summer flowers will bloom

Chapter 19

How embarrassing can it be between people?

After embarrassment, how to resolve it?

Or do you not need to resolve it?

Li Zhen has experienced a lot of embarrassing scenes, due to his personality, his innate erha temper really pushed him to many embarrassing situations, but he didn't care about it or pretend nothing happened .He will find a way to resolve it, regardless of success or failure, at least he will try his best.

Because he has no sense of fear about the outcome of things.

This is not a quality that everyone can have. Ordinary people, you, me, and I, more or less, all have a fear of the unknown. Fear will lead to stress, and too much stress will also produce inexplicable anger.Embarrassment itself can already constitute pressure. If you still want to resolve it, and you are not sure what the result of the resolution will be, it is really easy to arouse human instinctive resistance.

Therefore, when Li Zhen and Qiu Yubai fell into a strange and awkward atmosphere, when one of them chose to hide and pretend nothing happened, Li Zhen had no choice but to be the one to resolve it.

He always felt that this was necessary.

He stayed overnight that night, staying in the guest room where he had stayed once before, and enjoying the luxurious bathroom once more before going to bed.However, the difference is that this time, there is a visit from a probing cat.

Taking a bath with a pink face, assuming that I am a generation of romantic emperors, I will visit the most beautiful concubine after washing deliciously, or a fairy in the sky, waiting for Chang'e to come to bathe together in the clouds and mists. Student Li Zhen, put your mobile phone on the On the quaint bathroom stool next to it, relaxing music was playing outside. I raised my hand to touch the blooming lotus on the window sill, and let out a comfortable sigh.

At this moment, the bathroom door, which was not locked from the inside, but was only ajar, was suddenly pushed open, and a handsome kitten's face squeezed in, looking at him in the bathtub.

"Du Qiu? Is that you, Du Qiu?" Li Zhen greeted the cat.

Maybe he was right, because the cat that slid in through the palm-width door was indeed marbled, and after that, Mayumi followed, and the two cats sat not far away and watched. He also pretended not to care about him and licked his paws.

"Come here~" Li Zhen beckoned, "Let's wash together ~ come or not?"

The cat ignored him, it was people who spoke.

The bathroom door was pushed open again, and the figure who was too thin, so obvious that it made people feel distressed, flashed in.

"Sure enough, they all came in." Qiu Yubai looked at the cat, then at Li Zhen, "When I found out just now, Mayumi's tail was still sticking out."

"Well, your cat likes me." The proud guy laughed.

"It's great to have a cat." The other party leaned on the marble sink and looked at him sideways.

"Ah...it's not that great, at most it can be said that I tend to attract 'beautiful things'."

"So a cat is a beautiful thing to you."

"Well, and you."

"..." Qiu Yubai's eyes obviously changed, and the expression on his face was cramped with nowhere to hide. When he was cramped to a certain extent, he began to want to forcefully escape, but he felt that doing so would make him lose all face. In the end , he chose to simply push the harsh words up, "You didn't attract me, you came here by yourself. Besides, why are you talking so intriguingly? You want people to think you are gay?"

"Ah?" Li Zhen was taken aback for a moment, then smiled, "I was originally."

"……what?"

"I like men." I don't know why I suddenly had a strange interest. The person in the bathtub turned over and adjusted his posture, lying on the smooth edge, looking at the man who seemed to have a premonition, and stretched out his hand as he spoke. Go, "Do you want to get acquainted again? Li Zhen, Mu Zi Li, Zhen Da Zhen, the attribute is gay, can be attacked or accepted, it all depends on the type of the opponent, and there is no burden to switch at will. Now I won't stand up naked, Excuse me, big brother, can you condescend to bend down and shake my hand?"

What a fart.

The words made her face a little uncomfortable, she didn't know whether she wanted to laugh or get angry, Qiu Yubai simply chose to escape.

He shook that wet hand in a somewhat grown-up manner, and then turned and left the bathroom with no expression on his face.

It was awkward for the first time.

If the index was not high this first time, then the second time after that, it was really embarrassing to a certain extent.

Because in the middle of the night, Li Zhen, who was already tired from swiping his phone and just about to fall asleep, was groped into the bedroom and onto the bed.

In a trance, he felt that someone was coming, but he didn't want to confirm it. He didn't realize it until a strange weight was pressed on the bed.

Along with the weight, there are hands touching the waist, and whispers sent to the ears.

Didn't you say that you like men...and "can be attacked and received"? ...Then sleep with me once, I have been busy getting sick recently, I have been abstinent for a long time... You came last time and cooked porridge for me, this time you will work harder and let me have another supper, how about it? ...

"...What, what, what, what!" Li Zhen, who suddenly woke up, frowned and muttered, turning over and getting out of bed.

He looked at the man who was just shaken off by him, looked at the calm and enchanting man who was obviously trembling but insisted on holding on, he was silent for a while, and sighed.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"..." The other party realized that he had made a mistake in the temptation, and began to grit his teeth and stop talking.

"No, what do you mean? Ah? I like men so I can have sex with you casually? What do you think of me!" That silence made Li Zhen a little tired and annoyed, "I said brother Ah, I really am not that kind of person, yes, I can actually see that you are also an insider, and your aura is still very obvious. But this does not mean that we can directly do that! Insider is a big attribute, You have to match your aura and see each other right before you can move on to the next step! There are "chaos", but most of them are not chaotic! You still have to go through a series of eyebrows and flirtations first!...No, wait Now, why do I seem to be explaining what's going on here to a straight man... Anyway, it's..."

"What is it! If it doesn't work, let it go!" The person who couldn't listen any longer got angry, it was veritable anger from embarrassment.

Li Zhen was stunned for a moment by the loud voice of giving up, and then watched the other party turn over and get out of bed, fasten the belt of the pajamas, and toss him "Where can I go back and forth early tomorrow morning!" Without returning, he walked out of the bedroom and slammed the door behind him.

Until now, Li Zhen was completely awake.

He panicked for a moment.

After getting out of bed, he walked to the door with bare feet, but the hand that was about to pull the door stopped in mid-air.Thinking that he did nothing wrong, he calmed down as quickly as possible, brushed his hair, and turned on the ceiling lamp in the bedroom.

Looking up at the particularly artistic lotus-shaped paper lantern, and then looking down at Du Qiu and Mayumi who sneaked in at some time and were scared by the small disturbance just now and hid in the corner, Li Zhen squatted down and touched Touching the two slippery fur balls that came forward to be caressed, he sighed.

"What's wrong with this..." He muttered in a low voice.

And while he was hesitating, the situation of Qiu Yubai in the master bedroom was also very bad.

He went to harass Li Zhen just now, but it was actually on a whim.Maybe it's out of curiosity, maybe it's out of luck, I always feel that this young man is worth playing with.

Yes, play around.

It's true that he hasn't done it for a long time because of his illness, but before his illness, he had already had a period of low tide.This low tide lasted for about half a year, and the repeated torture of excessive mental pressure made him even think that he was going to menopause.It's not that he doesn't have sexual desire, but even if he does, it won't last long.He even thought, this must be the retribution for playing too crazy before, he has seen too many bodies of the same sex, touched too many, likes, has had, and dislikes are just venting, mostly.And finally one day, when I realized that I had wasted too much time, but only forgot to give my heart once or twice, to try to pursue my true love once or twice, Qiu Yubai suddenly realized that he might not have The capital of giving and pursuing.

Sincerity and true love are both young people's games. He has seen enough of human feelings and worldly conditions. He can't afford these anymore.

And once people calm down, once they suddenly don't want to play anymore, they will enter the real loneliness.

In the past, loneliness was like a web for him. When the web was laid flat, he was like a hunting spider, letting all kinds of people wait in his web to join him in the carnival. One left, and another , This one is gone, and the next one is coming, he doesn't have that time to be lonely.But now, his net is empty, and he has become the most solitary hunter, guarding his solitude until he is completely wrapped in it.

Li Zhen, after being alone for a long time, made a small attempt, and the attempt ended in failure. Qiu Yubai's resentment towards himself reached the peak, but the idea of ​​never wanting to try again was extremely firm.

He wanted to get drunk and fall asleep, but he couldn't, his physical condition didn't allow it, and he didn't want to smoke anymore, so he still wanted it.This extremely hopeless feeling of not being able to live without dying hit his self-esteem repeatedly. In the end, all he could do was wrap himself in the quilt and close his eyes tightly.

He clearly told himself not to think about anything, but in the end he thought about it more and more, and the more he thought about it, the more confused he became.Chaos is like a rope with no beginning and no end, with thorns, binding him inside, tightening it up little by little, until he can't breathe.

Then, just before he was about to really suffocate himself, a hand reached out and pulled the corner of his quilt away.

With the dim light of the floor lamp, he looked at Li Zhen standing beside the bed.

"……what."

"Look at you." After confirming that the other party was not crying or intending to hack him with a machete from under the pillow, Li Zhen was slightly relieved, "Hey, I have something to ask you. Emmm... are you Do you think that life is particularly boring?"

"?!..."

"I got it right? Don't be angry if I didn't get it right. I'm just guessing. Because you look so lonely, with your expression, your tone of voice... It's like, how should I put it, no one hurts you, and you don't care about it. No one can hurt you, and you live alone. After a long time, you will have a lot of strange tempers, because you can’t vent your emotions. Do you not need to communicate with people too much in this job? Or even if you communicate, others will It’s just that you have an artist temperament because you have a strange temper. After all, you are engaged in design, so you count as an art class? I have a classmate who graduated from the Academy of Fine Arts, and it’s very strange.

"What the hell are you trying to say?!" Qiu Yubai was annoyed by the rambling tone, and even more irritated by the stimulation that every word was right. He just wanted to use all his defense mechanisms to fight the worst Facing this kid with the same attitude, until this lousy college student who was able to see through him disappeared as quickly as possible.

However, Erha has a thick skin.

He won't give up easily.

He still has an embarrassment that has not been resolved, so how can he just stop and run away?

If you have a bad attitude, I won't mess with you for now, can't I just stop talking?Is it not enough for me to take direct practical action?

A gentleman moves his hands but does not speak.

After another moment of silence, Li Zhen threw off his slippers, grabbed the edge of the quilt with one hand, turned directly onto the bed, and then pushed the man towards the center of the bed with the other hand.

"Move, move in, make room for me."

"You... what are you doing?!... Get down for me!"

"No."

"...Is there something wrong with you?!"

"No, you are the only one who has problems. You are sick and arrogant and lonely and have advanced cancer. Well, your bed is still comfortable, and so are the pillows. The pillows in the guest room are too soft. I feel like I'm going to leak it." Don't care about the other party at all. Resisting, Li Zhen lay flat, turned over, reached out, and grabbed the man into his arms, "Okay, sleep."

Sleep on wool!

"Let me go!" Qiu Yubai struggled.

"Put whatever you want, it's called hug therapy, understand, it's designed to treat your illness."

"I'm not sick!"

"Yes, all the drunks said they didn't drink too much, so they just took a sip~"

"……I do not like this!"

"Come on, you like it." Obviously feeling that the struggle was not hard enough, and it was getting weaker and weaker, Li Zhen confirmed that the person in his arms was really what he said, so he tightened his arms, He touched the extremely thin back, as well as the soft hair and sunken cheeks, "Touch, hug, and sleep well, it can cure all diseases. Close your eyes, and everything will be fine when you wake up."

"Who do you think you are!... I went to you just now and you pretended to be principled, and you came to sleep in my bed again?!" Still a little annoyed by the way of talking like coaxing a child, Qiu Yubai wanted to pull it all out A man wearing only pajama pants with his arms crossed, but when he touched the tight skin, the muscles that were actually quite firm, and the body temperature, that strange but pleasant physical smell, he suddenly disappeared. The mind that keeps struggling.

"I'm here for treatment. You are a patient. Now is the treatment site. Can you cooperate a little bit, be good, ah~" Smelling the other party's scent coincidentally, Li Zhen closed her eyes and controlled herself Inexplicably feeling the urge to laugh, he patted the man on the back, emphasized "go to sleep" once more, and didn't say another word.

As for Qiu Yubai, being hugged, warmed, coaxed by a boy who is many years younger than himself, providing a sense of security, although he feels ashamed and unwilling, he still relies on instinct to give up in the shortest possible time She resisted, accepted the reality, and finally, as if for the first time in her life, as soon as she closed her eyes, she fell into the most solid deep sleep in the most comfortable way.