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Chapter 53 Extra Story: He Yu's Diary 1

May 2009, 12 sunny

Tomorrow's speed skating competition will be another sleepless night.This happens every time.

May 2009, 12 sunny

Today's game is still very tense.

In the first year of high school, there was a skater who was good at skating, and his clothes were bright and beautiful.The movement is also standard, and a little elegant.

In the evening it was dinner again, I didn't like dinner, and the teacher wouldn't let me go, so I didn't know what to say.The kid in the first year of high school was looking at me, his eyes were so bright.

2010. 1, 15

It's another game, a provincial game, and I can't sleep as usual.

This time, I slept in the same room with the first and second graders.

The kid in the first year of high school squatted beside my bed to watch me in the middle of the night, not knowing why.There was a nice smell on him, I don't know what it was.Later, he went to take a shower. He must have been too nervous to take a shower in the middle of the night.

2010. 1, 16

The child is very talkative, but I don't know what to say. He said he was nervous, but I was also the same.

He looks really good-looking, has small canine teeth, and smiles like a summer watermelon. It seems that no one says that people look like watermelons, not because they look like them, but because they are sweet, really sweet.

He is too thin, and he looks good on the ice rink, but he lacks strength. After all, he is not a figure skater.It's like a little swallow.

When accepting the award, he showed his small canine teeth again, and his eyes were also crooked.

I don't know if I can fall asleep tonight, my mind is always the little canine of that child.

2010. 4, 25

I haven't seen Little Huya for a long time.

2010. 7, 3

On the way home after evening self-study in the evening, I encountered a few people who robbed me. I didn't want to worry about it, but that figure was too familiar.Taking a closer look, it was Xiao Huya and his classmates.

I forgot everything, forgot that I was about to go to college, and rushed over in a few steps.Fortunately, Huya was not injured.

He said he has transferred.No wonder I couldn't see him.

My hand was too strong, and his wrist was red when I grabbed it, but he said it didn't hurt, and smiled at me, which was really nice.

I later sent him home.

He asked if I was still there, and I didn't know, I hoped.

By the way, his name is Lu Xiaoyan.

2010. 7, 15

The weather is really hot, the college entrance examination has been over for a while, and there is no news of Xiaohuya.In fact, I didn't ask anyone else.Think of him often.

2010. 8, 15

The admission notice has already come down, S City Medical University, without any suspense, can finally leave home.

2011. 9, 8

I got a letter from a girl yesterday.She came to me today and asked me what I thought.I told her that I didn't read it, but she recited it to me directly!It seems to mean courtship, but I really don't feel it.

I thought of Little Huya again.Will there be girls who write to him?

I don't want to fall in love now. I should graduate first, take the postgraduate entrance examination, find a job, and then get married and have children.This is normal.

I can't think of Little Huya anymore.

Homosexuality is wrong.

2013. 9, 5

I saw a freshman on campus who looked like little Huya, but when I got closer, no, really not, there is no Huya!He is more than a little taller than him.Not alone, with different faces, not alone, why not him?

2014. 7, 10

I promised that girl to fall in love with her. Her name is "Zhang Yuanke". She is good in every way. I hope we can get along well.

I can't think about Little Huya anymore, not even in the diary.Forget it all.

2014. 10, 5

I don't plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination, I don't take the exam.Find a job first.

Zhang Yuan wants to get married, so let's get married.

I've already forgotten about Little Huya.

Totally forgot.

2015. 11, 4

Zhang Yuanke and I went to the city of her home, because it is far away from my home, I hope it is farther away.

I was assigned to the urology department of a big hospital, and I was a bit busy with work, but it was okay.I've had a lot of surgeries, and I'm still easily nervous.I dare not sleep at noon, for fear that I will not wake up in the afternoon.

The director praised me for being steady during the operation, and said that I said too little, the operation was just right, and I would probably be complained if I went out to the clinic.

2016. 4, 17

I'm getting married next month, and the wedding room hasn't been installed yet.The wedding house was bought by her family. I wanted to borrow money to buy the house, but his father disagreed, so her family bought it.

2016. 4, 22

Zhang Yuanke is angry today, not because the progress of the house is slow, but because of me.

She invited me to her house, his parents are traveling abroad.Her family is better off than mine, and my parents don't quarrel.She asked me to stay at night.I stayed.But we didn't go to bed.We've kissed many times, but I never wanted to undress her or get hard.

I could be impotent, or frigid.

She cried and said I don't love him.

I don't know if I love her or not, but I certainly don't get hard on her.

I went back to the hospital dormitory in the middle of the night and found a photo of Little Huya, he looks so pretty!

I masturbated to his photo for the first time in my life. It was so cool, so cool that I wanted to die.

I'm 25 years old, have never slept with anyone, and solved it myself for the first time.I should not be impotent, but frigidity.I only feel a little bit when I look at the photo of Xiaohuya.

2016. 4, 28

During the pre-marital medical examination, I found out the problem.I always thought there was something wrong with me, and sure enough there was something wrong.

Looks like spermatic cell carcinoma.

Before the operation, I broke up with Zhang Yuanke. I had a malignant tumor, and it was too risky to marry me.She wasn't surprised at all, she said she felt unmarried because I didn't have her in my heart.She was right, it was my problem.

The operation was performed by the director himself, and it was very successful. The pathology was indeed malignant, but no lymph node metastasis was found.In fact, it doesn't matter if it's transferred, I don't have much meaning in living.I don't know what is happy, what is sad, I don't know what to live for.

Living is a little tiring.Studying is not tiring, working is not tiring, but living is tiring!

2016. 7, 2

I recovered very well after the operation and had two courses of chemotherapy. Although more than half of my hair fell out and I vomited badly, the pain made me feel like I was really alive.Live well.

I resigned.