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After returning home, Yu Ran lay on the bed and cried for a long time.He hated Li Yu, not only hated Li Yu not coming back, but also hated him for getting married, he obviously didn't like it, but he wanted to lie to him.The point is that if he is really married, there is really no hope for the two of them. Even when their parents are gone, it is impossible for them to be together.

In fact, Yu Ran really hated this idea of ​​himself, and felt that he was very cheap. It was obviously Li Yu's family who separated the two, and he still dreamed of being together.I always tell myself to look forward, what kind of leaves, stars and so on are still drawn when painting, fuck the stars!What are you pretending to be?It's cheap!What to pretend!

Yu Ran had cried enough, got up from the bed, ran to the studio to dig out all his paintings, tore them up with his hands if they were not framed, and cut the framed or canvas paintings with scissors.One after another, the paint was turned out, the brush was broken... Yu Ran's hand was cut by the scissors and he didn't feel any pain.

When Jian Xin and his wife heard the movement and came out to watch, the studio was already in a mess, with shredded paper and rags all over the floor, paints and brushes were also thrown everywhere.Yu Ran sat on the ground and was still tearing up the painting.

Jian Xin rushed over and hugged Yu Ran, "Ran Ran, Ran Ran, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing, I just hate myself." Yu Ran stopped crying, but her eyes were very red and swollen.

"Of course, don't make things difficult for yourself, forgive yourself, love yourself, okay?" Jian Xin burst into tears, and she knew the child was suffering.

"I'm not worthy of love, why should I love myself?" Yu Ran shouted. "When I was young, after giving birth to me, my mother, you suffered from depression. You endured it for seven or eight years before you divorced. Then I met Li Yu, and his father got sick again because of me! I'm a bastard! What's cute about me?!"

"What are you talking about? What does the matter between me and your dad have to do with you? When I was sick, your dad just didn't notice that I was sick. Besides, what does it matter to you who is right and who is wrong? Why go to You are talking about yourself? What did you say that you caused Li Yu’s father to get sick? His family discriminated against you and forced you to separate. How much did you suffer? If you weren’t too sensible, would you be in such pain? What do you have? Wrong?" Jian Xin's voice trembled and her whole body trembled.

Yu Ran's stepfather came over, stood up with his arms around his wife, and said to Yu Ran: "Of course, you can do whatever you want, and we all support you, but don't say that about yourself. You are really right! Maybe it's inappropriate for me to say that , but your parents' divorce is not because of you, they just have incompatible personalities. Your father is not bad, he doesn't even know about your mother's illness, it's your mother who didn't tell him. You and your mother are the same , I just want to bear the pain for myself, and give the good side to others, it's too tiring to live!"

Yu Ran buried his head in his lap and didn't make a sound.In fact, he has always had these thoughts, but he never said them because he was afraid that his mother would be sad.He really felt that his father had not fulfilled his responsibilities to his mother and him before, but he did not expect that it was his mother who concealed his illness from his father.Mother's character is tolerant and weak, and she especially wants to save face. The choice at that time was also due to her personality.It turned out that I had misunderstood my father all along.

However, he was still very uncomfortable. Today's reunion with Li Yu almost brought him back to his original form. He was really not reconciled.I obviously work so hard, so I want to live a good life, why can't I?Why can't I forget him?

"Of course, don't be too horny, it's fine. Go take some medicine and go to sleep." Jian Xin also calmed down now.

"I'll stay by myself for a while, it's okay, you two go to bed." Yu Ran got up and went back to the bedroom.

Jian Xin and her husband tidied up Yu Ran's torn paintings, but they were not willing to throw them away. They were all Yu Ran's painstaking efforts. Maybe one day they will regret it when they think about it?

Yu Ran returned to the bedroom, took a shower, and bandaged his hands briefly.Just lie down.

Yu Ran didn't take the medicine, he felt that his mind was extremely clear, he was not reconciled, he had suffered so much for so many days and nights, if he was still with this scumbag, wouldn't it be all in vain?

Early the next morning, Yu Ran went to Wen Jun's family.Wen Junyi lives by himself, but he hasn't woken up yet.Hearing the knock on the door, he came out and saw that it was Yu Ran.Wen Junyi was very surprised, he pulled Yu Ran into the door, and said with a playful smile, "Of course, did you miss me?"

"Wen Junyi, let me tell you that it's true if we try." Yu Ran's heart skipped a beat as he looked at Wen Junyi.

"I know, I'm very happy. But what's wrong with you? What happened to you? Didn't sleep well yesterday?" Wen Jun saw that Yu Ran's expression was really not very good.

"I didn't sleep. But I'm not sleepy, and I'm quite awake. I'm fine." Yu Ran leaned over. "You hug me."

"Are you here to seduce me this early in the morning? Xiao Ranran." Wen Jun smiled, but he could tell that Yu Ran had emotional problems.He hugged Yu Ran into his arms and stroked his back.After a while, he helped Yu Ran to lie down on the sofa, let him lie on his lap, and patted him gently, as if he was coaxing a child to sleep.Yu Ran was a little tired, but he was really not sleepy. With his eyes closed, his mind was extremely clear.

Wen Junyi suggested that Yu Ran ask for leave to take a break, but Yu Ran refused, so he had to send him to work.

After communicating with Li Yu yesterday, Yu Ran had already settled most of the issues, so today he started to redesign and retouch the pictures.After Yu Ran explained the details and customer requirements to the people in the group in detail, everyone started to work, and it was another busy day.

The design drawings are ready and need to be finalized with the client.Yu Ran handed over the drawings to the supervisor.After the supervisor contacted him, he said that director Li Yu was ill and would wait a few days to talk about it.After a week like this, it was actually very peaceful.Li Yu didn't come to look for him, Yu Ran was relieved.But how did he get sick?Is it serious?

However, since Yu Ran made his statement, Wen Junyi obviously relaxed a lot.

Wen Junyi came every day instead of coming three or four times a week.Yu Ran often complained, why is this barrister not working? Isn't his office busy?

The two of them don't go to restaurants every day after get off work, and sometimes go to Wen Jun's family.Wen Junyi's cooking skills are average, but he is very smart. He asked the nanny to prepare the ingredients and looked up the recipe on the Internet.Although the taste is mediocre, but the pattern is refurbished, and I am not picky, the two of them ate quite happily.