candy to Gu Xiao. In the eyes of the 12-year-old boy Here, this candy is the source of happiness for the day, and it is also the most precious gift he can give.

Later, they naturally became friends who talked about everything.

Later, they became lovers.

At that time, the boy had grown from the soft glutinous dumpling when we first met to a tall and straight boy. After entering puberty, he became even more rebellious and awkward. He was often inconsistent and needed Gu Xiao to coax and take care of him. He was smart. Extraordinary, somewhat arrogant, but kind, pure, and spotless, Gu Xiao often thinks that there is no one in the world who can be more beautiful than him.

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The lights above the operating table were blinding.

Gu Xiao woke up from his lethargy with cold sweat on his forehead.

He was fixed on the operating table, his body was covered with patches and catheters, and all the systems in the laboratory were checking his physical condition at the same time.

"The activator injection is complete."

"Start the test, after the test is completed, all the indexes have reached the standard."

"The anesthetic injection is complete."

"Ready for fusion, DIN2 to start injecting."

Strong drowsiness came to mind, Gu Xiao wearily half-opened his eyes, his vision became narrower and narrower, and finally he saw the indifferent face of the young man.

"DIN2-18, good luck," he said.

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cold.

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Gu Xiao woke up suddenly on the pile of dry bones.

The nerve endings were the first to recover, followed by unbearable pain in the rotten skin and flesh all over the body. The heart beat suddenly, and the pulse changed from static to fast and weak, but it couldn't provide enough breath. Gu Xiao seemed to be going crazy. In the excruciating pain, he gradually regained consciousness.

Sunrise and moonset, moonrise and sunset.

The cycle of day and night repeats, Gu Xiao stares blankly at the sky, there is not a single spot on his body that is intact, blurred flesh and blood, dense white bones are constantly rotting and growing, over and over again.

The cold wind in the depths of winter, blowing across the blood-red body, brought severe pain like Ling Chi's gouging out flesh, which made life worse than death. The weakened muscle tone made Gu Xiao unable to lift his strength. He held the handle of the knife and struggled several times He lifted it up with all his strength, trying to insert it into his heart in one fell swoop, but in the end he couldn't do it.

He seemed to be waiting for something.

But until he recovered, until he stood up again, until he left the corpse disposal site, he waited for nothing.

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"Gu Xiao! What are you doing?!"

Gu Xiao's mind was dazed, and he couldn't tell where the sound came from. The memories flickered in front of his eyes like a hideous and horrifying silent movie.

Countless moments of looking at each other flooded into my mind, overlapping with the handsome face in front of me at this moment, memory and reality merged, Feng Yao's brows gradually became hazy, either young, high-spirited, or full of affection, in the corridor, in the study, In the research room, beside the bed, like every day and night they were together, his young man looked up at him, with a moving light in the depths of his eyes.

However, all the good times were shattered in an instant.

The long and gentle seven years of cuddling each other for warmth were just wishful thinking. In the end, Feng Yao didn't come, and they never saw each other again.

Gu Xiao stared at Feng Yao, his eyes were full of pain, and in the pain, there seemed to be some kind of dangerous emotion that could not be restrained. Feng Yao had never been looked at with such eyes, a little creepy, strong anxiety His heart fermented rapidly, and he began to push Gu Xiao hard.

However, in the confrontation of strength, Feng Yao had no advantage at all. He was surrounded by Gu Xiao in his arms, and he couldn't use it at all. He pushed his arm against Gu Xiao's chest, but Gu Xiao remained motionless.Gu Xiao put one hand on Feng Yao's ear, lowered his head slightly, and stared at Feng Yao intently. The low air pressure emitted followed by this hug-like gesture surrounded Feng Yao aggressively.

And this made Feng Yao feel a trace of indescribable fear, other than that, it was a violent resistance.Feng Yao didn't like this very much. The oppression Gu Xiao imposed on him by virtue of the disparity in strength gave him a sense of humiliation that his dignity was violated. At such a tense moment, his emotions were instantly ignited, and Feng Yao grabbed him angrily. Touching Gu Xiao's collar, he said angrily, "Get out of the way! Do you understand?!"

As soon as the words fell, Gu Xiao raised his hand and grabbed his throat.

And it wasn't until this moment that Feng Yao understood what the emotion suppressed in the deepest part of Gu Xiao's pupils was - hatred and killing intent.

Feng Yao was stunned for a moment, but he didn't realize it for a while. Although Gu Xiao was usually moody, sometimes he was very aggressive towards him, and would quarrel with him, but no matter what, he saved him many times and took good care of him. He never imagined that , Gu Xiao actually wanted to kill him.Breathing began to be difficult, Feng Yao woke up from his stupor, and immediately went to pull Gu Xiao's hand, but he couldn't pull it. Gu Xiao stared at him, his eyes were dim, and said word by word: "...you Lied to me."

"What did I lie to you?!" This was an innocent disaster, Feng Yao just felt inexplicable, he had no reason to explain it, and felt wronged, he was also very angry, and said unbearably, "Are you sick?!"

But soon Feng Yao's arrogance was extinguished, and Gu Xiao's thumb on his throat increased a little bit, the suffocation and pain accompanied and became clearer, Feng Yao's expression twitched slightly, out of the instinct of fear of death, He started to struggle frantically, but was easily suppressed by Gu Xiao.

"Why did you lie to me?" Gu Xiao looked at Feng Yao absent-mindedly, "Am I not good enough for you? I love you so much... have you ever loved me?"

The jaws of a tiger were like pincers, Feng Yao's breath was gradually exhausted, due to insufficient oxygen supply, the blood pressure in his brain plummeted, his eyes turned black, and his consciousness unconsciously diverged, Gu Xiao's voice became ethereal, sounding very strange.

"...Did you ever love me?"

Gu Xiao's voice is very low, he seems to be talking to himself, I don't know if it's an illusion, Feng Yao always feels that Gu Xiao's tone is not as heartless as his actions, but instead reveals pleading for pity and helplessness that cannot be asked for, even more so. Like begging.

But Feng Yao couldn't speak anymore, the tiger's mouth stuck in his throat was slowly tightening, the air in the lung cavity was squeezed, and the tear glands were sore and swollen. become hot and humid.

When Feng Yao felt that he was about to be strangled to death by Gu Xiao, Gu Xiao's hand loosened a little. Feng Yao gasped for a few times, and then he calmed down a little. Those cold negative feelings faded a lot, but Feng Yao couldn't understand it even more.

Gu Xiao suddenly stretched out his hand and gently wiped the corners of Feng Yao's eyes.

It was obviously interspersed in the atrocities, but this movement was full of indescribable tenderness, and even Feng Yao was a little dazed. He felt very familiar, as if he had a sense of sight, but he couldn't explain why he felt this way at all. Feng Yao was a little bit distracted, but at this moment, Gu Xiao lowered his head and kissed her.

Feng Yao exploded immediately: "What are you doing?!"

Feng Yao immediately turned his head to avoid it, pushed it against Gu Xiao's chin, and refused to give in. Gu Xiao seemed to be angry again. With Feng Yao's resistance, the force he exerted became heavier and heavier, and his breathing became heavier. Hastened up.

"What are you hiding?" Gu Xiao asked in a low voice.

Gu Xiao looked very angry. He pulled Feng Yao's hands and pressed them to the wall above to fix them. The hand strangling his throat raised an arc, forcing Feng Yao to raise his head. After looking at each other for a moment, Feng Yao found that , Different from the tyranny in the behavior at the moment, Gu Xiao's eyes are full of hysterical sadness, as if the person who is violent is not him, but Feng Yao.

"You don't love me..." Gu Xiao's voice was trembling slightly, and he sounded a bit suppressed and choked up. He said with difficulty, "You've been lying to me."

"...you never loved me..."

"...Why didn't you come to me that day, why didn't you tell me, I've been waiting for you for a long time...I..."

Feng Yao almost lost the ability to take in information, he couldn't breathe, he felt dizzy, and for a while, he only felt that his neck was pinched, and the tears in his eyes overflowed, and he cried: "Let's go!" ……open……"

Panting heavily, Gu Xiao was looking at Feng Yao, his moist red eyes, and the water marks on his cheeks, as if he had been touched by something, he stared blankly for a long while before saying in a hoarse voice: "... ...you said you loved me."

"If you say so, I will let you go."

Feng Yao stubbornly closed his eyes, refusing to answer, Gu Xiao tightened his grip, and said in a trembling voice, "Say it! Say you love me, and you said it...I'll..."

However, Feng Yao still didn't say anything, the suffocation became more intense, he made a dying sound, and finally passed out.

Feng Yao no longer resisted, but a trace of confusion flashed across Gu Xiao's expression. He tentatively let go of his hand, and Feng Yao unconsciously fell into his arms, his limp body seemed to convey some kind of tame hints.

Gu Xiao looked at Feng Yao with complex eyes, his lips trembled, as if he was hesitating to speak, after a long time, he stretched out his hand and hugged Feng Yao tightly.

There was a dead silence in the dark space.

I don't know how long it took, Gu Xiao's pupils became slack, and then his brows suddenly condensed, he hissed lightly, his face showed pain, his body was shaking a little, then he raised his hand to support his head, staggered halfway unable to support himself step.

After a while, Gu Xiao exhaled impatiently, his body was covered in cold sweat inadvertently, he was a little dazed and tired, he stood there for a while before he recovered, turned on the light, and lowered his head to go Look at Feng Yao in his arms.

Fortunately, there was nothing serious about Feng Yao, he was just in a coma.

Gu Xiao looked dully at the crimson scar on Feng Yao's neck, his brows were full of remorse and guilt, he sighed weakly, pinched Feng Yao's people, seeing that it didn't work, he put Feng Yao flat , bent over to do artificial respiration.

Feng Yao's lips are beautiful, thin and soft, not dark in color, and they need to be kissed repeatedly to become moist red.Gu Xiao lowered his eyes and looked at it for a while before gently kissing her. He pinched Feng Yao's nose, pried open his teeth familiarly, breathed in slowly, and rested his other hand on Feng Yao's heart.

Feng Yao's chest swelled slightly, Gu Xiao pressed it twice for him, and continued to breathe. After a few back and forth, Feng Yao woke up in surprise, turning over and coughing violently.

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I'm going insane (haggard)