sinovels Chapter 181 Chapter 181
Chapter 181 Chapter 181
Coming out of Dr. Ming's house, Xiao Liu was in a daze.
Sitting in the garden downstairs, the imperial capital in early winter is bitingly cold.
Looking up at this building, how many memories are contained.Back then, I spent the New Year here with Uncle Gan and Xiao Wang. At that time, there were still two complete families living upstairs.
But now, Jing Jing became an orphan, and Dr. Ming lost his only son.
I thought Dr. Ming would be devastated after losing his beloved son, but unexpectedly, Dr. Ming was very strong and kept talking to Xiao Liu about various things with a smile.Brother Ming chose a major when he was a child, and then went abroad for further study, and Brother Ming and his sister-in-law prepared for the second child, and everyone prepared things for the upcoming baby. Although there was a smile on the face, there was sadness in the voice.
The only time Dr. Ming showed a change in expression was when he was leaving: "If you come back before the Spring Festival, let's come over for the New Year. Let Wang Yan and the children come over together. It will be lively when there are many people."
It turned out that Xiao Wang tried his best to bring back the bodies of brother Xiao Ming and sister-in-law Ming. Later, it was Xiao Wang who helped transfer Xiao Xiao Ming to another school, and took Aunt Ming to see doctors everywhere.
"If I let Xiao Ming learn the major he likes back then, wouldn't he have died...Xiao Liu, you have to be good. I guessed this possibility back then, and now I am very worried..." Doctor Ming's words kept lingering in Xiao Liu's ears.
Xiao Liu didn't know how Dr. Ming knew about him and Xiao Wang, but it didn't matter anymore.
After sorting out his emotions, Xiao Liu sent a message to Xiao Wang on WeChat: Thank you, about Dr. Ming's family.
The opposite side is still typing, but no message is sent over and over again.
Back at the hotel, a sleepless night.Xiao Liu woke up very early in the morning, but lay on the bed and didn't go out.Xiao Liu originally wanted to go to Xiao Ming's purpose, but found that the trip was too far away, and he couldn't come back for a day.
The military uniform was washed and delivered, as good as new, and some missing threads were repaired.The clothes silently reminded Xiao Liu that tomorrow is another farewell.
After repeatedly looking at Xiao Wang's Weibo and Moments, Xiao Liu made an important decision. After reading Wang Guangming today, he is going to find Xiao Wang.You have to make it clear in person, you have to express your feelings, and you don't want to wait a day.Even if he is rejected, Xiao Liu is afraid of missing out, there will be no future, and he will regret it.
In the afternoon, ICU visiting time, standing by Wang Guangming's bed, Wang Guangming was still the same, pulling the curtain, peeking at the baby next door who came to visit grandpa.
Does Wang Guangming like children so much?From Xiao Wang's memory and from Xiao Wang's mother's diary, Xiao Liu did not notice this at all.
"Am I dying? You look so ugly today." Without Wang Guangming saying it, Xiao Liu also knew that his complexion was not good.
"Yesterday, I went to see an uncle. In my heart, he is my father." Xiao Liu's opening scene successfully attracted Wang Guangming.
"His son and daughter-in-law were crushed by a collapsed gantry crane while inspecting the Ermaoziguo Shipyard and died on the spot. The daughter-in-law was still five months pregnant." Having said this, Xiao Liu couldn't hold back his tears. Eye sockets are spinning.
"I know about this matter. It's a pity that the 7XX institute's affairs are all high-level talents." Speaking of this, Wang Guangming sighed: "I remember that the follow-up comfort work is still good..."
"Yesterday, Dr. Ming, the father of Brother Ming, told me. Brother Ming actually wanted to learn aviation, but Dr. Ming didn't allow it, because he felt that it was all in the Gobi, and the child would not come back once he went. Doctor Ming said, Aircraft carriers are ships owned by powerful countries in the world, and we will also have them in the future, so I asked my son to learn about ships, hoping to do his part. Xiao Ming also listened to Dr. Ming. After this incident, Dr. Ming has been Regret, I feel that maybe I respected Brother Xiaoming’s choice back then, maybe Brother Xiaoming would not leave..."
When Xiao Liu told, Wang Guangming listened quietly.After Xiao Liu finished speaking, Wang Guangming remained silent.
"You keep saying that you don't envy the children and grandchildren next door, but you are always peeping. Is the current result really what you want? If Wang Ze never comes back, Xiao Wang won't be in touch with you anymore. Is it just a sentence of 'everything is possible' and it's over? Since you care about them, why don't you express it."
This time, Wang Guangming did not avoid Xiao Liu's question, even his eyes.
"It's no wonder that you have been together for so many years. I have always wanted to find someone who understands him. You are indeed one. But why? If you must be his son..."
Not wanting an answer, Wang Guangming began to mutter to himself.
"It's my first child. I'm a father for the first time. Like him, I'm a novice. I don't know how to deal with a child. What tenderness and patience, I didn't understand at that time ...I grew up in an impersonal place, and no one ever treated me gently. All I was told was that men should not cry, men should not be weak, and men should be strong. My world has always been icy and cold. Commanding, not showing emotion. No, there are still some, and the mother of Xun Xun is a very gentle and emotional woman. That's why I was attracted to her at that time..."
"I used to think that I would have a son with a strong character who could understand others. I also designed a future for my son. He has a good character, a good brain, and my relationship. It will develop a lot better, and it will definitely become a useful talent. I have suffered a lot because of my personality, so I look forward to it very much. Unexpectedly, Yan, a boy, has his mother's personality completely. I'm anxious, no man is like this in the world I live in, he's my son, and he shouldn't be like this...."
"It was only after I had my second child that I realized that I was an unqualified father. I never tried to understand him, I only wanted to modify him. No matter what he did, I was always dissatisfied. Once Xun Xun didn't go according to my wish, I would be very irritable, and I would do it when I was very irritable. Xun Xun's personality is also stubborn, which is a bit like me. As a result, he was beaten and injured, and I still think he is ignorant .Actually, I'm the one who doesn't understand."
"I always thought that I loved Zhang Xun very much, but later found out that what I loved was the dignity and face I played. Once, Xun Xun showed me an article about juvenile suicide, and I asked him, what do you think? What do you mean? If you can’t survive, then die quickly. I’ll ask your mother for another one. Then, he smashed the plate and wiped his neck. Now that I think about it, I’m scared. He bled so much...I At that time, I swore that as long as he came back to life, I would never scold him again. As a result, after today, I scolded him again in the ward, and then the child jumped off the building. Now that I think about it, I really have a big fate and a big temper. I am the same..." At this point, Wang Guangming actually laughed.
"Parents should be the ones who give children warmth and protection. Don't laugh, the first time I understand this is when I found out that You Yi knew that You Yi was using him to jump into the fire pit without looking back. Only then did I realize that when he was hurt, he never thought of me, neither asked me for help, nor expected anything from me, maybe in his world, nothing could be worse than me."
"Every time I think about the things that have happened in these years, I am afraid. Jumping from a building, a car accident, and the nose last time, each of which can kill me. After the fear, I also regret it. All things are caused by me. Woke up. I'm the source of his unhappiness, and I don't understand why I can't control it."
Having said that, Wang Guang wiped his eyes.The tears of the crocodile, or the tears of guilt, Xiao Liu was a little unclear, but just watched coldly.
"In the past few years, I have been trying to understand Yan. He likes dancing, so I go to see ballet. He likes to write, and I also buy his novels. He writes very well. Many stories, if it is not Yan If it is written and made into a movie or TV series, it will become a credit and fame that no one knows about.”
"I don't quite understand why I'm not satisfied when I'm so good? Is it just because he's not the same as the child I want?"
"Our second child, I don't have any requirements. It's completely different from the requirement to be the best in everything. As long as you don't learn bad things, it doesn't matter if you can't study or do sports. The result is that the second child is silly every day. , Seeing him happy makes me happy too, it doesn't matter what other people think or my own face."
"Others say that my character has been tempered by 凙凙. In fact, I understand that I projected my guilt towards 凙凙 on my second child."
"As the second child grew up, I also thought about repairing the relationship with Xun Xun, and began to feel embarrassed to apologize. And when I thought I could apologize to Xun Xun, I suddenly discovered that the hurts in the past were not a simple sentence. If I'm sorry, it can be erased, and he doesn't need me to make up for anything...but what he wants, a complete home, a warm childhood, is to make up for the fabric..."
"I looked back at the photo album, only to find that Xun Xun didn't smile much since she was a child, and when she was about 10 years old, Xun Xun refused to take photos with me anymore."
Speaking of this, Wang Guangming raised his head and looked at Xiao Liu: "When I'm with you, I will laugh, and it's a smile from the bottom of my heart. But I don't worry about you. You Yi found a substitute, as long as he is happy, that's fine. But when I know that you are really You Changhong's son, I feel uneasy, very uneasy, I don't know why you exist."
"So you went for a paternity test and gave it to Xiao Wang."
"Yes, I need to make him aware of the possibility."
"I won't hurt him."
"Before you do it, who knows if it will happen."
"So, you just tried your best to separate us and find someone to watch me?" Thinking about it now, starting from the fifth grade, Xiao Liu and Xiao Wang were always separated by the school, and Jin Chuyi was always by his side. There are other reasons.
"I can't bear such a short separation, how could it be serious."
"Then I have passed the examination now?"
"Forget it..." Wang Guangming looked at the ceiling and said weakly.
"Actually, it's because the person who monitored me died..." When it comes to Jin Chuyi, it's not hard for Xiao Liu to understand why he helped Wang Guangming. Their thoughts, in a sense, coincide with each other.
"That's part of the reason. But I want you to believe that I'm really just doing it for..."
"It's just that the method is wrong?" Facing Xiao Liu's rush to answer, Wang Guangming's face twitched.
Ridiculous, very ridiculous, a father who has made a mess of other people's lives and has a good reason, is more than hateful and pitiful.
"The visiting time is over, and the family members are ready to go out." The nurse's voice came.
Xiao Liu, who was about to leave, suddenly heard a sentence: "Xiao Liu, this year's Chinese New Year, you and Xing Xun should come home."
Nodding his head, he didn't answer directly.Xiao Liu didn't understand Wang Guangming's compromise.