The bright moon goes up to the tall building

Chapter 45

The life after the confession is not the same as before, the only change is that Shen Gaolou has to ask "do you really like him" several times a day.

After Fang Mingyue was puzzled, she finally decided to ask the reason. Shen Gaolou's answer was: "It feels like I'm in a dream. I don't want to wake up, but I also know that it will be dangerous to continue to indulge, so I want to wake up quickly." .

So I couldn't help but ask again and again, waiting for the negative answer. "

Fang Mingyue couldn't imagine that there was such a deep affection hidden in Shen Gaolou's heart.

On the morning of the sports meeting, when they came out of the cafeteria, Fang Mingyue finally couldn't help asking, "How did you endure it for so long without showing any signs of it?"

"Restraint?" Shen Gaolou showed a thoughtful look, and said: "That feeling is very split, desire and reason are constantly colliding, and finally reached a consensus that night at the bar."

"Haven't you ever thought about pursuing me openly?"

"I never thought about it." Shen Gaolou shook his head: "I think, I may have a little personality defect. In my heart, I will never do things that put down my self-esteem."

Fang Mingyue thought to herself that you still knew you were sick, but if Shen Gaolou really pursued him openly, he would definitely run away.

After thinking about it, he suddenly realized that he also had a personality flaw.

If it weren't for his submissive character, there would be absolutely no possibility for the two of them.

He twisted his face and looked at Shen Gaolou: "Have you found out that we are a perfect match?"

"I noticed it," Shen Gaolou pursed his lips tightly, holding back a smile, and said to him after a while, "I had this feeling that night at the bar, and it seemed that no matter how much I asked, you would satisfy me." I, so every second with you, I am very happy.

However, I also sometimes think, what if it wasn't me?Would you be like this if someone else had done so much to you?Thinking about it makes me unhappy.

I feel that you are a particularly unprincipled person, it is too easy to seduce you, I just took the first chance. "

"You miss me that much?" Fang Mingyue stopped and looked at Shen Gaolou in shock.

"Isn't it?" Shen Gaolou turned around: "If I hadn't been a hindrance, Chi Baizhou would have replaced me long ago."

Fang Mingyue opened her mouth, but couldn't say a word for a long time, Shen Gaolou smiled, turned and left.

Fang Mingyue looked at his background, but did not catch up. Shen Gaolou's words made him a little confused.

He came to the small playground, sat in the shade of a tree, supported himself, and looked at the athletes training in the distance.

Tang Ji sat beside him and was silent with him.

Fang Mingyue was still thinking about Shen Gaolou's words, that person was right, he was indeed unprincipled and never knew how to reject others.

On the day of the playground, Chi Baizhou's circle of friends had already made him uncomfortable, but he did nothing but let it develop.

He couldn't help wondering whether he would refuse if Chi Baizhou appeared first and asked him to be his hand like Shen Gaolou did. After thinking for a long time, he couldn't come up with a definite answer.

Obviously these behaviors made him very uncomfortable, but he couldn't say the words of rejection.

Shen Gaolou's feeling of insecurity is completely justified, because he always seems to have principles, but in fact he has no principles.

So after seeing the photo of him and Chi Baizhou, Shen Gaolou would turn down all the work and just want to stay by his side.

Similarly, he will also believe that he had a relationship with Riemann.

Shen Gaolou doesn't trust him, so no matter how many times he says he likes him, that person will still feel that he will lose him at any time.

Fang Mingyue fell backwards, looking at the blue sky above his head through the gaps between the leaves, his heart was empty.

After so many years of hard work, is the new value system he created all wrong?

If it wasn't wrong, why did he hurt the people he cared about again and again?

"Mingyue, what are you thinking?"

"Today Shen Gaolou told me..."

Tang Ji didn't let him continue, but instead asked, "Are you two in love?"

Fang Mingyue stared at him blankly for a moment, then nodded.

"You didn't tell me such a big thing, making me act like an idiot and speak ill of him behind his back." Tang Ji frowned and said dissatisfied.

"How do you open your mouth about this kind of thing? Who knows if you can accept it?"

"Well, I accept your reason, because I really can't accept it. I thought about how this happened for several nights." Tang Ji looked at him, and when Fang Mingyue was frightened, he only heard him "tsk" With a sound, he said, "Later, I suddenly discovered that Shen Gaolou is really handsome."

Fang Mingyue opened her mouth: "Can you not scare me?"

"No, what I mean is that this matter has nothing to do with me at all. All I can do is support your path."

Fang Mingyue patted Tang Ji's shoulder, and couldn't help but hugged him forward, "Thank you."

After that, the sports meeting began. Fang Mingyue went to watch Tang Ji's match, and then stayed in the small playground until the end of the javelin throw match. In her spare time, she was still trying to think of an answer.

The 1500-meter race was about to start, Fang Mingyue had to leave the small playground, and when she arrived at the competition venue, Shen Gaolou was already there.

He stepped forward and hugged Shen Gaolou from behind: "Why don't you watch my game?"

"I know you will definitely win," Shen Gaolou folded his arms and leaned back against him, "1500, are you sure?"

"No, I joined just to be with you," Fang Mingyue asked, "What about you?"

"No," Shen Gaolou said with a smile, "Top three."

Fang Mingyue rubbed the top of Shen Gaolou's head, and said in a low voice, "I've thought about what you said."

"What did you come up with?"

"I can't think of anything," Fang Mingyue said, "Can you tell me what to do?"

"Actually, I think you're pretty good now. Whether it's you in the past or you in the present, I like you equally." Shen Gaolou looked at him: "You don't have to worry about me, as long as you feel comfortable."

"But you are not happy, how can I be happy?"

"But I also said that I feel very happy, a happiness I have never experienced before." Shen Gaolou asked: "What about you? Are you happy with me?"

"Unimaginable happiness. In my life, there has never been a moment in my life when I feel my heart is filled just by seeing someone's back." Fang Mingyue sighed: "But I am a little sad now."

"Because of what I said?"

"Because I can't give you [-]% happiness." Fang Mingyue tilted her head, pretending to be casual, and rubbed against Shen Gaolou's face. This kind of secret intimacy made the dark clouds in his heart Dissipated a little bit.

"Actually, I'm also very contradictory. What I like is this kind of you, and what I can't bear is precisely this kind of you," Shen Gaolou said indifferently: "But I think time will give me more answers. So why don't you be patient Woolen cloth?"

"So are you waiting for me to cheat?" Fang Mingyue almost suffocated thinking about it, living in doubt and distrust every day, how long can happiness last?

Thinking of this, he felt scared, and had a strong fear of losing Shen Gaolou.

"Will you?" Shen Gaolou asked.

"Absolutely not!"

Shen Gaolou pulled him to sit on the grass, and said with a smile, "I'll ask you a few questions."

Fang Mingyue immediately concentrated her energy and prepared for battle.

"If one day, someone invites you to sleep, will you agree?"

"impossible!"

"Then he invited you to drink?"

Fang Mingyue stopped talking.

"Or he wants to give you a ride home, what will you do?"

Fang Mingyue pursed her lips tightly and shook her head: "I don't know."

"What I want to say is this. In many cases, there is not only one road that will lead to the established result. There are too many choices that will lead to this result." Shen Gaolou drew several straight lines in the air: " It's like climbing a mountain. There are countless paths leading to the top of the mountain, but for people like me, I only keep one path. This path is only for you to walk. I will plant trees all over the other paths. Cover it with thorns and stones to prevent anyone from going up.

But you are different, because you will not refuse, so it is easy to provide a way for others to climb the mountain, such as me, do you understand? "

Fang Mingyue understood, if he refused to be a slave to Shen Gaolou, or refused to agree to those excessive requests, then nothing would have happened.

The issue of drinking and riding is also easy to understand. When you clearly refuse from the beginning, a clear boundary will be separated between you, and you will never intersect again.

"But since it's all a ride, wouldn't it be too petty to refuse?"

"So I won't completely refuse. When an emergency happens or there is an emergency, I will be obliged to help him, but usually, I will never agree to let him take my car."

"But are feelings really so fragile? Can you get some strange feelings after taking a few rides?"

Shen Gaolou looked at him quietly for a moment: "Then how did you fall in love with me?"

"You are different..."

"When feelings are born, it's no different," Shen Gaolou said, "As you once said, there are countless people like me in this world, and we have some of the same qualities in us, which deeply Attracting you, you can create those special memories with me, maybe one day, you will be able to create a more unique experience with another person with the same characteristics, and by then, I will be completely eliminated. "

Fang Mingyue grabbed her hair with both hands, and closed her eyes in pain: "I know I can't, but I also know that what you said is right."