sinovels Chapter 20 Letters
Chapter 20 Letters
At this moment, Jiang Yubai seemed to only be able to feel his own heartbeat, which almost jumped out of his chest violently. He was holding the pendant tightly, as if he had grasped the dusty secret in the box.
It turned out that the answer to the riddle had already been handed over to him by himself.
Jiang Yubai used a lighter to soften the glue on the outer layer, and then carefully cut the key out with a paper knife.The brass-colored key landed on the table with a crisp sound.
Cheng Guo picked it up and looked at it for a while, and found that he was still playing with the pendant, and said doubtfully, "Didn't you get the keys already? Why don't you hurry home and see what's in that box?"
Jiang Yubai was trying to restore the kitten whose abdomen had been cut open, but no matter how he squeezed it, he couldn't make it as intact as before. On the contrary, the appearance became more and more funny, as if he was complaining about his cruelty with a mournful face.
Jiang Yubai sighed, and had no choice but to throw the kitten to Cheng Guo, and said, "Let this go to you first, and when it's dry, bring it to me at the school. I'll go back first."
Cheng Guo agreed, and stood by the window, watching Jiang Yubai's back as he hurried home with the paper carving lamp and keys, and sighed again.
Pei Shanqing was not at home, and the box was still in its original position. Jiang Yubai felt his heart beating so fast that he couldn't breathe. He opened the box with the key and took out the colorful letter paper carefully wrapped with anti-oxidation film in the envelope.
The edge of the letter paper is still slightly yellowed. It can be seen that many years have passed. The tone of the letter writer is like a primary school student who has not grown up. This is consistent with the information others have said, but the title and event are Jiang Yubai Very familiar.
"Dear brother, hello!
Why did I wake up and was already on the plane?My mother said goodbye to important people who I can't see again.But my brother didn't say goodbye to me, will we meet again in the future?
Then I don't want to say goodbye to my brother, I want to see you, brother, do you too? "
At the signature of the letter, Jiang Yubai was written stroke by stroke. Among them, the word "Yue" was crooked, and even changed the strokes twice.This was the first time Jiang Yubai left City C when he was six years old. He bought paper and pens in unfamiliar English on the streets of a foreign country, and expressed his miss clumsily and honestly for the first time.
The reason why Jiang Yubai was so sure that the pretentious things he wrote was not sent to Pei Shanqing was because he made a hidden compartment behind his desk, and whenever he couldn't help sharing his daily life or expressing his thoughts, he would write A letter with no addressee, and then put it into a hidden compartment as if it were dropped into a mailbox, as if Pei Shanqing, who was far away in the sky, could connect with him.
Now that Jiang Yubai saw with his own eyes that these letters, which should have disappeared into the past, were put in the box by Pei Shanqing as if they were treasures, it even felt a little unreal.
He turned over the first letter, which clearly stated the addressee and the time it was sent——Pei Shanqing, August 2012, 8.
Jiang Yubai's mind went blank, he couldn't explain everything in front of him, but his curiosity prompted him to open the next letter, but what he didn't expect was a sudden change in perspective, which was Pei Shanqing's reply——
"Jiang Yubai:
Luckily you were sleeping when you got on the plane so you weren't crying so hard you couldn't breathe.Little crying bag, I miss you too, but I hope you are well and live a carefree life with mom and dad.
Although after you left, no one cried to bother me anymore, but I always feel empty around me, like a missing piece of the puzzle.I miss you too, and the weather is really good today, suitable for taking you to fly a kite. "
There was no message on the kraft paper envelope. This was a letter that had never been sent, which meant that from the moment Pei Shanqing took up his pen to reply him, he never made up his mind to let him see it.
Jiang Yubai felt that his breath was mixed with jerky and hard thorns, which almost scratched his whole body.After a while, he opened his letters one by one, and displayed the corresponding reply from Pei Shanqing beside it.
"Dear brother, hello!
Today, a kitten came to the yard. It has three colors, and it can put flowers in its mouth in front of the door.It comes to eat every day. I really want to adopt it, but my father said it has worms and cannot be adopted. I am very sad.
Brother, do you like cats?If we live together, will you allow me to raise it? "
"Jiang Yubai:
It’s okay to like cats, but don’t touch them, otherwise, if you get scratched, you will need an injection, which will be very painful.
I like cats, but if we live together, all my energy will be devoted to raising you, not enough to raise cats.
Be good, no cats and no crying. "
The cat pendant used to hide the key was dried and solidified on the balcony. If Jiang Yubai had a better memory, he would find that it looked surprisingly like the raccoon cat that came to deliver flowers ten years ago.
It jumped up the high wall and stood by the railing looking at the young Jiang Yubai, but because of its identity as a stray cat, it couldn't become a real family with him.Fortunately, Pei Shanqing remembered that little regret, even though he was late, he still secretly fulfilled his wish.
"Dear brother, hello!
Today my mother planted a flower in the garden. It is different from the little prince's rose. It is green and the same color as the grass.But it's still very pretty, I like it very much, I want to pick one for you, but my mother said that if you pick it off, it will die.
Brother, can you come and see me?In this way, I can give you a whole piece of flowers without picking them off! "
"Jiang Yubai:
It is as precious as the roses of the little prince, it is the time and effort that have been put into them that make them special, and I am sure they must be as beautiful as you describe.
I can't see you, but you are as precious to me as they are, my treasure. "
The vase of green Scotch roses has long since withered, but the wrapper is still tied around the neck of the bottle and blows in the breeze.
They seem to be markers that travel through time and space, and they have become the hub of the relationship between ten years ago and ten years later. In the passage of time, the relationship between them will not fade.
"Dear brother:
I heard that you are about to take the college entrance examination. The domestic examination is much more difficult than the one here, but I believe you will do well.
But it doesn't matter, you will always be the best brother in my heart. "
"Jiang Yubai: No flattering is allowed."
Almost all the letters Jiang Yubai wrote in the past six years have reached Pei Shanqing's hands. The contents of those letters range from long to short, ranging from daily sharing to festival greetings and exam blessings. and favorite.
In fact, Pei Shanqing's initial reply was not picky at all from the standpoint of his brother. It was the last few letters that really moved Jiang Yubai's mind, which was when Jiang Yubai was about to return to China to go to junior high school.
At that time, Jiang Yubai had already seen clearly his morbid love. Although he would subconsciously hide it because of panic and worry, it would still show signs because of his young age.
"Dear brother:
Today I read a sentence in the book: Dadalaughedatmeandsaid, "Baby, youarethesilliestchildIhaveeverknown."
Do you see me that way too?But I think it is wiser to write to you except for my own amusement.
By the way, how is your college life?Have someone you like?Do you want to talk about a relationship unscrupulously?I am very envious, whether it is you or your ambiguous object.
I longed for see you again...
I mean, it's been a long time since I saw you again.So when I go back to my country, can you pick me up at the airport? "
"Jiang Yubai:
I'm not in love because I can't see my heart clearly.
It must be hard for you to imagine, in the past six years, although I have not taken the initiative to visit you once, nor have I sent you a letter, but I have been looking forward to your letter all the time.
One thing I know for sure: you're not stupid at all, and you're even pretty good at grabbing people's hearts.
It is true that we have not seen each other for a long time, but the matter of meeting you is yet to be discussed.
Be good, don't blame me. "
Jiang Yubai could understand Pei Shanqing's confusion when he wrote this, because he was also driven by this sense of immorality and suffered a lot.Love at this age is really too early, and it is extremely easy to confuse it with family affection, he knows this very well.
So they really shouldn't express their love easily, but after such a long period of tolerance and restraint, no one can deny that they have won the right to say "I love you" invisibly.
Jiang Yubai's eyes were sore, and he slowly opened the last letter. It was written by Pei Shanqing alone for him without any letter. It was even a year ago, when Jiang Yubai just moved in. Shortly after.
Above is a very short English poem——
"The flaming fire warns me off by its own glow.
Save me from the dyingembershiddenunderashes."
His tears fell very lightly on the paper, and under the protection of the protective film, they did not permeate and evaporate, but hung on Saveme like a magnifying glass.
Since that year, Pei Shanqing has seen his own heart clearly, and used his innate ability to pretend to be a person who is detached from his emotions. He has clearly distinguished the identities of his brother and his lover, so that Jiang Yubai really thinks he is a A conscientious and good brother, he didn't leave any place for himself in his heart.
But Pei Shanqing, as the older party, listened carefully to every word Jiang Yubai said, and every move he made was deeply imprinted in his heart.Every confidant Jiang Yubai sent out echoed around.He secretly replayed those details in front of Jiang Yubai one by one, trying to use this obscure way to show that he never forgot.
In Pei Shanqing's eyes, Jiang Yubai was no different from a burning flame, even if he was a moth to the flame, he still wanted to let go of his hatred and embrace him in the ashes.
In that early morning, under the sunrise, Pei Shanqing understood his love, and all kinds of escaping and catering to him just explained his response——
He was in as much pain and evil as he was.