This little stutter, I'm covered

Chapter 13

Yu Ren drank a glass of red wine, looked at Chen Yun with straight eyes, and said, "This fool who is the most handsome in the world can't finish his heroic appearance in a whole book, is an idiot."

He emphasized it again: "Hey, I didn't say it, it's really handsome, okay?"

Bright as a flower, brilliant as a thousand suns.

Chen Yun smiled shyly, Yu Ren stuffed a cup of steaming honey osmanthus tea in his hand, Chen Yun said: "You say."

When Yu Ren was in the second grade of junior high school, his father died suddenly.An empty home was left for the two children of the Yu family.

My father said: "Don't hate, you have to find your own light, the light that belongs to your life."

Light?

Yu Ren thought of the light-powered watch his father left behind. That watch can keep turning continuously only by sunlight.

For half a month, he hid in the house, watching the watch keep turning, feeling the passing time, passing by in a hurry.

Unfortunately, what is light?Yu Ren couldn't figure it out. When he returned to school, the once rampant "I can't help my fate" had already been erased.

In the familiar classroom, countless pairs of eyes were all staring at him.

Yu Ren felt fear for the first time.

It seems that there is a sudden emptiness in my heart, and when there is silence, there will be clanging echoes.

Ah, it turns out that there is no light in this world.

Yu Ren sat back in his seat and began to stare out the window in a daze. It seemed that he had never really known the new and bright world.

Wu Wenjie, a scumbag in the class, ran over and called "Brother Ninja", but said nothing.The people in the class seemed to be afraid of this weird-tempered boy, and kept them at a respectful distance, and the surroundings suddenly became empty.

Later Wu Wenjie said: "Before you came back, that temptress reprimanded the class and said that she must never learn from you! The second year of junior high school is a key point. If the grades slip, you will never be able to climb up again." Get up, at a shallower level, you won’t be able to go to high school, at a deeper level, your life will be ruined.”

Yu Ren felt that what the old temptress said was right.

As for life, before you have destroyed yourself, you have already destroyed countless times in the mouths of others.

Wu Wenjie said: "I'm scared when I say it, but I think that I won't be harmed by you as long as I get ten points in the test with this percentage value."

Yu Ren said: "You are right, even if you withdraw again, it will still be in single digits, and it is impossible to be so miserable."

The head teacher didn't care about the child whose father had just died. After all, as a thorn in the class, as long as he didn't make trouble.

Yu Ren's grades are not considered good, and she has always been on a very embarrassing line of admission.

In the second year of junior high school, his grades began to decline, and he gradually became a scumbag who could be as important as Wu Wenjie.

It is also because of Yu Ren that Wu Wenjie often goes home without being beaten.

Wu Wenjie said: "Look at the former excellent students in our class, didn't they suddenly become the bottom behind me? This shows that I am not stupid, but that learning is too difficult!"

Wu Ma actually believed it, and Yu Ren said: "Saving a life is better than building a seven-level pagoda."

After going back and forth, the two of them messed around and got repeated grades.Wu Wenjie was detained by Mama Wu for a year because of his poor grades, while Yu Ren was forced to stay for a year because he singled out five of them.

One day, Wu Wenjie stayed all night in an Internet cafe.

It was almost midnight when Yu Ren appeared. He was carrying a large travel bag, and sat in the innermost part of the Internet cafe with a thief.

A pair of eyes glanced around, as if wary of something.

"Is it safe here?"

Wu Wenjie looked at him strangely, as if looking at a psychopath: "Are you poisonous?"

Yu Ren unzipped the travel bag, revealing stacks of big bills inside.

"Damn it, brother!" Wu Wenjie, who saw so much money for the first time, was so scared that he almost flew the mouse out. He deliberately lowered his voice, and secretly asked Yu Ren, "Did you rob the bank? Am I dreaming?"

Yu Ren handed the bag to Wu Wenjie with a thug, and asked him to hand it over to Yu Hui. After playing for a while, he left in a hurry.

One o'clock.

The streets are empty, and the twisted and verdant banyan leaves cut the lights of Guangyin Road into fine pieces.

Yu Ren was walking on the road, only feeling the cold night wind rubbing against his cheeks, cutting his flesh little by little, making his heart feel a dull pain.

Playing truant for a month earned [-] yuan, which is a drop in the bucket.

The newly renovated streets maintain a neat and clean style, and not even a leaf can be found on the road.Yu Ren still remembered that in the past, this was a long street where you could buy everything.

There are snow rice seeds, wild cherries, and occasionally domestic wild strawberries and fluffy chickens dyed in various colors.

But now there is nothing.

Yu Ren found a random place on the side of the road to sit down, then took out a pack of cigarettes, took one out of it, lit it slowly, and put it in his mouth.

An orange light was lit in the darkness, and the faint smoke blurred everything.

Yu Ren felt that he was starting to become empty, that there was no meaning of existence, and he was just a ghost wandering in the world.

Why does life exist?

Where is life going?

If there is light, where is the light?

"Bah..."

The cigarette butt glowing orange was ruthlessly pressed into the palm of Yu Ren's palm, and the burning pain and a kind of almost masochistic refreshing went straight to his mind.

After a short period of relaxation, Yu Ren felt more and more empty.It was like stepping into an unfathomable abyss.

At this time, the wind picked up, and a small kraft paper advertisement was blown from a distance. Yu Ren picked it up out of boredom, and wanted to fold a paper airplane, when he suddenly saw the picture on it.

The picture is accompanied by a few large characters: "A bag of gold and rubbish, the genius son takes it home!" On the picture above, there is a handsome young man.

The little boy, with baby fat on his cheeks, smiled sweetly, and his eyes were as bright as the warm sun. He was surrounded by spotlights and held his award-winning painting in his hand.

The boy is sunny and bright, and the painting is like a ray of light.

In an instant, a pathway of Tyndall effect hung down on Yu Ren's dark road.

That is light!

Yu Ren remembered the words left by his father, and said to himself: "See, Yu Ren, your light. You are no longer alone."

Some people's hands are destined to do something meaningful.

A small newspaper exaggeratedly depicts a born genius with natural perception and rich imagination, showing a surprising and natural integration.

Yu Ren cut out the newspaper, and stuffed him carefully and carefully into his wallet.

The next day, Yu Ren started looking online for news about the person in the photo.

It wasn't until this time that Yu Ren realized that it had been many years since the young man won the prize.

Chen Yun, a genius boy, was born and won several domestic heavyweight awards. Although the group is only a teenager, his strength has completely surpassed that of you, and in time he will definitely be a star of tomorrow.

But unexpectedly, after the boy won the China-Japan Youth Painting Gold Award in the second year of junior high school, he disappeared suddenly, as short as a meteor.

Yu Ren looked through all his works, visited every exhibition of his remaining paintings, and even asked Yu Hui to find someone who had seen Chen Yun's paintings with his own eyes.

All I got was a sigh of relief and lamentation.

"That child, never draw again."

No matter how Yu Ren asked, he always got the same answer.

why?

When he got home, Yu Hui was almost unconscious before the table case.Yu Ren didn't know how many days and nights Yu Hui had endured. His eye circles were all exhausted, and his face looked ugly.

Yu Ning wanted him to sleep a little longer, but Yu Hui asked him to make a cup of espresso.

"Brother, you are just a student." Yu Ren felt pain in his heart, but he was also helpless.

Yu Hui rubbed the center of his brows, got up and washed his face, his complexion was still ugly.

He said lightly: "I have dropped out of school. Strictly speaking, I am no longer a student."

Yu Ren was frustrated, and handed the boiling hot coffee to Yu Hui: "How long has it been since you slept well?"

Yu Hui was blowing hot coffee, half-closed his eyes, and stared at Yu Ren's face: "I sleep every day. How is that kid you're looking for? It's rare to see someone you care about so much. What's so great about that kid?" place?"

Yu Ren lowered his head, his voice was muffled, and there was a trace of sigh: "He doesn't paint anymore."

"Oh, it's normal." Yu Hui looked at the rising sun outside the window, "Not everyone with talent has the consciousness to walk on that path."

Yu Ren looked at Yu Hui in a daze, and squeezed the photo in his hand.

Not everyone is gifted.

Talented people may not always be able to walk that path smoothly.

……

"Shin, we are different. I can't see the light." Yu Hui drank the espresso in one gulp, "I continue to work."

Yu Ren looked at him sadly, and asked, "Brother, do you really stop studying?"

Yu Hui raised his head from the messy table, looked at him with tired and sad eyes, and said, "I don't want to study anymore, I don't have any talent. Instead of going in and dawdling, it's better to do something serious."

Yu Ren stopped talking.

Why do you have to give up your own life one by one?

Yu Ren touched the light, but found it was so far away.Light, nothing is light in the first place.Everyone just talks to themselves, loves, hates and hates alone, what can see the light, it has been said from the beginning.

Light?what is light

Is there still light in his life?

Yu Ren took out the carefully treasured photo just now, and silently tore it up.

Yu Ren said: "The commander-in-chief is forcing fools. I know you, little guy, much earlier than you know me!"

"??" Chen Yun tilted his head, staring at his big round eyes, "You knew me before?"

Yu Ren looked at him seriously, and his unrestrained expression subsided more: "Yes. On a dark and windy night, I was walking alone on a country road, and the wind was blowing. At this time Suddenly a small advertisement flew over, guess what it says?"

"It's impossible to write about me, right?" The round black pupils looked like a dull little hamster.

Yu Ren approached, looked straight into his eyes, smiled wider and wider, and said: "It says on it - a bag of gold and rubbish, the genius son takes it home!"

"..."

Yu Ren pulled Chen Yun over, hugged him earnestly, and said in his ear: ""Light". The first time I met you was when your "Light" won the award."

"...What..." Chen Yun's body gradually stiffened, his voice was timid and trembling, and when he was desperately trying to struggle, Yu Ren hugged him tighter and tighter.

The beating fiery heart was very close to Chen Yun, and the faint fragrance and violent beating invaded his reason in his ears.

"I have seen every one of your paintings. I will look for your works in every exhibition."

Straightforward, yet so scary.

"Chen Yun, you can see the light, you are the one who can touch the light. Don't be afraid, go forward bravely, okay?"

The tip of Chen Yun's nose was red, and the circles of his eyes were also red, and the fog filled his eyes.

"Sorry……"