The most ruthless is her

Chapter 89

"Really?" Bai Jingxian smiled, closed the picture book in her hand, and put it on the bedside.

She looked at Ruan Mohan with great interest, the gentle and peaceful expression on her face was exactly the same as before.

It was even the same as before, shining with the gentle brilliance of motherhood.

She seemed to meet Ruan Mohan by chance, just like every time she met in Listening, she asked Ruan Mohan: "Director Ruan, do you have any good picture book recommendations?"

She smiled and pointed to the head of the bed: "Every day I live alone in the hospital, I just read these picture books."

He stroked his pregnant belly again: "The baby is about to be born, although it will take her a long time to understand picture books by herself, but I think, showing her those beautiful pictures is a good enlightenment education."

She said "ah", looked at Ruan Mohan and smiled: "The baby is moving again, do you want to touch it?"

Ruan Mo looked at her coldly: "Don't pretend in front of me."

"I'm not Jian Shuo, so I won't follow your example."

Bai Jingxian smiled: "Director Ruan, I really didn't pretend."

Ruan Mohan walked to her hospital bed and sat down, put down her bag; "Who would have thought that the most emotionless person we are all looking for is actually the most gentle and affectionate person around us."

"Bai Jingxian, you are indeed very powerful."

Bai Jingxian: "You are too much."

Ruan Mohan: "From Jian Shuo to me, to Jiang Kailun, without exception, people can't tell."

"only you."

"Everyone thinks that you are really the most affectionate person."

"I would have thought you were ambitious, but I thought it was because of your maternal nature, to fight and snatch for the child in your womb."

Bai Jingxian caressed her pregnant belly: "I love my baby very much."

Ruan Mohan shook his head: "Children are just part of your game."

"You want to listen to music because you think it is difficult and interesting to compete for listening to music. Yang Haining is a rare person you find challenging."

"For more than ten years, under Yang Haining's eyes, you have made Jian Ming take orders from you bit by bit. You feel that your grandparents are particularly disgusted with his mediocrity. The child is just a bargaining chip for you to further control him at the critical moment of the game. .”

"You also bit by bit, let Yang Haining see the pitiful appearance of Jian Shuo attached to you, and made Yang Haining even more afraid to express love to Jian Shuo, she was afraid that Jian Shuo would also be attached to her, the more she cared, the more flaws she had , step by step to develop Jian Shuo into what he is now."

Bai Jingxian smiled: "It's just that I didn't expect that there would be an extra you out of thin air."

Ruan Mohan glanced at her: "You are very honest."

"At this point, and talking to a smart person like you, what's the point of being honest?" Bai Jingxian smiled softly: "Director Ruan, I wanted you to be Ah Shuo's canary at the beginning. for two purposes."

"First, I know that Ah Shuo has a temper like a child, and no one should get along well with her. She was hurt by you, so she will naturally become more attached to me."

"Second, you are a middle-level listener with outstanding abilities. When necessary, I can include you in the plan to snatch the listener."

She looked at Ruan Mohan: "Director Ruan, I should say I didn't expect that you look so indifferent, but you are so affectionate."

"I would like to ask you, do you really like Jian Shuo so much?"

She thought for a while: "If you don't treat Jian Shuo as a game, but as a person who gets along with you all your life, it should be very tiring."

"Then what do you think of Jian Shuo? A child?" Ruan Mohan asked: "But you are a person without motherhood."

"Last time, in order to get Yang Haining to hand over all the shares in Lingyin to Jian Ming, you did not hesitate to direct and perform a good wrestling show yourself, and framed Jian Shuo."

"At that time, you were not afraid of hurting the child at all. It was only later that you cared about the child again."

"When you find out that Yang Haining doesn't fully trust Jian Ming, and Jian Shuo may become the new successor of Lingyin."

Ruan Mohan looked straight into Bai Jingxian's eyes expressionlessly: "This child has become your bargaining chip to control Jian Shuo."

"You can even ignore your own children. Do you want Jian Shuo to believe how much you love her?"

Bai Jingxian smiled: "I have used more than ten years to raise A Shuo into a child who does not want love on the surface, but actually lacks love the most. Now, it is always time to repay."

"Director Ruan, there seems to be a black hole in her heart, no amount of love can fill it up, why would you be enough?"

She looked at Ruan Mohan and shook her head: "You are still too arrogant."

Ruan Mohan said indifferently, "Really?"

She stood up, a gust of wind blowing in from the window raised her light brown long hair, flew back, spread out in the wind, just like Jian Shuo's dark and thick long hair, like a banner.

Guide a journey of no return.

Bai Jingxian looked at Ruan Mohan and stopped smiling: "Director Ruan, you are the same kind as her."

For the first time in the night, she saw clearly that under Ruan Mohan's cold and indifferent expression, there were so many crazy and indomitable things hidden.

At first, she thought it was only the lunatic Jian Shuo who had it.

Ruan Mohan looked at her indifferently, and Bai Jingxian saw a sharpness from that indifference.

"I know there is a black hole in Jian Shuo's heart." Ruan Mohan said.

"Do you think no amount of love can fill you up?" Ruan Mohan asked, "But what if instead of standing outside the black hole and throwing love in, I jumped into the black hole by myself?"

Bai Jingxian looked at Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan asked her indifferently: "I'm not afraid of being smashed to pieces, what about you, are you afraid?"

Bai Jingxian still looked at Bai Jingxian, not speaking.

Ruan Mohan picked up the bag that was put aside, took out a copy of "How to Get Along with Problem Children", and threw it to Bai Jingxian who was on the hospital bed.

"I keep this book with me all the time, thinking of returning it to you when I have a chance."

Bai Jingxian picked it up and turned two pages: "I found it in my study? Grandma let you in."

Ruan Mohan nodded.

"This is the biggest difference between your treatment of Jian Shuo and my treatment of Jian Shuo."

"Guess who will win?"

She left such a sentence and left with her bag.

******

On the road late at night, Ruan Mohan drove steadily with a calm expression on his face.

Until an intersection, the steering wheel turned, turned out, and parked the car on the side of the road.

It was the place where she had a big fight with Jian Shuo just now.

When she was driving away just now, she took a look in the rearview mirror and saw that Jian Shuo was sitting alone on the flower bed by the roadside, with her head deeply buried in her arms, like a cat abandoned by its owner on the side of the road.

Ruan Mohan pushed open the door and got out of the car.

Now the flower beds on the side of the road are empty.

In fact, the entire road was empty, but there were cars constantly whizzing by on the side road.

And on this roadside, there are only quiet and dim street lights, a quiet breeze, and quiet and fragrant flowers and plants.

Ruan Mohan walked to the flower table and lit a cigarette.

She was staring at a shi* body of a cicada that had fallen on the grass.

She remembered that in a natural science book written by Ruan Qingyin, she read that cicadas in nature can survive for only two weeks in real life.

Sings all day, burns itself, and dies.

Waiting for next summer, the next reincarnation.

Suddenly, there was a faint roaring sound coming from the ear, separated by an extremely long distance.

Ruan Mohan looked up.

Far away, near the suburbs, fireworks bloomed in the sky.

It was mostly covered by towering buildings.

Ruan Mohan recalled three days ago.It seems that I have read such a news that there are summer activities in the suburbs to give back to the citizens, and there will be fireworks after reporting.

Ruan Mohan stood alone on the side of the road, with the tip of his high heels pointing to the flower platform, against the place where Jian Shuo had just sat, raised his eyes, and looked at the buildings that covered most of the fireworks.

No matter what, burn yourself, and then disappear.

Just like the cicada that fell on the grass just now.

Ruan Mohan lightly pointed at the fireworks in the distant sky, and breathed out a wisp of smoke.

The time for the fireworks to go off is not long, about the time of a cigarette.

When Ruan Mohan exhaled the last wisp of smoke, the fireworks also disappeared in the sky, leaving only faint traces of smoke.

Ruan Mohan snuffed out the cigarette and threw it into the roadside trash can.

Open the door, get in the car, and drive away.

******

A furry head popped out by the side of the road.

A pair of dark eyes are hidden behind the bushes, like a pair of cat's eyes shining in the dark night.

That pair of eyes kept watching until Ruan Mohan's white body disappeared far away in the rolling traffic, and then he came out from the bushes where he was hiding.

Jian Shuo walked to the place where Ruan Mohan stood just now, and sniffed.

It seemed that he could still smell the fir fragrance left on Ruan Mohan's body.

She reached out and scratched at the air again.

Just now Ruan Mohan was standing here smoking, leaving behind a lot of lingering smoke, but unfortunately it dissipated now, if she didn't stretch out her hand like she did just now, it seemed that she could really grasp it.

Ruan Mohan.

Jian Shuo thought about the silhouette of Ruan Mohan standing on the side of the road just now, the silhouette that she could just see while hiding in the bushes.

Like a faint ink painting, it is dyed lightly by the blossoming fireworks in the sky.The dim street lamps cast a layer of gold on Ruan Mohan's pale silhouette, making him look a little warm.

Jian Shuo was taken aback when the fireworks were set off, and when Ruan Mohan looked up, Jian Shuo thought Ruan Mohan had discovered her.

I didn't expect it to be fireworks.

Beicheng usually does not allow fireworks to be set off. Jian Shuo didn't know that there would be a place to set off fireworks today, let alone expect that by chance, she and Ruan Mohan would watch a firework on the side of the road together.

One stood under a street lamp and the other hid in a bush.

Jian Shuo stood there, looking at the distant sky where there was no trace of smoke after the fireworks bloomed.

Although she and Ruan Mohan just had such a big fight.

But all in all, we watched a summer fireworks together.

******

The seventeenth floor of the W Hotel.

The elevator door opened with a "ding".

Jian Shuo jumped out humming the melody of "Boom Boom Boom", it was the familiar "Vienna Woods Waltz".

Spin one circle, spin another circle, and jump for a walk.

Stepping on the soft carpet in the hallway with six centimeter high heels is not as comfortable as ten centimeter high heels.

Jian Shuo thought, it must be because of this reason that he lost all of a sudden.

Standing dejectedly at the door of room 1704, he stood for a long time before pushing the door open.

All of a sudden, she rushed to the big velvet bed, threw off the six-centimeter high heels she hated the most, and danced back and forth frantically.

Shouting: "Ruan Mohan! Ruan Mohan! Ruan Mohan!"

It went on until twelve o'clock at midnight.

Jian Shuo was lying on the pillow alone, without turning on the light, looking at the night outside through the open window.

This is the most commonly used look by Ruan Mohan before, and it is also the place where Ruan Mohan has lay down countless times.

Jian Shuo nodded, buried her nose in the pillow, and took a deep breath.

But the pillowcase has been changed so many times, how could it possibly have the fir fragrance from Ruan Mohan's body, there is only a faint fragrance of washing and drying and the smell of disinfectant water.

Jian Shuo let out a disgusted "tsk".

Turning his face straight, putting his hands under his head, he looked at the night outside the window again.

She and Ruan Mohan have been to Room 1704 many times, but only in the afternoon, and she has never seen the night here.

All the night scenes, the ones that came into my eyes, were watched with Ruan Mohan on the balcony of Ruan Mohan's house.

She misses Ruan Mohan very much.

The thought of trying to catch the smoke coming out of her mouth.She thought of burning the pillowcase she slept on so that no one else could touch it.Thinking of the fireworks blooming in the sky, she rushed out from behind the bushes, shook her shoulders and shouted excitedly:

"Look, Ruan Mohan! It's fireworks!"

"It's the summer fireworks we watched together! Fireworks! Fireworks!"

"Hee hee hee! Hee hee hee! Hee hee hee!"

But she didn't know why, she didn't do anything, just hid behind the bushes like that, and didn't want to come out until Ruan Mohan left.

It's like she didn't know why, when she received a text message from Bai Jingxian in the afternoon, she ran out of Lingyin and went to H Hospital by accident.

She had just wanted to go and have a look.

Look at Bai Jingxian, what a fat and ugly ghost she has become.

Bai Jingxian failed to snatch the listening, and now she is fat and ugly because of her pregnancy, she really deserves it.

Jian Shuo babbled: "The big rabbit is sick, look at the second rabbit, the third rabbit buys medicine, the fourth rabbit boils... (Note 1)" Chanting weird songs, she rushed out of the corridor excitedly.

Sliding a step on the floor tiles in the corridor: "Woo-!"

Immediately a nurse came to stop her: "Don't make noise in the hospital, walk well, and be careful not to fall."

Jian Shuo pouted.

The nurse approached her: "Are you here to visit?"

Jian Shuo said lazily, "Yes, Bai Jingxian."

"you are?"

Jian Shuo smiled coquettishly, "Her daughter."

The nurse glanced at Jian Shuo, obviously she didn't think that at Bai Jingxian's age, she could have such a big daughter.

Jian Shuo rolled her eyes boredly: "She is my sister-in-law."

The nurse should have received a notice from Bai Jingxian, knowing that her younger sister would come to visit in the afternoon, she pointed out a direction for Jian Shuo: "Ms. Bai's ward is over there."

Jian Shuo took two steps, and suddenly made another sliding step: "咻——!"

The nurse turned her head and stared: "In the hospital..."

Jian Shuo has already run away with a smile.

She knows where Bai Jingxian's ward is. Although she has difficulty concentrating and often forgets things, for some reason, she has only been to the ward where Bai Jingxian is waiting for delivery twice. I can't remember exactly how to get there.

Walking outside Bai Jingxian's ward, her steps slowed down.

Leaning against the wall, hesitantly squatted down by the wall.

He looked up blankly and looked around.

The white walls and white lamps have a unique flavor of maternity hospitals.

There is a serious smell of disinfectant in the milk fragrance.There is a hidden danger in the warmth.

Jian Shuo squatted against the wall in a daze.

She felt that the scene in front of her was very similar to the nightmare she had repeatedly replayed.

White walls, white lights, a doctor shouted: "It's amniotic fluid embolism!" There was panic in the voice.

She had just been born, and her mother had died of amniotic fluid embolism, so it was impossible for her to have any memory of this scene.

But she just remembered it clearly, or rather, imagined it clearly.

Looking at the scene of the obstetrics and gynecology hospital in front of me now, it seems that a corner of a dream has turned into reality.

She stood up, kicked open the door of Bai Jingxian's ward, and walked into the ward.

Standing in the corner with her hands behind her back, she looked at Bai Jingxian on the hospital bed with a lazy and disdainful expression.

Bai Jingxian looked at her and smiled: "Ah Shuo."

Jian Shuo taunted: "It's impossible to seize our Jian family's property, you're quite ashamed to call me so close now."

Bai Jingxian smiled: "Your Jane's family?"

Jian Shuo stared at her fiercely and said nothing.

Oh, Bai Jingxian is right.

Where did "our Jane's family" come from?

The world doesn't know that there is such a person as Jian Shuo in the Jian family.She is a monster hidden in the shadows, unable to see the light.

Bai Jingxian: "I know you don't care about listening at all."

"Then what do you think I care about? Care about you?"

"A Shuo, remember the kind of ice cream we ate every summer? The three-color plaid, vanilla, strawberry and chocolate."

"My due date is this Sunday. After I finish confinement and summer is not over, we can still eat together."

Jian Shuo said fiercely: "You can eat with your child, I won't bother to talk to you."

"There are no children."

Jian Shuo was taken aback.

Bai Jingxian looked into her eyes, they were still the same as before, gentle and peaceful, it was a kind of eyes that belonged to mothers.

Since Bai Jingxian married into Jian's family when Jian Shuo was 14 years old, no matter how impatient Jian Shuo was with Bai Jingxian on the surface, she couldn't get enough of her behind her back.

Bai Jingxian asked: "You know your elder brother, can you ask grandma to send him abroad?"

Jian Shuo: "It's not all your fault."

Bai Jingxian: "After the child is born, I want to send the child abroad and let your elder brother raise it."

"how about you?"

"I'll stay."

"Why? Remarry? Choose a new family group and go grab it?"

"No, don't marry again. Stay and be your sister-in-law."

"Be your...mother."

Bai Jingxian looked at her and added: "You are alone."

Jian Shuo was stunned for a while, then spat hard: "I don't need it!"

"Really?" Bai Jingxian smiled: "A Shuo, do you still have nightmares at night?"

"You used to live at home when you were in junior high school. Every night when you had nightmares, I would sneak into your room and tuck the quilt up for you, you know?"

She looked at Jian Shuo and said firmly, "You need me."

"You need a mother. Then, you'll never have those nightmares again."

******

Jian Shuo didn't know what time she woke up, just like she didn't know what time she fell asleep in a daze last night.

I didn't draw the curtains last night. At this time, the sky outside the window was bright, and the bright midsummer sun shone in through the window.

Jian Shuo checked the phone, it was nine past five.

Her first reaction turned out to be, oh no, I'm late for work.

After reacting, she gave an extremely loud "ha", lazily got up from the bed, went into the bathroom to brush her teeth.

He has only worked two days at Listening, how can he pretend to be a good employee?

It's fine now, she and Ruan Mohan had a falling out, and no one asked her to go to work listening.

She can sleep as long as she wants!

After Jian Shuo finished grooming, she brushed her long black and thick curly hair, and headed proudly to the cafeteria for breakfast.

That's right, she doesn't need to be a servant anymore, she doesn't need to make toast or milk, the five-star hotel's buffet breakfast has everything you need, she just needs to wait for others to serve her!

No need to wash dishes!

Jian Shuo proudly "hummed" and "hummed" again, holding the plate and turning to the dining table.

With bacon, baked beans, scrambled eggs, toast, ham...

I took coffee, milk, soy milk, juice...

Take what you see, and pile it all in front of you, anyway, you only eat one bite of each.

Jian Shuo held a fork, narrowed her cat-like eyes, and fed food into her mouth viciously, as if she was competing with someone.

Doesn't Ruan Mohan hate wasting food the most?She just wants to waste food!

But no one taught her a lesson, Jian Shuo felt that such a waste was simply boring.

She snapped her fingers and called the waiter who was standing next to her, "Why don't you criticize me for wasting food?"

The waiter smiled politely: "Ma'am, we cannot disrespect our guests."

"If you really can't finish it. We have a corresponding fine system, small punishment and big punishment..."

"Pay, pay, pay! Ten times, one hundred times, one thousand times! Put it on my bill!"

Anxiously, Jian Shuo pushed the plate in front of her and ran out of the cafeteria.

Thinking that no one criticized her for being upset, she ran and tripped herself.

Almost fell.

If there is nothing behind him, he let out a chuckle.

Jian Shuo suddenly turned around.

The waiter who said that he should respect the guests just now stood there with his hands down, with a polite and solemn expression, like a statue.

Someone couldn't help laughing at her just now, as if it was a hallucination of Jian Shuo.

Jian Shuo let out a "hum", started running again, and ran out of the cafeteria.

******

Jian Shuo called an online car-hailing car.

When getting in the car, the driver looked at the destination she had entered and talked to her: "Are you going shopping so early in the morning?"

Jane is the destination, the most high-end shopping mall in Beicheng CBD.

Jian Shuo glared at the driver viciously: "I want you to take care of it!"

The driver glanced at the vicious girl in the back seat, was startled, and stopped talking.

Looking at the passing scenery outside the car window, Jian Shuo became more and more prosperous, but felt a sense of displacement for no reason.

I can't go back home, so I can only stay in a hotel.

But how could she go home?

Now between her and Ruan Mohan, there is such a big Jiang Kailun, and there is also such a big Bai Jingxian.

She didn't know how to face Ruan Mohan, she thought, Ruan Mohan didn't know how to face her, otherwise he wouldn't have driven over last night, smoked a cigarette, and left again.

Both have things they haven't figured out yet.

After thinking about it, when the shopping mall arrived, Jian Shuo opened the car door to get out, and put on a high-spirited posture again.

At least, she doesn't have to go to work now!Don't be a servant!You can also spend whatever you want!

The eldest brother is going abroad soon, and the old lady can only count on her, even if she is a nominal president.

Can you still take back the black card given to her?

She aggressively walked into one of her favorite luxury goods counters, where she bought all her ten-centimeter high-heeled shoes. She felt that the stylist was as crazy as she was, and that the styles of high-heeled shoes were more exaggerated than the last.

As soon as I walked in, I saw a woman who was older than her, trying on shoes there.

With long light brown hair and a slender figure, she still looks a bit Ruan Mohan.

Jian Shuo couldn't help but take a second look.

At first glance, she was dumbfounded: "Ruan Mohan, why are you here?"