sunflower bird

Chapter 30

Lu Xiuyuan just sat like this, hugging the painting, looking at the road where Qi Xi disappeared, and spent a long time digesting Qi Xi's confession to himself.The liking he didn't dare to ask for, suddenly appeared without warning, like falling into the clouds.

"He, he said, he likes me." Lu Xiuyuan muttered to himself, and he rubbed the painting in his arms tighter and tighter.The person I like said that he liked me for five years, and that he came here for me.Lu Xiuyuan lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell on the painting in his arms.

But I drove Qi Xi away.All the most embarrassing things were presented before his eyes.My anger, fragility, sensitivity, and self-abandonment all rushed towards Qi Xi like a tiger, using the most intense emotions to make him roll.

Maybe he won't come back, maybe...

"Master." A voice came from afar.

Lu Xiuyuan lowered his head and blinked his eyes very slowly. Why did I hear Qi Xi calling me? Is it an auditory hallucination?

"Young master." The voice was much closer.

Lu Xiuyuan froze all over, suddenly raised his head, and looked towards the door in disbelief. Qi Xi was holding a cake in his hand, surrounded by the warm sun, and his long hair was slightly blown by the wind. He raised his hand and said with a smile : "I didn't buy a cake for my birthday, no wonder the young master is angry."

Lu Xiuyuan didn't open his mouth, he stared blankly at the person at the door, as if nothing happened, he came back after going out, talking to Lu Xiuyuan with a smile.

Seeing that Lu Xiuyuan didn't respond, Qi Xi walked in on his own, put the cake on the dining table, and untied the bow tied to the box.

"Fortunately, as long as the cake shop pays more money, it can be expedited. I was careless. I should design a cake for you. It's too late now, so I can only..."

"Qixi."

Qi Xi's hand paused slightly as if he didn't hear it, and continued to speak: "I can only make do with it, next birthday, I will definitely..."

"Qi Xi." Lu Xiuyuan shouted again.

Qi Xi's whole body trembled, and he didn't move.Holding one end of the ribbon tightly with one hand, she was quiet for a while, then turned around and said tentatively, "Lu Xiuyuan, can you let me stay? I promise, I will not do anything on my own in the future, I promise I won't make you angry anymore, I'm sorry, I'm too self-righteous, I didn't consider your feelings, I won't do it next time."

"Qixi." Lu Xiuyuan turned the wheelchair and came to him, "Did you say before that you like me?"

Qi Xi had never been so nervous before, all the nerves in his body tensed up, the ribbon in his hand fell on the table with his fingertips, he turned around, even the ability to speak disappeared, he could only nod heavily .

"What do you like about me?" Lu Xiuyuan asked solemnly.

"I..." Qi Xi swallowed hard, her breathing was a little unsteady, "I don't know, but... But if anyone can make my heart beat violently, it's only you. The only one who wants to be together forever is you. "

Lu Xiuyuan's heart skipped a beat. Qi Xi was looking at him when he said this, which allowed him to see the emotions in Qi Xi's eyes very clearly. He exposed the most naked emotions. During this time, he liked It gushed out in an instant, like billowing magma, making Lu Xiuyuan's heart burn.

"Qi Xi. I can't walk." Lu Xiuyuan said.

"I know."

"I'm not the old Lu Xiuyuan."

Qi Xi said lightly.

"The current Lu Xiuyuan is 20 years old."

Qi Xi nodded.

During this short but extremely calm conversation, Lu Xiuyuan calmed down, and gradually stopped being immersed in the joy that Qi Xi liked him.

He began to think calmly, rationally thinking about Qi Xi's liking.

He focused all his eyes on Qi Xi's face, and Lu Xiuyuan saw sincerity in his expression.

But Qi Xi, do you really like me?Instead of the high-spirited 15-year-old boy?

He dared not ask.

After a long time, he moved and turned the wheelchair slightly. The wheelchair only moved forward a little, but he didn't respond to Qixi's confession.

However, Qi Xi saw Lu Xiuyuan's distrust in the movement of moving an inch.

"You don't believe it?" Qi Xi asked back.

Lu Xiuyuan's eyeballs moved, he didn't know where he was looking, and his gaze lightly swept the ground: "Qi Xi." He said softly, Lu Xiuyuan rarely used such a tone to cut off all the alienation, "You look so beautiful Good-looking, talented, and with a bright future, people like you are different from me."

His young master began to doubt himself again.

"Who? How is it different from you?"

"I'm disabled and a man, not suitable for you."

"Lu Xiuyuan, you are a man, I already knew when I liked you."

Lu Xiuyuan shook his head: "The opposite sex is the nature of loving each other, which is the law of nature. We are two men, and there is no result."

Hearing what Lu Xiuyuan said, Qi Xi became a little anxious, and immediately said: "Lu Xiuyuan, I'll just ask you, putting everything aside..."

"Unavoidable." Lu Xiuyuan interrupted, "Why do you use hypothetical questions? Does it make sense? The reality is that you are a man, and I am also a man. You are talented and have a bright future. I can only sit in front of you for the rest of my life." She is in a wheelchair and needs to be taken care of by others. These cannot be left out."

"As long as you like me, I don't care." Qi Xi said, "I don't care about everything."

Lu Xiuyuan smiled: "But I care, I can't drag you. The person who should be standing next to you is someone like Yu Wen, not me."

Qi Xi couldn't hear such words, so he immediately picked up the conversation, and didn't ask anything else, and came up with a question that he wanted to ask a long time ago: "Do you like me?"

Lu Xiuyuan froze, and was silent for a few seconds: "I like it. But Qixi. Maybe at first you may think that it's fine if you like it or not, but think about it in the future, you need to take care of me, you can't devote yourself to art, and there will be people around you. There is a person who has been pulling you and making it difficult for you. If you say it’s just a relationship, I might agree, but for a lifetime, no. I don’t believe in myself, and I don’t believe in you either. I’m sorry.” After Lu Xiuyuan finished speaking, he lowered his head, turned the wheelchair in a panic, and left in an evasive manner.Qi Xi's gaze has been following Lu Xiu far away, until the moment the elevator door is closed, it is finally taken back.

He stood by the table in a daze, looking at the cake that was too late to open, and all the words Lu Xiuyuan said flashed through his mind.

nature?What nature?

drag?what drag?

Lu Xiuyuan didn't understand at all, he wasn't a drag, he never made it difficult for him, Qi Xi was always dragged away by Lu Xiuyuan.

Until dinner, neither of them said a word. After Qi Xi gave Lu Xiuyuan a massage, he called Uncle Chen and asked for leave.

He lay on the bed, tossing and turning without sleep.

The next day, he got up early, and the sun was out. The morning in spring was much more lively than in winter, and there were already many people when he went out.Because Lu Jin didn't drive a car, he rode his bicycle to the vegetable market to buy something, and then went directly to the hospital.He was standing at the entrance of the hospital, still carrying the things he just bought in his hands. Qi Xi took a deep breath, put his hand into the bag, but immediately retracted it in the next second.

"It's okay, it's okay, at the gate of the hospital, nothing will happen." He said silently to himself.

Then reached into the bag again...