The domineering president's way of loving

Chapter 29

Zeng Qiuyan's heart suddenly jumped twice, and then sank.He sat sullenly, then picked up the steel fork to poke the mixed fruit and vegetable salad, inserted a large fork into his mouth, and took one bite after another.

Fill your mouth full.

He was silent, and then stuffed another bowl of ramen into his stomach.At this time, he was sitting on the stool with his eyes downcast, and his hands were clasped on the table.

The artist's image management does not play any role at this moment.

He looked more like a gray mudstone than a dazzling star.

Sheng Zhao and Wang Yao were a little surprised by his behavior at the moment.

Leaving aside the emotional entanglement between each other, Zeng Qiuyan has always been a powerful actor. Even though he looks pure, cute and sweet, but in the last two movies, with him as the hero, the screen image can be crazy or paranoid.Impressive.

In Xunri, his style is gentle and elegant.Now this imageless Zeng Qiuyan, who ate and drank a lot, didn't look like him at all.

Zeng Qiuyan was silent for a long time before raising his head to look at Sheng Zhao, his eyes were red.

Immediately she opened her mouth, but without making a sound, she muttered a few more times before she opened her mouth and said, "Sheng Zhao, I have worked very hard to fall in love with you."

Sheng Zhao didn't know what to say, he was stunned.

Wang Yao leaned on the chair with a calm expression on his face.But he thought to himself—should Zeng Qiuyan see a psychiatrist?

Sheng Zhao's living environment from childhood to adulthood has led to his sunny and cheerful personality, and the three views he has shaped in education and life are very positive.He couldn't agree with Zeng Qiuyan's words.

What does it mean to try hard to fall in love with me?

Loving someone comes from the heart, not involuntarily.It's hard to love less.

But you have to work hard to force yourself to fall in love with me?

Is this love?

Sheng Zhao let out a breath, feeling quite emotional, "Then if you worked hard and still didn't fall in love with me? Qiu Yan, do you feel that you... went in the wrong direction at the beginning?"

Zeng Qiuyan didn't know what to say.

Sheng Zhao said: "I don't know if you are happy with me or not. I really liked you, but you have never really loved me. Everything you do with me, shopping, visiting amusement parks, traveling... ...You seem to be acting in a youth romance drama."

"You never wanted me."

"Kissing at the end of the point is like playing house."

"Our closest contact is just hugging and holding hands."

"Am I right?"

Zeng Qiuyan was at a loss.

He has a little Jiujiu in his heart and has his own plans.From the time the two were together until now, he himself felt that it was a transaction between two parties.

He obtained resources from Sheng Zhao, and stood on the star stage where countless people were watching to satisfy his heart.So he played a lover who thought he was very good.

In fact, he is that he really really made an effort to love him.It's just...he hasn't fallen in love with him yet.He believes that one day he will fall in love with him!

Sheng Zhao was so kind to him.

But...it seems...he doesn't want him anymore.

Zeng Qiuyan didn't answer Sheng Zhao, he was silent for a long, long time.Then he stood up, a little helpless and dazed, his eyes were red, and then said: "I'm leaving."

He said go, but he didn't go directly, he went to the counter to check out.

Pay the bill and plan to leave.It's quiet here, but there are still people coming in and out, and there is a lot of traffic outside.Confused, he just wanted to be alone for a while.

He reached out to pull the door, but someone grabbed his arm. He looked at Sheng Zhao, and his eyes were hot and blurry in an instant.

"Akihiko."

Zeng Qiuyan stood there, helpless.

He understood thoroughly in his heart that Sheng Zhao didn't love him anymore.

He also clearly knew that he didn't love Sheng Zhao himself, but he still broke down sadly.

Sheng Zhao had never seen Zeng Qiuyan like this before, and he panicked for a while, "You can talk about everything. I don't mean to blame you. Qiuyan, you are very good. Really, you are actually very good."

"Akihiko..."

Zeng Qiuyan reached out to wipe the surging tears, but he smiled sweetly again, pulled his hand back, sighed and said with a smile: "No, it's okay. I'm fine. I know, I know. I know. It's my own problem."

"Brother Yao is fine. You are much better with him than with me."

"I'm fine, I'm fine...I'm fine...I'm sorry, Sheng Zhao. Thank you, thank you, really thank you..."

His tears couldn't be stopped, and his voice choked up again and again, low and hoarse.

"I'm leaving."

"I still have something to do."

"I have to go back to sign. There are hundreds of copies of limited edition photos. I'm leaving, Sheng Zhao."

Sheng Zhao didn't stop him.

Zeng Qiuyan also looked weak.In fact, two hours of targeted fitness every day.The body is well-proportioned and muscular.After he got out, he got into the car directly and drove away.

When Wang Yao came out, Sheng Zhao was at a loss. "Would he...would he...do something stupid?"

Wang Yao frowned slightly, "Is he like this before?"

Sheng Zhao was stunned and looked at Wang Yao.

Then he nodded slowly, "He is two years older than me, you know I skipped a grade, right?"

"Ah."

"I didn't know him in the second year of junior high school. It was in the alley behind the abandoned old teaching building. I skipped class, and he put it in the alley to feed the cats."

"Actually, I didn't think much about it at that time. I only saw oil stains on his mouth. At that time, I always thought it was because he didn't wipe his mouth after eating."

"Now that I think about it, he didn't feed the cats, he should... use a plastic bag to carry the leftovers from the school cafeteria..." secretly eating in the alley...

Sheng Zhao's throat choked.

Wang Yao patted him on the shoulder, "I'll find him a psychiatrist later."

Sheng Zhao felt very heavy.He didn't do anything wrong, but he felt like he had done something wrong.

When Zeng Qiuyan returned to his apartment, he locked the door, stepped on a stool and took the suitcase off the top of the closet, opened it, and it was full of snacks.

He sat on the ground, tore open a bag of fruit jelly and stuffed it into his mouth.

Ice cold and very sweet.

Tears are bitter and astringent.

The snot water is also out of control.

He directly wiped it with the sleeve of a suit worth hundreds of thousands, but it couldn't be wiped clean, so he took a pack of tissues and squeezed his nose.

The spicy strips are also delicious.

The eight-treasure porridge is very delicious.

……

"Hey, are you skipping class too?"

"Ah."

"Are you feeding the cat?"

"…Um…"

He is feeding the cat.Before feeding the cat, he just ate it, and it was left in the plastic bag.

Whether the school is good or bad, the good thing is that he can have enough to eat, but the bad thing is that he is too poor, out of place and excluded by others.There is nothing to get entangled in this kind of thing, if a black chick comes out of a pile of yellow chicks, the black chick will also be excluded.

Such exclusion is limited to—

When he entered the dormitory, his voice would stop abruptly.When he walked away, there was a faint disdainful discussion.

Drying clothes are thrown on the ground.

Going to bed on the upper bunk to get things, always wearing shoes and stepping on his bed.

……

No matter how bad the school is, it is better than home.

Don't have to face the bad words of the villagers.You don't have to face your father's drunken beating and scolding.

Whether it is indifference or harsh words or beating or scolding, it is not considered bitter.

Suffering from hunger.

He is still young, and his mother runs around at night.His father was still furious even after he was drunk, kicked him to kneel in the yard, beat him with bamboo sticks, and starved him for three days.

Since then, he has had a surging desire to eat in his heart.If you are in a good mood, you can still suppress it, but if you are in a bad mood, you will collapse, just like this moment.

To meet Sheng Zhao is to meet redemption.

he's good.

He is very, very nice.

Sheng Zhao, who jumped up a grade, had friends who were not in the same class, and he was the first person he knew.

He carefully took care of his emotions, saying that he grew up too fast, and the clothes he had just worn a few times could no longer be worn, and it was a pity to throw them away.

Can you give it to him.

Ask him if he hates it.

He treats him to something delicious.

Share all kinds of things with him.

Knowing that he wanted to be a star or an actor in the future, he paid him for tuition and art classes.

He also took him to the school's rooftop, held hands, and kissed.

Sheng Zhao likes him.

For many years.

he knows.It's just...how did he like him?The funny thing is he doesn't know.Since when, from what point?

He tried very hard to tell himself to love him.But the more time passed, the more numb his nerves became.Calculate all this clearly and clearly.

Anything that comes to him is gain or loss.

If I do this, what can I get?what would i lose

this is all.

Going to school, if I don't go hungry, I will be excluded.

When I go home, I will be beaten and scolded, and I will have nothing to eat.

……

to the back.

Make friends with someone, build a good relationship with a director, cooperate with a star, and share the stage with an actor...

全都是利益得失，没有真情实感。仿佛一切成了1+1等于2。1-1等于0。

He felt... like an intelligent robot.

He seems to have feelings but not feelings.

He doesn't know what to do?

Did he get sick a long time ago?

Zeng Qiuyan ate a pack of marshmallows.

stopped.

Clean up all the trash.

After taking a shower, he obediently sat in front of the desk and signed the photo seriously.

Sheng Zhao loves him.He can't learn to love him.he left.It was his fault.But it doesn't matter... When he is a star, so many people love him.

Does a person like him need people to love him?I obviously don't have the same heart.But he knows what he needs!Otherwise, how disgusting I would be when I returned to my original form.

He thinks that many, many people like him.To maintain all the glamor of his life.

Zeng Qiuyan, who is so lonely, frustrated, embarrassing and trashy, will never come back to life.

But please die at the moment when you met Sheng Zhao in the midsummer of the second year of junior high school.

Today's Zeng Qiuyan can rest in peace.