Wild Journey

Chapter 118 Treatment | "You are too extreme"

The repair process was very long, neither Gu Xiao nor Song Lan dared to disturb Feng Yao. For a long time, there was only the faint sound of wind on the towering tower, and the deliberately light footsteps of the people who came to deliver tools.

Until the bronze bell rang for the fourth time, night had already quietly arrived. Feng Yao put the final parts back in place and let out a sigh of relief.

Song Lan asked, "Is it fixed?"

Feng Yao hummed, and said: "Let it rest for a few days, don't let it get hurt again, and it's best not to make it too tired. I just sent you the repair process. I remember you said you didn't If you are too proficient in machinery, you can refer to the process, I have annotated it. If there are no accidents in the future, you can try to maintain it yourself, or make simple repairs."

"Thank you, Feng Yao." Song Lan seemed a little sorry, "Is there anything you want? I will try my best to help you achieve it as a reward."

"No need, this is what I promised you." After Feng Yao finished speaking, his thoughts changed, and he quickly changed his words, "Wait! I really have something to trouble you."

Song Lan said happily: "You say so."

Feng Yao: "That is, can you give me and Gu Xiao a privilege so that the military or the research institute can't arrest us for experiments or something..."

Song Lan: "..."

Gu Xiao: "..."

Song Lan thought she heard it wrong: "Arrest you to do the experiment?"

Feng Yao said embarrassingly, "Don't ask why, just drive it."

Song Lan had question marks all over her head, but in the end she didn't ask any questions, and agreed, "Okay, I'll go back and write a letter, and send someone to send it to you."

After Feng Yao tidied up the toolbox, he suddenly glanced at Song Lan.

At that time, when the night fell, the afterglow of the day met the sky, drawing a semi-bright and semi-dark dividing line, and everything was about to sink into darkness. Song Lan was half submerged in the shadow against the last light of dusk inside.

He lowered his head halfway, with no expression on his face, which made Feng Yao very strange.

At this moment, many things flashed through Feng Yao's mind. In the past few months, all the things he had experienced, seen, and guessed made him unable to help asking questions that had troubled him for a long time. : "DIN1 is your vote?"

This question came so abruptly that Song Lan was taken aback for a moment.

Feng Yao gave Song Lan enough time to think about it, but Song Lan didn't deny it, which made Feng Yao confirm his suspicions almost without thinking, and his tone became very bad: "You know how many people you killed. person?"

Song Lan: "You know it's me before I admit it?"

There was obvious doubt in Feng Yao's eyes, but Song Lan smiled slightly: "If I said it was me, would you hate me?"

Before Feng Yao could speak, Gu Xiao cut off the conversation: "I will kill you."

"You can't kill me." Song Lan said flatly, "Killing me will only kill more people. The empire needs a leader now, and only I can win the hearts of the people." In the end, he changed the subject, "DIN1 is just a fuse , The conflict between the snake people and the empire has existed since ancient times, and it will always break out, it is only a matter of time."

"Even if it erupts, it's impossible to have such a scale." Gu Xiao said, "Without DIN1, it would be very difficult for the snake people to compete with the empire."

Song Lan said with a smile: "That's not necessarily true, no one can tell the future."

Feng Yao felt that Song Lan was unreasonable: "You hate the royal family, so why don't you kill Edith directly, why kill so many innocent people?"

"Do you think Edith is easy to kill?" Song Lan said softly, "But I really didn't expect that the situation would develop like this. But this is also good, just to let them know that bullying has a price."

Song Lan sat on the edge of the clock tower and said slowly: "Back then, the royal family chased and killed all the snake people, and the entire empire agreed with it. Later, the royal family still did the same to Mudala. The sins of a country are often inseparable from everyone. I believe that You can also find that discrimination is very common in the empire, even though it is wrong in terms of accepted moral concepts, even if the law has very clear regulations, but people still do it. Want to change a deep-rooted, Wrong thoughts, only punishment is the most powerful and fastest way."

Feng Yao shook his head: "No, it won't do anything, it will only exacerbate the conflict between the empire and the snake people... Song Lan, you are too extreme."

Song Lan: "Punishment alone is of course not enough. The public needs to be guided. Punishment is only the beginning, and the next penetration of ideas is the key."

Feng Yao: "You can't succeed."

Song Lan said with great interest: "Oh, why?"

"In the past few months, have you looked around? Or, have you followed the news?" Feng Yao said, "This war has been protracted, and most of your land has been overthrown, and your people have been displaced and have nowhere to go. , until now, there are still a large number of people dying every day. The hatred has reached this level, and the concept cannot be easily changed. Otherwise, ask yourself, have you let go of hatred in the past 20 years since the Mudala clan was wiped out? ?"

"It's different, Feng Yao." Song Lan said, "The situation is different, and people's moods will also be different. Only when they live in sorrow and feel dissatisfied, will they fight desperately. Only the empire will win this war. In this turmoil, the empire will soon restore order, and the hatred of the people will be diluted by ease. Besides, groups are usually emotional and lack IQ. It is not difficult to incite and influence. As long as it lasts long enough, it will not be done not reach."

Feng Yao didn't speak, but looked at Song Lan coldly.

"Sacrifices are inevitable for regime change and riots. The only difference is whether it is a war or a virus." Song Lan said to himself, "Of course, I am also sorry for the unnecessary deaths. So after receiving In the coming days, I will do my best to compensate everyone, Feng Yao, I know you..."

Feng Yao interrupted suddenly: "Stop talking."

Song Lan stopped talking and looked at Feng Yao.

This topic is too heavy, Feng Yao felt that if he continued, he might not need Gu Xiao to make a move, and he would not be able to help but cut Song Lan, but as Song Lan said, he can't cut Song Lan, he can't afford it as a result of.

Feng Yao was quiet for a moment, and chose to end the topic: "Let's stop here."

Song Lan stared at Feng Yao, and smiled after a while: "Okay."

He snapped his fingers and turned into a rose, and was about to hand it to Feng Yao, but Gu Xiao stared at him, so he had to take it back.

"Then, there will be no future." Song Lan's lips curled into a non-aggressive arc, as gentle as ever, "Feng Yao, it's a pleasure to meet you."

Feng Yao didn't answer any more, and left the rooftop with Gu Xiao.

There is a pedestrian street on the way home, Gu Xiao suddenly said: "Wait here."

Feng Yao was at a loss: "What are you waiting for?"

Gu Xiao turned into the shop and came out with a large bouquet of roses a short while later.

Feng Yao: "..."

Feng Yao didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What do you compare with Song Lan?"

Gu Xiao took the shopping bag that Feng Yao was carrying, and handed the flowers to his arms, so that he could only hold the flowers, and said solemnly: "In the future, you are not allowed to take flowers from others."

Feng Yao: "I didn't take it."

Gu Xiao: "You obviously took it, but I discovered it twice."

"That's what he forced on me, and I'm not willing to take it." Feng Yao said confidently, "Can you stop being so jealous?"

Gu Xiao said indifferently: "I can't."

Feng Yao: "..."

Holding so many roses, as if he had just walked out of the proposal scene, Feng Yao was watched all the way, so embarrassed that he walked faster than ever.And although Feng Yao seemed reluctant, when he got home, he still seriously made a vase and carefully raised these roses.

In the evening, Feng Yao received a message from Si Yuan.

Gu Xiao made the dinner, Feng Yao was about to wash the dishes, when he saw the situation, he immediately put down the bowls and chopsticks, turned around and walked to the sofa, and said lazily, "I'll do the washing later."

Gu Xiao hummed, but helped Feng Yao put away the bowl and took it to wash.

On the other side, Si Yuan greeted Feng Yao, and said straight to the point: "Whenever you have time, Yaoyao, I'll help you make an appointment for surgery."

Feng Yao: "I'm fine recently, any day is fine."

Si Yuan: "Let me see, can I do it next week?"

Feng Yao: "Okay, just let me know the time and place."

Si Yuan: "The other thing is, I went to the psychiatrist in the morning, and they said that just hearing about the symptoms is not enough, at least they need to contact the patients first..."

When Gu Xiao came back after washing the dishes, he refused, "No."

Feng Yao: "Why don't you go?"

Gu Xiao frowned, and said after a while, "I'm afraid of losing control."

Si Yuan has never seen Gu Xiao lose control, but just from Feng Yao's words, he also knows that the situation is very difficult. He said: "This is a problem. The most important point in treating PTSD is to face the past... Well, how about it, you Don't stop contacting the therapist at all, at least try to talk, if it's just psychological counseling, it shouldn't be that difficult... I'll go and find a way, you wait for my news."

Three days later, they came to the Academy of Sciences.

Due to Gu Xiao's special situation, the psychological counseling was conducted in a room similar to an interrogation room. Si Yuan and the therapist were inside, and Feng Yao was outside with Gu Xiao. Before entering the door, Gu Xiao said: "Feng Yao , you go inside."

Feng Yao sat down calmly: "I won't go."

"No need, be obedient." Gu Xiao said, "This is different from the situation in the concentration camp last time, if he asks more..."

"It is necessary." Feng Yao knew that Gu Xiao was not sure, and was afraid of losing control and hurting him, but he was not afraid, he insisted, "Gu Xiao, you should know that I am the least likely person in this world to be afraid of you Man, because I love you, I'm going to face it with you, and because you love me, you won't really kill me, that's it, come here, it's about to start."

Gu Xiao had no choice but to sit down.

Feng Yao held Gu Xiao's hand and signaled for the therapist to start.

However, what Gu Xiao and Feng Yao think too much is that the therapist knows how to chat more than Feng Yao. He can tell whether the topic can be carried on by observing Gu Xiao's slight reaction, and will also properly guide Gu Xiao to control his emotions And adjust his mood, from the beginning to the end, Gu Xiao was in an uncomfortable but self-control state. After an afternoon of psychological counseling, Gu Xiao's performance was basically normal, and there was no such violence as Feng Yao imagined. event.

After the end, the therapist had a private chat with Feng Yao again, mainly to complete what Gu Xiao didn't say from Feng Yao. Feng Yao told the therapist everything he knew, and the therapist finished taking notes and slowly Said: "The most important thing in the treatment of PTSD is to change his view of what has happened, and to alleviate the pain by rebuilding his beliefs. His node is related to you, and he doubts you subconsciously, thinking that you are killing you. His accomplice, first of all you have to help him overthrow this idea, tell him this is not the case, you actually love him.”

Feng Yao said wearily: "I've said it many times."

Therapist: "This alone is definitely not enough. You can try to let him recall the past, narrate it, or write it down. Repeating it every day will help him reduce his resistance, although it will be painful."

Feng Yao: "Is there any other way?"

"There are many ways, but you must be clear that if you want to change your view of the past, you must face the past. It is useless to escape." The therapist said, "But your situation is fine, since it does not affect your normal life , then take your time, I suggest you take it step by step, if he feels pain, stop, after all, it can improve a little bit. I will think about the specific treatment plan and contact you when the time comes, so let’s do it today.”

The method provided by the therapist sounds really effective, but Feng Yao can't bear it. After all, he knows how cruel self-analysis means to Gu Xiao. He really doesn't want to see Gu Xiao sad, but he can't cure the disease otherwise .Feng Yao returned home with a conflicted mentality, and finally couldn't help telling Gu Xiao, but unexpectedly Gu Xiao agreed decisively.

Gu Xiao: "Try it tonight."

Feng Yao hesitated and said, "Forget it, let's wait for the therapist."

"You watched the whole process today, so you must understand what the therapist means. If you want to cure a disease, you can't avoid getting in touch with the past." Gu Xiao is obviously much more sensible than Feng Yao, "Try it, if it doesn't work, then find a way .”

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I won't update it next week, woo woo, I haven't saved the manuscript_(:з)∠)_