The most ruthless is her

Chapter 72

"Are you crazy?" Jian Shuo stared at Jiang Kailun: "Many people said I was crazy, but I didn't expect you to be crazier than me."

"How did a lunatic like you become the head of a team?"

"Boss Jiang?" Jian Shuo sneered viciously: "Ha, I am!"

"Don't get me wrong, I don't have any special meaning for you to kiss me." Jiang Karen smiled: "You know, I am a person without emotion, even if you kiss me, I won't feel anything."

"It's just that you say you are not what I see, then prove it to me."

"Prove you can hurt people, prove you can play with feelings, prove you're not bluffing."

"It's very simple to break my prejudice against you." Jiang Karen stretched out his finger and tapped his vermilion lips lightly: "Kiss me, that's all."

Jian Shuo took a deep breath.

She moved slowly and walked towards Jiang Karen.

The heels of the ten centimeter high heels knocked against the concrete floor of the parking lot.

Tap, tap, tap.

Jian Shuo runs here every day, and has never felt the sound of her footsteps so harsh.

But she walked down, a little slowly, a little trembling, but after all, she walked in front of Jiang Kailun.

Jiang Kailun smiled deeper, with a pair of sable eyes, no matter how close you looked, they were emotionless and emotionless.

There is no flaw at all, and there is nothing to take advantage of.

Jian Shuo stood in front of Jiang Kailun, only to realize that the faint poppy fragrance on Jiang Kailun's body was so aggressive.

For a moment, the alluring dahlia fragrance on Jian Shuo's body was completely suppressed.

Jiang Kailun smiled and said, "Come on."

Jian Shuo moved closer to her face, trying hard to have a strange and ghostly smile on his face.

For Ruan Mohan, she thought.

If she wanted to protect Ruan Mohan in front of Jiang Kailun, no matter what, she couldn't let Jiang Kailun look down on her.

It was because she was exactly what Jiang Kailun said, so no matter what, she had to pretend that she was not, that she was strong, and that she couldn't show her cards in front of Jiang Kailun.

Jiang Karen smiled: "What are you waiting for?"

Jian Shuo gave an extremely bewitching smile, and the moment she was about to approach Jiang Kailun's lips, she slammed her forehead into Jiang Kailun's forehead fiercely.

Even Jiang Kailun didn't expect that Jian Shuo would make such a sudden move, he couldn't dodge it in time, and was stunned by Jian Shuo.

The elegant figure in high heels swayed and almost fell.

With such a strange and ghostly smile, Jian Shuo stretched out her hand and tightly clamped Jiang Kailun's arm: "Boss Jiang, be careful, don't fall."

She looked at the red mark on Jiang Kailun's forehead that she had hit hard just now, and smiled even more treacherously: "Oh, it's all red."

"Does it hurt, do you want me to blow it to you?" Jian Shuo raised her bright red lips, and said softly, "Huh."

Jiang Karen stopped smiling.

A pair of sable eyes, without even the light and smile, completely turned into a bottomless lake, like a black hole in the universe.

This is Jiang Kailun, the first time he appeared in front of Jian Shuo without a smile.

It was also Jiang Kailun who did not appear in front of anyone with a smile for the first time.

Jian Shuo clamped Jiang Kailun's arm hard. She didn't believe that Jiang Kailun was really an AI. With her strength, Jiang Kailun's well-maintained arm would definitely have a circle of red marks.

"Jiang Karen."

"I haven't hurt anyone, and I hate being touched by others, so it's impossible to play with any feelings."

"You are very powerful, you can indeed see through people."

"But, have you ever thought about a question?"

"What you see is my universality. But Ruan Mohan, she is my special case."

"For Ruan Mohan, I would dare anything, do you believe it?"

Jiang Kailun said expressionlessly, "Let go."

Jian Shuo took a deep look at her: "You'd better understand what I said today."

"Let go of Ruan Mohan, otherwise, I will never end with you."

She let go of Jiang Karen's arm.

Jiang Kailun: "I said it, it's not about whether I let go of Ruan Mohan, but about her, whether or not she should let go."

She stepped on her high heels and walked away expressionlessly.

******

Ruan Mohan sat on a bench by the side of the road.

A street sign not far from the side reads the words "Yinzhan Road".

This road is indeed very biased, surrounded by low-rise buildings, narrow roads, and occasionally a few dilapidated pickup trucks drive by.

The road was not cleaned diligently, when the pickup truck drove by, it brought up a cloud of flying dust, which fell on Ruan Mohan who was sitting by the side of the road in a daze.

Ruan Mohan discovered this road by accident when he visited a factory.

At that time, she deeply imprinted the road name "Yinzhan Road" in her mind.

But never again.

Because this road is different from the bright and beautiful roads in Beicheng she is used to.

On the contrary, it is very similar to the small town in her hometown, the city whose economy is not very developed and relies on industry to support the development of the whole city.

Especially this road is very similar to the road where Ruan Qiu's accident happened.

Before Ruan Mohan left his hometown, he had traveled to that road countless times.

For this reason, she deeply remembered the name of the road "Yinzhan Road", but never dared to come again.

But today, she took a taxi.

Sitting on a roadside bench, looking at this road over and over again, just like she used to, sitting on a roadside bench where Ruan Qiu had an accident, watching that road over and over again.

like masochism.

It's like digging open a wound that has repeatedly scabbed, and feeling the pleasure of punishing yourself in a burst of blood and blood.

Next to the bench, beside her, was a box of ice cream and a small pendant in the shape of a rabbit.

She didn't eat either, and let the ice cream melt slowly under the blazing sun.

With a cigarette in his hand, he lit it, but didn't take a puff.

She sat in the bright sun, sweating, but forced her eyes to open, staring at the box of melting ice cream, and the little bunny charm, and kept looking.

Ruan Tianrong's words from last night kept ringing in my ears: "Have you ever thought about whether your poor little sister would like to eat ice cream when she was lying on the ground alone?"

Ruan Qiu's words from 16 years ago echoed again: "Sister, wait until you make money in the future, then buy me a toy to hang on my schoolbag."

Ruan Qiu has never eaten ice cream, nor owned a toy hanging on a schoolbag.

Because when their mother went abroad, Ruan Qiu was still too young. After living in Ruan Tianrong's house, Ruan Tianrong treated them harshly all the way and never bought them any snacks.

Because in the year when Ruan Qiu's accident happened, Ruan Mohan was still too young, not even old enough to work in a convenience store, and had no money for Ruan Qiu to buy any small toys.

Ruan Mohan finally raised her hand and took a puff of the cigarette. The bright sunlight made her eyes hurt, and when she narrowed her eyes, there was another burst of intense soreness.

Jian Shuo's words from last night echoed in her ears again: "It's not your fault."

How is it not her fault?

Sitting here now, she can finally buy a lot of ice cream, a lot of small pendants, and a schoolbag full of them.

But Ruan Qiu has no chance to have it anymore.

Because she has long been buried in the ground.

Ruan Mohan was smoking a cigarette and felt dizzy in his brain. He wondered if he had been sitting under the sun and had a bit of heat stroke.

At this moment, her cell phone rang.

Ruan Mohan didn't want to pick it up.

The phone rang until it cut off, then rang again.

It rang again until it was cut off, and the person on the other end kept calling.

Ruan Mohan finally answered, "Hello."

She didn't look at the phone screen because it was clear who was calling.

Jian Shuo's voice came from the phone: "Ruan Mohan, I won't ask where you are, because you definitely won't tell me."

"I'm calling, just to let you know that I'm looking for you."

"If I can't find it, I'll keep looking."

Jian Shuo hung up the phone.

Ruan Mohan held the phone until the scorching sun in the afternoon made the phone feel hot.

From time to time, a text message comes in, with a "ding".

Ruan Mohan clicked dizzily:

"I'm at the W Hotel."

"I'm at the shooting range."

"I'm at Ruan Qingyin School, but I didn't disturb her class."

……

Later, Jian Shuo went to every place she could think of, and began to search aimlessly throughout Beicheng.

"I'm on Taoran Road."

"I'm on Yunmen Road."

"I'm on Shuguang Road."

……

The cigarette between Ruan Mohan's fingers burned one after another, each time she only smoked one or two puffs, or even didn't take a puff, and waited for the smoke to finish burning, her fingers were burned.

She stood up in a daze, feeling as if she really had a bit of heat stroke, and wanted to go across the road to buy a bottle of water.

There is a small convenience store across the road, where she bought an ice cream and a small rabbit pendant just now.

When crossing the road, a pickup truck full of boards rammed towards her.

Ruan Mohan was dizzy, so his reaction was slow, and he squinted his eyes to look at the car.

At the last moment before hitting her, the pickup truck slammed to a stop. The driver opened the window and stuck his head out, yelling, "Crazy bitch, are you sick? Do you want to die?"

Ruan Mohan took two deep breaths.

She didn't want to buy water anymore, so she slowly raised her feet and walked back to the bench she had just sat on.

He took out his mobile phone and made a call to Jian Shuo: "I'm on Yinzhan Road."

Jian Shuo only said two words: "Wait."

The phone is disconnected.

Ruan Mohan continued to sit on the side of the road, looking at the trucks passing by on the narrow road, the flying dust hit her face.

When Jian Shuo arrived, it was almost dark.

She was running at first, but when she was about to run to Ruan Mohan's side, she started walking slowly again.

She slowly walked to Ruan Mohan's side: "You are here."

It didn't look like she had been searching for a long time, as if it was just an ordinary afternoon, and she just ran into Ruan Mohan here in an unusual way.

Ruan Mohan raised his head and looked at her: "I want to drink water."

"I'll go and buy."

Jian Shuo looked around and saw a convenience store across the road, so she ran over there.

At this moment, two trucks drove over, Ruan Mohan sat on the bench, looked at Jian Shuo's back, and passed through the truck room.

Soon, Jian Shuo took a bottle of water, passed through two trucks, ran along the road, and ran back to Ruan Mohan.

"Here." Jian Shuo handed the water to Ruan Mohan: "Are you hot? I bought ice water."

Ruan Mohan raised his head: "No."

Jian Shuo: "Huh?"

Ruan Mohan: "I don't want ice water."

Jian Shuo looked at Ruan Mohan.

Mingming had been sitting under the scorching sun for an entire afternoon, his usually cold and fair skin became reddened by the sun, and there were two unusual blushes on his clear and beautiful face.

Light brown soft long hair, soaked in sweat, stuck to his forehead.

There is also a shirt, the same as Jian Shuo's, sticking to his back.

Jian Shuo didn't understand: "Why no ice water?"

Ruan Mohan didn't speak.

Jian Shuo: "Okay, if you don't want ice water, don't want it."

"I'll warm you up."

She held the ice water to her chest and wrapped her arms around it.

She took a taxi just now and got off at the intersection of Yinzhan Road. After running for a while, she saw Ruan Mohan sitting on this bench.

She ran to buy water again, her whole body was hot from running, and the cold water bottle suddenly hugged her chest, and through the thin soft silk shirt, she let out a "hiss" from the ice.

Ruan Mohan looked at her, but she didn't speak, just stood in front of Ruan Mohan holding the water bottle.

"Wait a while, it will be fine in a while."

It was already dusk in the sky, and the burning clouds all over the sky spread out, magnificent, dyeing the whole world with a faint pink.

Jian Shuo handed the water bottle to Ruan Mohan: "Is it all right?"

Ruan Mohan took it and lowered his head: "It's fine."

She raised her hand to unscrew the bottle cap, but it seemed that her hands were exhausted due to heat stroke.

Jian Shuo took the water bottle, unscrewed it, and handed it to Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan took a sip, only to realize how thirsty he was, raised his head again, and drank less than half of the bottle.

Jian Shuo: "Drink slowly."

Ruan Mohan: "I'm very hot, but I can't drink ice water."

Jian Shuo looked at Ruan Mohan, waiting for her to speak.

"I don't eat ice cream, nor do I eat any other delicious things, and I don't buy any clothes I like except for the clothes I need in the workplace."

She looked at Jian Shuo: "Is that all right?"

Jian Shuo: "OK."

Ruan Mohan slowly closed his eyes: "Don't say it again, it's not my fault."

Jian Shuo: "Okay."

She walked over and let Ruan Mohan's head rest on her belly.

Like countless times before, she leaned against Ruan Mohan's belly.

Ruan Mohan: "No matter what, I will never feel that this is not my fault."

"I'm going to go on doing this for the rest of my life, punishing myself, abusing myself."

She leaned on Jian Shuo's belly: "Is it okay?"

Jian Shuo: "OK."

The setting sun was dyed gold, and the shadow of the two people leaning together was projected on the prismatic floor tiles, which stretched very long.

Jian Shuo looked at the shadows of the two of them: "I also think it's my own fault. I gave you a chance to like some shitty schoolgirl and go to some shitty bookstore."

"So, I will accompany you. If you don't eat ice cream, I won't eat ice cream. If you don't buy beautiful clothes, I won't buy beautiful clothes either."

"it's OK?"

Ruan Mohan closed his eyes, let out a breath slowly: "OK."

******

Ruan Mohan and Jian Shuo took a taxi together, returned to the underground parking lot of Lingyin, and then drove home.

Called Ruan Qingyin in advance, told her that she would be home later, ordered takeaway, and asked her to arrive home at the same time as them.

When the two walked into the house, Ruan Qingyin was sitting on the sofa watching TV.

Seeing Ruan Mohan, he immediately ran over and hugged her waist.

Ruan Mohan: "What's wrong?"

Ruan Qingyin stared at Jian Shuo: "Did you bully mom?"

Jian Shuo: "How is it possible!"

Ruan Qingyin: "That's someone bullying my mother."

"Did you protect Mommy?"

Jian Shuo pointed to her forehead: "Didn't you see the traces left by my heroic battle?"

Ruan Qingyin: "It's useless for you to hit yourself like this when you attack others."

Jian Shuo: "You don't know how powerful the enemy is! Standing and talking won't hurt your back!"

Ruan Qingyin rolled her eyes: "I'm only nine years old, haven't you heard adults say that children don't have waists?"

The three sat at the table for dinner.

After dinner, Ruan Mohan said to Ruan Qingyin, "Let's take a shower early today, I'm a little tired."

Ruan Qingyin nodded.

After Ruan Qingyin took a shower, Ruan Mohan still helped her dry her hair like every day.

Ruan Qingyin: "Then I'm going back to my room."

She shook Ruan Mohan's hand again: "Mom, remember? I forgive you."

Ruan Mohan shook Ruan Qingyin's hand back.

She asked Ruan Qingyin: "Where is your schoolbag?"

"what?"

"where is it?"

Ruan Qingyin pointed to the corner of the sofa, and Ruan Mohan walked over, only to see Ruan Qingyin's schoolbag in the corner between the sofa and the air conditioner.

Because of sensory integration disorder, Ruan Qingyin has some problems with her ability to store and organize. Every day, her schoolbags are left in different places.

Ruan Mohan picked up Ruan Qingyin's schoolbag.

He took out a small rabbit pendant from his bag and hung it up.

She asked Ruan Qingyin: "Does it look good?"

"Ugly to death."

"Really?" Ruan Mohan looked at it: "Then I'll help you take it off."

Ruan Qingyin curled her lips: "Forget it, it's so troublesome to pick it off."

"Just hang up."

She looked at the little rabbit again, felt a little embarrassed, shook Ruan Mohan's hand, and walked back to her bedroom.

Jian Shuo walked over, followed Ruan Qingyin's example, and shook Ruan Mohan's hand.

Ruan Mohan was expressionless: "No idea."

Jian Shuo let out a "hum".

Ruan Mohan: "I'll take a shower first."

Jian Shuo: "Go."

Ruan Mohan walked back to the bedroom, took the towel and pajamas, and walked into the bathroom.

She was sweating all over, and the feeling of heat stroke had not subsided, and her whole body was stuffy.

Unscrew the hot water, watch the water pouring down from the shower head, but turn the knob to the far left and adjust the water temperature to the highest.

Sprinkled on the skin, it quickly burns the white skin red.

Ruan Mohan stood under the water flow, feeling the pain caused by the high water temperature.

She has realized that she will punish herself like this for the rest of her life.

but.

But this afternoon, when she was crossing the street dazed from heatstroke, a pickup truck rammed toward her.

At that moment, all she could think of was Ruan Qingyin.

I still think of Jian Shuo.

She doesn't want to die.

She clearly found that she didn't want to die.

don't want to die.I also don't want to be emotional.no emotion.

I don't want to be like Jiang Karen, who has no pain and no happiness.

She wants to endure the most painful pain while feeling the happiest happiness, just to keep her feelings and emotions.

Because there is still Ruan Qingyin in this world.

and also.

And Jian Shuo.

******

After Ruan Mohan finished taking a shower, Jian Shuo also went to take a shower early, and she also sweated a lot today.

Walking out of the bathroom, I still saw Ruan Mohan smoking a cigarette on the balcony like every day.

Jian Shuo exhaled lightly.

The sense of stability in my heart at this moment is in stark contrast to the panic of running around in an unfamiliar street in the afternoon.

Just looking at Ruan Mohan's back like this, she was already extremely satisfied, so satisfied that she wanted to shout, sing loudly, and dance.

But she didn't.

If she did this, Ruan Mohan would put on a cold face again and come over and say that the neighbors would complain.

Jian Shuo just quickly dried her hair half-dry, opened the glass door, and walked to the balcony.

She stood beside Ruan Mohan, who was smoking a cigarette and glanced at her: "What's wrong?"

Jian Shuo shook her head: "It's nothing, you smoke your cigarette, I'll take a look at you."

Ruan Mohan then ignored her, took a puff of cigarette, and exhaled a wisp of faint mist.

Jian Shuo suddenly panicked.

She stretched out her hand suddenly, and drove away all the mist surrounding Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan glanced at her again: "What happened?"

"It's nothing."

In fact, it's not nothing.

It's just that if she said it, she was afraid that Ruan Mohan would think she was an idiot.

In the afternoon, when she was running in an unfamiliar street, thinking of Ruan Mohan, she would think of her smoking on the balcony every night.

The whole person was shrouded in the faint moonlight, and the dense smoke was shrouded around him.

Like a foggy forest, no matter how you walk, you can't get close.

Or, her whole person is like the mist itself, so indifferent and remote.

It seems that there is something tangible in front of you, but when you reach out to touch it, you can only touch a piece of air.

As soon as the wind blows, it disperses, flutters away, and never stays by my side, without any trace of existence.

So in the afternoon, when Jian Shuo was wearing ten centimeter high heels, she was running in unfamiliar streets and alleys.

Her heart was extremely perplexed.

For some reason, she kept thinking of a nightmare she had had.In the hospital, with cold white walls and dazzling light, a doctor shouted: "It's amniotic fluid embolism!" There was panic in the voice.

That was the scene when her mother died in her memory or imagination.

Jian Shuo was suddenly afraid that maybe important people would leave her side one by one.

Wearing ten-centimeter high heels and running non-stop, her feet hurt and her head felt dizzy.

The most important thing is that the feeling of panic in her heart is getting heavier and heavier, and her steps are getting heavier and heavier, as if she is stuck in a swamp.

When she was about to be submerged and breathless.

The cell phone that had been in his hand rang.

It was Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan called and said, "I'm on Yinzhan Road."

After hanging up the phone, Jian Shuo yelled "Ah", startling the passers-by.

She almost flew into a taxi.

When rushing to Yinzhan Road, she opened the car window wide, and the driver kept reminding her: "Miss, don't stick your head out of the window."

Jian Shuo said irritably, "I know."

She didn't stick her head out of the window.

She was just looking at a butterfly flying by the wind outside the window.

Thinking: there won't be a butterfly landing on Ruan Mohan's head now, right?

Hmph, that's her Ruan Mohan.

She just wanted to appear next to Ruan Mohan in the next second, no, she didn't want to delay any more.

She kept urging the driver: "Drive faster! Do you know how to drive?"

Through the rearview mirror, the driver looked at the coquettish woman with angry eyes, and couldn't laugh or cry: "Miss, why don't you drive?"

Jian Shuo: "If I drive, I will drive!"

Driver: "Do you have a driver's license?"

Jian Shuo: "No!"

Driver: "...Then you still command me?!"

Jian Shuo could only sit in the back seat, stomping on the car mat with both feet.

Aggressive, aggressive.

It seems to be trotting all the way, fast to the frequency of nervousness.

It seems that this can make the car drive a little faster.

It wasn't until she got out of the car and saw Ruan Mohan from a distance, sitting on a bench by the side of the road in a daze, that the feeling of panic in her heart subsided a little.

However, at this moment, when Ruan Mohan was smoking a cigarette and was shrouded in a cloud of smoke, the uneasy feeling in her heart was lifted again.

She stretched out her hand to drive away the smoke, because she was afraid that Ruan Mohan, who was as light as smoke, would really turn into a cloud of smoke and go away with the wind if surrounded by the smoke.

She was left alone on the spot, wearing ten centimeter high heels, jumping up and shouting: "Ruan Mohan! Ruan Mohan!"

But Ruan Mohan would just drift away and never come back.

Jian Shuo let out an inaudible breath.

sigh?Is this still her?

She pinched her face, and that habitual coquettish and seductive smile climbed onto her cheeks again.

She noticed that Ruan Mohan was looking at her, and asked with a smile, "Why, have you been fascinated by me?"

Let the bright smile on your face bloom even more, like a rose that blooms brightly on a summer night.

Ruan Mohan just exhaled a wisp of smoke and stretched out his hand.

Gently and slowly, it landed on top of Jian Shuo's head: "I won't leave."

"Not going anywhere."

"It's right next to you."

This time, Jian Shuo didn't dodge, and let Ruan Mohan stroke her head like a docile cat.

She murmured, "Ruan Mohan, the one who is not a human but a demon, is it you?"

"Are you... really good at reading minds?"