There is a south wind in the dust

Chapter 4

The address was a crematorium in the west of the city. Looking at the location on his phone, Fu Chen probably understood.

Grandpa Cheng left.

When Fu Chen arrived, he saw Cheng Jianan at a glance. He was wearing black clothes, standing straight in front of Grandpa's body, with his head bowed and his shoulders trembling faintly.

Fu Chen wanted to say some comforting words, but he didn't know what to say in the face of this scene where his voice was pale, so he could only step forward and put his arms around his shoulders, and gave him two comforting pats.

Cheng Jianan looked up and saw that it was Fu Chen, and was stunned for a moment. He told where he was, but he didn't expect Fu Chen to rush over. He felt an indescribable feeling in his heart, a little touched and a little tender.

Within a few seconds, Cheng Jianan came back to his senses and asked Fu Chen to go out first: "You go out the door first, I will come to you later, they said it's not good."

Fu Chen shook his head, expressing that he didn't mind.

The master came over to ask if it could be cremated, and Aunt Cheng nodded, so Grandpa Cheng was pushed into a small room, and the scene was full of wailing.

In such an atmosphere, Fu Chen thought of Grandpa Cheng who had talked and laughed with them a few months ago, and asked himself to be friends with Cheng Jianan, whom he affectionately called "Nan Nan" and "Chen Chen", but now he was lying in bed. There was no movement, his face was as peaceful as ever, but his eyes were closed forever, and he couldn't help feeling a little sad in his heart.

When Grandpa Cheng was sent to the cemetery for burial, Fu Chen didn't go with him. Cheng Canaan said nothing to let him go, saying that it was bad for Fu Chen. Fu Chen didn't believe this, and he couldn't resist Cheng Canaan's dissuasion.

When he came back, Fu Chen saw Cheng Jianan's expression was quiet, and his eyes were a little bit hollow and numb. After the old man's funeral was dealt with, the Cheng family and his wife left, and they had to go to work the next day.

It was already afternoon when Aunt Cheng went back.Cheng Jianan took out a white sackcloth from the bottom of the cabinet and said that he was going to visit his grandfather's cemetery. Fu Chen followed Cheng Jianan without saying anything.

After arriving at the cemetery, Cheng Jianan put on the mourning dress and knelt in front of Grandpa Cheng's cemetery: "Grandpa, they all said that we are not related by blood, so I don't need to wear this thing, but in my eyes, you are my own grandfather, and I I should wear sackcloth and filial piety to see you off for the last journey, and I will go on well in the future, don't worry."

As he spoke, Cheng Jianan was a little choked up. Fu Chen wanted to reach out and pat him on the shoulder, but when he touched Cheng Jianan's shoulder, he couldn't help hugging him in his arms. Cheng Jianan leaned on Fu Chen's shoulder silently. Wept, the afterglow of the setting sun shone on them, and the overlapping shadows stretched long.

When it was completely dark, the two of them walked back slowly. Tonight, Cheng Jianan wanted to talk to someone, about Grandpa Cheng, about himself, otherwise he would feel uncomfortable when he quieted down. Fu Chen was beside him, listening quietly with.

Cheng Jianan became an orphan when he had memories, and was adopted when he was a little older. Being abandoned with memories is different from being abandoned at birth.

The latter orphanage is childhood, growth, knowing how to live here since childhood.The former is like giving you a piece of candy, and then telling you that you will never eat the candy again in this life. No matter whether the candy is sweet or sour, it is the one you remember the most. And in the later memories, it gradually became the most delicious one.

Cheng Jianan entered the orphanage when he was 11 years old. He didn't understand why his parents abandoned him after sleeping.

The healthy and good-looking children in the orphanage are easily adopted, while the rest of the children, in such an environment, if they are not guided by a correct value, their mentality will easily change, and some have low self-esteem. Some are naughty.

Cheng Jianan was born to be good-looking, like the most beautiful doll in the window, entering such an environment, like an angel falling into the devil's den, the devil will not appreciate the angel's white feathers and holy brilliance, but only Think: I want him to be as dirty as me.

There is a boy in the orphanage named Ah Shi, who is four years older than Cheng Jianan. Although he is lame, he fights very badly. Everyone in the orphanage listens to him.

He led the whole hospital to isolate him, bully him, and push him down the stairs. He stood up and patted the ashes on his body, and limped to find his aunt to help him with the medicine. The aunt asked him what was wrong, He only said that he accidentally fell, and he knew that if he said it, there would be no results. Auntie would only teach them a lesson. Everyone is a person without a home. For the rest, he will only suffer more serious punishment. revenge.

In winter, someone poured water on his quilt. He told his aunt that the quilt got wet. The aunt brought him a new quilt, but within a few minutes the quilt got wet again. He took the quilt out to dry and put it on. including all summer clothes, and slept in the corner all night.

His clothes were always inexplicably cut open, and he slowly learned to mend with his aunt.

He stayed in this situation for four years until Grandpa Cheng appeared.

Grandpa Cheng is a volunteer in the orphanage. After retirement, he has nothing to do. He comes to help out when he is free. Seeing Cheng Jianan being bullied, he failed to teach him a few times, so he adopted him back.

"Nannan, you can follow my surname Cheng from now on."

Cheng Jianan actually still remembered his previous name, but he didn’t want it anymore, he knew his parents would never show up again, he thought he would be adopted, but those uncles and aunts who came to adopt him liked him very much at first, but in the end, for some reason, Neither took him away.

He also looked forward to his parents' appearance in his heart. During the days when he was bullied, but the more times he was bullied, he gradually stopped thinking about it.

Grandpa Cheng combined their names together, Cheng Jianan. Grandpa thought it was not good-looking, so he added a word next to it, called Cheng Jianan. He liked this new name very much. At the beginning, people always called him by his full name. .

Aunt Cheng is not very warm to him, Cheng Jianan can understand, after all, teenagers are no better than children of a few years old, they can cultivate feelings from an early age, because of the few years in the orphanage, Cheng Jianan's personality is a bit withdrawn, and they themselves There is also a daughter.

Although he is not warm to Cheng Jianan, he will not put on any airs. He always just treats him as an outsider, and he will still have the courtesy he should have.

Fortunately, Cheng Jianan only lived with his grandfather, and his daughter and son-in-law came back to visit on weekends, and they didn't have much interaction.

Cheng Jianan didn't want to spend too much of Grandpa Cheng's money. Aunt Cheng only regarded him as an outsider. Of course, outsiders would be unhappy if they spent too much of her father's money, so she often went out to find some part-time jobs that she could do to subsidize her expenses. Grandpa tried to persuade him several times, but to no avail.

Grandpa Cheng was very kind to him, no different from Aunt Cheng's daughter. The two of them often ate and sat downstairs to enjoy the shade, chatting with neighbors around the house, and Cheng Jianan knew that life was like this.

That's it, until now.

When Fu Chen heard Cheng Jianan's talk about the past, he suddenly understood why Cheng Jianan's indifferent temper came from. He looked at Cheng Jianan's ivory-white skin under the moonlight, and couldn't help touching it. his face.

Cheng Jianan looked at Fu Chen in confusion, not knowing what he was going to do.It didn't take long for Fu Chen to put down his hands and continue walking forward. He was just thinking: We are all people walking in the dark.

When we got home, it was already very late, Fu Chen wanted to spend more time with Cheng Jianan, but he didn't leave.

Cheng Jianan's house is a bit small, only enough for one person to wash. After Cheng Jianan washed, he wanted to wait for Fu Chen on the sofa, but he fell asleep. Fu Chen came out after washing and saw that Cheng Jianan was asleep. Cheng Jianan embraced him and put him on the bed.

Maybe he was really too tired, Cheng Jianan still slept soundly.

Fu Chen originally wanted to sleep on the sofa, but when he went to the living room, he found that the sofa was too small, so he went back to Cheng Jianan's bed. Cheng Jianan was very thin and curled up in a corner of the bed, leaving a large space, so he gently laid on him. Lie down on the side.