Shen Nian

Chapter 9 Chapter 9

○memory

I walked in a patch of snow, the vast expanse of white snow, the incomparably coldness between the world and the earth.I saw a lonely bench in the distance, and a person lay vaguely on the bench.

I didn't know where I was going, I just thought maybe the bench could be the home, so I staggered towards it, the snow was so deep that it didn't reach the crook of my legs, and I needed a big breath every time I took a step.

I feel like I've been walking for ages, but the bench has been going so far, I'm dying, I thought desperately.

"Do you still want to go? Do you know that there is a dead end?" Li Yu suddenly stood in front of me. She was standing on the surface of the snow, and she was very neatly dressed. I remember the scarf she was wearing was from when she got married. , Red and red, lost its original festive feeling in the snow.

"Mom." I called her in a little panic, "Can you take me to the bench? Mom, Mom! I'm going there, but I can't walk over there. Please help me, help me." I pointed at the bench begging her.

She cried, the tears flowed, quickly froze, fell into the snow and disappeared, and then the bench appeared next to us.

I smiled, the person on the bench was Jiang Yufei, her eyes were wide open, she looked at me with a smile, showing two small canine teeth, motionless.

"She died." Li Yu said, unable to hear sadness or joy.

Suddenly the scene suddenly changed, I was just watching, and another me appeared in front of me.She sat quietly opposite a doctor, opening and closing her mouth to answer the doctor's questions, but I couldn't hear anything.

"Enough, don't you bother me?" Then her voice suddenly appeared, she waved and dropped the water glass in front of her, and then looked coldly at the middle-aged man opposite.

I saw Luo Yijie and Li Yu running into the consultation room, and the voice disappeared again.The me in front of me was taken back to the hotel where I was temporarily staying, Luo Yijie was sitting on the sofa, Li Yu was holding my hand with tears all over his face.

Everything in the picture turned to the scene of their divorce. It was very peaceful, as if years of entanglement disappeared at the moment of signing.

Then the screen cut to the hospital where Chen An was. Chen An looked at me with his fingers crossed, and asked a question that I hated so much, and I answered it seriously.

The picture turned again, and I saw two entangled white bodies. I was 15 years old at the time, standing at the door in panic, and then left quickly.

I had a dream, a flustered and lengthy dream, when I opened my eyes, Tao Zi looked at me innocently.My heart was beating violently, as if my heart would burst out in the next second.

"Your mother said you just fell asleep in the morning, let me watch you, she went to do something." The fugitive reacted instantly, then turned around and poured water and said.

"You." As soon as he opened his mouth, he found that his voice was hoarse, and he coughed unbearably.

Taozi got me back up first, then put the pillow on my back, and took the water into my hand, "You'd better drink some water first, your mother asked you for leave, take a good rest."

"What about you?" I returned the water glass to him.

He gave me a look you know, and then turned around behind me to help me get up. I waved my hand and said no, then got up, but fell back down again after feeling weak all over.

"Are you having nightmares?" Peaches asked me at the breakfast table.In fact, it was breakfast, and it was already eleven o'clock. The breakfast was prepared by Li Yu in advance, and then simply heated up in the microwave.

"Really." I squeezed the milk glass in my hand and said sullenly.Is it a nightmare?Except for the first clip, everything else is my memory!Seeing his own face in the mirror while washing, it is not difficult to explain the innocence of Taozi's face at all, he must be thinking 'Why are you crying, I didn't do anything. '

I remembered that when I was 15 years old, I began to accept the fact that Luo Yijie was cheating, and I had to pretend that I didn't know anything, and I had to hold back my anger amidst his pretended concern for Li Yu.I thought that as long as none of us talked, life would go on as before.I remembered the horror I had when I first discovered I was different, scratching and scratching like a pussy cat.Later, I finally calmed down, and wanted to say that maybe if I didn’t say it, that girl was still my only friend in the eyes of others, and a special existence in my heart.I remembered the quarrel between Li Yu and Luo Yijie, in the room separated by a wall, the voice was suppressed.I remembered that one day I made tea for Luo Yijie when Luo Yijie was about to break his power and break the harmony, and confessed my sexuality.I think of them taking me to the doctor, and each time I ended up knocking over things, and finally after I threw one of Roger's watches into the water, he went mad.At that time, I was thinking, why is such a precious and precious thing not waterproof?I thought of Jiang Yufei saying that she was very happy to meet me, she smiled brightly, showing her cute little canine teeth.I remembered that they were divorced, and I told Li Yu not to worry, I will receive treatment and go to school well, and I will definitely become a "normal person".So after we moved out of Luo Yijie's house, Li Yu saved the property we shared, and said he would pay me for a doctor and school, and then we rented an apartment and a storefront.

You see, you have experienced so much along the way, but you are still so immature, which still makes them worry.

Am I bad?